phil-99's Diary
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(I Apologise for the size of this diary, but I'm trying to keep all my diary
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instead of archiving it off and making life difficult.)
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Well
This is it then, my first diary entry on Mono. This is a second diary of mine,
secondary to the one I have at http://www.bigfoot.com/~phil_sumner/ ... so
because of this, I think it'll be likely that this doesn't get updated as
frequently as that will - that one is the one that I think is more important.
I'm Phil Sumner, 20yrs old, currently living in Manchester, UK. I'm studying
for a BEng in Software Engineering for some dumb reason at UMIST, and in
general enjoying things. I work 4 nights a week at Harry's bar (UMIST Student
Association bar) and the Grot Bar (Grosvenor Place bar) which is stressing me
out no end, but also keeping me sane.
I spend a lot of my time online. I have a fairly strong prescence in a forum
called ChatGames, (http://www.chatGames.com), and I must admit, most of my
closest friends I know from online... I also spend alot of time abroad (well,
relatively, for a poor student <s>) staying with friends I know from online.
For example, this Christmas I am going to stay with a really good friend of
mine, Kate... and her family. Will be wonderful ;)
Right, now you are all completely bored - I shall leave for my 10am lecture (is
now 10:03) and see you all, later.
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Dec 6 10:11:43 1999 GMT ]--
From: I dreamed you had left my side (phil-99)
Subject: Well maybe not - I'm still sat here 10 minutes later :)
I just can't seem to gather up the enthusiasm I need to move my butt,
after all - it's only Database Theory with a guy who does nothing but
read through the notes in an italian accent :)
OK - try again, I am gone (for real - HONEST!)
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Dec 6 18:33:30 1999 GMT ]--
From: I dreamed you had left my side (phil-99)
Subject: *sigh*
Why do I insist on talking to Kate (long distance girlfriend of the
last 5 months who I broke up with this last week) so much *after* we
split up? OK it's not all my fault, she's just too wonderful to
ignore :)
Today was an OK day - up until around 4pm. Woke up at 7, turned off
my alarm and went back to sleep, and then woke at 9:30 for a 10am
lecture, even thought it's a half-hour bus ride in, so decided not to
bother trying to make it for that one. Went in fro my 11am lecture
and only stayed for the 1st hour of it as the guy insists on purely
reading through the notes and examples. Went to pub with a friend
from my course - they have some wonderful Christmas ales in there now,
had a pint of Humbug (exactly how I feel about Christmas) and a pint
of Christmas Pudding :-)) Scrum. Only thing was, I felt awful
afterwards, I felt *so* bad, a really bad head.
Came back home, spent a half-hour on the phone with Kate and ages
longer on ICQ and things, then went out and put my new jacket in to be
dry-cleaned after I managed to be sick all over it on Friday night
(long story).
And tonight I'm at work. *fun*. I Truly don't want to go, and I am
seriously thinking about telling them that I am not interested in
working there after Christmas. I am getting really annoyed with the
work and the kind of schedule I am having to keep to with 4 nights of
work every week.
Time for me to go, *sigh* Have fun :)
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Dec 7 01:38:45 1999 GMT ]--
From: I dreamed you had left my side (phil-99)
Subject: Work, and other stuff
Well after being so damn against going to work tonight, I actually had
a really nice night. It wasn't as busy as normal on a Monday - and
the usual 10:45 rush didn't materialise, meaning we could get alot of
the clearing up done early. I also spent alot of the evening
discussing whether or not I should quit the work after Christmas. I
know that two or three of the other staff will be, I just can't cope
with mainly the travelling in and out of Uni 2 or 3 times a day, but
also having no sex life or social life - the perils of long distance
relationships, pleh.
0130. And I have to be up at 7. erkerkerk. And I missed the one
important lecture I *wanted* to go to this morning. The guy was going
through a piece of coursework he gave us, and I MISSED it, damnit. I
*hate* living so far out, I hate having to work till midnight and not
getting to bed till 2am most nights.
</rant>
If there's one thing I don't want this diary to be, it's a rant file.
I don't want to spend all my time here moaning. Just u2u me and shout
at me if I do :) I just seem to remember the bad things about my days
when I start writing...
Night.
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Dec 7 16:13:27 1999 GMT ]--
From: I dreamed you had left my side (phil-99)
Subject: Well I was still up at 6am today
And then went to bed and got up again at 12midday, having missed all
my lectures :-( I was so mad at myself.
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Dec 7 17:54:01 1999 GMT ]--
From: I dreamed you had left my side (phil-99)
Subject: I used to be so good...
At going to lectures and attending labs and the like, but I have
started suffering from a huge dose of student apathy right now. I
think it's me being ill (well, I have a nasty cough if that counts)
but I think the root cause of all that is pissing me off is work. 4/5
nights a week of midnight finishes and 2-3am bedtimes. If I can stop
that routine I'm hoping that I can get my sleep back into line :)
Didn't help that Kate was online for a few hours last night, somwhere
around 2-3am, and we sat and chatted, and I sat here and ended up
bawling, telling her everything that was going through my head.
It's so not like me to do that kind of thing, she just seems to bring
out emotion in me like nobody else has maneged.
Well today has been overall not as bad as it promised to be. I
chatted with a couple of my Australian friends. One of these is a
very very weird relationship we have.... I don't remember why, but a
couple of months ago, she ICQed me and we got to talking about how she
was feeling so shitty about herself, and we talked for a few hours. I
barely knew the lass, but the next day I was on a right downer and we
sat and talked again, about everything. It's so weird.
Ummm, I went to pick up my Jacket from the Dry Cleaners today. The
one that I bought on Friday (UKP#60) and promptly puked up on Friday
night due to excessive alcohol consumption on an empty stomach. Nice.
Posted my home keys back to my parents, as we're moving house. It's
only around the corner but the house we are in right now is so
innapropriate for us. Way too small for a start! Then went shopping
and came home desperately trying not to fall asleep :)
Bloody hell - I am writing a hell of a lot in these diaries. Hope I
can keep it up :)
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Dec 9 02:02:56 1999 GMT ]--
From: I dreamed you had left my side (phil-99)
Subject: It's wednesday :)
It's 2am
And I'm *still* awake :-(
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Dec 9 02:10:25 1999 GMT ]--
From: I dreamed you had left my side (phil-99)
Subject: but it's worth it :-)
If I could help Alexis find some decent music :-)))
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Dec 10 10:52:28 1999 GMT ]--
From: I dreamed you had left my side (phil-99)
Subject: I *slept*
whoohoooooooo
Well that was prolly the only good thing that happenned yesterday
though, shame ;-\ Had the promise of being a good day when I woke up
to find a long letter from Kate waiting in my inbox. *dreamy sigh* I
still can't get the thoughts of Kate out of my head even though the
chances of us hooking up again in the future are somewhere around
zero. I just need to find someone else, obviously ;-)
I've been getting steadily more and more annoyed with the group that
I've been working with on a group project now for the past 2 months.
At the start of the project - I *tried* my hardest to get things
going, but nobody was interested. Meetings were missed, work wasn't
done and deadlines were missed. Now - at the end of the project, when
I have given up - they all start to realise that the work needs to be
done. I - on the other hand - have given up. I simply don't care.
So when I got an ICQ message yesterday from one of the group I was
vaguley pissed when I was accused of being a slacker because I hadn't
done any work on the presentation due today.
WELL HOW THE HELL am I supposed to do any work on it when you *always*
decide to meet in the evenings - and you KNOW that I work 4-5 nights a
week, and can't stay past 11pm else I can't get home!!!!
Groupwork, sucks. As far as I care I'm gonna work on my own for the
next 500 yrs :)
Right - time to go and get ready for this presentation methinks. They
all want me to wear a suit, but I don't own a suit so I'm gonna have
to dig out a shirt and prolly go iron it, dangit. I *hate* ironing
shirts, takes me about 15 minutes for every one :-(
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Dec 10 17:06:55 1999 GMT ]--
From: I dreamed you had left my side (phil-99)
Subject: Well I never did iron that shirt
And the presentation went well - it was actually fairly good except
for a couple of things that I would have changed. The questions we
got asked about our system were easy in comparison to what I was
expecting. hmm. So that's Lakeland finished for good!!!!!! WHOHOOO
And I just found out from a Hoser friend that I can take a late train
up to Montreal to see her this holiday, WHOOO!!!!! Set off from
Lancaster, PA at 7:20am and arrive in Montreal after a change at
Philly and St Albans to arrive at 10:55pm. I'm sure I could work out
a quicker route via New York :\
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Dec 11 13:01:04 1999 GMT ]--
From: I dreamed you had left my side (phil-99)
Subject: I'm going to go shopping today
Even though I don't think the bank will give me any *more* money. I
spent UKP#50 last night on 2 cds, one pressie for my dad - the
HitchHiker's Guide to the Galaxy all on CD and one CD I lost when I
was burgled in May, The Very Best of Jazz After Dark - is wonderful.
I'm also working tonight - which is a shame... got an invite from
Caroline (I think? Mirath anyhow) to go out for a curry tonight, I'd
forgotten that it was being organised and that I was going to try and
get time off work. pleh.
Seeing as it is now 1:00pm and I start work at 6:30, and I plan on
being out for a long time, I should move :)
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Dec 11 15:28:26 1999 GMT ]--
From: Like a blackbird on a wire (phil-99)
Subject: ok - I never made it to the trafford centre
I waited at the bus stop for around 30 mins only to find that the bus
was full, then gave up, thinking that every bus going there from here
would be full to the brim. So I went to Woolworth's and bought a CD
instead - The Beautiful South - Blue is the Colour. Wonderful CD, or
maybe I should say - wonderful CD to wallow in :)
My nameline's taking on weirder and weirder lyrics - already changed
it two or three times today, all taken from various songs that mean
stuff to me.
I very nearly bought an old Ricky Martin CD today. I know it's sad
but I really like his music. I bought the one with "She's all I Ever
Had" and "Stay With Me" on, because I remembered just after I'd met
Kate, and we were talking on the phone, she read out the lyrics to
"Stay With Me" down the phone... I ended up crying my eyes out - was
so perfect:
Met you underneath the moon,
Night was over much too soon,
We shared a kiss till daylight came,
And kissed the night goodbye.
When the sun came up that day,
We smiled and went our seperate ways,
But I can't leave the thought of you behind.
<chorus>
Ooooh, you stay with me (you stay with me)
Oooooh, in my heart and on my mind
Ooooooh, Like a melody that keeps haunting me
Oooooh, you stayyyy
</chorus>
I look inside the small cafes,
And hope by chance I'll see your face,
I hear your voice and realise,
It's just the summer wind.
Something in your eyes that night,
Swept away this heart of mine,
And I just want you in my arms again.
[Chorus]
How was I to know in that one night,
That my whole life would change?
From the moment I looked in your eyes,
I've never been the same.
And if I could have one chance to have that moment back again,
I'd never let it end, I'd never let it ennnnnddddd.
[Repeat first verse]
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Dec 11 15:34:52 1999 GMT ]--
From: Like a blackbird on a wire (phil-99)
Subject: *yawn*
I just had the most satisfying stretch - lasted well over a minute and
felt totally refreshed afterwards!
Simple things for simple minds huh?
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Dec 12 00:31:31 1999 GMT ]--
From: Like a blackbird on a wire (phil-99)
Subject: This day I have been mostly....
Listening to Beautiful South
Eating Junk food
Relaxing after getting Lakeland project handed in
Trying not to go to work and failing
Thinking of ways I can quit my job and still have money
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Dec 12 14:12:44 1999 GMT ]--
From: Like a blackbird on a wire (phil-99)
Subject: I'm just about to start copying someone else's coursework word for
word :-(
I would never normally do this - I've been feeling so shit the last few weeks
that I've not been able to do any work of any quality. I just can't do it, I'm
working shitloads at the bar and feeling exhausted most of the week... so if
this is the only way I'm going to get it done, well so be it - but I'm not
happy about it! Normally I really enjoy doing programming, but I just can't
get into this.
Had a wonderful night last night playing around in babble :) Alexis, Saphyre,
Stevo, Banana and I all just sat chatting in babble for what, 3 hours or so?
:) Will do wonders for my spod quotient!!!
And now I'm just procrastinating.
*poof*
Gone
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Dec 12 15:26:24 1999 GMT ]--
From: Like a blackbird on a wire (phil-99)
Subject: An hour and ten minutes to copy *counts* 236 lines of code
OK it's not all copied - in fact it is extensively changed. I
couldn't let my code look like this guy's :) But it works, and now
I'm off to get a celebratory hot chocolate and possibly nip up the
late shop to get some milk so I can have breakfast (3:30pm? lol)
Seeing as I was up till 4:30-5am this morning I'm not ashamed of
sleeping in a *tad*, *laffs*
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Dec 12 20:30:12 1999 GMT ]--
From: Like a blackbird on a wire (phil-99)
Subject: Well I'm now officially pissed
I had a wonderful afternoon's work - even though it took me almost 4
hours to finish something I think I should have done in 2, at leats it
is finished now. So I decided that as I missed brekki after all, I
should go to the chinese and get my fave - Roast Duck with Cashewnuts.
Now - it's pouring down, and I think "let's run part way there". Half
way there - I trip over something and go flying. Splergh. Lucky it
wasn't dirty as I was wearing my brand new clean jacket :)
So I get to the chinese and the lass there says to me as I'm about to
write to my cheque (out of cash <s>) "is your hand allright?" Look
down to find a nice big gash on the ball of my hand... and now I've
seen it it hurts like *hell*
</moan>
But the chinese was good anyhow :)
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Dec 13 00:06:43 1999 GMT ]--
From: They call him - The jackal (phil-99)
Subject: I just sat and read through prolly half of Alexis' diary :)
That's the kind of exciting stuff I have to do at the moment. Well I
have one piece of coursework completed - one 90% done for tommorrow
that I don't have the q sheet for anymore and one due in for Thurs
that can be done tommorrow in labs :)
So I should be in bed.
Yeah Right!
If you know me, you know I don't sleep
Well - I do, but not in UK time, I sleep US time :)
Something that Alexis said in her diary that I felt a particular
"ring" with was something on relationships. Paraphrasing of course,
she said that she'd been in a relationship with someone where she'd
felt safe, protected and loved - and this was what she wanted from any
relationship... now I admit, I'm not experienced at this relationships
lark in any way (10 yrs at bording school kinda messed that up) but my
one *serious* girlfriend made me feel exactly the same way. I felt
wanted, I felt happy to say "she's my girlfriend", "I'm her boyfriend"
and stuff... since we've split up, this has all gone - even though we
talk and I believe that we both feel the same - it's just not there.
Maybe it's the words that make me feel the way I did. The words
"boyfriend" and "girlfriend" carry so much weight. Or maybe - maybe I
was chasing after a dream that could never come to reality.
Either way - I miss it. I miss the feleings of direction and purpose
that I had. I miss the "knowing what I was going to be doing in 2
years time" feeling. Not that I have no direction now but they've got
to be re-discovered. I'm finding now more than ever that I need
something to aim for. I've always just bumbled through before,
knowing that whatever happenned - happenned. But now I just can't
seem to do that, I want to know what I want to be doing next week,
next month, next year.
This is very deep for me - and I don't think I used a single smiley
yet, have I? Oh OK, not in the serious bit! (I overuse them
something rotten) Hmm, nice to have somewhere to sound off where you
can come back and read in the future though.
*snores*
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Dec 13 08:13:52 1999 GMT ]--
From: They call him - The jackal (phil-99)
Subject: whoohooooo
I'm proud of myself - I woke up at 7:45 - 30 minutes before I set my
alarm!!! This never happens *smile* I got a phone call from someone
on my course who I asked to call me and he said that he would give me
a photocopy of the question sheet for this databases work and
everything is going well for now :))
Must remember to go in today and submit my programming work to Ceilidh
else I will get zero... must remember!!!
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Dec 13 18:53:47 1999 GMT ]--
From: Only love can break your heart (phil-99)
Subject: Well I'm off to work in 20 minutes or so :-\ I've decided against
quitting now... I was so set to quit out after Christmas and to get some time
to myself, but I can't do it - the money is *too* nice! I am spending more
than I make at present, if I quit my job I'll have to cut right back on
everything, and I don't want to do that :(
What I *am* going to do however - is come back after Christmas and ask in the
pubs and clubs around the local area if they need any extra staff - as my main
complaint about working in Manchester itself is the journey in and out two or
sometimes three times a day. If I can get work closer to, I'll be happy to
quit - even if the working conditions will doubtless not be as much fun as they
are working at the Student Association bar - it has to better for my sanity to
be able to get away from Uni some more.
I tidied up my room last night so I can now actually find some clothes when I
need them *smile* I do this periodically - tidy up and then realise that I
can't leave it this tidy for long! Doesn't stay this way for too long.
Oh - and I installed a Zip Drive today! So I can now backup all my important
stuff which I am very happy about. I was so mad when I lost everything when my
Hard drive died, Not work or anything, but all the pictures and emails and
text files and newsgroup records that went down the pan. My ICQ list of almost
100 people went too, as did my address book which was admittedly, stupidly huge
:) Not that I ever talked to / wrote to half the people on these lists - it's
the fact that I had them and then lost them.
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Dec 13 19:00:02 1999 GMT ]--
From: Only love can break your heart (phil-99)
Subject: Went into uni today for a 10am lecture which I then decided would be
time better spent doing my programming work, seeing as it had to be submitted
today anyhow! Got an A for that submission (thanks Ian and Dan) which made me
happy :)
It's a good job I decided to talk to someone else on my course a bit after that
really. We had a lecture on Weds last week for Database Theory, where the
lecturer told us "This is your last lecture" (I am 100% certain he said that),
so this guy said to me "you know we've got a test today right?"
uhhhh?
He didn't tell *me* this... ok I admit, on Weds I only stayed for the 1st half
of a two hour lecture but he said in NO uncertain terms that that was the LAST
lecture. What if I hadn't turned up??????? There is no way in hell that I am
not going to complain about this to the course tutor - and I am going to
encourage other people to as well, if at all possible... I was so angry. And
the test was bloody hard!!!! If I'd have known, I'd at least have taken my
notes in with me!!!!! *grrrr*
ok - calm - deep breaths... out with anger, in with calm ;-)
Time to move to work... don't wanna gooooooo
Someone go for me, please?
Gits :-P
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Dec 14 01:01:08 1999 GMT ]--
From: Only love can break your heart (phil-99)
Subject: Back from work
It was *manic*
The world and it's wife were there tonight - barely stopped from
8pm->11:00pm, and then it took us a good 50 minutes to clear up when
we're normally done by 11:30 :(
*sigh*
It was fun though :) We've got a tombola thingie going on - pick out
raffle tickets for a pound, and odd numbers win a prize. Some people
spent UKP#20 on that tonight!!!!! Was fun watching some of them going
for it and really trying to win :)
*sigh*
I promised myself I would eb in bed in 1 minute's time
Not going to happen.
And I need to be in for 9am tommorrow.
And I feel so down
Gotta be happy though - s'only 6 days and 10 hours now until I leave
from Glasgow airport!!!!!! *struggles to control breathing* 5 long
months between seeing Kate last and now :)
Right
Bed
Now
Seey'all
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Dec 14 11:59:35 1999 GMT ]--
From: If I could turn back time (phil-99)
Subject: *yawn*
*stretch*
I hate mornings
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Dec 14 12:02:30 1999 GMT ]--
From: If I could turn back time (phil-99)
Subject: Excuse me while I get all cutesie :)
5 Days and 22 hours 'till I can hold Kate's hand, touch her face, run
my hands through her hair and the whole kaboodle. I'm gonna explode
soon, I *know* I am, trying not to go crazy as I have coursework to be
in by Thursday morning!!!
I love you Kate (in case she ever reads this *smile*)
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Dec 14 13:57:41 1999 GMT ]--
From: If I could turn back time (phil-99)
Subject: I'm sat in the labs at uni now - and I've got all the code that I
pinched from various other people all compiled, but nobody is sure what exactly
the right number is that should be output :) So I'm taking the high moral
ground and saying that well - just because yours all says that doesn't mean you
are right!! Well, that's what I'm praying for :)))
OK - that's VM done with... Virtual Memory sucks *smile* On to *tadahhhhhh*
Simulation of Digital Circuits. hmmmmhm. Luverly. RIght, is it time to go
get another drink before I start? I think so.
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Dec 15 03:52:19 1999 GMT ]--
From: If I could turn back time (phil-99)
Subject: hmmmmmmmmmm
It's now 3:45am.
I'm fully clothed, fully awake and not tired in the slightest. I have
tried programming but my brain's not in the mood. I have given up
trying to figure out what points to what and what letters should be
capitalised and to remember a semicolon at the end of every statement.
ARRGGHH
And I was just really worried - not for a bad reason really - I read
something somewhere about someone that made me think, and I just *had*
to ask them about it. Not something like like "how old are you", but
"are you gay" <s> This to someone I've only ever spoken to 2 or 3
times before - but then again - that's just like me :) If I want to
know I'll ask, eventually *s* Just need enough time to pluck up the
courage!
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Dec 15 04:42:56 1999 GMT ]--
From: If I could turn back time (phil-99)
Subject: I bought a book from a cheapo bookstore the other day called F2F, by
someone called Phillip Finch. I'm now on page 50 odd and I only started it on
the bus on the way home (with all the 13yr old kids smoking on the top deck,
ugh - only good thing is that it reminds me why I quit).
It's about - oh lemme copy the blurb...
A new kind of predator is stalking on the internet, looking for more than an
exchange of online intimacies...
A WARNING*
Your life is in jeopardy. As you read this, you are within reach of a
murderer.
SNOWFLAKE is a psycopathic genius who has found a way of accessing personal
details of other net surfers - of getting face to face without their consent.
The BBS has become a lethal weapon.
But when SNOWFLAKE locks onto Kate Lavin he also pitches up against her
ex-husband Ellis Hoile, the only man capable of tracking him through
cyberspace. The game is to get Kate - to get out of the labyrinth before the
killer strikes - and it means playing the final round F2F.
Sonds thrilling - but also sounds like about every other net novel I have
read/seen on the shelves over the last 3-4 yrs. There are *NO* books out there
that I have seen, that portray the internet as a good thing! Nothing, nada!
Even in the newspapers - the big stories involving the net will be bad:
"Killer stalked victim on net for 3 yrs", "Kids meet on internet and run across
state lines to meet", "Teens learnt how to make bombs online" and shit like
that. When will authors and journalists get it into their heads - THE INTERNET
IS NOT ALL FULL OF WEIRDOS, RAPISTS AND KILLERS.
But then again - why am I writing this here? On the internet? Where none of
these people will ever see it? :-\
But overall - it seems like a good book <smile>
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Dec 15 07:02:51 1999 GMT ]--
From: 78 Stone Wobble (phil-99)
Subject: It's 7am!
You've had continuous coverage on this station of my night... and how
deathly dull it has been :-) Nahhh - actually tonight's been OK -
spent alot of time talking to various peeps and got a fair bit of work
done and read plenty of my book :)
Now is about time to go get ready for my day!!!! Whoooo
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Dec 15 09:53:25 1999 GMT ]--
From: 78 Stone Wobble (phil-99)
Subject: A report from last night that I forgot...
As I walked through the stinging cold wind to the bus stop, it felt
like the wet, sloppy attempt at snow that was falling from the grey
and cloudy sky was permeating through my thick moleskin jacket,
through my thick wooly jumper and right into my skin. And it was
disgustingly cold at the same time, making the few hard lumps of hail
that were occasionally being thrown down sting like insect bites.
Standing at the bus stop at Chorlton bus station, waiting. This was
about 6:10 - and according to the timetables (which in themselves are
works of art!) there was no bus due for nearly 20 minutes. How
pathetic. So there's this bloke comes along, starts whining on about
how he's been waiting for a bus now for almost a half-hour, and how
there have been 3 #23 busses to the Trafford Centre (wrong direction)
but none into Manchester itself. This alone I could have coped with -
even though he kept on repeating "for fuck's sake" over and over.
When he started to slag off students, however - I got pissed. He said
"the bus company would never make students wait, no", and all this
crap about Oxford Road being the busiest road in Manchester, where all
the students live. I don't deny he is right - but when I pointed out
to him that I, and 3 other people standing at the bus stop were
students, he looked at me like he was getting ready to explode and
said "and? what's your point?"
Oxford Road is the busiest road in Manchester for one reason alone -
that is where all the people want to go to, and from! People don't
want to get out and in from Chorlton-cum-Hardy as often as they do the
centre of Manchester. But he didn't seem to understand the one simple
point I put to him - profit. The route we were waiting for
haemmorages money - badly... but has to be run.
Maybe I should just refrain from trying to stop people slagging off
students, it's never gonna work :-(
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Dec 15 14:15:54 1999 GMT ]--
From: 78 Stone Wobble (phil-99)
Subject: I want to sit down and cry
This programming crap is bugging hell out of me now - I've been sat,
trying to explain to myself why the code that came straight from
Ceilidh is *refusing* to work, giving Seg Faults.
I'm tired, and I am no way in hell turning up to work tonight. If I
can, I'm going to sleep from about 8pm->7am and try not to miss my bus
tommorrow!
Need to pack tonight
Need to hand in CT205 c/work, need to submit this CRAP tommorrow.
*sigh*
*sniffle*
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Dec 16 08:09:20 1999 GMT ]--
From: 78 Stone Wobble (phil-99)
Subject: Well I stuck to my word and didn't turn up to work, unplugged the
phone and turned off everything that could distract me. I still haven't got
shis program working but it's doing more than it was, which is always a good
sign *s*
I went to bed around 10pm last night, woke up at about 7am this morning and
feel really good for it, I'm about done with packing, so I can go into uni and
attempt to spend the last morning possibly working on this proggie. Then again
- I might not, because I know I'm not going to be able to do much in what, a
coupla hours that will improve it and make it work - so I might just not stress
out any more over it and spend the time making sure I'm all ready for my
holiday.
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Dec 16 12:26:02 1999 GMT ]--
From: 78 Stone Wobble (phil-99)
Subject: whoohooooooooooo
Only an hour and 15 minutes till I go HOME!!!! I'm packed (I think)
up to my eyeballs in stuff, and I'm just about ready to call for a
taxi. Had to go to town this am to go to the bank and beg for more
money, and pick up exam timetable and semester timetable for January.
UGH - it's disgusting... 9am starts EVERY day except Thurs when we
have a 10am start.
It's gonna ruin me. I've found it hard enough this semester, missing
lectures left right and Chelsea because I can't do
mornings!!! If I pass half the exams in January I'll be amazed - let
alone get a decent grade in any of them!!!!
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Dec 16 12:52:03 1999 GMT ]--
From: 78 Stone Wobble (phil-99)
Subject: I'm gone *poof*
Though I don't want to be, I do. I'm sure I'm not ready, sure there
is so much I have forgotten - but it's too late. I have the important
stuff (tickets/passport/driver's licence) and most of my clothes
(dirty mixed with clean? hmmm laundry-tastic) and as many notes for
lectures that I can gather.
See you all soon- if not in the next 3 days - have a good Christmas
and New Year, doing whatever it is you all do!!!
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Dec 17 19:54:03 1999 GMT ]--
From: 78 Stone Wobble (phil-99)
Subject: I'm home!!!
Things have been OK so far... got home around 7pm yesterday and basically sat
down with a kebab and watched TV most of the night :) It was so nice just to
sit and relax. My folks have gone out of town now to a dinner in Aviemore
(IIRC) and I have the house to myself
until tommorrow afternoon. I'm ]CRreally]CA beginning to worry now about the
exams in January. I *know* I am not going to have much time to revise and I
know very little about what we have done this term - due to the fact that I am
not a morning person, and we have had all morning lectures :(
I'm also beginning to get more than a little scared about the holiday. I think
Scared is the right word to describe what I'm feeling, it's nervousness - but
it's more than that - I think I am mainly really worried that things aren't
going to work out the way i want them to, and I'm going to end up stuck in
Boston or New Jersey for 2 weeks instead of travelling as much as I hoped to :\
Things *will* work outthough - they have to.
As we've only recently moved house at home, the phone wasn't connected to the
computer (my folks don't use the net much) so I've nicked the extension from
the main phone and am using that for the modem (oops). So if anyone calls -
tough luck :) This is much more important!!!
So - I'm mostly packed up, I went out xmas shopping today and spent somewhere
around UKP#120 on stuff, stuff that I can ill afford as well :( But it was so
cute, the little trinket box I got kate (kinda cute, I might have to get a pic
of it <s>) and a Gallileo Thermometer for my dad (he's wanted one for years)
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Dec 25 00:39:27 1999 GMT ]--
From: Happy in Boston (phil-99)
Subject: I'm here, having a weonderful time, cold and dry, having loadsa fun
and doing loadsa stuff, more info coming soon :))
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Dec 27 01:46:52 1999 GMT ]--
From: 78 Stone Wobble (phil-99)
Subject: *sigh* I've left Kate for the last time.
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Dec 27 04:00:14 1999 GMT ]--
From: Surrender to passion (phil-99)
Subject: OK Sorry for that Cryptic remark but they will be this way for a while
Let's just suffice it to say that Kate and I as friends will be
wonderful, but as anything else,my hope lies shattered on the floor.
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Dec 27 18:32:41 1999 GMT ]--
From: Surrender to passion (phil-99)
Subject: I'm sorry - I'm not normally this down - but I can't think of anything
else but how much I want to be back in Boston, lying in bed with Kate, arms
round her and feeling her breath on my skin as we drift off to sleep.
And it's not going to happen any more :-(
*sob*
(and that's not a token sob either, it's real);
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Dec 28 15:34:26 1999 GMT ]--
From: Surrender to passion (phil-99)
Subject: Well I'm *slightly* happier today. I didn't spend all day today
drifting in and out of sleep like I did yesterday. The combination of a week
with Kate, being told that we were over for good on the Saturday night and a
long train journey home took so much out of me. Right now I just want to quit
everything. That includes school :(
I'm seriously considering quitting out of this yr at Uni. Things are not
working out for me, and I don't see the point in hanging around doing sod-all,
being miserable when I could be earning some cash or doing things that I've
always wanted to do. I don't know for sure yet though. I'm quitting my job,
which will take at least half the stress outta life and after that, who knows?
If I feel any better about being there I will stay - otherwise I have nothing
to stay for.
I still miss Kate though.
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Dec 29 14:00:10 1999 GMT ]--
From: Surrender to passion (phil-99)
Subject: Yesterday was spent in New York, mainly shopping :) I went in with
just under $100 and came back with, ummmmm - $2 *smile* This was after buying
3 CDs a CD player and a rather nice new wallet (my old one was literally
falling apart!).
We're going out to tonight to Carmine's (?) in the city for food and drinks and
things... should be interesting <s> I've never met some of the people that
we're going out with so I'll prolly end up being my normal quiet self
with new people unless they're real nice.
I just got an email from Kate. God how I miss her...
Ok, time to move before I start getting all sappy and annoying for y'all again
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Dec 31 04:24:45 1999 GMT ]--
From: I Just Want You In My Arms Again (phil-99)
Subject: Today is Thursday, right?
Well - lemme think. Woke up early, around 8am. Got up, wandered
round in a daze, felt like crap. Went into the city to meet DT and
the folk she works with for drinks and dinner at "Radio Mexico" or
summat like that, really good Mex food under the brooklyn bridge.
ummmm... felt rough, think I'm just tired but it felt awful.
Went on to somewhere opposite the Citibank building, where it costs
$4.50 for a beer, ugh... nice otherwise <s> Got PATH train from
WTC->Newark and missed train to Westfield and had to wait a half-hour.
Spent rest of night in Jolley Trolley/home trying not to fall asleep.
Tommorrow I am going to Times Square. Why? I don't know, but it will
be fun :) Meagan (Kate's sis) and friends are coming down from New
Hampshire so am meeting them at 2pm outside the LIRR ticket offices,
by the Hudson News place :) After that - who knows what will happen
<G>
I would love to write more but a combinaction of stuff has made me
feel rotten. Talked to Kate last night for 45 minutes and it hurt
like hell. I love her, I do I do I do but I just wish there was a way
we could go on into the future - the hardest thing is knowing that we
*can't* be together. That and me being exhausted doesn't help <s>
Night
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Jan 1 08:39:05 2000 GMT ]--
From: I Just Want You In My Arms Again (phil-99)
Subject: I'm alive!!!!!!!!
All these people who thought I would be dead by now were WRONG!
Muhahahaha. Times Square was great. Sooo many people, sooo
much going on and do much noise <s>
Met Meagan on time, met her friends... went to 48th St and made our
way down to 46-47th and Broadway (very slowly) where we stayed and
chatted and someone had a bottle of vodka that they were offering out
but was foul :)
Basically we sis the whole countdown thing and it all went off at
midnight US time and I thought it was all over the top but impressive
anyhow. I'm way too tired to write much more here.
Goodnight. OK maybe not.
I miss Kate
I miss Meagan
How can I miss two sisters who are both as opposite as chalk and
cheese? I mean these two are so different you wouldn't believe they
were sisters, and yet I could quite happily plan a life with either
of them. Am I fucked up for thinking this stuff? <s>
The worst thing is, both of these women had this effect on me in the
same space of time. I met Kate and fell for her in under 3 days -
Meagan has worked her way into my life in the same - what is it with
these two? Is it in the genes or something? <s>
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Jan 1 08:57:39 2000 GMT ]--
From: I Just Want You In My Arms Again (phil-99)
Subject: I must be mad
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Jan 1 20:41:02 2000 GMT ]--
From: I Just Want You In My Arms Again (phil-99)
Subject: Oh - and before you ask - I am NOT Y2K compliant, OK?
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Jan 2 02:09:00 2000 GMT ]--
From: They call him - the cow (phil-99)
Subject: Today.............
Was a non-event. Woke around 10:30 and I have not even stepped
outside. I am tired, I have a headache and I want to be in one of two
places... you can all guess one no doubt (if you can't guess, it's
Virginia Beach) or the other, which is a surprise to me, is to be at
home. I would never normally say this but I am missing the relative
normality of my house :-)
Plus I'm going crazy, trying to decide on what I want to do next
semester. I am VERY seriously considering dropping out, but I
wouldn't know what to do if I did! I could go do some bar job but
that would drive me mental. I could try and find some job where they
would maybe help with training and stuff but I don't think dropping
out of uni would help me in that.
I think though, that dropping the job, which is my main cause for
grief, will make things much better for me. I can't cope with working
nights and having morning lectures - I found that out but never really
noticed it until it was too late. I will miss the money. In fact,
that is my only real source of money. I'll have my loan but after
this holiday - I am currently running almost UKP#200 over my limit yet
again due to some shops and the uni offices that think it is a good
idea to leave it 2 weeks to cash a cheque or put through debit card
transactions :-(
Plus I am still thinking of Kate. I try not to - but there is NOWHERE
else I want to be. I've said it before and I will say it again -
*nobody* and *nothing* has ever made me as happy as I was over the
week we spent together. Even the low points were good. Even the bits
where I thought they could have gone better were wonderful.
I'm a sap, right?
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Jan 3 04:19:22 2000 GMT ]--
From: In Love, Outta Love, In Love again (phil-99)
Subject: I'm now in Lancaster, Pennsylvania
This is going to be an interesting coupla days. It will either be
real quiet or real busy. Stella is a lovely lass and it's been an age
since I saw her last, I'm not sure if she has any plans for the next
coupla days but I definitely need some time just to sit about and do
not much *s* I am exhausted right now!!
I got on the train at a place called Metropark, changed at Philly (the
city of brotherly love and sisterly affection <s>) where I had an hour
and a half to kill. Got an ice-cream and sat... to say this so that
you understand...
When I met Kate in summer, she was leaving here on the Monday, and she
had a 2hr wait in Philly train station. So I said I would go down
there with her and wait with her. It was one of the worst things I
have ever had to experience. I came so close to getting on the train
to VA with her... the 2 hrs we spent, knowing there would be 6 months
until we met again probably did more for our relationship than
anything.
So when I was waiting at Philly the memories just all came back. Had
to call her, so I bought a phonecard and spent nearly 45 minutes on
the phone with her. She's sending me Superstar. It's a teddy that
she has had since she was about 1, and that means *alot* to her. It
has gone everywhere with her for years. And she's sending it to me,
"for the future". Ya see, Steve doesn't want her to keep it, and it
will be one hell of a reminder for me of what she means.
I haven't done it justice here but it means A LOT to her, and
me.
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Jan 4 05:49:00 2000 GMT ]--
From: In Love, Outta Love, In Love again (phil-99)
Subject: I really don't care if I'm going on anymore
This diary is for me - not for anyone else to read, in reality. I
know if I really felt that way *seriously* I could do it as a tect
file somewhere but I do feel that some of this stuff might be of
interest to other people. I have no idea if comments on mono are in
the slightest aimed at me, and frankly I do not care - I just want to
make it clear that this is something for me to look back on in a
month, 2 months, 6 months, 2 years time and realise what a twat I was
:)
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Jan 5 03:01:13 2000 GMT ]--
From: rollercoaster (phil-99)
Subject: Well I was going to edit some more after that last night :-) Got
distracted
I spoke to Ms Kt yesterday. Spent nearly 40 minutes on the phone with her -
and she said to me "I'll shut up, you just talk and say what you need to". I
just talked and talked and talked and she was so good, when I got to saying
stuff that I knew would hurt she just listened and didn't interrupt me once.
We hopefully sorted out lots of stuff. We both know that we're not going to be
together in the near future - too many technicalities in the way. I am
confident that we will be together in the far future though. I worry that I'm
going to pin all my hopes on a future with Kate and abandon all hope of
meeting anyone else - but to be honest, I can cope with that.
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Jan 5 03:04:13 2000 GMT ]--
From: rollercoaster (phil-99)
Subject: Today we went to "Root's", a flea-market type thing nr Lancaster, PA
where you can buy just about anything you could *ever* want :-) I bought fudge
*s* The excitement never ends *s* Also got out some videos, and we watched
Toys and Mrs Doubtfire (latter was on Fox TV). I am off to Montreal tommorrow,
set off 7:15am and get there 10:55pm :-( ugh... but it will *all* be worth it
:)
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Jan 7 20:20:19 2000 GMT ]--
From: my GOD it's cold (phil-99)
Subject: Whee Whee Wheeeeeeeeeeee
It's the land of people with pointy heads and webbed feet. Also the
land where you learn DAMN quick to wrap up in lots of layers else you
are likely to be found in a shivering wreck on the streets a few
minutes after you step outside :-) It's cold... it was snowing but it
stopped that (good thing too!) but apparently it's not as cold as
normal for this time of year. I never want to come back then, if it
gets colder!!!!
The train ride up here was OK, nothing mega exciting but it wasn't
half as boring as I'd expected it to be. The last hour and a half
seemed to drag on for hours but after travelling a fair bit now I'm
getting well practiced in making hours seem like minutes :) It did
help that I bought a book at Philly train station and finished it off
on the train (I think it was about 450 pages <s>) before we were 3/4
the way there :)
Got to Montreal train station - only to realise that I didn't actually
have any Canadian dollars - not a good thing... so I persuaded a cabby
to let me pay him the US dollar amount for the cab ride, giving him a
nice 150% the amount he shoulda got. pah. Spent yesterday pretty
much bumming round, trying to get used to the damn cold :) Today I
went into Montreal, a daunting ride on two subway trains and one bus
:-)) (each way!!!) I spent a fortune in HMV (ummm, CA$80!) but that
was only UKP40 (well prolly more like UKP#35) for 3 CDs, one of which
was a rare double :-) Yipeeeee!
I'm looking for a book. I'm looking for a book called "The Q Letters"
by a guy called John Sir. Kate told me that I had to get it and read
it and I'd understand some stuff... she's good at this :) When I
first met her and got to know her she got me to buy a copy of "The
Story of O", which I devoured in a matter of hours... and you know, in
some bizzarre way it did help me understand some of why Kate does what
she does and how things work inside her head. After we broke up,
(thanks Steve, you brought it to a head without even realising it,
unless of course you did realise it and were trying to do that) she's
been saying some stuff that worries me about her relationship with
Steve and I really really feel bad for being so cold about it - but I
can't be nice to this guy after all the shit that's been slung round
by him about me, when all I've ever been is civil to him.
This *does* make sense, that last paragraph. Mostly, anyhow :) The
whole relationship that Kate and I have, and she and Steve have is a
strange situation, but well - normal would be no fun :)
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Jan 12 11:03:39 2000 GMT ]--
From: (no I'm NOT Y2k compliant, OK?) (phil-99)
Subject: England sucks
I wanna be back in the US now :(
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Jan 12 22:51:09 2000 GMT ]--
From: (no I'm NOT Y2k compliant, OK?) (phil-99)
Subject: Oh - and my body now is so screwed up, it has no idea what the time is
:-( Doesn't help with me eating all the flight home and sleeping about a half
hour each time I managed to drift off... lucky I had a 4 seat row to myself I
guess :)
But 5hrs at Dublin airport is taking the mickey - all I remember is lying down
and praying I wouldn't sleep through the one and only flight they do a day to
Glasgow :) ugh.
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Jan 13 20:03:05 2000 GMT ]--
From: (no I'm NOT Y2k compliant, OK?) (phil-99)
Subject: Right - now I am *pissed*
My mum took it upon herself to book me a dentist's appointment for
Friday afternoon - the very same day I was planning on going to
Manchester so I could get back into the swing of things before uni
starts again on the Monday. And she neglects to tell me this until
Thursday evening - too late to cancel now. ARRRRGGGHHH.
On a good note... I gave a jumper of mine to Kate - one from M&S that
I got for free, read back a bit - you'll find it :) I loved it and
regretted giving it to her so I went looking for another one, and lo -
I found one at half price!!!!! WHEEEEEEEE!!!! So I was happy about
that :)
It has dawned on me again that the chances of me passing this year are
looking increasingly slim with every single passing day. Having
missed probably half of my lectures due to work and sleep patterns
conflicting and not having enough time to actually do any catch up
work (never mind not wanting to because I was permanently knackered),
I looked through some of the notes I have and realised - I know
shit-all of the new stuff that has been introduced. I can *maybe*
scrape a 40% mark in some of the subjects (Computer Architecture,
Software Analysis and Design) due to prior experience and bullshitting
skills *smile* but the rest - no chance.
I'm trying to get this through to my parents but I can't seem to find
the right way to explain to them that I want out right now - that I
feel going back will be a waste of time. So I'm going to end up going
back and *trying* to get myself sorted this semester, and doing resits
in August... if I can't do that, I'm going to quit out and try to find
work either Manchester/Glasgow, and try again next year.
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Jan 14 14:37:32 2000 GMT ]--
From: ily (phil-99)
Subject: 2:40pm....
Dentist in a coupla hours, haircut needed, but can I be bothered? No.
All I wanna do is *sleep*. Hell I sat watching Flat Green Bowling
earlier, does that tell you how bored and unmotivated I am right now??
I had a longlong talk with Kate last night, and we talked about some
wonderful things, and some not-so-wonderful things :-\ I worry so
much about her, and how she's going and that she's not going to be
hurt too much with everything that goes on and all... but anyhow...
she said to me that she wanted me to do well at Uni, I'm like - well
so do I - and we sat and talked about it, and I think that she helped
me calm down about the whole thing alot... I mean I know now that
there is a chance of passing with relatively decent marks, as
compared to what I was preparing for. All it needs is work, and that
work shall commence tommorrow (I can't do it now, feel too shitty!)
when I get back to uni. All Ineed is a solid 40% in this semester's
exams and I'll be fine for next semester... can't be *that* hard - can
it?
Oh - and Kate is now only going to be committed for 2 yrs, instead of
the 4 she originally thought - which is a good thing (tm) :-)
Hopefully, just hopefully *s*
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Jan 14 20:01:51 2000 GMT ]--
From: ily (phil-99)
Subject: Well the dentist never happenned - I fell asleep acidentally on
purpose, I really didn't want to have to leave the house again :) I
feel rotten, just want to sleep...
Dad's got this HORRIBLE posturepedic chair, the one where you end up
half-kneeling? And it's driving me batty as the only other chair
about is an old confy leather thing you can't use at the computer!
So I am going back to uni tommorrow... I told my parents I was
quitting my job, they both seemed happy enough when I explained to
them why... I haven't yet said anything about the results I'm
expecting but maybe that's because I am a *little* more hopeful than I
was yesterday :) I *really* want to call Kate and talk right now but
she'll be at work and I don't like interrupting her while she's at
work, and I know I'd only end up getting all "sigh" and "groan" and "I
miss you"y, and I'm bad enough as it is so I'm not gonna call her
right now.
I'm going to resurrect my webpage... I took it down because too much
stuff was happening that I could get both Kate and Myself into
trouble with if I put it up - so I decided the easiest way was to try
and stop it. I think I'll prolly just end up copy/pasting my diary
from here to there now, instead of just writing two seperate ones - is
so much easier!
Now I'm off to drink coke and sleep!
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Jan 15 21:00:24 2000 GMT ]--
From: S Club 7???? (phil-99)
Subject: back to work
So what do I do? Do I work, spod, play, or possibly go out and see if
the Pav bar is open? Never mind the fact I only have GBP#3.50 left
after having to spend 6.50 on a taxi back here from the bus station,
ugh.
I should unpack - but 1st I have to figure out why my zip drive is
refusing to work :) Hey - important stuff first!!!!!
Also food is becoming quite an important thought, am starving... see
what I left in the freezer :) Hopefully I didn't leave anything in
the fridge!!!!
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Jan 16 02:25:38 2000 GMT ]--
From: let me sleep damnit (phil-99)
Subject:
========= Ricky Martin - She's All I Ever Had ===========
Here I am, broken wings, quiet thoughts, unspoken dreams.
Here I am, alone again, I need her now, to hold my hands,
She's all, she's all I ever had... she's the air I breathe...
she's all.... she's all I ever had.
========= Bryan Adams - Please Forgive Me =========
Still feels like, the first night together,
feels like the first kiss, and it's getting better baby,
no-one can better this.
Still holding on, you're still the one.
First time our eyes met, same feeling I get.
Only feels much stronger, I wanna love you longer.
You still turn the fire on.
So if you're feeling lonely don't.
You're the only one, I ever want.
I only - wanna make it goood.
So if I love you, a little more than I should...
Please forgive me, I know not what I do.
Please forgive me, I can't stop loving you.
Don't deny me, this pain I'm going through.
Please forgive me, if I need you like I do.
Please forgive me, every word I say is true.
Please forgive me, I cant stop loving you.
Still feels like, our best times are together,
feels like the 1st touch, we're still getting closer baby,
can't get close enough.
Still holding on, still number one,
I remember the smell of your skin, I remember everything,
I remember all your moves,
I remember you yeah.
I remember the nights, you know I still do
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Jan 16 13:37:50 2000 GMT ]--
From: Faith Manages (phil-99)
Subject: ugh
I was bored, tired, truly pissed off and most definitely stressed last
night, that is my only excuse for copy/pasting those lyrics.
And I still haven't done any revision :(
Hell I've yet to find out exactly when and where this exam will be on
Monday/Tuesday!!!!
I hate this place so much
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Jan 18 00:07:12 2000 GMT ]--
From: We love lucy (phil-99)
Subject: Monday night
The exam today was good! I did a load of reading through the notes in
the am and the night before, and it paid off!!! Most of the stuff I
read through came up in the exam - which is a good thing :-) It was a
3/5 question paper, and I could answer 2 with no trouble - and 2/3
with some trouble, so I went for the one with 15/20 marks on part A
which I could answer).
I went into Harry's today and told them I wasn't working there any
more... they said "well we didn't think you would be as we couldn't
get hold of you" Well you didn't try very hard then did you,
assholes!!! Not even leaving a message on my answerphone, prats.
I worked tonight... worked in the Pav bar (small bar at Hardy Farm)
which was DEAD (I took 85p, from myself) until 10pm arrived. Was nice
though.
So basically - I've had a good day!!! Wheeeee!!!!!!!!
Right... off to sleepiebyes! Night
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Jan 18 20:59:28 2000 GMT ]--
From: I dreamed you had left my side (phil-99)
Subject: Tuesday - it has passed
And I'm still pissed the loan company aren't giving us any money 'till
the 31st... I KNOW I shoulda checked but you don't do that do you?
You just assume they'll pay it at a sensible time - not 2 weeks after
the start of term :-( Maybe I should just use my Barclaycard to pay
for food until I get my loan through? Certainly an incentive not to
eat too m uch *smile*.
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Jan 19 08:10:38 2000 GMT ]--
From: I dreamed you had left my side (phil-99)
Subject: yayyyy *another* 7:45am rise - except that today I woke up early!
Woke at 7:15 panicking that I was going to miss an exam at 9:30 (duh?)
when I don't *actually* have an exam today anyhow :) I wonder what my
brain thinks it is doing somedays!
Plan for today - work and revise Software Analysis and Design. Write
letter to Kate and send her tape I made of Bryan Adams (The Best of
Me, key songs from it <s>) and "The Very Best of Jazz After Dark"
which is an absolutely WICKED cd, perfect for relaxing, wallowing,
sleeping, working or being all luvved up to :-)
I went down the pav last night around 10pm for one drink... I got
talking with Will Brown (UMIST Student Association President) about
various bits and bobbins, and ended up drinking with him :-) I only
had 3 pints but when I got back here I couldn't seem to slow my body
down enough to sleep - it just wanted to keep going... so somewhere
around 1am I think I eventually slept.
But already this term - I am so much happier than I was at the end of
the last. Combination of no work (not having to worry about being out
of the house 5 minutes after an exam <s>), proper sleep and no
lectures yet *grin* seem to be making me all happy!
Oh yeah - and I'm going to make a list today of "things I need to do
every morning", because I am singularly pathetic at the sort of things
one does in the morning, because my brain just refuses to spin up
properly :-) I normally end up brushing my teeth at around midday or
later *s*
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Jan 19 22:20:05 2000 GMT ]--
From: /dev/umist : course corrupt - retake? (phil-99)
Subject: Shit - this is the 2nd day in a row I've been down the pav and spent
all evening there doing NOTHING. Oh well I know what I know now -
and it's too late to change things really. I'm gonna look at the past
papers *now* and see if there's any nasty surprises that I forgot
about - I'm sure there aren't but you never know :-)
Today in general was good. Got stuff done evenif it was half-day
closing for half the shops round here :-( Well I've got a
hairdresser's appointment for tommorrow afternoon, 4:30pm :-) Proper
hairdresser's, not a barber cut, wheeeeeee!!!!
Considering waiting for Kate to come on later tonight but I need sleep
before my exams else I just end up a 100% zombie. I wrote her a
weird weird mail last night after I came back from the bar slightly
pissed - read it this morning and couldn't figure out *what* I was
trying to say :) lolol.
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Jan 20 15:53:00 2000 GMT ]--
From: /dev/umist : course corrupt - retake? (phil-99)
Subject: Well - all that stressing/non-stressing was pointless... the exam
today was *EASY* - and that's me saying that with my one feeble day's worth of
revision!!!
I'm about to move to go to my hairdresser's appt, but right now I'm sat
watching Flat green bowling - *oh* the excitement!!!!!!! Hrmph... and I'm
gonna miss 15-1 because of the appt, wahhhhh :-)
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Jan 20 15:59:54 2000 GMT ]--
From: /dev/umist : course corrupt - retake? (phil-99)
Subject: bowls is SOOOOOOOO boring
*yawn*
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Jan 21 09:09:46 2000 GMT ]--
From: /dev/umist : course corrupt - retake? (phil-99)
Subject: So I got my hair cut... I was a little pissed actually, because I
expected the hairdresser to at least show some interest and suggest
something when I said "I don't know what I want done with it"... even
if she'd have said "short back and sides" I wouldn't have complained!
OK I admit it is a better cut than I would normally get but I begrudge
paying #7.25 for a cut when I could have saved #2 and gone to the
barber's and had someone friendly do it.
Also went down the Pav again last night... this is becoming a bad
habit <s> Lucky I ran out of money after pint #2 though :-) So I
came back here, watched TV and played online for a while, then went to
bed and slept a good night's sleep yet again... I am so proud of
myself for managing to change my sleep pattern like this :) I thought
that I was stuck with being a night person forever but maybe, just
maybe I can make this stick!
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Jan 21 19:06:08 2000 GMT ]--
From: I dreamed you had left my side (phil-99)
Subject: Ummmmmmm no comment really...
Nothing happenned... I posted a coupla parcels (Win 98 Second Edition
release candidate 2 - my dad only has RC1 and it is expiring soon, and
a tape and letter to Kate :-> ) Then spent the rest of my day doing
very little... tried to do some revision but Formal Spec is so damn
impossible to revise for, when you don't have a clue about the
terminology.
Oh - and I did my laundry ;) And cooked for tommorrow, and ate last
night's leftovers *s* See, I lead an exciting life!!!! *yawn*
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Jan 22 16:42:16 2000 GMT ]--
From: I dreamed you had left my side (phil-99)
Subject: Tonight tonight tonight.... Well let's go to last night :)
Went to bar about 8pm, stayed until 9:30 and had a few drinks, then
went and called Kate at work... was very nice to talk again - I can't
believe how much I enjoy chatting with her even now :) Then went back
to the bar again, and drank orange juice for the rest of the night. I
didn't go to bed until 2:30am as I sat up talking with Saphyre and
Meagan for a while... when I woke up at 10:30, I felt like I had the
hangover from hell even after drinking orange juice for an hour!!
Today I bought a nice rump-steak, and marinated it in Soy sauce and
stuff, mainly because I had very little else to do it in *s* Only
problem was, I put it in the oven and forgot about it, when I
remembered, it was just a little tough... not *extremely* so but more
than I wanted :-( Oh well it was nice anyhow!
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Jan 23 00:00:51 2000 GMT ]--
From: I dreamed you had left my side (phil-99)
Subject: I'm deliriously happy now :-) I just spoke to Kate for a while *s* I
cannot believe how much I enjoy the sound of her voice on the other
end of the phone... it's ridiculous really :-)
I worked tonight at the Hardy Farm bar, it was busy till about 9pm
because there was a pre-club-drinking session and after that it was
dead, so I was out by 11:20 :-) As soon as I got back I got on the
phone...
There's shitloads I want to write but I just can't right now, my brain
has gone and shut down on me *smile* About to go to bed...
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Jan 23 09:59:09 2000 GMT ]--
From: I dreamed you had left my side (phil-99)
Subject: Wake up at 9:15, wait for alarm at 9:25 then think "oh, I wonder how
many bells I can claim on Tumbleweed". I am saaaaaddddd. Oh, and I
still made an invalid claim due to my inability to hit the "Z" key
properly :)
I was talking to a lass from Hardy Farm last night while I was at
work, someone I have had a minor thing for, for a while now... she's
far from gorgeous but she is nice and I could quite fancy spending
more time with her :) Problem is... she's on a nursing course, and
therefore works all the wonderful and weird hours of the day... so if
I ever want to do anything with her it has to be booked 6 months in
advance <s> I've tried in the past but never managed to get things
together for long. But then again - I'm not exactly desperate :-)
ALso thinking about the conversation with Kate last night... I'm not
sure if it's just me being paranoid or whatever, but to me, it seems
that the conversations we have these days aren't a patch on what we
used to have *s* I mean I would call her with one of these phonecards
(4p/minute, wheeee) and we could sometimes spend 2hrs talking... now
we struggle to make half an hour. I *think* it's because we've both
got other stuff to consider now (like phone bills, ugh) but either way
- it sucks!
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Jan 23 21:30:00 2000 GMT ]--
From: I dreamed you had left my side (phil-99)
Subject: Yes I know how pathetic this edit will sound - but I am so
desperately desperate to have somebody I could just be with now - I've
had a taste of what it's like to be wanted needed and loved but now I
can't seem to get by without... *deep deep deep sigh*
Ho hum. That's my depressive bit over for now... after reading
through some people's diaries today - I've come to the conclusion that
mine is positively cheery!!! lol
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Jan 24 03:19:11 2000 GMT ]--
From: I dreamed you had left my side (phil-99)
Subject: Great! I get Diary of the hour at 3am!!!!! Wheeeeeeeeeeee :-)
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Jan 24 22:57:22 2000 GMT ]--
From: I dreamed you had left my side (phil-99)
Subject: OK
Well as you can guess from last night's edit, I didn't sleep well :-(
5:30am I was still up talking to someone, pah... so I woke today at
11:30, and was out in Manchester about 1:00pm... nothing exciting -
but I did wander round all those bits of town that I'd never seen
before, I found more shops and back-streets today than ever before :)
I also bought my train ticket up to Glasgow for the meet on the 4th
Feb :-) This is going to be interesting!
I just got off the phone with Kate... I found a folder that I stashed
away a while ago with all the cards and things I got from her... I
just had to call, ya know? being the soppy bastard I am :) I'm so
pathetic, I may as well just beg her to emigrate and come live with me
for the amount of time and effort I obviously devote to her... but
what doesn't help is that she said tonight - "The future is with you".
That first of all hurt me, but more than anything it keeps it open
ended, and in a way it's harder than having it closed and done with -
which I know would be worse, but for a shorter period of time!
Ugh, I'm off to bed after I looked at Reuter's internships :-)
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Jan 25 15:57:39 2000 GMT ]--
From: I dreamed you had left my side (phil-99)
Subject: I've looked at both Formal Spec and Databse exam papers and have come
to the conclusion that neither of them are as hard as the notes :-)
Seriously - the lecturer for Formal Spec has used the same exam
questions for the past 4 yrs!!! He TOLD us that they would be the
same again for this yr!
I bought a Phonecard yesterday - a #20 one, only because it came with
another #5 one free :-) I also spent shitloads on food. It got to
about 3pm and I decided I needed to eat something, so got a muffin...
after I ate that I just got so incredibly even more hungry... ended up
buying a sandwich and then a pack of fish and chips and then feeling
incredibly guilty for eating so much... but I was good, that evening I
didn't eat much at all, as compared to my normal pub binge :)
I also went on a room-tidying binge last night. Around 10pm I decided
that I couldn't carry on with the incessant mess that I seem to love
at times... so I ripped everything off the 3 (count them, Three!)
shelves they give us and started from scratch. My books are now tidy,
but bloody hell - I never realised how hard it was to make books stand
upright *s* Things went flying all over the place at times ;)
Today... started reasonably well. Still not back into the 11-7 sleep
routine but 2-9:30 works <s> Went into Chorlton, bought some rolls
(excitement!) and Peanut butter (Scandal!!) and have spent all
afternoon either online or reading Scottish Parlaiment websites or
looking at US Company internships.
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Jan 25 22:39:03 2000 GMT ]--
From: I dreamed you had left my side (phil-99)
Subject: I decided tonight to walk down the offie and get some bottles for
tonight and tommorrow. I ended up drinking every single one of them,
ok only 6 bottles, in under an hour and a half... I feel so pissed.
wheeeeeee.
Well I have to be up at 7am tommorrow... time to go :)
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Jan 26 18:08:28 2000 GMT ]--
From: I dreamed you had left my side (phil-99)
Subject: Ugh - that exam was disgustingly horrid... 2/3 (out of 5 choices) I
could do to a reasonable degree... the last one I could only get a
maximum of 10/20 on though... and it was only a list of 10 definitions
as well - just not stuff i had revised :-(
Well I went for a pint with Ian and Stev (Ian bloke from Hardy Farm
and Steve bloke who I know and get on with really well... forever
telling stories and stuff - good laugh <S>) then went into Manchester
with Ian looking for Final Fantasy VIII for the PC (he is such a sad
git when it comes to games!) which we failed to find. I meant to go
to a mobile phone shop and pick up a new charger for my phone (left
mine at home, d'oh) but forgot... maybe tommorrow.
Right now I am sat watching TOTP2 (Top of the Pops 2 - Cindy Lauper,
ugh, scary!) and contemplating whether I should start my computer on a
defrag run - hasn't had one for over 8 months now.... hmmm. But that
would mean I couldn't actually *use* it.... see the dillemma?? :)
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Jan 26 21:52:27 2000 GMT ]--
From: Just a stranger in a car (phil-99)
Subject: Arrrrrrrgh
Someone hit me round the head and tell me to stop thinking about
picking up the phone!!! I don't want do, I need to, grrrrrr.... And
people wonder why I say this is part obsession.
Calm down... come on... stay calm... good... now breathe - that helps.
Yes - that action where you feel the air going into your lungs... well
a combo of me being desperately desperate to speak to the ever lovely
Kate and tommorrow's Formal Specification exam have got me going
*wibble*. I can do it, I know I can... if only I could keep my mind
on the subject at hand... I mean - <laffs> - how hard can it be?
*wibbles*
*bribbles*
*cries*
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Jan 28 01:53:44 2000 GMT ]--
From: Just a stranger in a car (phil-99)
Subject: wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
Royales is a fun, if cheesey, night out
Even if bottles are 2.70 each
:)
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Jan 28 02:48:09 2000 GMT ]--
From: Just a stranger in a car (phil-99)
Subject: Wheeeeee
I just talked to Kate... incredibly soppy and sappy and sentimental
and everything but I sobered up lots and managed not to piss her off
and kept everything sweet I think :)
I'm happy - for the first time in a long time I am truly happy. I
think of Kate and I don't get depressed straight off. i think of
school and I don't suddenly feel depressed. I am happy. (ish)
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Jan 28 17:30:50 2000 GMT ]--
From: Just a stranger in a car (phil-99)
Subject: And I woke up with no hangover!!!!!!!
Yayyyyyyy!!!!!!!
Now I'm going to go upstairs to the kitchen and see if I can cook
anything worth eating, hey - I've got about 400 recipe cards, I *have*
to be able to do something on them - right???
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Jan 29 04:28:26 2000 GMT ]--
From: Just a stranger in a car (phil-99)
Subject: Ugh
Students suck
Explain tommorrow (today)
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Jan 29 12:19:58 2000 GMT ]--
From: Just a stranger in a car (phil-99)
Subject: That was a nice snooze :)
ok - At Hardy Farm we have a small bar called the Pav by everyone here
and about 3 times a term we get late licences (open till 2 instead of
the normal 11). Last night was one of them. I was working, and
Marcus (ignorant arsehole bastard wanker tosspot of a fat boring git)
was doing the DJing. Overall not a bad night... until the end.
I told MArcus at 1:45, to make sure that people knew at 2am that the
bar was closed. Did he? NO. And when I went to remind him at 2:05,
did he do it then? NO. So - I said to him again at 2:20, to stop
playing and to make sure they know that this will be one of the last
few songs. 15 minutes later he's STILL playing.
So I get into an argument with him (and did he look scared or what!!
*grin*) and he stops, only for all the drunk gits to try and persuade
him to play one more. I KNOW he has a will of paper so I pull out the
plugs to the speakers - simple solution. Hey - I want to go to bed!
It's now 2:40am. About 10 minutes later - what do I hear? I hear
American Pie coming out the DJ Booth. Now I got MAD. And I mean
Madmadmadmadmad... Over to the booth I go, pull out every single plug
there was in there, and yell at Marcus "What did I say? No. No means
nononononononoNO FUCKING NO". (You have to understand - nobody here
has ever seen me angry before, I'm generally pretty calm and easy
going, lol) and the look on his face *grin*.. it was a picture. In
the end we got out about 3:30am and took UKP#680, means we should get
around #70 between the two of us :) Nice!
Anyhow - now that I got that outta my system :)
I need to do something to day so that I won't stay up 'till 3am or
something stupid. Now if only I could get my hands on that cash today
rather than Monday :-\
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Jan 29 13:06:48 2000 GMT ]--
From: Just a stranger in a car (phil-99)
Subject: WHOOOOHOOOOOOOO MY LOAN IS IN MY LOAN IS IN!!!!!!!!
Yippppeeeeeeeeee!!!!!! I have money *dances*
I can go shopping, I can pay off Visa, I can get *real* food again :)
Ohhhhhhhhh this is a nice feeling!!
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Jan 29 22:38:14 2000 GMT ]--
From: Just a stranger in a car (phil-99)
Subject: *sigh*
Why do I have to be in love with someone who enjoys these things that
make me wonder whether she's really normal or not?
The excitement of my day extended to going to town, buying a new C++
Book (O'Reilly) and going to Pret-a-manger for lunch. OMG I have
never ever had a cheese sandwich quite like this one :) It was
delicious! Mozarella, pine kernels, olive oil, some green lettucey
stuff, tomato all on Rye but it was so good!! :)
I cooked tonight... I found an old recipe box that my mum bought for
me last year, got about 400 recipes in there and I chose something
easy and cheap - Spanish Potato Omlette :) And I must say - it was
very good indeed (remind me to put more pepper in there next time tho)
Ummmmm I just called up Kate but they had company so we didn't speak
for long, but it's horrible when it happens like that, see I tend to
wait a few days before calling so when I call and then can't say what
I've been wanting to say for a few days - it just gets annoying.
*deeper sigh*
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Jan 30 13:07:08 2000 GMT ]--
From: Just a stranger in a car (phil-99)
Subject: Well after saying that...
We sat in the ChatGames rooms tonight and talked until 5am :)
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Jan 30 21:54:28 2000 GMT ]--
From: Just a stranger in a car (phil-99)
Subject: Today today today (woooooo-ohhhhhhhhh)
sorry :) The Phil Collins fan in me showing up :)
Because I was up with Kate until 5, I didn't wake up until about 11am,
which I don't think is too bad :) I didn't even leave my room until
about 3pm tho :) Walked down the shop and bought some yoghurt then
watched TV, came back downstairs and talked to Kate again... then went
and cooked and talked to Kate again, and then she said something that
pissed me off, well not so much pissed me off as hurt me a lot, so I
said my hasty goodbyes after trying to deal with it and failing, and
haven't been back in quiz, ICQ or AIM since... (AIM sucks anyhow <s>)
That, ladies and gents - is my day in a nutshell.. and I have to be in
for 9 tommorrow - Embedded Systems Development - hould be an
interesting module I think! And the rest of the day is for practicals
(I guess we'll be split up - Software Engineers one session and the
rest of the course the other, it was how they did our Object Oriented
labs anyhow) - I *hope* we get the am one... if we don't it means that
we'll have to hang around for almost 3hrs :-( Not good.
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Jan 30 22:14:28 2000 GMT ]--
From: Just a stranger in a car (phil-99)
Subject: ffs I can't believe I'm in tears after a 5minute conversation
I get more and more pathetic every day, right?
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Jan 31 07:32:29 2000 GMT ]--
From: Just a stranger in a car (phil-99)
Subject: I woke up feeling like I had the hangover from hell....
And it's still thumping away, ugh. Well 9am lectures here we go...
Embedded Systems, funfunfun! Ugh. Ughughugh...
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Feb 1 22:00:36 2000 GMT ]--
From: Just a stranger in a car (phil-99)
Subject: Tuesday...
I had a bad computer experience (see <MZCWD> I think) mainly due to me
not paying enopugh attention to details like AT/ATX case and
motherboard, then AT/PS2 keyboard connectors... *sigh*
Today we had lectures 9-11 and it was insanely boring... Human
Computer Interaction... a French woman reading through somone else's
notes, ugh. Got home, via Maplin and picked up a keyboard convertor,
fixed up computer and that was my day :-)
I just picked up a curry from Raj's (good curry shop at end of road)
and devoured it - it's all I've eaten except a pack of crisps and a
flapjack. I'm just about to watch Tarrant on TV (yes I'm desperate
for stuff to write now, OK??) and then go to bed - the excitement,
huh?
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Feb 2 13:03:38 2000 GMT ]--
From: Just a stranger in a car (phil-99)
Subject: I just read Kite's diary ... and was reading her bit on "did we all
lose our virginity in/on a bed?" I'm trying to think but I can't *s*
Not about me, I remember that like it were yesterday (and it was on
the floor, not in a bed <s>) I'm trying to think about all the people
I've talked to in the past and I can't think of any who've lost their
virginity anywhere different from bed...
Not that I ask *that* many people these questions, oh no :)
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Feb 2 21:51:36 2000 GMT ]--
From: Just a stranger in a car (phil-99)
Subject: well things with Kate and I just took another step in the upwards way
I just got off the phone with her. She's not yet committed herself to
2/4yrs... and it has been decided that after those 2-4yrs are up, no
matter what, no matter if anything happens, she is going to try and
give it all up, and allow for "us".
All a little weird... but I'm trying not to say too much... all I'll
say is that I am now deliriously happy, I might not look it, but I can
feel it, I can feel everything inside me jumping for joy, knowing that
she's now committing to exactly the same timeframe as I have been
committed to for the last month or 2... and it's such an amazing
feeling.
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Feb 3 21:45:06 2000 GMT ]--
From: TheReasonWeChaseIsn'tLostInTheRomance (phil-99)
Subject: Today today today...
(My subject lines get so exciting at times - huh?)
I realised at about 8:30pm that I'm going to the Glasgow meet
tommorrow, and I haven't done anything about it. I feel like hell and
I look twice as bad, and I have to be up at 7 again tommorrow for the
hour's worth of lectures that I will be attending. Ugh.
I went in today for the 1 hour we are timetabled for, whoopiedoo.
Wasn't that exciting? Actually it was the best lecture so far, no
nasty surprises and a lecturer who actually seems to give a toss :)
Concurrent systems, could be interesting!
Then I went into town with Ian and he bought a game and I bought
Falcon 4 (I'm a long time Flight sim lover, but since my F117-A disk
broke I haven't played on in a long time) which I have since
discovered is virtually impossible to play without a joystick, which I
don't have with me. I'm going home tommorrow anyhow so I'll pick up
my dad's (he'll never use it <s>)
I've also just started thinking about you-know-who :) I don't know
why I just started now but it just crept up on me. There are days
when I think all this is, is an obsession, not love - but then I
remember just how happy I was when I was with her and those thoughts
go out the window.
Ooooo I had another wonderful pret-a-manger sandwich today - it was a
veggie one, but it's main ingredient was Houmous... it was amazing! I
think I'm gonna start walking there at lunchtimes as a *good* sandwich
and a coffee there costs around #3.00 whereas at uni a boring, plain
sandwich and a bottle of coke can cost just about the same. I still
don't see how the UMIST Association shop can get away with charging us
what they do for the sandwiches they sell in there.
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Feb 3 23:43:31 2000 GMT ]--
From: TheReasonWeChaseIsn'tLostInTheRomance (phil-99)
Subject: It's now an hour since I crawled into bed
And I'm still awake
This is bad
I'm knackered but I cannie sleep... I gave up about 5 mins ago and
tried calling Kate but she's not in :-( So I'm online instead :)
*sigh*
I hate sleep trouble
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Feb 6 22:29:44 2000 GMT ]--
From: MyBestFriendTookAWeekVacationToForgetHer (phil-99)
Subject: Well looks like the lyrics I'm using for my nameline are too easy
I'm gonna have to start thinking of tough ones *g*
Meet was good :) So tired, struggle to stay awake the whole journey
back, in fact I think I did fall asleep as soon as I got on the train
because the first thing I remember is the conductor poking me in the
arm and demanding to see a ticket, bastard - I was having wonderful
dreams too!
Got lots of emails I need to read too, ugh :(
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Feb 7 17:38:31 2000 GMT ]--
From: YoureABoyAndImAGirlYouKnowYouCanLeanOnMe (phil-99)
Subject: We've got Chris Harrison as our group manager-person
That is, in no uncertain terms - a bad thing. This guy has a serious
superiority complex. Nobody is good enough, and nothing can be good
enough for him, and he is, naturally - better than everyone else.
We went to his office today for a _scheduled_ meeting, and he didn't
want to see us. ugh. And when he did see is, he basically told us
"there's nothing I can tell you, just get on with it", when we don't
know what it is we should be doing. Top one!
Ugh
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Feb 7 23:07:31 2000 GMT ]--
From: YoureABoyAndImAGirlYouKnowYouCanLeanOnMe (phil-99)
Subject: Tonight and this afternoon ended up being fairly nice overall. I did
very little except chat to people on Mono and n ICQ, but I went to the Pav and
got a coupla drinks there, saw some folk I needed to see and got my daily dose
(however small it may be) of human interaction :)
Oh, and I spent a long time on the phone with Kate (of course <S>)... I spent
most of it reminding her of certain points of our holiday and listening to her
reactions *s* I just wish she wasn't at work, sharing an office with someone,
or maybe it was more fun that way? :-)) lol... anyhow...
I just watched an episode of Red Dwarf on UK Gold too :)) I LOVE RD and would
do pretty much anything to get my hands on the vids :) They're so damn
expensive!
Anyhow... must go, gonna go play Falcon 4 some more :)))
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Feb 8 22:38:09 2000 GMT ]--
From: YoureABoyAndImAGirlYouKnowYouCanLeanOnMe (phil-99)
Subject: I woke up late last night after talking with Kate online.
She ended up really upset (nothing I did, something I don't 100% understand
and prolly never will) and ran off around 1am... went into uni for a group
meeting, which went surprisingly well... I don't think that anyone in the group
will be particularly hard workers, but I do think that we will get the stuff
done this semester... which is only a good thing :)
Then went into town, bought Kate her Valentine's present (A big box of
Solpadeine <grin>) and some more milk (2 pint bottle, of which I drank a pint
and a half before I even got home, d'oh). I've done very little this
afternoon/evening except work on the Use Cases for our "autonomous vacuum
cleaner"... basically trying to explain in high-level language what the
controlling system should actually do, and I've broken it down into 8 main
things so far:
- Control movement
- Locate boundaries
- Avoid obstacles
- Calculate current position
- Allow manual movement
- Calculate most efficient route around room
- Record previously visited rooms (not allowed to do any room twice)
- Monitor status of vehicle (i.e. - stopped, moving, in front of obstacle etc)
Oh the excitement!!!!
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Feb 10 08:58:11 2000 GMT ]--
From: Philbert (phil-99)
Subject: oops
I didn't edit here yesterday? Bad me :)
Well maybe it's a good thing as nothing much happenned :) Woke up,
got out of bed, dragged a comb across my head *grin* Had 3hrs of
lectures, one 2hr and one 1hr one. The 2hr one was simple stuff so
left after 1hr, and the 1hr one is by a crappy lecturer so didn't go
:) Went to the pub instead!
I'm now sat here with a load of Maryland Caramel cookies, and if I'm
not careful, I'm going to finish the lot, like I did with another
packet last night - not good juju. But they are just so "more"-ish
lol. 2hrs worth of lectures today, should be nice and easy, then I'm
working the Pav tonight, which will be nice, means I'll get some cash!
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Feb 10 16:23:52 2000 GMT ]--
From: IDontWantToTalkAboutItHowYouBrokeMyHeart (phil-99)
Subject: hodiehodiehodie hi...
I'm watching 15-1 - and failing miserably :) These are all way too
hard today... normally I can do OK, hrmph! I've been to uni, been to
our one single lecture, and went to the pub for a pint, then came back
here and sat munching again... yet another pack of biccies :) But the
are so _good_!
I've got a webserver running now, http://ps.hf.umist.ac.uk:8080/ -
right now it only has the glasgow meet pics up but I will try to get
some pages up there soon, I might put up my old pages and see if I can
improve them somehow :-\
Wheeeeeeeee I got a Q right :) If you sail due west from Ireland (any
point) what country do you hit first? Canada :)
k... time to go look at the work I should be doing...yuck.
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Feb 11 16:54:32 2000 GMT ]--
From: IfYoudLikeToCallMeBaby (phil-99)
Subject: Successful day today, and I'm feeling rather good about this weekend
as well, which for me, is doing extremely well :-)
Woke up at 7:45 or so, and had to spend an extra 5 minutes laying in bed
deciding whether it was worth trying to make it in for my 9am lecture (if
you're not on the bus by 8:15 you won't make it in for 9 from here) and
eventually figured I'd best at least try, 'cuz I enjoy this guy's lectures. So
jumped up, got ready quick and was early enough to allow time to get a coffee
from the enw coffee place on Oxford Road, just a boring latte but that's all I
really like, and it actually had quite a good effect, woke me up (whereas
normally when I drink any cafeinne it has very little effect on me)
Languages and Their Implementation lecturer is a PRATT. Same guy as we have
for our Embedded Systems tutor - his God complex shows through even more in
these lectures though! He is so patronising, saying "well back when I was at
uni, we would have known this before we went into the 1st year", and this is
before he's even told us what the subject's all about! grrrrr, and the whole
thing is waffle, there's no real scientific basis to it all, as far as I can
figure at least :-\ I don't like waffly subjects, as I tend to get lost in
what we're supposed to be learning and go too far in specialised directions.
ack.
I called Kate at work and spent prolly 20 mins on the phone with her, which was
nice :) She's being a right git to me of late, not in a bad way *grin* Just
leaving me in no mental state to get on with any work for a weee while after we
finish chatting *smile* Turns out she's off away this weekend, she doesn't
know where tho, and of course I'm suspicious as all hell. Well - who wouldn't
be? :-) Not really _that_ worried though, I know Steve and her well enough to
not have to, I think.
The plan for tonight? Get some work done on this group project. We had a
meeting today in which we got lots of stuff decided, but _still_, we can't do
too much decision making until we find out about the hardware we'll be using.
It's so annoying not being able to get access to this hardware, because we're
having to make allsorts of assumptions about it, and if they are wrong, well
that'll screw us up slightly :-(
Currently listening to - Burning the Daze, by Marc Cohn (I now own all three of
his albums that hmv.co.uk knew about, wheeee thanks be for cheap CDs *grin*)
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Feb 11 20:06:44 2000 GMT ]--
From: IfYoudLikeToCallMeBaby (phil-99)
Subject: 15 minutes now...
16 minutes according to my li'l clock on my phone...
That I have spent listening to the same goddamned tune while I've been
on hold to ACC/WorldXChange's customer services dept, all because I
want to
a:) query my bill that I got this am - it has a funny charge on it I
don't know whether it should be there or not :-\
b:) pay the goddamned bill!
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Feb 11 20:24:08 2000 GMT ]--
From: IfYoudLikeToCallMeBaby (phil-99)
Subject: whoooohoooo
32 minutes it took them, but the guy did ask me how long I'd been on
hold for and apologised so I'm not too mad :) And the amount I
thought I had paid I had paid already so good!!!
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Feb 12 16:15:36 2000 GMT ]--
From: LetmeRunWithYouTonightIllTakeYouOnARide (phil-99)
Subject: I been swimming today
I just got an urge to go and swim, so on my way back from the Trafford
Centre I stopped at the pool and found out what time they were open till....
they're only open until 2:15 on a Saturday afternoon, how sucky :( So I got
there about 1:30 and did 35 minutes of swimming about, finding out how unfit I
really am *smile*
While I was at the trafford Centre, I went into the Selfridge's food court and
saw a rather good looking Thai Green Curry, and some wonderful spicy noodles
that should go well with it, so decided to get enough for lunch (one small pot
of each)... It cost me over #4.50 for that, eeeeeeeeek!!!!!! Note to self -
remember that Selfridges is DAMN expensive.
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Feb 12 20:07:20 2000 GMT ]--
From: LetmeRunWithYouTonightIllTakeYouOnARide (phil-99)
Subject: Kate's sister, Meagan was just online, and told me that one of her
friends, Caroline who I met while I was with her in New York over the New Yr,
attempted to take her life last night/today. She knew there was a possibility
but what can you do? Sit and watch someone 24/7?
Anyhow... I just don't know what to say :( I asked if she (Meagan, not
Caroline) was alright and just tried to ask not-too-intrusive questions but one
person's intrusive is another person's shallow... I gave up in the end, to be
honest - because I just didn't know what to say or do... she seemed to be
fairly upset by it (well there's a surprise) but I've said that I might call
her and talk on the phone later (I hate doing conversaitons like that over the
net, whatever I try to say just doesn't come out right)
On a plus side - late bar tonight, and I'm not working, wheeee. So I'll be
down there, trying not to drink too much as always *grin* I'm seriously
considering not going at all and just having a quiet night in but I reckon I've
got to at least make an appearance there...
The tough life of a student, huh?
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Feb 13 13:57:01 2000 GMT ]--
From: LetmeRunWithYouTonightIllTakeYouOnARide (phil-99)
Subject: Late bar - turned out to be nothing special.
I left at 11:30 because I was so damn exhausted... I was up at 8:30
and I really needed to try and get some decent sleep in, so I came home and
spodded for a bit, then went to bed, having made a resolution to tidy my room
(it looked worse than a bombsite... over the last 2 weeks I've not put
anything away properly and when I got out of bed yesterday I stood on my
good earphones and broke them :( pah).
So far today I've walked up the late shop, bought some yoghurts, more milk (I
go through phases of milk, somedays I could drink 4 pints in a day, other times
I'll get one pint and it'll go off in the fridge) and a jar of scrummy nutella
which I was happily munching (yes I know, it's bizzare - I do it with Peanut
butter too... hmmmmmm yum) until I realised I'd gone through half the jar, erk.
Ho hum... I'm never gonna be a healthy eater, it's all too much hassle!!
Oh, and I drew up a diagram and put it on the group 8 intranet
(www.intranets.com - is a really useful tool for our group so far) and just
have to write up a document (Use Case Scenarios, whoooo excitement)
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Feb 14 18:04:08 2000 GMT ]--
From: I can't wait any longer for it (phil-99)
Subject: Yet another 7am start :(
Set off for uni before 8am, and STILL end up getting there at 8:45.
Stopped off for a coffee again (I really should stop this habit *grin*) and
made it up to H floor of the Reynold building just in time to see Peter Green
arrive in the lift... another meeting with Chris Harrison which was a complete
failure...
He insists that he knows how to do things better than anyone else. He started
explaining how to specify the system using Formal Spec, instead of using MOOSE
like we've all been told we should be doing. Grrrr. Hardware team meeting
went well, got the data sheets and the info on how to actually move the
buggy thingie, which always helps :)
Currently listening to: Boyz II Men - Mowtownphilly (one of many MP3s in my
playlist, currently standing at 8hrs and 3 minutes, not including the CD I have
in the drive *grin*)
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Feb 14 19:13:42 2000 GMT ]--
From: I can't wait any longer for it (phil-99)
Subject: I can't understand why everyone has hang-ups with Valentine's Day
It's a day - if it means nothing special to you then don't get
stressed about it. I mean really - what is V Day except a chance to be
romantic and not have to worry about what other people think, because everyone
is acting the same? It might have had some meaning for some people at one time
but now - I doubt it.
I know I'm not exactly Mr Romance 2000 but I firmly believe that every
day should be Valentine's Day. Why do we all need a "big song and dance" day
to show affection?
Excuse my ranting - but it's really getting to me that all these
people get so hung up about this "special day", and in turn, many people end up
hating this day for whatever reasons.
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Feb 14 20:00:31 2000 GMT ]--
From: I can't wait any longer for it (phil-99)
Subject: *sniffle* *snuffle* *dry eyes*
God I am so pathetic at this "composure" thing. Called up Kate and a
couple of things happenned at once... a song came on that Kate told me about -
called "Amazed", by Lonestar... i's another Lyric-y song.... lyrics below.
Basically, as I said earlier I think, we both decided we wouldn't do anything
special for Valentine's Day - mainly because neither of us can afford it :)
But also to try and keep things smooth somehow (long story I can't be bothered
to explain).
So I called her up and when this song came on, I just sang it - and to my
surprise it came out good. I used to be in the school choir at one time, but
since I've not been using my voice it seems to have gotten lost somewhere...
Kate found it while we first met, and singing both that Lonestar song, and
Bryan Adams' "Please Forgive Me" sounded wonderful (to me at least *grin*)...
she seemed to appreciate it at least - 'cuz she told me her makeup was getting
messy ;)
"Every time our eyes meet, this feeling inside me,
Is almost more than I can take,
Baby when you touch me, I can feel how much you love me,
It just blows me away.
I've never been this close to anyone, or anything,
I can hear your thoughts, I can see your dreams.
I don't know how you do what you do,
I'm so in love with you,
It just keeps getting better,
I wanna spend the rest of my life,
With you by my side,
Forever and ever,
Every little thing that you do,
Baby I'm amazed by you.
The smell of your skin, the taste of your kiss,
The way you whisper in the dark,
Your hair all around me, baby you surround me,
Touch every place in my heart.
Oh it feels like the 1st time, every time,
I wanna spend my whole night, in your eyes.
I don't know how you do what you do,
I'm so in love with you,
It just keeps getting better,
I wanna spend the rest of my life,
With you by my side,
Forever and ever,
Every little thing that you do,
Baby I'm amazed by you.
Every little thing that you do,
I'm so in love with you,
It just keeps getting better,
I wanna spend the rest of my life,
With you by my side,
Forever and ever.
Every little thing that you do,
Every little thing that you do.........
Baby I'm amazed by you."
And the sad thing - it's true :) Pretty much all of it. *sigh*
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Feb 14 23:02:14 2000 GMT ]--
From: I can't wait any longer for it (phil-99)
Subject: Going to the pub is a bad idea...
Directly before you want to sleep.... I *was* only going to spend 1.20
on one pint, watch a bit of tv and then go home... but it was so pitifully
quiet I spent 3.60 on 3 pints, and then some on crisps and a creme egg too :)
Hey - I have to try and up the takings somehow *g*
I have this over-riding urge to call Kate again but I don't know how
welcome it would be - I mean - there's being there, and then there's being
obsessive... hell if I had to say it, I would admit that half of what I do
regarding Ms Katie is obsessive :) But it's worth it *grin*
Tommorrow - 2 hours of HCI (Human Computer Interaction) lectures -
let'shope that Cherie Blaire (she looks spookily similar) is slightly more
interesting (and coherent!) than she was last week :\ Speaking of which, if I
don't sleep soon I'm not gonna wake up properly :) Must go....
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Feb 14 23:50:49 2000 GMT ]--
From: I can't wait any longer for it (phil-99)
Subject: hmmmm, still here.... maybe if I clambered into bed....
I might feel slightly tired. But I doubt it.
ok... I have to be in bed by midnight... that gives me ten
minutes, ugh... if I'm not in bed - shout at me :) But that means I have to
log off Mono.... wahhhhhhhh :)
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Feb 15 14:41:13 2000 GMT ]--
From: I can't wait any longer for it (phil-99)
Subject: woke up at 7am, and decided to promptly go back to sleep.
Only to be woken up a furhter 3 times by 3 seperate alarm clocks, only
to fall back asleep again after each one. *then* to wake up at 8:15 and
decide that even if I could make it in on time (3/4 hr is perfectly
possible), I wasn't even going to bother. Two hours of Human Computer
Interaction would drive me up the wall *grin*
So I laid in bed 'till 10:15, which was really nice! My first real
lie in of the term :) Then went to Manchester, in order to get a coffee, hmmm
Coffee Republic's coffee is good. Then an O'brien's Chicken Satay sandwich
which was also ultra-scrumptious :-)
I am seriously considering buying a DVD Drive, as I have seen so many films out
on DVD in HMV that I want to buy but as I have no DVD player I can't... UKP#70
for a DVD drive, I wonder if I could find it cheaper in the US and find that
P&P will still be less :-\ Only problem is, I would have to make sure that I
could either fix the firmware, or get a region free one. I can't believe they
actually went ahead with making DVD-ROMs region specific - with the internet,
it is such a waste of time.
But I chickened out today :) I might see if my parents will fork out some cash
for it, as a pressie *grin* It's just that over the past 3 weeks, I have spent
somewhere around 400 pounds, and I have very little new stuff to show for it :(
Money just seems to slip through my fingers like sand sometimes, but I do
generally have a good time, so I'm not gonna whinge too much.
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Feb 16 01:54:44 2000 GMT ]--
From: I can't wait any longer for it (phil-99)
Subject: eeeeeeeeeeek
55minutes on the phone to Kate... We talked about loads and loads and
loads and loads and loads... it was loverly :) Nothing groundbreaking but just
*so* nice to have a long talk with no interruptions and no "I have to go to do
some work" breaks. It doesn't seem to happen very often :)
OK so we did spend a long time talking about Kel... Kel is Kate's ex - a guy
from the UK who I know she had a pretty weird history with. I'm not 100% sure
about exactly what they were - but I know that after they split - Kate and Kel
haven't spoken much since... In reality, I hate thinking about it, but I
know that she has had other people before me, and I can't ask her to just
forget them, no matter what I may mean. Even still - it still hurts to talk
about them, especially with Nicky (another quite close friend from ChatGames)
dating a bloke who knows Kel quite well :-\ Kate's always asking me about him,
and at times it bothers me that she still cares enough to ask, but then it
strikes me that she obviously thinks enough of me to tell her, honestly. It's
a kinda two-faced thing.......... but in a good way :)
It's feeling more like old times... we were both happy - nothing to worry about
except how much the phone bills will cost :-) More like we were both free to
talk anbout stuff that needed to be talked about but normally wouldn't be -
because of "non-functional constraints" - i.e.: Steve, or other people at work.
Either way - I feel damn good *grin*
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Feb 16 13:38:43 2000 GMT ]--
From: I can't wait any longer for it (phil-99)
Subject: *stretch*
Yet another lazy day... because I was talking to Kate for so long I
didn't get to bed 'till almost half two, uck... woke up when all my alarms went
off and felt allright, but as soon as I got out of bed I started to feel
distinctly rough, chatted on ICQ for a little while and went back to bed :(
Slept through till 9:30, and decided it wasn't worth going to the Networking
and Open Systems lecture, but I would go in for the 11am Software Quality one.
That was a joke. It was a new lecturer, i think it was a research assistant,
and he tried his hardest, but he didn't seem to be able to take control of the
lecture - people just talked and talked and talked all through it... this
annoys me anyway, because if you're going to go to a lecture and talk all the
way through it, then why are you there in the 1st place? Surely you'd be
better off going somewhere else to talk - don't waste your time and my time.
Group meeting after that, got a wee bit done, but we should be all done for our
deadline on Thursday with the minimum of fuss :) Came up to the spod-labs to
print out my CV, but spent about umm, 45 minutes now, re-jigging it, and
re-formatting it, adding bits and taking away bits. I actually think it looks
quite good, well - relatively so :) I've just justified the whole thing - see
if it looks any better like that. Time to save it as HTML and put it on the
web methinks :)
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Feb 17 00:29:07 2000 GMT ]--
From: I can't wait any longer for it (phil-99)
Subject: I've now decided that my "new, shiny updated" CV isn't that good.
I just can't do it! I cannot lie (or bend the truth) to sell myself -
what I have on there is facts, cold hard facts - and that is it - there is
nothing on there that I have bent in any way that I would find "unnacceptable"
- which actually amounts to "not very much bending" <s>
I worked the bar tonight - and made a total cock-up of cashing up at
the end of the night :-( We're supposed to subtract the float from the total
taken, and I just forgot - completely :( So I put in #197.20, pressed "paid
out", and then before I pressed "cash" suddenly remembered - so turned off the
till, *hoping* that it would forget what I did - but nuhhuh, bloody crappy
piece of poo remembered :( Ack well... Bob'll understand ;)
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Feb 17 02:01:33 2000 GMT ]--
From: I can't wait any longer for it (phil-99)
Subject: I'm worried....
Kate was online when I came on tonight and we talked for a while. The
person whom she lives with is a strange bloke anyhow, AFAIK but there are
certain things that she says that really worry me at times... the worst thing
is, I can never pinpoint it to one thing :-( Tonight she just said that Steve
wasn't doing too well, and that "if she had to run off quickly would I
understand" (because I don't like it when I just get a hasty "goodbye, speak to
you later" type goodbye). I know she's got to look after him, and he has to
watch over her but I worry.
I worry too much :(
But does that mean I care too much?
Or am just too worriable?
Maybe I have too much free time to let my imagination run away?
Kate always says "don't worry" about stuff... standard reply from me now is
"but I do worry"... but I never know whether she realises just how much I
do worry... I wish there was some way I could make sure that she really
is alright every night and every day, but I guess I'm going to have to learn to
trust what she says more than I do.
The worst thing is, that I know I'm going to be sending this diary to her in a
few weeks time... and I'm suddenly wondering whether I should be writing it
here...
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Feb 17 19:08:06 2000 GMT ]--
From: Worry-muppet (phil-99)
Subject: I over-reacted... alot :-|
Well - what I was told today....... "if it is the one thing that I can
do to make you happy, I'll do it" - summed up in a nutshell... "it's what's
best for you" - but it's not :-\ It's what's best for us that I care about
and you will never change my mind on this... and - as we've talked about time
and time again - we both know, that is not the best thing for us - even though
we both want it.
Have I stopped talking about Kate lately? Prolly not - but I don't
care because she is the one thing that takes up most of my thoughts. Ummmm, I
keep thinking that I don't care anymore what anyone else thinks, but then feel
bad for going on about her - I can only hope it makes it obvious what she
means.
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Feb 18 16:38:24 2000 GMT ]--
From: Just a stranger in a car (phil-99)
Subject: Old people....
Old people and busses should not mix. They should be segregated in
society, so that all old people have to use taxis or something. Now, I am
not a racist, I am not an agesit git and I am most certainly not
xenophobic, but this bugs hell out of me....
Why, when there are a group of people at a bus stop, does the old
biddy, or the big black woman with 50 bags of shopping *have* to be the one who
puts her hand out to signal we want the bus to stop??? Even if everyone else
at the stop has already done the same? well it's either the big black woman or
the old biddie...
Sweeping statement? I hear you say... true - but considering I make
people watching my hobby when I'm sat on the bus for 35 minutes every day I
guess I can at least pretend to be knowledgable about this :) It just bugs me
that these people don't seem to trust the rest of the crowd to flag the bus
down properly!!
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Feb 18 16:42:06 2000 GMT ]--
From: Just a stranger in a car (phil-99)
Subject: I'm easily riled, obviously :)
Just like the woman at the checkout... I timed my shopping run
perfectly, so I could get in, get out and still catch the bus I wanted
afterwards... nuhhuh - not with the woman whom I had on the checkout! OK I
*did* have a lot of reduced stuff but she spent so long dithering over it all
that I spent 5 minutes extra at the checkout and missed my bus :-(
Listening to... nothing right now... just started up Winamp, see what
I get... Robert Miles - Children (Dreams Version)... hmmm time time fast
forward, not in a Robert Miles mood right now. Shuffle on, let's see - Eminem,
"Still don't give a fuck" ... oooo nice song *s* Ahhh this is better "Just
Chillin'" - Crash Test Dummies. Stick with this for now methinks!
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Feb 18 20:15:24 2000 GMT ]--
From: Just a stranger in a car (phil-99)
Subject: hmmm, I just shaved for the first time in about a week :)
I've been a lazy git and really really didn't want to shave, but I got
fed up of not being able to find skin underneath all the crappy hairy bits
*grin* Methinks I need to go over it with my double bladed beasty though,
electric razors just don't cut the mustard (no pun intended).
Well did that, and I'm amazed - my face doesn't look like spaghetti!
This razor is evil, not a safety, and I normally manage to cut my chin to
ribbons at least - thing is, I've been using this type now for 2 yrs, you'd
think I'd know how to do it properly by now :)
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Feb 18 22:13:20 2000 GMT ]--
From: Just a stranger in a car (phil-99)
Subject: Copied from Sheer Annoyance
Subject: grrrrrrrrrrrrr
QXL.com - advertised something as "Sony Camera SLR / Video Camera Bag"
and I just assumed it was "Video Camera" - it was up for 10 pounds, and I
thought "oooo I'll bid for it, but won't meet reserve... grrrrr - so I'm now
the proud owner of one video camera bag....
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Feb 19 09:11:28 2000 GMT ]--
From: Just a stranger in a car (phil-99)
Subject: I s'pose I *should* add that I don't own a video camera?
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Feb 19 13:27:09 2000 GMT ]--
From: Just a stranger in a car (phil-99)
Subject: Woke up 8am, slept again 'till 8:30, then got up, spodded, went into
Manchester, bought another Pret-a-manger sandwich (Thai Chicken, YUM) and had
two (yep, two <s>) Mocha's because well.. because I felt like it *smile*
I was planning on going swimming, but I'll prolly leave that for tommorrow now,
because I just feel too lethargic today :( I've got a date with someone on
monday <s> Well not a date as such, but going to the pub with Caroline
(someone who lived at Hardy Farm last year and I really really liked) on Monday
afternoon, she said she wanted to talk to someone about something so ... ;-)
I am trying to think about when I'm going to cook me haggi :) I'm going to
wait until there's a few people around the kitchen I think, and see how many of
them are willing to try it, (I think they will, ONLY if they don't know what's
in it first *grin*) It never fails to amaze me how many people refuse to eat
either Haggis or black pudding once they know what they're made of :)
Scotland play Ireland at Lansdowne road today... I'm gonna go down the pav to
watch it, and take my Scotland flag with me *grin* I think I am the only
"born" Scot here... I am not really a Scot, my parents are both English but I
was born and raised in Scotland so I consider myself more Scottish than most :)
Gets me teased something rotten when Scotland play England/Ireland *smile*
Oh - and Kate's working this morning so I think I'll give her a call sometime
after 10am her time (3pm here). I've found a very nice way of getting my
phonecard calls for free now, wheeee :) Someone came round to my room the
other night and demonstrated to me an ACC account number they had found that
gets them free calls... what they didn't realise was that my phone has a number
display and last number redial on it *grin* I would use it to phone the US
direct but I think they might get a li'l pissed if I did that *smile* So I'm
just using it to phone the phonecard numbers, which are freephone anyhow (but
as ACC won't guarantee to me that those numbers *are* free....) .
Currently listening to... well right now it's Warren G - Don't Stop, but when I
thought this, it was Crash Test Dummies - Give Yourself a Hand.
Wow this is a long edit *s* How can I write so much crap????
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Feb 19 14:48:06 2000 GMT ]--
From: Just a stranger in a car (phil-99)
Subject: Wheeee just spoke to Kate for a few minutes... was very nice! She's
been at work since 7:30am for some *sick* reason :-\ I think she works too
hard, but if it means she gets some time off next week, I'm happy I guess!
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Feb 20 21:04:32 2000 GMT ]--
From: Just a stranger in a car (phil-99)
Subject: ok, well I deleted those two rather pointless edits from here, mainly
because I guess that nobody else will know what I mean and secondly because I
thought they made me sound like a big baby :) I want it my way, but I'm
prepared to take what I can get if I can't have it :-\
What it all boils down to is that Kate and I had a rough day :) We may as well
have not bothered talking for a while today, even though when I pointed this
out it did improve :-) Maybe I'm just selfish but to quote from a mail I sent
Kate.......
>Yes I know it's petty, yes I know it's bloody idiotic of me, but Kate - as
>I tell you time and time again - you are the one thing I care about enough
>to say... the slightest sound of your voice keeps me happy and the smallest
>hint of anything "bad" happening drives me insane.
and sometimes I don't believe that she believes how much I mean it.
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Feb 20 23:00:19 2000 GMT ]--
From: Just a stranger in a car (phil-99)
Subject: foul mood now...
foulfoulfoul mood - and all because I can't be arsed to move and go to
bed :)
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Feb 21 07:53:18 2000 GMT ]--
From: Just a stranger in a car (phil-99)
Subject: It's 7:45 in the morning now, and I just remembered that the 9am
lecture that I got up for - isn't on! Damnit!
I coulda had an extra hour or two in bed!!!!!
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Feb 22 11:59:01 2000 GMT ]--
From: Just a stranger in a car (phil-99)
Subject: Last night was an interesting one :)
I went out with someone who used to live at Hardy Farm, met her at 4pm
in the Phoenix, and we sat there talking until the bar closed (upstairs at the
Phoenix closes early, pah) at 6:45, and she asked me if I fancied going back
to hers and seeing what the house was like, and if I would mind if she slept in
my room tonight if she came back to Hardy Farm to see if it had changed...
Of course it hadn't :) But things weren't all fine and dandy, that
was fairly obvious :-\ We were both fairly knackered, and I was prolly
slightly pissed - nothing at all happenned btw :) Her boyfriend's dad had died
recently, and he's gone back to Guyana to do the whole family dying thing
(don't ask me)... she's worried that he might not come back :(
Anyhow... we went to pav, sat and talked some more, but there was
nobody interesting there so we ended up going back to my place and she wrote a
couple of emails and I showed her something that Meagan sent me - 40 things men
do wrong during sex *grin* Hilarious :)
I'm knackered, I will write more later but I'm sooo tired :(
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Feb 22 22:49:02 2000 GMT ]--
From: Just a stranger in a car (phil-99)
Subject: so tired, *yawn* ZzzZzzZzzZ
I feel so lethargic... I spent alot of this evening doing some
programming work, essentially copying out bits of someone else's code and
adapting it to fit our problem. And I've still got this Cream trip to sort.
Ugh.
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Feb 22 22:50:17 2000 GMT ]--
From: Just a stranger in a car (phil-99)
Subject: You realise? I've gone two days and no mention of whassername?!?!?!
:-)
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Feb 23 23:46:55 2000 GMT ]--
From: Just a stranger in a car (phil-99)
Subject: ahhh well, it had to change someday *grin*
Called her up at work, talked for a while, told her what I want for my
birthday/christmas/random pressie (it's a secret <s>) and just chatted about
bollocks all for a while...
Today - went into uni for 2nd half of 2hr Networking lecture, which
was as boring and as pointless as predicted... came out of lecture, into labs,
spodded for an hour or so, ummmm... oh - and then...
Phase Review... the review we SHOULD have had on Monday. Let's see -
we wait outside for a half hour, only to have 3 seperate groups go in at the
same time, and him to say "well, as long as you handed in what you were
supposed to........."
That is not what I wanted to hear, thank you! I want you
to tell me if we're on the right track, if what we're doing makes ANY sense at
all, and what our next aim should be! OK - building a prototype is fine in
industry, but right now we are in no position to be building anything... *sigh*
After that, come home, spod... tidy up room, at long last. You can
now see more floor than before (it wasn't *that* bad, just a bit unorganised)
and hoovered (first time all yr? yeuch it wasn't pleasant) and organised
everything into sensible places :) Called Kate, played on 'pooter, scanned
through the local network to see if any naughty people were running FTP servers
like me, and lo - of course there are :) Nothing interesting though :-(
Plan now, is to sleep... I hope. I ate the food I cooked tonight for
tommorrow earlier (ummm, rephrase that, I cooked too much tonight so was gonna
save some for tommorrow, but I ate that tonight) and now feel incredibly
guilty... I'm *trying* to be sensible about it but well, unfortunately my
stomach has more willpower than my brain :( I just *need* to go swimming
tommorrow afternoon, I need to keep up this routine I have planned in my mind
else it will fall apart like everything else I am trying to do now...
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Feb 24 09:52:52 2000 GMT ]--
From: Just a stranger in a car (phil-99)
Subject: 11am start today, and I love the lie-in I get because of it :)
I feel good, unlike every other morning when I wake up and feel like
absolute crap... hey - maybe I can even miss out on the morning coffee I have
been grabbing on the way in recently? :)
But as it should take 3/4hr to get into uni, I should really think
about getting ready - but this chair is so comfy right now... in the middle of
a nice tidy room, everything where it should be and all nice and clean :)
I was very very bored last night and read my mobile phone manual, and
found out a few things that I had no clue about *grin* Speaking of which - I
still haven't got my connection fee refunded by The Mobile Phone Store, I
might need to go in there and harrass them them some more soon... it's now
only a month until I can claim my #75 cashback from them, and after that, I
might end up getting rid of the phone and seeing if I can find a cheaper deal
somewhere, or if not - get rid of the insurance which adds #5.99/mo onto the
deal.
The shower is calling my name...
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Feb 24 23:27:35 2000 GMT ]--
From: Just a stranger in a car (phil-99)
Subject: I had a really good evening tonight....
Went to the Pav to get names for the bal but ended up drinking half
the night away and playing in the quiz, we won (of course). Now I'm back here
and I tried calling Kate but she's not in :(
ho humm, time for beddibyes or food, and I can't decide what is more
important *grin*
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Feb 26 00:41:05 2000 GMT ]--
From: Just a stranger in a car (phil-99)
Subject: I was up exceedingly late last night, still talking to Kate at 2:45am,
hmmmmmm. So when 7:30 came this morning I told myself I had to get
up, but was still in bed at 9:30 :-( Then I took it onto myself to
stay in bed until I felt like I could get up and not feel like crap.
Worked tonight, and to keep Mark happy I did the closing up *his* way.
It took me a full half-hour longer than normal to go through the whole
"closing-up" procedure. I was so pissed off, because I KNEW it would
happen that way, but Mark refused to believe me.
Read New Scientist most of the night :)
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Feb 26 10:48:39 2000 GMT ]--
From: Just a stranger in a car (phil-99)
Subject: It's Saturday...
Feels like Sunday to me, seeing as I didn't go in yesterday... I'm
going to have a look at writing my user profile for "Human Computer
Interaction" coursework today - I'm profiling a Maths Student (well, that's
what I'm saying anyhow), to see how they would like to see the FT website
changed.
Ooooo I do like Mel C's new song - has a nice tune to it :) Dunno
what the words are like *s* I am going to go swimming today... I need to.
Pool's open 'till 2:45 so there's not a rush... I'm guessing I should eat
before going though :)
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Feb 27 03:12:13 2000 GMT ]--
From: Just a stranger in a car (phil-99)
Subject: inspired by Alexis' diary....
My geek code :)
GCS d+>(d++) s+:s>s:s a-- C+++ UL+>$+++ P+>$++ L+(>$L++) E- W++ N++(+++) o
K->K w+@ O@ !M !V PS+@ PE? Y+ PGP(-) t+@ 5++(+++) X+++ !R(R-) tv b++@
DI++++(+) D+ G e h(+)>--- r++ x*
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Feb 27 13:46:37 2000 GMT ]--
From: Just a stranger in a car (phil-99)
Subject: erk
Advice for you - never do the geek code thing while you're drunk :) I
re-read what I did last night and found that I either lied my arse off or
didn't know what I was on about *grin*
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Feb 27 13:48:15 2000 GMT ]--
From: Just a stranger in a car (phil-99)
Subject: I went out last night with two lassies who used to live at Hardy Farm,
went out to Canal St (the gay village) and had a really good night... got
plastered for the first time in ages :) Am sufering today though, erkerkerk :(
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Feb 28 01:27:01 2000 GMT ]--
From: Just a stranger in a car (phil-99)
Subject: This is what you get for staying up late one night?
Can't decide whether to stay up all night now or to at least attempt
some sleep :-\ grrrrrrr
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Feb 28 02:40:48 2000 GMT ]--
From: Just a stranger in a car (phil-99)
Subject: I've been reading through some more diaries...
I'm amazed at the amount of people who have self-harm things going for
them on here... I first read it in Elise's diary, as I knew of her from
uk.people.teens (I'm a semi-oldbie there <s>), and the side that she wrote
about in her diary scared me, because I'd never seen it before. Since then,
reading through various CamSpod diaries I seem to have chosen just the ones
with this sort of thing in them...
It's not only self-harm though - I mean - I'm not exactly Mr Cheery
here all the time, I admit - but I am positively ecstatic compared to some
diary writers. Maybe some people just use their diaries as sounding boards
(which would explain it)...
I really need to be in bed.
10:30 meeting and we need to at least try and be clued up about it
pleh!
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Feb 28 16:49:15 2000 GMT ]--
From: Just a stranger in a car (phil-99)
Subject: Well my program now works... nobody bothered to tell me that
"inportb()" and "outportb()" were compiler specific functions, and that
watcom's versions of these were "inp()" and "outp()" - I coulda had this done
on Friday if I'd have known that :*(
I got a snotty note from Mark, the bar sec here - who decided to tell
me I was no longer wanted to work the bar. It boils down to this - I fucked up
on Friday night, but I admit that freely - Mark decided on Saturday night, when
I was obviously with guests in the bar, to tell me about this and to give
me an ear-bashing. I didn't take this too kindly and just retalliated at him,
and he seems to have taken offence.
Ahh well, leaves me one more night a week free, just #10 a week less
cash :-z bah, humbug and all that stuff :) He's a moody git anyhow, never
seems to be in a good mood...
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Feb 28 18:45:11 2000 GMT ]--
From: Just a stranger in a car (phil-99)
Subject: This website....
http://www.byu.edu/stlife/campuslife/honorcode/honcode.html
"Furthermore, all students are required to abstain from possessing, serving, or
consuming alcoholic beverages, tobacco, tea, coffee, or harmful drugs"
Sooooooo - yer not allowed to drink Tea????
bloody hell :(
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Feb 28 18:50:49 2000 GMT ]--
From: Just a stranger in a car (phil-99)
Subject: So tired :(
Found it hard to stop shaking for a while - bought myself a Caffetiere
and some decent coffee - that was good stuff :-) Plus with me being mad as
hell about Mark being a jerk, it's all adding up to being a bad night.
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Feb 28 19:19:23 2000 GMT ]--
From: Just a stranger in a car (phil-99)
Subject: And I'm having trouble with my "User profile"
I just can't think of enough bull to write :) Godknows what it'll be
like when I come to do my "Conceptual Task Analysis", gawd - what a load of
twaddle. I'd rather be doing something useful, like coding something :\
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Feb 28 22:05:14 2000 GMT ]--
From: Just a stranger in a car (phil-99)
Subject: Had to blow off at someone, so I called up Kate and sat whinging at
her for about a half-hour earlier. It's awful really that there's nobody here
that I can do that with... maybe next year, maybe I'll find someone whom I'm
willing to share my time with... but then again - that assumes I get out of my
room more often :\
Gonna shower, then sleep. So tired. 7am start as well. :-(
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Mar 1 16:23:51 2000 GMT ]--
From: Just a stranger in a car (phil-99)
Subject: ho humm
Well I have Bob staying with me :) Not now - but he was here last
night and will be here tonight. went out clubbing wiht him last night - that
was a scary experience *grin* Mind you I was so drunk I couldn;t have cared
less :)
TOnight is the CUS AGM, which should prove interesting... Bob wants to
go to the Met Bar but I'm a little skint right now :-\ I'll see what I can do
*g*
Our hoover is going well - spent 3hrs in the lab today making it move
and it's good! yayyyyy!
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Mar 1 22:51:12 2000 GMT ]--
From: Just a stranger in a car (phil-99)
Subject: *yawns*
I still can't believe how exhausted I have been the last few days.
Club Trop last night didn't help one bit but it started before that :( Oh
well, early night tonight might fix it :)
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Mar 2 17:25:22 2000 GMT ]--
From: Just a stranger in a car (phil-99)
Subject: Thursday afternoon and Bob is here again :-)
We're off out on a night out to both Curry and then to 5th. It will
be an interesting night, for sure! Today we got our Hardware level 0 OID
sorted (MOOSE Models anyone?) and I just uploaded that to the intranets page.
That is about all the excitement that I can take :)
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Mar 3 14:36:29 2000 GMT ]--
From: Just a stranger in a car (phil-99)
Subject: okokokokokokokokokokokokokokok
It's Friday now... eeeeeek! Where the hell has my week gone?
More to the point - wherehas my money gone this week? I blame Bob *grin* Last
night at 5th was good, if a little subdued. I'm not exactly 100% comfortable
making a twit outta myself in front of people I don't know that well *s*
Had three hours worth of lectures this morning, I left after the 1st
hr of Languages and Their Implementation, because of the lecturer being a
peahead. Then got home, and started doing my washing. oooOOOooo
Tonight, well I'm meeting Madman (real name?) at 4:15 in Picaddilly
station, prolly go for a pint then come back here and end up back in the pub
for 6-6:30. I was going to turn up to the pub early but I'm so knackered, I
just can't believe it. I'm not used to drinking as much as I have done, and
I'm not used to staying up as late as I have been doing either... erk.
The one good thing, is that I've not been calling Kate much *grin*
I've not had time to think about her much let alone talk to her... I was gonna
call today but I'm not going to have time :-\ durnit!
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Mar 3 14:51:50 2000 GMT ]--
From: Just a stranger in a car (phil-99)
Subject: I forgot to mention the curry yesterday :)
After some cajoling of the staff, we got lollies!!!!!!!! Wheeeeee,
the whole table of spods sat there contentedly sucking on lollies, made a
hilarious sight... then someone suggested a sucking competition *grin*
No comment!
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Mar 4 03:19:04 2000 GMT ]--
From: Just a stranger in a car (phil-99)
Subject: It all started off so well.......
Now I'm committed to waiting for Kev and Andy to call at 7am,
demanding a room to stay in, which can only be bad for me :-\ I don't have a
problem staying out, but I have a guest - and I am NOT going to abandon my
guest no matter how manipulative anyone tries to be... sorry :) I was brought
up way too well just to abandon anyone at Hardy Farm :)
Rockworld..... hmmm, I prefer 5th Avenue myself - the drinks are
cheaper and the music is more my style. Not as rock-y (yeas I know). But -
Wetherspods drinks are remarkably cheap *grin*
Tommorrow = another long day :\ And yet more cash spent no doubt!
Not good for my bank balance which has done nothing but increase since January
(read it closely and think about student bank accounts if you don't get that).
Ugh.
Time for sleep!
night!
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Mar 5 23:44:16 2000 GMT ]--
From: Clustersquick! (phil-99)
Subject: *yawn*
Wonderful night round at Mirath and Tripwire's place with Chinese food
as a bonus *grin* Tired now though - need to sleep, need to speak to Kate too
- s'been nearly 4 days since I heard from her last :-(( I've written two or
three quick emails but gotten nothing back - which doesn't exactly make me feel
happy... grrr
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Mar 6 09:51:54 2000 GMT ]--
From: Clustersquick! (phil-99)
Subject: my GOD I feel like crap :(
I've felt relatively rough all w/end but I've had a reason to struggle
through it and not let it bother me, namely the meet - but today, I just can't
force it anymore... I woke up at 7, turned off 3 of my alarm clocks *grin* and
went back to sleep... woke at 8 or so and contemplated getting a shower... that
lasted a few minutes, or until someone else jumped in the shower before me so I
gave up and sat on the computer :)
Now I should have a meeting at 10:30 and I just can't gather up the
enthusiasm required to get my arse into gear and get dressed, and walk to the
bus. Never mind the fact that ever since I had my regulation 2 weatabix my
stomach has been whinging that it wants MORE food...
I should go, I need to pick up assignments and things, I really do
need to go... but I can do that anytime :\ No - I need to pick up this
assignment... also need to see Chris Harrison and figure out if he actually
knows what we should be doing yet :-) Oh - and should see if these software
people have a cluie about what they're going to start doing yet - we're almost
done with the hardware... I don't want to have to take over and kick their
arses into shape (being a lazy git myself) but *sigh*, I have a feeling it
might need to be done :(
Caroline's said something about going out somewhere today, not sure
exactly what but I might need to pass - depending on how the day goes and
whether I feel the overbearing urge to fall back into bed or not. (Normally I
refuse to sleep during the day, it screws with my sleep pattern - which in
itself is easily disrupted).
Bloody hell, will someone tell me to stop writing essay-length diary
edits please? :)
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Mar 7 16:30:19 2000 GMT ]--
From: Clustersquick! (phil-99)
Subject: This was written Monday 6th March, during downtime.
I want to break something
I want to grab something, the first thing I can find, then find a wall
somewhere and throw it against it, as hard as I can. I want to hear the sound
of smashing glass, I want to feel the impact of plastic against concrete, I
want to do some serious harm to something.
But I can't. There is NOTHING in my room that I can actually afford to smash,
nothing that I can just destroy. Nothing that has no value to me in some way,
nothing that doesn't remind me of one of many good times, or even of the bad
times.
Why? Why did she have to fucking try, and more to the point - why did she have
to tell me? I wonder, I'm trying my hardest to think, what I should say, what
I should do - how I should feel, whether I should have reacted the way I did or
not. If everything I care about can be thrown away by her selfish actions then
is it something I want to care about?
Of course it is, that's the problem.
I just wish she wasn't so fucking CALM about the whole thing :-( That makes me
feel even worse, knowing that to her, it's just another sign of a bad weekend.
That it's "been 6 yrs" since the last, and that "it won't happen again" doesn't
help me.
I wish that dissapointment could convey what I am thinking, but it can't come
close. I know that there were problems - but I had *NO* idea that they could
ever escalate to this level. Most of all, right now? I'm pissed as all hell
that he could ever make her feel this bad, even if he "never meant to". If
he's anything like me he knows what she's like but would never have expected
this. He would never have thought that lies could drive her this far. It's
ridiculous.
Most of all? Most of all I wish I was there. I wish I was around on Friday
and Saturday so that she could talk to me. I don't know if it would have
helped but I would feel a whole lot better. It would help me to know that I'd
been around, but equally - I wish she'd talked to me! It doesn't work if it's
one way, if she only lets me know when I call. If I never get a word from her,
how am I supposed to know how things are going?
This is too much to handle in one sitting :-(
ARRRRGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Mono's dead still :-(
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Tuesday 7th March, Midday or so.
I haven't been this angry since I was at school :-(
Every now and then, things would just make me snap, and I would have a mad 5
minutes. I remember breaking up chairs and just throwing things in as random
directions as possible, hoping something would break. This is how I feel
now... I thought a night's sleep would make it better but it hasn't. I'm still
angry.
And thinking about it, I don't know why? I shouldn't be so mad. Why somehting
in my mind is telling me that I should be, is beyond me. OK... I know I wasn't
here, but there's very little I could have done except to be a listening voice.
I think that I'm angry at what I'm thinking, angry that I don't understand
_why_ she felt that she couldn't call me up, or email me, or anything at all
... angry at the doubts.
And the fact that someone behind me started smoking on the bus on the way home
nearly drove me mental. I came (-><-) this close to threatening to kill him if
he didn't put it out. I'm obviously getting better at this "control" lark
though. Not that I ever lost it often, or for long. But when it has gone in
the past it's been bad :(
Oh, and it's raining. Not warm, gentle rain, but rain where you step outside
and might as well not have bothered trying to stay dry because you're soaked
through after a minute.
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Mar 8 09:14:06 2000 GMT ]--
From: Clustersquick! (phil-99)
Subject: better now though
Long chats with peeplies and lots of long emails have helped me
squillions. It's not nice for me when I get that angry :-\ It brings back too
many memories, let alone the actual "anger" side of it.
It's now 9:15am
I should be in a 9-11am lecture
Bugger
Maybe I should leave for the 2nd half?
But my head hurts :(
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Mar 8 17:13:10 2000 GMT ]--
From: Clustersquick! (phil-99)
Subject: and it still hurts now....
but it's been joined by my whole body :-(
Played with our hardware today (which is a small miracle - we have the
hardware - but no interface to USE the hardware except for the sensors) and got
the sensors working. This is, in no uncertain terms - a good thing :) It
means that we're almost finished with the hardware at last and can make the
software people get their arses in gear - I don't think they have one line of
code yet :(
Also - got out a tenner, planned on making it buy lunch today and a
few essential supplies (bread, milk etc)... spent #4 at lunch (#2 for a chicken
roll???? outrageous - and a copy of New Scientist), then went into Chorlton
and bought random stuff - bottle of juice, packs of biccies (bad idea, in
hindsight), rolls but NO MILK! grrrrrr. Sometimes I deserve to be hit - hard
enough to hammer some sense into me :) So consequently - I have no cash left,
whopeee!
I think I might try to go to sleep for a little while, I feel so
rough.
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Mar 8 18:19:58 2000 GMT ]--
From: Clustersquick! (phil-99)
Subject: Top of the Pops 2 is scaring me now..... Disco Duck???
They made up for it with James Taylor though :)
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Mar 8 21:49:15 2000 GMT ]--
From: Clustersquick! (phil-99)
Subject: Just spoke to Kate :)
She's happy, I'm happy *smile*
Still working wayyyyyyyyyy too hard tho :)))
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Mar 9 15:08:58 2000 GMT ]--
From: Clustersquick! (phil-99)
Subject: Winsock programming - here we go!
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Mar 9 20:41:58 2000 GMT ]--
From: Clustersquick! (phil-99)
Subject: Well turns out - here we _didn't_ go... for some reason I don't seem
to have the required header files (winsock2.h anyone?) installed so I might
need to do this in the labs :(
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Mar 9 22:15:15 2000 GMT ]--
From: Clustersquick! (phil-99)
Subject: I just thought of something I was going to write in here and forgot..
hmmmmmmm
*ponders*
Ahhhhhhh! I spent about 20 minutes today trying to explain to someone
how to remove Linux from their computer. It amazed me that it took me multiple
attempts at explanations to the effect that you _need_ a program like
Partition-It or Partition Magic, and NOT MS-DOS fdisk to regain the space that
was formatted as EXT2 :)
Spoke to Kate again as well - which was nice... I'm coming to feel
more and more that I can't wait for her to come over here after summer - the
time would just be too long :( She's better than she was over the weekend, but
apparently worried about stuff from over Christmas - but she wouldn't go into
details at work, so whatever it is - I'm not likely to find out soon :(
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Mar 9 22:16:32 2000 GMT ]--
From: Clustersquick! (phil-99)
Subject: Oh
And I've had several comments over the last few days about my nameline
:) It's a secret, and no - I'm not going to tell you *grin* Well actually,
most of the comments have been directed at how sick we all are for having
namelines like this :)
If you need a hint - search for "squicking" at
http://www.google.com - and then look at the alt.tasteless FAQ :)
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Mar 9 22:38:05 2000 GMT ]--
From: Clustersquick! (phil-99)
Subject: I meant to say this the other day but never got round to it....
I can see myself becoming very insular over the next while... what
with having no cash and very little to do along the social life line of things,
I don't see much coming up...
I already tend to spend most of my "social time" online, and I have
more close friends online than have really good friends IRL... in fact, I
don't think I have any really really good real friends... hmmmm
Anyway - what I was meaning to say - I don't mean to be clingy :) I
have a tendency when something new comes along to cling on to it and not want
to let it go... I've noticed it already :) Even though, having recognised it I
hope I won't let myself do what I normally do - and obsess on it! Mono seems
to have had that effect on me, and taken me away from my other haunt -
ChatGames. The only time I ever spend in there now is when Mono is quiet or
when I'm talking to people on ICQ :(
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Mar 10 07:43:25 2000 GMT ]--
From: Clustersquick! (phil-99)
Subject: What the hell was I talking about then?
I think I am losing my mind... no - really :)
*groans*
I don't want to be up now ;( Was still on the phone to Kate at about
1am this morning because I couldn't sleep... things are so bizarre with her at
times - she can't talk at home about stuff, can't talk at work about stuff - so
here I am caught in the middle unless I just happen to catch her when she's all
alone :\
Bah
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Mar 10 19:15:34 2000 GMT ]--
From: Clustersquick! (phil-99)
Subject: I have my Linux system doing lots and lots of stuff now :)
It might not do it all exactly how I want, but it at least does it!
There's a few things I apparently need to install, Gnome? ncurses needs to be
updated and a few other things that I failed at when trying to compile the new
KDE (well, newer than the version I'm running from SuSE 5.2, lol)...
I got mp3blaster - which for me is an important thing ;) I need to be
able to have moosic running, and I've got it running in a detatched screen in
the background - which is nice - means it doesn't really take up a temrinal!
Is also easy to get to. I'm going to try and get a copy of the SuSE manual
online and print it out in bits, as I have about 700pages of printing credit
with the Computation dept at UMIST right now *grin*
hmmmm now there's a thought... maybe if I borrowed Ian's SuSE 6.3
disks I could just do a straight upgrade? hmmmmmmmmmm - anyone know any
better? I know they're based on different things (glibc2 and the
other one, anyone?) but I'm hoping that SuSE have thought of that :)
In case you hadn't guessed - I do like the SuSE version :) The
install always goes very slickly for me, and I've never had many troubles - and
any problems I have tend to be dealt with very nicely on the SuSE.com website,
or a kernel upgrade *grin*
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Mar 11 00:59:55 2000 GMT ]--
From: Clustersquick! (phil-99)
Subject: damnit - I played :(
Somehow I managed to delete rpm - the executable - and in the process
of trying to recompile and install a new one - I somehow fucked up my network
card! ARRRGGGGGGHHHHHHH. This is so frustrating :(
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Mar 11 11:30:33 2000 GMT ]--
From: Clustersquick! (phil-99)
Subject: *wibbles*
It's too early to be awake *grin*
I really needed this lie-in, woke up around 10am then snoozed until 11
or so :) It's made me feel 10000000% better :) I'm considering going into
town but I know if I go I'll end up spending... the only thing I can think of,
is going without my cards :)
Oh - actually - I _still_ need to go to the Mobile Phone Store and
annoy them, DAMN. Yep - that can be my task for the day :) Costs me nothing
and lets me shout at someone *grin* They still haven't refunded my
connection fee of UKP#35 that they said they would do when I bought the phone
:( Oh damn and I just remembered - I've still got to pay for this month's
bills, but after this month I am getting rid of the phone - I can't afford to
keep it right now!
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Mar 11 15:47:58 2000 GMT ]--
From: Clustersquick! (phil-99)
Subject: wheeeee
Spoke to a very nice lady whom I can only assume was a manager-type
person at the Mobile Phone Store who said she'd speak to the people at the had
office on Monday - and she actually sounded convincing! Normally when I speak
to these people I am convinced they are talking crap...
Resisted the lure of food and drink, and taking more money out the
cash machines too :) I'm so bad with money it's unbelieveable - I'm hoping
this little foray into extreme poverty is gonna teach me a hugehugehuge lesson!
I don't think I've written in here quite how bad it's got yet...
UKP#15 or so left on my overdraught, and I've not asked them at the
bank yet, but ISTR that my current o/d is the most they give for 2nd yrs...
ugh. I need a job, or a hardship loan :) Or preferably both!
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Mar 11 20:10:24 2000 GMT ]--
From: Clustersquick! (phil-99)
Subject: Kernel re-compiling yet again happily in the background...
OK - the story on this damn computer gets more and more twisted! I
tried upgrading from SuSE 5.2 to 6.3 - but the simplistic install program
decided that it would put *everything* on the root device - which is only
50megs in size! No wonder it crapped out half-way through!
So started again - this time with the "even your grandma can do it"
SuSE YaST2... except it's so simple.. it decided it was going to put
everything on my hard disk in two partitions when I don't have anywhere
near enough space! erk! Start again... use YaST1, and do it all by hand
(well, "by hand", as by hand as things get here :)
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Mar 11 23:30:45 2000 GMT ]--
From: Clustersquick! (phil-99)
Subject: wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee it's all so GOOD!
It works, I tell you - it works!
Apart from my TV card but that works kinda, just doesn't tune in :\
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Mar 11 23:58:13 2000 GMT ]--
From: Just a stranger in a car (phil-99)
Subject: Today... what has today been?
Well as you can tell from the edits lately, I've been playing around
with my computer a lot... I went to town and saw the nice lady at the Mobile
Phone Store... then came home, had lunch (cheese rolls) then spodded... then
had tea (copious amounts of tuna and pasta) and then spodded some more!
What a day :)
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Mar 12 15:01:57 2000 GMT ]--
From: Just a stranger in a car (phil-99)
Subject: I'm still not dressed
And no - I'm not nekked... but if you ask nicely I could be *smile*
3pm, and I've now been up what, ummmm, 4 hrs or so... I've had lunch
and brekkie (lukkie) and done part a:) of "Languages and their implementation"
coursework. That was simple...
"Just to get started (UGH Maddonna just came on the radio...), design
an ICPL process which receives a stream of integers from a pre-defined process
called "keyboard", computes their squares and sends them to the predefined
process called "screen". Your process should terminate, without further
output, as soon as it calculates a square greater than 1,000"
The bold bit is just to emphasise that important bit :) That's easy.
The hard thing is figuring out the syntax of ICPL - Initial Concurrent
Programming Language - I think... I don't know if it's somehting he's made up
or what, but it's tortuous! Very PASCAL like - and I've never even looked at
PASCAL before :(
Ahh well - after that, I can have a look at Networking, which I don't
actually think I can do, because I can't seem to find winsock2.h on my
computer :-( I do hope I'm not going to have to do this int he labs! (I
s'pose I could just get hold of a copy of Borland C++ which seems to have it?
hmmmm...
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Mar 12 18:00:41 2000 GMT ]--
From: Youve Got Your Ball Youve Got Your Chain (phil-99)
Subject: Well the ICPL thing has gone swimmingly well so far... part two is
complete... part three looks slightly tricker but that's the last bit, what
else do I expect?? :-)
Something to do with Real Time software... send a character from the
keyboard to the screen, only after the clock ticks... I'm assuming we don't
have to implement a buffer, and that the stream coming from the keyboard
(predefined process) is buffered, which will make it fairly easy :)
*ponders*
PROCESS sync(IN clock, IN keyboard)
VAR click;
VAR keyb_inp;
BEGIN
IF RECEIVE click FROM clock THEN
SEND keyb_inp TO screen;
IF RECEIVE keyb_inp FROM keyboard THEN
RECEIVE keyb_inp FROM keyboard;
END
Well - it might form the skeleton at least :) I got bored... this is
boring stuff and holds absolutely no interest for me whatsoever...
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Mar 13 08:39:00 2000 GMT ]--
From: Youve Got Your Ball Youve Got Your Chain (phil-99)
Subject: lesseee now
I could try and make it in for 9... but I don't *think* we've got a
lecture today, and I can't see the bit of paper that tells me if we have :) So
I'm not going to bother. Yet another meeting with Chris Harrison who is
doubtless going to say..... You guessed it! "There's nothing I can tell you".
Was still awake at somewhere around 1:30am yesterday - and not because
I was on the phone either! Waking late means that I'm going to get to sleep
late - cause and effect :) I'm just glad I managed to drag my arse outta bed
before the day starts!
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Mar 13 19:37:54 2000 GMT ]--
From: Youve Got Your Ball Youve Got Your Chain (phil-99)
Subject: hmmm - looked at that "code" I wrote last night...
Dodgy, to say the least!
Am sat here busily ripping MP3s from my CDs :) Only problem is, I
haven't managed to find a CDDB thingie yet that works in Linux, and
AudioCatalyst gave me some crap results in Windows - they seem to be better
so far from Linux at least... I guess there's less overhead :) Anyhow - so
that means right now I have to go through all my newly recorded MP3s and rename
them by hand - ugh, and put in the tag info :-\
Ewwwwww listen to that crackling... I need to buy a newer sleeker CD
drive someday *grin* Or maybe I should just upgrade to that DVD drive now? :)
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Mar 13 22:33:16 2000 GMT ]--
From: Youve Got Your Ball Youve Got Your Chain (phil-99)
Subject: I never did put my results in here....
Here goes nothing :(
Subject Mark (Percent) Weighting
Formal Spec 37 10 Credit
Software Analysis and Design 54 20 Credits
Computer Architecture 36 10 Credits
Database Theory 49 10 Credits
Object Oriented Programming 52 10 Credits
Average: 47%
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Mar 14 16:21:59 2000 GMT ]--
From: TrippingBillies (phil-99)
Subject: Tuesday... (I have to remind myself what da it is before I start *g*)
I eventually got my hard drive from Kate :) She sent my old and
broken one to Western Digital's returns place in January, and they sent her a
new one to replace it... I got it from her today :) 3.2 Gb of disk space,
wheee! I just wish I got it before I installed Linux the other day - now I'm
going to have to mess around with partitions and the like :( Thinking about
moving my entire Linux partition(s) to the new drive and the re-bodging the old
one and changing partition sizes and stuff...
Decisions decisions...
Alternatively I could keep everything as it is, and just use the new
drive as yet more space for MP3s :) I am running out of space on my Linux /opt
partition right now because that's where I'm recording my MP3s to before I move
them to the DOS one (put them there so that I can access them from Wni and
Linux).
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Mar 14 22:50:34 2000 GMT ]--
From: TrippingBillies (phil-99)
Subject: Hard drive installed as a FAT32 drive... easiest way really... that
way I can use it all for MP3s and attempt to resize my other partitions...
maybe have two MP3 drives? Or maybe use one for downloaded movies - that is -
if I ever manage to actually get hold of any movies! Hanging about in
#movie-central on DALNet and EFNET and putting my requests into the queues but
they never quite make it to my computer for some reason :(
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Mar 14 22:56:49 2000 GMT ]--
From: TrippingBillies (phil-99)
Subject: Just called Kate....
tried calling manymanymany times today but she wasn't in, I call now
and she's just about to leave to go home - can I do no right today?
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Mar 15 10:40:48 2000 GMT ]--
From: IWillGoInThisWay,AndFindMyOwnWayOut! (phil-99)
Subject: Sat in the spod-labs....
I want to be working on the Embedded Systems project but Richard
Barker (the man with the key) isn't in (prolly in bed still if he has any
sense!)... skiving from lectures, Networking again - because it is so insanely
boring! He spends so long on each slide, explaining over and over again that I
just shut off and nearly fell asleep...
I could also be working on Networking assignment but I can't really do
that either because I don't have the assignment details with me... and they
ain't on the dept. website either - what a load of crap that is... what else?
Oh - maybe Human Computer Interaction, but again - that's insanely boring and
the less I do of that, the better!
I shouldn't be thinking this way, not after my results from last
semester! Maybe if I'd put some effort into my coursework I might have done
better but hell... too late now!
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Mar 15 14:23:45 2000 GMT ]--
From: IWillGoInThisWay,AndFindMyOwnWayOut! (phil-99)
Subject: Just off the phone, guess who?
Doubts? Me? Oh yes! :(
4 years is taking the mick. I refuse to wait that long. I can't wait
that long. And what if she stays? What is it's decided that "it's the best
thing to do" for her to stay?
No - there are limits - and this is one of them.
The worst thing is, I'd said to her just before she told me "is there
anytime we can sit down and talk, alone?" - planning to talk about this whole
thing. Planning to talk about us, and the timeframe - which I was no longer
entirely 100% sure about.
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Mar 16 16:25:49 2000 GMT ]--
From: IWillGoInThisWay,AndFindMyOwnWayOut! (phil-99)
Subject: Trying to figure out what I want to say...
Trying to decide if making this a demand is going too far, making it
an ultimatum. I don't think it is, you know. I've put up with it for a little
under 8 months now, and she doesn't seem to know any more or be any more sure
than she was 6 months ago.
The thing is, right... she wants me to finish uni, get a job and be
making money, working out of debt and to be relatively settled down before she
comes over. Fine, it makes sense in some ways - but it's not in the least bit
what _I_ want. I don't want to be pushing 30 (ok, 25) by the time she comes
over, I want to be able to make the mistakes, learn about her, learn about me,
and have her influencing how I settle and how things go - without having to do
it over x thousand miles!
We'll see what is said tommorrow morning...
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Mar 16 17:39:46 2000 GMT ]--
From: IWillGoInThisWay,AndFindMyOwnWayOut! (phil-99)
Subject: Went to the CUS "outing" thingie last night, I was exhausted tho, but
I'd said I'd go along... really wasn't up for being overly social... got there
about 7, left somewhere around 8:45 along with Caroline and Andrew, came home
and played on the 'pooter 'till 11pm, oops!
Someone drilled into me today the fact that we now have about 2 weeks
to finish two bits of coursework. Yeuch. I s'pose I'd best finish off one,
and start the other - but we have only had one of them for about a week and I
don't have a compiler handy that will "do" Windows programming, or if I do I
can't figure out how!
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Mar 16 21:27:42 2000 GMT ]--
From: IWillGoInThisWay,AndFindMyOwnWayOut! (phil-99)
Subject: ok I meant Windows Sockets programming.
Either way I can't do it until I find a copy of Borland from
somewhere - as I refuse to use MSVCC - it looks too intimidating to make me
actually want to learn to use it, which is rare for me, normally I'm up for
learning how to use everything :)
Finished off Languages and Their Implementation part I, which was - in
a word - easy :) Started on Concurrent Systems and gave up because my brain
ain't yet in the programming mood :-| And I just found a spider hanging beside
my head from the ceiling... about a metre and a half down :) Hmmm I just moved
my arm and whatever it was climbing on snapped. Actually thinking about it, I
do feel like I have tiny threads falling on my face, God have I really been sat
here so long that spiders have started building cobwebs on me????
Recording now... Hootie and the Blowfish - Musical Chairs. Listening
to, random selection of MP3s but right now is Marc Cohn - Miles Away (suitable
title, huh?). I love Marc Cohn so much... got all 3 of his albums that HMV
online knew about and know just about all his songs.
01 - Walking In Memphis.mp3 07 - Saving the Best for Last.mp3
02 - Ghost Train.mp3 08 - Strangers in a Car.mp3
03 - Silver Thunderbird.mp3 09 - 29 Ways.mp3
04 - Dig Down Deep.mp3 10 - Perfect Love.mp3
05 - Walk on Water.mp3 11 - True Companion.mp3
06 - Miles Away.mp3
sorry about that, couldn't remember which song I was looking for *grin* I love
screen somedays now that I know how to use it!
Silver Thunderbird is an amazing song:
"Watched him coming up Wilmslow, down South park Boulevard,
Man he was looking good from tail to hood,
Great big fins and painted steel,
Man it looked just like the batmobile.
And my old man behind the wheel,
Well you could hardly even see him in all of that chrome,
The man with the plan and the pocket comb."
And on and on and on... what else? Ohhhhh, I do like 29 Ways... not quite
acapella but done to a rather cute drum beat :)
"I got 29 ways, to make it to my baby's door,
I got 29 ways just to make it to my baby's door...
If she needs me bad, I can find about two or three more...
I Got one down the basement two down the hall
and when the going gets tough I got a hole in the wall
29 ways just to make it to my baby's door
If she needs me bad, I can find about two or three more...
I can come through the chimney like santa claus
I can climb through the window and that ain't all
A master key that fits every lock,
A hidden door behind the grandfather clock
29 ways just to make it to my baby's door,
If she needs me bad I can find about two or three more...."
hmmmm.... that'll do for an edit for now :)
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Mar 17 00:43:55 2000 GMT ]--
From: Life Is Hard, And So Am I (phil-99)
Subject: And I _still_ haven't got ncpfs working :(
It gets 90% of the way through mounting a Netware server but wimps out
at the last minute, telling me "Error Code X", essentially meaning that it
wants some kind of packet signing that I don't know how to include :(
Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Mar 17 12:40:41 2000 GMT ]--
From: Life Is Hard, And So Am I (phil-99)
Subject: Still trying to decide....
What to ask for, what to look for, what I should be hopeful for...
gonna call somewhere between 1 and 2, gives me a bit of time to think some
more.... I just wish I knew what I wanted from what I've got :-\
Tried to hand in some coursework today. Chris Harrison was refusing
to answer his door and Kim (recptionist) was refusing to take his Coursework
just in case it got lost... so I say "sod it, I'll hand it in on Monday". If I
get a 10% penalty whacked on it, then so be it but I don't think so, because
Chris isn't the kind to put overly strict deadlines on us, nice bloke :-)
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Mar 17 13:52:28 2000 GMT ]--
From: Life Is Hard, And So Am I (phil-99)
Subject: Happier
ok - the lowdown, the showdown, and whatever else you want to think of
it being... To my "4 yrs is a longlonglonglong time, and I won't wait that
long", the response was "I'm not going to make you wait that long".
Whatever that means, interperet for yourself. But there's more than
that to this whole mess.
Gina is causing more problems. (if you don't know who she is, don't
worry yourselves too much <grin>) Steve doesn't seem to be able to get by
without her and vice versa - especially because she is just starting divorce
proceedings with her husband. At Kate's latest visit to the docs, he asked her
to list what she could, and couldn't live with. Gina and Steve was one of the
"could not"s.
It's looking considerably more likely that she's not going to be there
much longer. If G and S don't get their act sorted out soon then there is
going to be a huge re-shuffle of plans. Which for _me_, is only a good thing -
but for her... I don't know.
I still don't think she realises just what she means to me most of the
time. When I told her that I actually want to have a life with her and I
wanted to have her influence how my life goes, she seemed not surprised, but
like she wasn't expecting it... hmm.
Anyhow, I'm in a much better frame of mind now :)
Is it jst me or do I really write long edits in this diary far too
often? *grin*
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Mar 17 20:02:33 2000 GMT ]--
From: This Could Be Your Lucky Day - In Hell (phil-99)
Subject: Macaroni cheese two days in a row....
Can't be good for you :) I'm getting good at making white sauce
though (and no sniggering in the back at that remark)... normally I have
extremem trouble not making it wiht lumps in it, seems like I'm learning :)
Only problem is, we have electric rings and they take forever to cool down so
when it starts to stick I have to take it 100% off the heat so it takes ages :(
Robot wars was tres (just imagine that accent over the 'e', right?)
amusant (and again?) this evening - a good battle between Thing II and oh what
was the bloody thing called? yeah that one :) I'm pissed that the one with
the flywheel didn't go through though - I think it was an intriguing design.
only problem with it is that the flywheel is oobviously too light to inflict
any damage - and if they made it any heavier it would tip the thing over :-\
Sorta like a vertical version of hypnodisc on two wheels if you didn't see it
:)
Late bar tonight, I'm gonna be there but not drinking :) Not enough
cash to go around drinking loads right now, even tho I did take out money today
to buy lunch (well it was actually a combo of breakfast and lunch, was
STARVING) which was a bad thing (tm). Yeah but back to tonight, I'm gonna be
hassling people for money and to buy tickets for the ball, which incidentally,
is in 2 weeks time! I won't be going (cash again) but I went last year and it
was great fun, even tho I did get pounced on for wearing a kilt *grin*
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Mar 18 00:40:02 2000 GMT ]--
From: TheDJ - EasesASpliff -FromHisLyricalLips (phil-99)
Subject: And I'm sat here in front of the computer yet again...
May go over to the bar for another pint before they close at 2, things
might have calmed down, and people will be pissed enough to be able to have
amusing conversations with them *grin* I'm just not in the "social" frame of
mind still...
And I still haven't got NCPFS mounting my Novell Netware server,
grrrrr... multiple recompiles have done nothing... playing with the config
files seems to be the answer given in the help files but I have the version up
from which it seems the config file is written for, and it's changed!
Arrgghhh - so this is why I quit using Linux last time *grin*
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Mar 18 00:45:27 2000 GMT ]--
From: TheDJ - EasesASpliff -FromHisLyricalLips (phil-99)
Subject: I can't wait to see if anyone can identify the lyrics from this
nameline :) I know I sure as hell couldn't do, without at least hearing the
song... I guess if you know it then it's obvious :)
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Mar 18 02:51:33 2000 GMT ]--
From: TheDJ - EasesASpliff -FromHisLyricalLips (phil-99)
Subject: Went to the pub, felt miserabler there then I did sitting here, so
came back and spodding some more :-\ Munched on a "Fisherman's Pie" which had
more of a "potato farmer's pie" feel to it than fish but hey, I was hungry :)
And now I totally forgot what I actually came here to edit about :(
Well... I sat watching Late-night poker on Channel 4... I've not seen
something quite as curiously attracting on late night TV for a while! I've
never learnt how to play poker so part of it was trying to figure out the rules
but I was amazed at the ease with which these people were able to disguise what
they really felt, sometimes in desperate circumstances.
And I stil can't remember what my intentions were before I started
rambling :(
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Mar 18 18:40:10 2000 GMT ]--
From: WhereWereTheyGoingWithoutKnowingTheWay? (phil-99)
Subject: I've yet again done nothing....
Actually I tell a lie, I got a little done on my Networking
assignment... found the Winsock2 libraries on the net and shoved them into the
Watcom directories, hopefully that should work then :) Well - it compiles -
with the constructor all written at least :)
Off to Mirath's tonight, which will be nice :) I know it's not been
long but it feels like ages since I've done anything social, or should I change
that - anything social with other than 2 or three different people, it's
driving me batty :-\ Yet another reason I can't wait to get away from
Manchester! At least at home - even though I don't know anybody to speak of -
I know of places I can go and do things, whereas round Manchester it's almost
as if "if you're alone, you're nobody, and you're stuffed"... I don't know how
true it is, or whether living this far out is helping me at all.
Possibly going to be moving out next year anyhow... two of the folk I
live with here are looking to share, only problem we might have is that we're
quite fussy - we want a 3 bed house somewhere in Chorlton (other side of
Chorlton from where we are now, shaves 10-15 mins off the journey time!) or,
where was the other place... ohhhhhhhh, well - the 3 bedthing seems to be
tricky. Most houses going through MSH (Manchester Student Homes) seem to be of
the 4 bed variety... might need to find someone else to fill the void?
I really can't wait to hear back form the Mobile Phone Store soon... I
really need the money that they promised me, twice now :( #110 isn't to be
sniffed at!
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Mar 19 19:45:23 2000 GMT ]--
From: WhereWereTheyGoingWithoutKnowingTheWay? (phil-99)
Subject: I've been good today - not written my regulation 5 edits :)
I'm sat taking a break from my Windows Sockets Programming... I need
it My hands just started shaking all of a sudden, combo of coffee and no food
I think, but I refuse to eat macaroni cheese for a third night running
(technically 3/4 but I didn't eat properly last night)... so I just had a
Carrot and Corriander cup-a-soup which sounds really nice but in reality is
pretty disgusting - I'm all out of other flavours tho :(
Spent about two hours today playing with synasthesia - a visualisation
thing for Linux... pipe through a MP3/Music feed and it visualises it very
niuely! Some very nice sound-sight things happen there :)
Reading up on how to use ipchains so as I can block out the stupid
pillock who has his computer on "auto-connect" to my computer, which does
nothing, until it times out... very strange, as it's been happening for weeks
now! Thing is, I don't remember advertising my MP3 site anywhere - I reckon
someone must have added it to a search engine's listings, which is a major pain
in the arse asthe amount of traffic that will start coming thru if they have,
might make it more obvious to the network admin that I have a server running :(
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Mar 20 08:27:47 2000 GMT ]--
From: WhereWereTheyGoingWithoutKnowingTheWay? (phil-99)
Subject: I had a dream....
And I promised myself I would remember.... and I haven't remembered
what it was now, bah! I know it involved Kate, and I know it wasn't rude :)
Damn this is going to annoy me now :(
Something else that's going to annoy me... does anyone know about this
book... at the start, there are these two kids, and they explore their attic,
only to find that there is a passage that leads all the way through all the
terraced houses. They explore this passage and find themselves in an old man's
house, where there are some rings. They play with these rings, and find that a
certain ring magically transports them to a wood, a really calming and relaxing
wood with pools of water all over the place.
They jump into one of the pools, and they get magically transported
again to other worlds. The only world I specifically remember is an
"armageddon" style world, where everything is burning and half-destroyed. I'm
sure it's not a CS Lewis book, but then again - I could be wrong... this has
been annoying me for days now!!!
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Mar 20 08:38:45 2000 GMT ]--
From: WhereWereTheyGoingWithoutKnowingTheWay? (phil-99)
Subject: THE MAGICIAN'S NEPHEW!!!!!
That was tortuous :) Digory and Polly and all that *smile* I was
sure it wasn't a CS Lewis book though... shows you how good my memory is :)
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Mar 20 20:37:02 2000 GMT ]--
From: WhereWereTheyGoingWithoutKnowingTheWay? (phil-99)
Subject: Good day, good day...
Very productive day too :)
Got lots done for Embedded Systems (the hoover) and it now travels
round and round in circles very effectively *grin* Nahh, it will follow a
wall, but the only problem is - it won't yet go through doorways (it defaults
to turning left, and only does that if there is something in front of it). But
again - this isn't really my problem! This is the software team's problem :-\
Also got lots done on Concurrent systems. I'm worried - I used to be
able to churn out a FIFO queue implementation in minutes but it's taken me
nearly two days to do it... whether it's through lack of use or what I jsut
couldn't wrap my head around a wrap-around queue :( Think I have it sussed now
tho, which is a good thing (TM). Just need to figure out how to create Threads
and Semaphores now...
Talked to Kate again... she's obviously been thinking lots, which can
only be a good thing (tm, yet again). The story is, well... I really don't
want to go into details but I'm hopeful for a re-union in the not-too dim and
distant future, and a permanent one at that :-) The only thing that she
insists: that I have to finish uni before anything else.
Now I'm not 100% happy with that but it makes sense really... it does,
honest. Or that's what I have to keep telling myself... it really would be
alot to have to adjust to living with someone while trying to write a final
year projects, I guess. But either way, I'm hopeful.
Time to start thinking about networking again :)
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Mar 20 20:38:13 2000 GMT ]--
From: WhereWereTheyGoingWithoutKnowingTheWay? (phil-99)
Subject: Currently listening to: Dig Down Deep - Marc Cohn :)
Now - Fastball - Are You Ready For the Fallout?
:-)
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Mar 20 22:29:27 2000 GMT ]--
From: WhereWereTheyGoingWithoutKnowingTheWay? (phil-99)
Subject: YesyesyesyesyesyesyesYesYEsYESYEsYesyesyesyesyesyesyesyesyeS
Concurrent programming is a piece of piss... well - ok I haven't
actually got any concurrency going yet *grin* But it's all set up, just needs
the "CreateThread()" calls to be put into place! Wheeeeeeeee!
No success with networking tho :( Still only got it sending to one
host, cannie figure out how to make it do three without some stupid fiddling
and playing about that shouldn't be necessary... mebbe I'm forgetting
something? Oh - sorry - that assumes we were actually taught how to DO this!
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Mar 21 21:51:11 2000 GMT ]--
From: WhereWereTheyGoingWithoutKnowingTheWay? (phil-99)
Subject: I take it back... this is the output I am getting from that proggie...
MAIN 12
M
IN 13
MAIN 14
myThread2 has an error: 0x14
14GOODBYE
0
GOODBYE 1
GOODBYE 2
It should print out:
MAIN [0-x]
HELLO [0-x]
GOODBYE [0-x]
in some arbitrary order, not defined by me, but by the Operating System, where
x is a number chosen totally at random by me :) My 'mutexes' aren't working
right, ughughugh.
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Mar 21 21:52:03 2000 GMT ]--
From: WhereWereTheyGoingWithoutKnowingTheWay? (phil-99)
Subject: oh, I forgot - the error message in there is there on purpose :)
Honest guv!
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Mar 21 22:08:03 2000 GMT ]--
From: WhereWereTheyGoingWithoutKnowingTheWay? (phil-99)
Subject: Apart from programming, what else..............
Nothing! I've had yet another productive day! I am amazed, pure
and simple - that I am actually getting this much work done! I think part of
it is the knowledge that it has to be in (Conc Systems at least) in a week and
a half, and I really am enjoying it! I was getting worried for a while that
I'd lost the will to sit up 'till all hours hacking away but now it's back with
a vengeance :)
Went in for the 2hr 9am lecture today that I normally consider a waste
of time - but there was a "guest" lecturer in today, who went over some
examples of what Nathalie whassername French bird was talking about, and most
importantly - made it interesting.
That finsihed at 11, then I went up to the labs and played about with
our hardware for around 3 hrs :) It now follows the wall in our "room"
perfectly, and goes through the door (only if it is started out with the left
sensor against the wall tho, hmmmmmm - but the supervisor don't need to know
that!). It's nearly done, or let's say - our side *is* done :)
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Mar 22 01:55:26 2000 GMT ]--
From: WhereWereTheyGoingWithoutKnowingTheWay? (phil-99)
Subject: *UGH*
I knew I shoulda taken one of those thingies that mirath gave me to
try out before going to bed tonight, but thought - "Nahhhh I'm fairly tired,
I'll sleep well." Whaddaya know? 2am and I'm back up, spodding :(
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Mar 22 14:01:08 2000 GMT ]--
From: WhereWereTheyGoingWithoutKnowingTheWay? (phil-99)
Subject: And another day has mostly passed - well - the important bits :)
Because I was still awake at 2 last night, when I woke up todat at
8am, I truly felt like shite. Slept again until about quarter to nine when I
decided that it really would be a good idea to get out of bed, eventually
managed that at around 9:10 :)
Networking lecture was again, a waste of time. Skipped Software
Quality because it is insanely boring, and should be a simple as anything exam,
as long as I get the notes from him sometime soon :)
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Mar 23 16:43:39 2000 GMT ]--
From: WhereWereTheyGoingWithoutKnowingTheWay? (phil-99)
Subject: I'm exhausted!
Caroline gave me some sleepy-helpy-type things the other day and I
decided to try them out last night, as I really felt like I needed a good
night's sleep, so took one about 9:30-10:00 ish. I don't remember falling
asleep, but it must've been somewhere around 10:30 - and then I didn't come
close to waking up properly until 9 :) Nice...
But I got to about 1pm today, and then I suddenly felt exhausted all
of a sudden! It just came down on me like a ton of bricks :( Can't figure out
why either, which is most annoying...
Got a fair bit of discussion done on our project, even tho Sakeet
started to piss me off. He hasn't been around much, and he wanted to know
details of what we'd been doing over the last few weeks. So I told him all he
needed to know, as he's not really involved in the hardware side. Then he
started pushing for more details, and pushing to make changes in the code I've
spent the last 3-4 weeks playing with.
The idea with Object Oriented software development is that the class
methods are used by the "higher level" people, and they don't need to know how
it all works in any capacity, only what the end result is. So when I refused
to actually spend an hour or two explaining to Sakeet why we'd done what we'd
done, he started pushing me to do it - so I got pissed and told him where to
go, not in the worst way but I shouted at him. He just refused to believe me
when I told him that it wasn't important at this stage for him to understand.
OK I know I could have been nice and spent the time explaining it but
it's not important to the overall project outcome, and won't affect his code in
any way, or it shouldn't do, more like. Combine that with me being
knackered and I wasn't a happy bunny :(
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Mar 23 22:44:45 2000 GMT ]--
From: WhereWereTheyGoingWithoutKnowingTheWay? (phil-99)
Subject: Laundry sucks :(
Especially when they close it at 10, and you can't start it before 9,
therefore meaning that because you have lots to dry, you can't get it all
properly dry before they lock up... gonna have to hang things up wherever I can
again - that or go back tommorrow afternoon and dry some more :(
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Mar 24 16:36:26 2000 GMT ]--
From: HellItMightBeTheHighwayToHeaven (phil-99)
Subject: Well - I have yet more concurrency :)
Program is doing specifically what the lecturer wants now... he handed
out a sheet today with the specifics... well - I guess I should say it mostly
does what he wants :) The maths bit isn't quite right but I am thinking that
isn't as important as having the concurrency working!
Can't decide whether I should start on part B or start to do some more
HCI, redesign the FT.com website my butt :-\ Contextual Task Analysis?
Whassat then? *Sigh*
I just remembered that I'm supposed to be sat in the Amenities block
tonight doing the RA Elections thingie, and seelling tickets for the ball...
durnit. Guess it's only for an hour tho, can get lots done around it :)
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Mar 25 00:11:11 2000 GMT ]--
From: HellItMightBeTheHighwayToHeaven (phil-99)
Subject: fuck it all, I say
let it all slip and things would be easy
but I can't do that now, can I?
I went into the ChatGames chat room today for the 1st time in probably
a month and I felt like such a stranger... I used to know everyone, and I used
to be greeted by a horde of people but now, there's barely a flutter as I
/joined the room. Depressing, really. The pace of life on the net is
accelerated beyond anything real life can throw at you. People are forgotten
and new people are accepted into a "clique" quicker than you imagine possible.
If I was to leave Mono now and never come back, although I am a
relative newbie - would it be noticed, beyond the occasional reader of my diary
thinking "I wonder where he is now?"
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Mar 25 00:18:15 2000 GMT ]--
From: HellItMightBeTheHighwayToHeaven (phil-99)
Subject: On a more mundane note...
Concurrency is perfect. Just got to decode his instructions for the
non-compulsory bits now... got two seperate instruction sheets with two sets of
instructions on them - that mean that we have to do both, one or the other of
these things? Damn and if it's the weekend I won't get a reply 'till Monday -
I was hoping to have it finished by the end of the w/end :-| Oh well.
Spoke to Haley and Pauline again tonight - two friends who live in
Chorlton now, who used to live at Hardy Farm. Possible offer of a house - only
trouble is the people they know are looking for 4, we're only 3 - but they
might be interested! House is nice, in prime position and not too expensive
either (ukp#45 a week + bills). hmmm.
Really tired, got a foul headache and will fall asleep at keyboard
soon but I don't want to go to bed, I want to call up Kate and sit chatting to
her all night long but I don't wanna call back just yet - only called half an
hour ago and we sat talking while she was in the bath :) So much I want to say
but won't be able to get a real response for a while, plus I don't really
know what it is I want to say, only that there's lots of it whizzing round up
there...
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Mar 25 13:53:39 2000 GMT ]--
From: HellItMightBeTheHighwayToHeaven (phil-99)
Subject: Called home and my dad's there, justgot back from being away someplace
or another, and was obviously knackered... told him I was planningon coming
home on the 8th April and he grunted :) Might call again later and remind
them... I can't wait until I can find out if going to the US is practical in
any way over summer - I'd like to find work but right now it's not looking
hopeful as I'm procrastinating something chronic.
I'll prolly end up doing some skivvy work or other but I don't care as
long as I get paid for it! Would like some tech-related work, but at home
there's very little chance of that, as I live in a backwards town!
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Mar 25 18:11:05 2000 GMT ]--
From: HellItMightBeTheHighwayToHeaven (phil-99)
Subject: Picked up an app form for Global Video...
A little further away from me than Blockbuster but hey, who's
complaining, it's still walkable. Fill that in this evening and give it back
tommorrow... try (and fail again, no doubt) to get started on my HCI coursework
which I am still finding intensely boring. Ummmmmmmmmmm.... been shopping
today - the fact that I had no food left was worrying me :) So I'm now
officially overdrawn over my overdraught which is no good thing. I do hope
that the Mobile Phone Store get their fingers out and send me this #100 quick!
Also found Barclaycard bill to pay... I can't believe I owe them
almost #400 still... that is after my holiday over xmas tho, so it's
understandable - just lots of money! Got to hope that the Mobile Phone people
get back to me by the 4th else I'm going to have to call Barclaycard up and
plead bankruptcy (ok - maybe not quite bankruptcy - extreme skintness <g>).
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Mar 25 22:20:07 2000 GMT ]--
From: WellItMightBeTheHighwayToHeaven (phil-99)
Subject: Just been down the pav, absolutely dead there...
Gonna get some work done, just as soon as I log out
Either that or drink this beer *smile* Can't imagine which will win?
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Mar 26 10:58:06 2000 GMT ]--
From: WellItMightBeTheHighwayToHeaven (phil-99)
Subject: Totally confused
It's almost midday by my computer, but only 11am by my alarm clock. I
wondered why I felt so rough when my alarm went off earlier! Hmmmmmmm. And
now there is nothing worth watching on TV except for religious programming
and repeats of stuff from the week :-\
And I told you I wouldn't get any HCI done! :)
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Mar 26 14:44:43 2000 GMT ]--
From: WellItMightBeTheHighwayToHeaven (phil-99)
Subject: Ahhhhhhh
So that's how you're supposed to use screen :) Playing around
teaches you lots, unless you break it first which is a bad thing!
Got some HCI coursework done, at long last - even if it is only a page
of writing, I feel better for having started the next stage. Sat and watched
rugby, ate cheese, mange-tout and mushroom toasty for lunch and am still not
dressed. (This seems to be becoming a common Sunday theme *smile*).
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Mar 26 18:57:08 2000 GMT ]--
From: WellItMightBeTheHighwayToHeaven (phil-99)
Subject: ARRRRGGGHHHH
Spend almost 2 hours playing with this program, wondering why it works
until k>=8 - only to print out the offending section of code, take it up to the
kitchen, sit down and suddenly understand where I went Pete Tong.
Grrrrrrrrrrr, a function that I wrote to calculate factorials of an
integer was returning a variable of type 'long' - whereas to get the precision
needed for this work - it had to be "double" or "long double". 2 HOURS!
Still not dressed, and listening to something that someone uploaded to
my mp3 FTP server - the only album name that I could figure was music from
the "Pi Soundtrack", and it's full of dancey/trancey/drum and bass stuff that
I normally don't listen to except when doing a long working session. Works
wonders too :)
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Mar 27 16:17:17 2000 GMT ]--
From: WellItMightBeTheHighwayToHeaven (phil-99)
Subject: I'm happpppyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Happy, and I mean happy! The sun is shining (good start), my work is
going well (even better) and our project is coming to fruition after a long day
of code-writing and fixing :)
That's about all, for now :)
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Mar 27 16:25:45 2000 GMT ]--
From: WellItMightBeTheHighwayToHeaven (phil-99)
Subject: Oh yeah - and it's amazing what a difference an hour can make...
It's 5:30pm and the sun is still shining!!! Whoooo!!!
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Mar 28 14:34:45 2000 GMT ]--
From: WellItMightBeTheHighwayToHeaven (phil-99)
Subject: hmmmmm
mixed bag today... started off badly because I laid in bed till 20
past 7 instead of getting up at 7, therefore running late for the morning.
Someone used all the hot water in the shower too, booooooo!
Finished Neuromancer on the bus on the way in, went to get my morning
coffee from the rather tidy lass at Java (imaginative name huh?) only to find
myself 10p and one stamp short of a freebie :-\ bah! So went to HCI lecture,
where the woman droned on at us about so much boring stuff it's unbelieveable,
so I quit out and went to the labs, where I spent an hour with the other group
doing our project, helping them do their work, d'oh!
I really should stop doing that, but I'm such a sucker when it comes
to helping people :) It also means I don't have to any of my work *grin*
Incidentally, I spent a half-hour today doing HCI coursework... it is
incredibly boring, and I just can't garner up enough will to sit down for
longer than that and concentrate on it. I just don't give a damn! Unlike
Concurrent Systems and Embedded Systems where I really enjoy it!
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Mar 28 14:36:08 2000 GMT ]--
From: WellItMightBeTheHighwayToHeaven (phil-99)
Subject: Oh - listening to... well right now it's "Liar's Bar" by the Beautiful
South... has been "Parklife" by Blur (the album) and will be Crash Test Dummies
- Give Yourself a Hand (class album!)
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Mar 28 14:47:23 2000 GMT ]--
From: WellItMightBeTheHighwayToHeaven (phil-99)
Subject: this URL from mirath's diary.....
http://www.thebigview.com/pastlife
Your past life diagnosis:
------------------------------------------------------------------------------
I don't know how you feel about it, but you were female in your last earthly
incarnation.
You were born somewhere in the territory of modern Korea around the year 650.
Your profession was that of a warrior, hunter, fisherman or executor of
sacrifices.
------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Your brief psychological profile in your past life:
You were a sane, practical person, a materialist with no spiritual
consciousness. Your simple wisdom helped the weaker and the poor.
------------------------------------------------------------------------------
The lesson that your last past life brought to your present incarnation:
You should develop your talent for love, happiness and enthusiasm and you
should distribute these feelings to all people.
------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Do you remember now?
hmmmmmmm
I cna cope with all of them except the last one. I don't particularly want to
develop my talent for love happiness and enthusiasm right now - I'd rather be
developing my C++ skills :)
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Mar 28 21:53:10 2000 GMT ]--
From: WeOnlySmokeWhenBored,SoWeDoTwoPacksADay (phil-99)
Subject: hohummmm
too much hassle
not enough food :\
I made enough chilli tonight to feed the 6,000, so felt compelled to
munch on some about a half-hour ago and now I'm realising what a bad idea that
was - I'm never gonna sleep now :( I made so much because I was going to make
beef chilli on Sunday night, but forgot to put in the beef :) So now had to
use the beef tonight (a big pack of it too...) else it would sit and go off
like half the stuff does in our fridge :)
Done laundry and need to make my bed again now, cannie be arsed.
Tried calling Kate but she wasn't at her desk :(
Done some Conc Systems c/w too so I can see my grade for this going up
and up *smile* well, that's the theory anyhow! Ex 1 was 70% of the marks and
was compulsory - parts 2 and 3 are non-compulsory but for an extra 30% I won't
say no!!! Not too much extra work either........
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Mar 28 21:54:02 2000 GMT ]--
From: WeOnlySmokeWhenBored,SoWeDoTwoPacksADay (phil-99)
Subject: Listening to: Doobie Brothers, Long Train Running
Re-released godknows how many years ago when I bought it and fell in
love with it - now recorded to mp3 and stuck in my playlist forever -
muhahahahaha :)
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Mar 29 16:15:51 2000 GMT ]--
From: WeOnlySmokeWhenBored,SoWeDoTwoPacksADay (phil-99)
Subject: Went in for 10am this morning, missing an hour's worth of lectures
Go to find the people I know in the next lecture, walk in the door and
find it dark, empty and distinctly not-networking-lecture-like. hmm. Then
remember that last week he told us there was no lecture this week. DOH! So
went to labs and spodded/did some programming work for a while (which involved
me trying to figure out why someone else's program wouldn't compile - and
failing) until the next lecture - which was actually fairly interesting for
once - Bill Karakostas normally looks like he's about to commit suicide but
today he was quite cheery :)
Labs again, discussion on how to store a "map" of the room we're
supposed to be "hoovering", decide that even though a 4 way linked-list would
be interesting (and no doubt hours of mind-bending programming fun *grin*) and
probably get us more marks for style at least, that in the time that we have -
an array based solution was the only way to go. Shame really, as it truly is
wasteful and the equivalent of using a 10'*10' box to ship a paperback book,
never mind a kludge! we just don't have enough time between us, and enough
programming expertise (AFA I've been able to figure out - I'm the only one of
us who's willing to spend any amount of time on a problem, instead of just
loking at it and giving up, bah).
Come home, and spod/record MP3s/eat. Going to go to this CUS thingie
tonight - someone said Quiz Night? I managed to get some questions right in
the 15-1 Grand Final today so I should be reasonably OK *smile*
And I seem to be lacking paragraphs in this edit. Two really huge
ones, unlike me :)
Currently listening to: This is a Low, by Blur. Lemme ff this one :)
Now: somehting that someone uploaded to me a little while back:
/music/uploads/pi/01 - clint mansell - pir^2.mp3
I don't know what it is but it's very drum&bassy/fantasy/dark/soundtracky???
Experimental, might be the word. Ohhhhhh now, the KLF :) Last Train to
Trancetral (remixed, boooo - I don't have the White Room CD with me to
record, bah).
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Mar 29 22:12:16 2000 GMT ]--
From: WeOnlySmokeWhenBored,SoWeDoTwoPacksADay (phil-99)
Subject: CUS Meet tonight was spoddy
What else can you describe it as? Spent most of it chatting with
Mirath and Tripwire which was nice, haven't seen them for a while. Arrived at
7:30 while nobody else was there :) Hung around and people turned up, then
drank lots very quickly which might account for why I feel as pissed as I do!
Bus home at 10:30 or so and pack of chips at the chippy in Chorlton :)
Drinking and food just mix so well *smile*
Currently listening to: Walking in Memphis, by Marc Cohn. Not the
best song on this album :)
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Mar 30 15:50:27 2000 GMT ]--
From: WeOnlySmokeWhenBored,SoWeDoTwoPacksADay (phil-99)
Subject: bored
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Mar 30 18:01:55 2000 GMT ]--
From: WeOnlySmokeWhenBored,SoWeDoTwoPacksADay (phil-99)
Subject: out
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Mar 30 18:08:41 2000 GMT ]--
From: WeOnlySmokeWhenBored,SoWeDoTwoPacksADay (phil-99)
Subject: of
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Mar 30 21:24:27 2000 GMT ]--
From: WeOnlySmokeWhenBored,SoWeDoTwoPacksADay (phil-99)
Subject: my mind
yeah I gave up :)
Wanted to do some work tonight but couldn't. I'm too excited! Things
with Kate at home are taking a very bizzare turn, which could go in a good way
for me - not necessarily a great way for Kate though... but I've become a
selfish git now and as long as I know I'm catered for the other considerations
come second :) I can only be pushed so far, obviously *smile*
What to say... well....... things with Gina have become even worse,
and it's looking likely to become a showdown. Especially with someone else
coming along and making things a little more interesting. Will explain all in
good time :) Just not right here and now.
Handed in Embedded Systems coursework today, a day early :) Which was
nice! Got a desperate phonecall about an hour ago from someone on my course at
Hardy Farm, whom I dislike intently. He's obviously not been to any of the
Conc Systems lectures, and wasn't aware we had coursework to do ;) So when
someone told him it had to be handed in tommorrow (lies, next Thursday is
when it has to be in) he's obvously panicked :) Being the vindictive bastard I
can be, I told him my work was in the labs at uni, muhahahahaha. Made me feel
good anyhow *smile*
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Mar 30 22:12:59 2000 GMT ]--
From: WeOnlySmokeWhenBored,SoWeDoTwoPacksADay (phil-99)
Subject: GOt very psised off with people in this block today
Went to do some ironing today (wow!) and found my iron, two things
wrong with it. The cord was worn through, with the wires exposed. OK - it's
understandable - it's very old. 2ndly - which is NOT excusable - someone had
dropped the iron on the carpet obviously - and NOT picked it up. Therefore the
iron is now ruined - it has bits of carpet stuck to the bottom that I can't get
off. RUINED. And the second I find out who it was I am going to wring their
necks. And I bet I know just who it was... the same person who has a habit of
borrowing cutlery and crockery, then leaving it on the work surfaces for 6
months before you want to use it yourself and wash it up.
I will kill him when I see him.
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Mar 30 22:23:05 2000 GMT ]--
From: WeOnlySmokeWhenBored,SoWeDoTwoPacksADay (phil-99)
Subject: Currently listening to: Play, by Moby
A strange album with a variety of styles that seem to blend into one
after a while.. i.e. - it gets a bit boring after a few songs if you are
intently listening :-\ Makes great b/g music tho!
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Mar 30 23:22:34 2000 GMT ]--
From: WeOnlySmokeWhenBored,SoWeDoTwoPacksADay (phil-99)
Subject: Archived...
On request...
Would be deleted but I really don't want to do that.
Mind you - have to figure out how to delete it all first :)
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Mar 31 09:44:27 2000 GMT ]--
From: WeOnlySmokeWhenBored,SoWeDoTwoPacksADay (phil-99)
Subject: spoke to Kate for a while again last night... she sounds determined to
get this sorted out - which can only be a good thing in reality. I've been
telling her now for months that it can't go on, but she's tried to keep it
going on and on and on and on. I'm having a tough time not saying "I told you
so" :)
Yeah so it was about 2:00am by the time I got to sleep last night,
hence why I woke up at 9:30 and decided that going into lectures today was
nothing but a bad idea... I'd missed the interesting one. I'm prolly going to
spend the day hiding from Mike and Amelia who both want me to buy tickets for
the Hardy Farm ball (which is tonight) - which I can't afford. I might
actually head into uni and try to do some work in the labs or in the library
(if I can remember where it is?! We don't really have to use the library on
our course). hmmm.
*sigh* Well today should make for good/bad news :)
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Mar 31 16:34:46 2000 GMT ]--
From: WeOnlySmokeWhenBored,SoWeDoTwoPacksADay (phil-99)
Subject: IT WORKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
See - spend a coupla hours working on it and you can make it work too!
Thought that I'd never get this concurrent systems part (ii) to work,
but perseverance paid off :) Hey - it was actually simpler than I expected
too! lol
Sat here munching on dried fruit :) Yum! Well - apart from the
prunes at least :) They can stay in the bag, thank you very much! Dried
apricot, dried apple rings, bits of pear and what else? Oh yeah, peaches...
healthy and prolly the first fruit I've eaten in weeks!
Currently shouting along to: Fat Les - Vindaloo
Doanload it from:
http://skyscraper.fortunecity.com/solaris/21/fatles-vindaloo.mp3
if you want :)
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Apr 1 14:05:22 2000 GMT ]--
From: WeOnlySmokeWhenBored,SoWeDoTwoPacksADay (phil-99)
Subject: hmmmmm
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Apr 1 14:15:24 2000 GMT ]--
From: WeOnlySmokeWhenBored,SoWeDoTwoPacksADay (phil-99)
Subject: I had a great night last night, sat with a bottle of rum and 4 cans of
coke :) Feel great today as well!!!
Sat up since about 9:30-10:00 working, got COnc Systems all sussed out
now just need to code it, will do that when I've found some food :)
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Apr 1 16:33:43 2000 GMT ]--
From: WeOnlySmokeWhenBored,SoWeDoTwoPacksADay (phil-99)
Subject: Mostly all coded. It's messy but it'll take a little time to figure
out how to tidy it up, don't know if I'm bored enough to do that yet :) Like,
I have the same bit of code repeated at various points that could easily be
placed into a procedure but knowing me, I'd break it :)
Been shopping today, really did need more food. I don't know if I
really have been, but I feel like I've eaten so much this last couple of weeks.
I just hope I'm not piling on any weight, as I do try not to put any on but
I normally end up doing my usual - getting stressed and going on an all out
munch-fest :\ Hopefully not this semester - got most of my work done with over
a week to go, whopp4eeeee!
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Apr 1 21:32:36 2000 GMT ]--
From: IDontWantToWatchHerWatchMeMakeHerCry (phil-99)
Subject: My God. Two nights in a row drunk.
Well OK not drunk now, just had a few bottles and my head's a little
swimmy. Well - it's not my fault they're selling Oranjeboom for #1 a bottle
now is it? :)
Worst thing is I haven't been drinking anything lately so all this has
gone straight to my head.
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Apr 2 12:59:32 2000 GMT ]--
From: IDontWantToWatchHerWatchMeMakeHerCry (phil-99)
Subject: hohum
Again I feel the strange compulsion to pick up the phone and call
someone not too far away from here but I daren't right now. It's been 3 days
now, my God! I hope that she's got something sorted out!
I've finsihed one piece of coursework, made a good start on another
and made a bad start on another, and I've still got a week to go. What is
wrong with me?? :) I think I must be learning *grin*
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Apr 2 13:22:27 2000 GMT ]--
From: IDontWantToWatchHerWatchMeMakeHerCry (phil-99)
Subject: ok I'm only trying to waste time now.
I got a copy of comeone else's Human Computer Interaction coursework
and it's helped me get an idea of what needs to be done, but even still - I
spent about 45 minutes on it earlier and then quit, trying desperately hard to
stay awake! It truly is the most mind-numbing piece of work I have had to do
to date.
I guess I could always hand in exactly the same as him *grin* That
could be fun :-) Maybe not :-\ But I've done so much stuff today to try and
avoid doing the work that I don't think I can put it off any longer...
Listening to: Divine Comedy - Here Comes The Flood, from the album,
Fin de Siecle (End of the Century, I believe)
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Apr 2 16:48:43 2000 GMT ]--
From: IDontWantToWatchHerWatchMeMakeHerCry (phil-99)
Subject: Well I managed to put it off :)
Went and made my tea... kida Chilli but not quite Chilli (no kidney
beans). Then sat and watched "Forbidden Planet" WHOOOOOOOO!!! Reminded me of
the play "Return to the Forbidden Planet" that I've now seen *counts*... 5
times :) It's so good!
I couldn't help singing "Good vibrations" part way through :)
"Gotttaaa keep these, loving vi--vibrations a-happening"
lol... I'm so sad :)
So after that I started to watch "The Lost World" but decided that I
really should do some work, but instead I logged onto here and well - here I
am. This really is bad, it's gotta be done by Tuesday, 11am :-\ *sigh* I
guess I will do it at 3am tommorrow morning, lol. But either way, I've got the
most important work finished - Concurrent Systems is done and dusted, and as
far as I can tell - 100% perfect!
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Apr 2 16:51:59 2000 GMT ]--
From: IDontWantToWatchHerWatchMeMakeHerCry (phil-99)
Subject: Currently listening to:
The Divine Comedy - Middle Class Heroes
*hits fast forward* (I got bored OK?)
Slimer - Ghostbusters?????
*ff, FAST!*
Ahhh now here's a tune... Sandra Vaughan - Come Rain or Come Shine
"I'm gonna love you, like nobody's loved you,
Come Rain or come shine,
High as a mountain, and deep as a river,
Come rain or come shine.
I guess when you met me,
It was just one of those things"
And about there I can't figure out the lyrics :)
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Apr 2 18:30:48 2000 GMT ]--
From: IDontWantToWatchHerWatchMeMakeHerCry (phil-99)
Subject: I am so bored
I am SO bored
I am SO SO SO bored
It's Sunday evening and I'm about to go insane. I'm not in the mood
for anything. I don't feel like hacking away at anything, Kate's still
inaccesable to me and I can't even get through to my parents! Arrggh! I've
done nothing but vegetate since around 3pm today and it's getting me down...
Might sit and read some more of Sophie's World if I can be arsed to
get dressed and go find another lightbulb (my lamp bulb blew up the other
night, not literally, of course) so I don't have to sit with the fluorescent
tube on...
*sigh*
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Apr 2 18:43:23 2000 GMT ]--
From: IDontWantToWatchHerWatchMeMakeHerCry (phil-99)
Subject: This is how bored I am.
Your Temperament is Guardian : SJ
Your variant temperament is Inspector : ISTJ
Details of questionaire:
I+6 S+14 T+6 J+4
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Apr 2 19:46:36 2000 GMT ]--
From: IDontWantToWatchHerWatchMeMakeHerCry (phil-99)
Subject: I truly am bored
Your IQ Test Results
IQ
Your score = 132
The following sub-scores are reported on a scale from 0 to 100.
Low Medium High
Pattern Recognition (Series)
Your score = 87
Classification (Odd one out)
Your score = 58
Analogies
Your score = 100
Arithmetic
Your score = 44
Logical Reasoning
Your score = 66
General Knowledge
Your score = 66
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Apr 2 20:56:08 2000 GMT ]--
From: IDontWantToWatchHerWatchMeMakeHerCry (phil-99)
Subject: Watching Martha Meet Frank Daniel and Whosits
Great Film
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Apr 2 20:59:03 2000 GMT ]--
From: IDontWantToWatchHerWatchMeMakeHerCry (phil-99)
Subject: Laurence
*sigh*
Doesn't help making me feel any better......... it's all so damn
cutesie and stuff
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Apr 2 22:50:26 2000 GMT ]--
From: IDontWantToWatchHerWatchMeMakeHerCry (phil-99)
Subject: And now I can't sleep...
I'm just too worried, I guess...
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Apr 3 14:24:35 2000 GMT ]--
From: IDontWantToWatchHerWatchMeMakeHerCry (phil-99)
Subject: Demonstration was excellent. Peter Green looked very impressed at the
amount of work we'd done (mind you - so was I!). Buggy now makes a map of it's
environment (albeit in an array) and all we need to do now is figure out how to
cover the entire floorspace in an efficient manner...
Found a wonderful sandwich shop down by Manchester Uni, at the
Precinct Centre. Turkey baguette and a bottle of diet coke for #2. Wheee!
Bigger and MUCH cheaper than the UMST SA shop.
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Apr 3 23:59:16 2000 GMT ]--
From: IDontWantToWatchHerWatchMeMakeHerCry (phil-99)
Subject: 1:00am
Sat with someone else's coursework trying to work through as much of
it as possible before I end up in a soggy heap on the floor. Hopefully I'll
get a fair bit done... I got prolly 1/4 of it done on my own do even if I get
it 1/2 done I'll be happy. At least then it's out the way!
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Apr 4 00:33:20 2000 GMT ]--
From: IDontWantToWatchHerWatchMeMakeHerCry (phil-99)
Subject: hmmmmm
writing a questionnaire.. trying to think of imaginative answers when
I have 5 options for 15 questions. Copy and paste doesn't work for half of
them either. ARRGGHH!!
Music currently playing... It's the theme from The Last of the
Mohicans (never did see that film)
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Apr 4 02:22:31 2000 GMT ]--
From: IDontWantToWatchHerWatchMeMakeHerCry (phil-99)
Subject: Spent almost 20 minutes doing printer troubleshooting in Linux...
Only to reboot, and checked the warning logs. What do I see -
parport.o errors (parallel port module files) DOH! So one kernel recompile
with those included in the kernel later... I can print out my assignment!
Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Apr 4 08:47:34 2000 GMT ]--
From: IDontWantToWatchHerWatchMeMakeHerCry (phil-99)
Subject: 6hrs sleep... haven't done this in ages :)
I cannie be arsed to get out of this chair and drag my lazy carcass to
the shower now :) 1...2...3...HEAVE. *makes feeble, token attempt to stand*
Nope, it ain't gonna happen. Damnit I need to be in by 1045 to hand in this
assignment.
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Apr 4 10:14:57 2000 GMT ]--
From: IDontWantToWatchHerWatchMeMakeHerCry (phil-99)
Subject: Success
A 7 page report in place of a 15 page assignment doesn't Quite cut the
mustard but hey - it'll do :) Now sat in spod labs, with dodgy keyboard -
space bar only works intermittently :-( Pissing me off royally.
My next task, should I choose to accept it, is to do my Languagesand
Their Implementation c/work. By Friday. Easy! 'specially if Jason lends me his
*evil grin*
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Apr 4 13:42:38 2000 GMT ]--
From: IDontWantToWatchHerWatchMeMakeHerCry (phil-99)
Subject: YESYESYESYESYESYESYESYESYESYESYESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!
I have a job - albeit a temporary job :) 6 weeks of part time work
for CSU Ltd. doing testing on their PROSPECTS Hiher Education careers decision
software type thing, if it's the same as last yr :)
I sent an email to them on Monday morning and got a phone call back on
my mobile (that was a shock!) while I was in the labs helping someone with
their programming (God that was a mess) saying "do you want to come in for a
chat?". I go and chat to him, and mention that I did it last year, and he says
"When can you start?" *grin*
#4.50 an hour too! I got 8hrs for this week *does quick calculation*
so that makes #40 already! WHOOOOOO!!! Good thing too as the cash machine
refused me money today :-\ Checked the balance and #60 has dissappeared
somewhere, I prolly spent it but if I did it must have been a while ago as I
don't remember it. Must check Barclays' net banking... if Netscrape will let
me that is... last time I tried it from Linux it refused to play :-(
But I'm HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Apr 5 17:10:18 2000 GMT ]--
From: IDontWantToWatchHerWatchMeMakeHerCry (phil-99)
Subject: Hmmmm....
Never made it home last night...
So tired... need sleep
But need fooooooooood first :-) Not eaten anything but some Finnish
bread and some chocolate egg-type-things today... and work was boring as sin
but just think - the money will soon be pouring in *smile*
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Apr 5 17:39:46 2000 GMT ]--
From: (Wanted: Food By IV:Will Pay Cash) (phil-99)
Subject: What can I say about it without saying too much?
Last night I went into town to meet a Finnish lass I knew from the
net. I have no idea how we first got talking - I think she was just one of
these people that randomly messaged me and I normally ignore :) But whatever -
We met in town, and started chatting... wasn't forced, but it wasn't entirely
natural - I mean it's not like we spend hours chatting every day or anything.
Ended up in Elemental with her buying me a coupla drinks because I literally
had no cash.
I was gonna leave at that point, but she invited me back to her
Sister's place where she was staying. I thought "Hell, why not? I can stay
quite late and then come home." She dumps me in the door and runs to the shop,
coming back with a bottle of White Lightening, lol... I'm like "I haven't drunk
this since I was 14!" I think I demolished 3/4 of it, erk :) She complained
at some point during the night that she was stiff and I offered a backrub :)
This is where things start to descend into murkyness (that's my excuse
and I'm sticking to it) All I'll freely admit to is staying in her bed with
her (could be entirely innocent!!) and that I had a great night overall, even
if I did drink cider for the first time in 6yrs *grin*
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Apr 5 20:02:58 2000 GMT ]--
From: (Wanted: Food By IV:Will Pay Cash) (phil-99)
Subject: hmmmm
And you know what I want right now? More than anything?
I want a hug :-\ No net.hug (which although I do appreciate them,
they don't quite do the same) - but someone who actually gives a toss, even if
it _is_ only for a night. That was the best thing.
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Apr 5 20:16:37 2000 GMT ]--
From: (Wanted: Food By IV:Will Pay Cash) (phil-99)
Subject: arrggh I'm turning into a luvvy-duvvy
This is - in no uncertain terms - "a bad thing" (tm)
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Apr 6 19:28:31 2000 GMT ]--
From: (Wanted: Food By IV:Will Pay Cash) (phil-99)
Subject: I've just got back in from a long long long walk....
Which was very very very nice. I spotted at around 6:45 that it was a
really sunny evening and I'd been promising myself all week that I'd go out and
take some photies with my camera (I have to use it sometimes *smile*). So I
popped out and decided to walk along the river.
It soon dawned on me that sunset was approaching, and how wonderful it
would be to be able to take a picture that compared to the one I got at 6:30 in
the morning at Glasgow airport over Christmas (sunrise, or just before. The
sky is a mass of blues and purples and oranges and reds. The M8 runs along the
lower right hand corner and it is, a gorgeous picture).
Wander until I find Sale Water Park. Decide it would be ideal for
picture taking purposes. Take shitloads of pictures, and suddenly I realise I
forgot to take some spare disks. D'oh. Delete the poorer ones :) Sit and
wait for sunset. It was most dissapointing :( There were no clouds where
I was, but in front of the sun (I swear they were right in front of the sun)
there were loads :-( So I got a few good shots, but nothing as spectacular as
I wanted.
As soon as Fortunecity get their arses in gear and make their FTP
server work, I'll shove them on my website in some kind of page.
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Apr 6 20:05:06 2000 GMT ]--
From: (Wanted: Food By IV:Will Pay Cash) (phil-99)
Subject: They're up...
I warn you - they're all 640*480 (that's quite big) ... high res.
They are all (c) me (that's Phil Sumner, if you didn't know)
PLEASE look through them all - they do get more interesting towards
the end :) The first few aren't thrilling!
*********** http://www.bigfoot.com/~phil_sumner/sun.html *********
Sorry about the edits, noticed a couple of mistakes and frogot the end
of the URL, d'oh :)
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Apr 7 11:53:22 2000 GMT ]--
From: (Wanted: Food By IV:Will Pay Cash) (phil-99)
Subject: Soooooooooo
I can now run ICQ from Uni :) Wheeeeee!!
OK maybe not quite... I just got told how to run it using xhost and
DISPLAY (hey, I'm a newbie still *grin*) from my compie at home. I'm waiting
to do a demonstration of my concurrent programming work, should start at 1pm
but the labs, are apparently jam packed. Could be _fun_.
Also going to see if I can get rid of the streaks on me photos. Play
around with the GIMP this afternoon/evening. Looking at them, some of them
would be perfect if it weren't for that :-\
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Apr 7 19:15:03 2000 GMT ]--
From: (Wanted: Food By IV:Will Pay Cash) (phil-99)
Subject: It's the end of terrrrrrrrrrrrrrrmmmmmmmmmmmmm!!!!!!!!!!!
Whooooooo! Such a weight off my shoulders :-) I am still in need of
a full body massge though, I just feel incredibly tense right now. Or maybe I
just need to finish that bottle of run? *grin*
Must call Kate tonight. Need to talk. Hopefully we won't have to
worry about who's around and stuff like normal :-( *sigh* Just feels like a
long time again.
I was all bubbly and bouncy and happy about a half-hour ago, I don't
know what's happenned to it :( *ponders* I blame ground-force. Best thing on
TV, which is very depressing :)
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Apr 8 01:00:11 2000 GMT ]--
From: (Wanted: Food By IV:Will Pay Cash) (phil-99)
Subject: Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
Drunk
Thanks be :)
Easy way of getting out of a difficult situation, even if she was
asleep anyhow :)
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Apr 8 09:45:46 2000 GMT ]--
From: (Wanted: Food By IV:Will Pay Cash) (phil-99)
Subject: Going along to Mirath and Tripwire's tonight...
Hope I feel better then :) I didn't think I drank enough to have this
kind of headache in the morning. *looks at the bottle, now half of what was
left in there* hmmm... I think I was more drunk than I thought at the time.
This is a bad thing. Is also a good thing I didn't speak to Kate :)
Just saw Sting doing a duet on L&K with the presenter guy, I forgot
his name, but he's a long time Children's TV presenter... it was great!
(mostly) The presenter played the piano and has a wonderful voice, not
something that I would ever have expected from him :)
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Apr 8 11:27:58 2000 GMT ]--
From: (Wanted: Food By IV:Will Pay Cash) (phil-99)
Subject: Just read 3 or 4 chapters of Sophie's World. I forgot how hard it was
to read... it's not the kind of book you can just sit down and read at the drop
of the hat - you really have to be "in the mood" to appreciate it... Most other
books I would have finished by now :)
*yawns*
Went to the Pav last night to get a coupla cans of coke for me rum and
saw Hayley and Pauline there (Hardy Farm, 99-00), sat and chatted with them for
nearly two hours :) Was lovely, seems like ages since I saw them. Never mind
that Hayley bought me drinks *grin*
I don't know what to do. I really don't. I just don't want to hurt
anyone, myself included - thank you :-) If I decide to say "that's it, that's
all, I give up" then I don't know what'll happen... if I keep it going, then I
feel I'll only end up getting:
a) hurt
b) continually annoyed at all the indecisions
Well.....
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Apr 9 15:30:55 2000 GMT ]--
From: (Wanted: Food By IV:Will Pay Cash) (phil-99)
Subject: I've just been to view a possible house for next year.
*shrugs* It was pretty much what I expected... nothing amazingly
special and nothing appallingly bad... there were a few things that put me off
though:
o The first thing you see as you walk up to the house is a disgusting house
front, it doesn't look pleasant at all
o The carpet in the hall and on the stairs is grotty - some holes in the one
on the stairs and just barethread in general
o In some places there were gaps in the plasterwork or things not looking
like they should. I mean - lightswitches not secured against the wall,
and in one place, wallpaper not quite against the wall in a corner
o The windows are wood framed. Not bad in itself but insecure. They said
they do have locks on the windows though, which helps.
o The windows are single glazed. Heating costs.
o The floor is bare wood in most of the rooms. Again - heating costs.
Looks very nice though, and is low maintenance :)
Apart from those things, it looked nice. Honest! The lassies who live there
now said that the landlords were going to be renovating the house quite
extensively over summer - which would improve things lots - things like carpets
the lightswithces, and the plasterwork. BUT - I'm not willing to take it on
face value like that - I'm afraid if this was "the one" (which btw - it
ain't, or at least not yet - 1st house we've seen) I'd have to have a
guarantee from the agency that it was going to be renovated in those key areas.
I was overall impressed and think I could cope with living there...
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Apr 9 16:37:46 2000 GMT ]--
From: (Wanted: Food By IV:Will Pay Cash) (phil-99)
Subject: A thing I forgot...
o Water rates/meter (not sure which) not included. This adds (according to
the lassies living there) around #35 a month to the rent,
I'm thinking that I'd quite happily jump for it, but right now I'd like to see
at least one other place. Just as a bit of contrast.
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Apr 9 19:59:02 2000 GMT ]--
From: (Wanted: Food By IV:Will Pay Cash) (phil-99)
Subject: I really don't know................................
I keep thinking about what it is I actually want to say to Kate when I
call her tonight - if she ever gets home - that is. I keep thinking "I know
exactly what I need to do" but what I need to has very little bearing on
what I want :-|
*sigh*
I wanna copy something from sbj's diary, appropriate for what I'm
thinking and feeling now. I'd just feel bad for straight copying it :-)
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Apr 10 16:57:49 2000 GMT ]--
From: (Wanted: Food By IV:Will Pay Cash) (phil-99)
Subject: argh
I did it... I said in a very long winded and roundabout way that
things couldn't go on. I'm just getting so annoyed and so worried about what
is going to happen that it was taking over everything. But the response wasn't
quite what I hoped for :(
Something like... well - as I'm obviously not keeping you happy then
go and find someone else who can. Our paths will meet again and I'll still
remain hopeful.
Well.....
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Apr 10 20:39:00 2000 GMT ]--
From: (Wanted: Food By IV:Will Pay Cash) (phil-99)
Subject: hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm (lahhhhh)
Feeling rough :( I made a pasta bake for dinner tonight and ended up
munching every single last bit of it again - I'm eating way too much right now
it feels like. But then again I'm not eating breakfast or lunch really :-\
Watching a program on Black Boxes in Boeing 737s. Quite interesting,
but I can't help thinking that it's scaremongering disguised as fact. It's
little things - like they said that our chances of dying in a plane crash are
the same as they were 25 years ago. True, maybe - but that chance is
minute - and they don't mention that fact. And they've gone for the
"people" approach, getting families of the victimes to talk about it, which
doesn't really bring anything to it in my opinion.
But then, maybe I'm just too cold to see it that way.
Got talking with Mirath, Tripwire, Albatros and sbj the other day when
we were all together and the conversation somehow got around to religion, or
maybe that's the wrong words - we discussed paganism and various other
religions, and there was something I said that I should have said more clearly,
I guess. I don't understand religion in general. I don't see why people have
a need to be a part of something. If it's that. I don't understand why people
feel the need to believe in something, something that doesn't physically exist?
Maybe if I could see this - then the rest of it might all make sense to me.
I don't particularly believe in anything. I mean by that - that my
life is ruled by what happens now, or/and by what I remember from my past, and
how I want my future to go.
This is NOT to say that I think religion or beliefs are wrong in ANY
way. It's just that I don't understand... ahh well...
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Apr 11 08:23:45 2000 GMT ]--
From: (Wanted: Food By IV:Will Pay Cash) (phil-99)
Subject: I never was very good at explaining what I meant :-)
It's the morning, I've now been up for almost an hour and a half, and
I feel rough as all hell, ugh. I was lying in bed at 8:30 last night watching
University Challenge (which was very artsy wasn't it?) - then watched a program
on Black Box recorders in aircraft, then took some of the Valerian that
Caroline gave me the other day and went to bed. Next thing I know, it's
5:30am. Yuck... I cam so close to getting up then but I think I'm glad I
didn't, as I fell asleep again and ended up waking up at 8am.
I also had a dream, or I should say - remembered a dream :) When I
woke at 5 I knew I'd dreamt something and cvould remember it, but now - trying
to remember what it was, I can't :( I know it had something to do with the
program I was watching but I can't remember any more than that.
Bah, anyhow - must get my arse into work for 3hrs of boring-as-all
-hell-but-getting-paid-for-it duty :-)
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Apr 11 13:15:40 2000 GMT ]--
From: (Wanted: Food By IV:Will Pay Cash) (phil-99)
Subject: I wrote an essay for my GCSE English Coursework
Not exactly a revelation, that statement, I must admit :) But this
essay was kept by my then English teacher as an example of what a good essay
should be like. Now, in retrospect I wish I could have gotten a photocopy of
it or something, because I think back to it now, and keep on remembering bits
of it, and remember how good it was. I want to know if it really was good or
whether it's just my inflated memories :)
Only problem is - the teacher is prolly now either dead or retired.
He was already somewhere around 70 when he was teaching us! He used to pull
out work from the 1950s at times, and it would be yellowing and curling round
the edges, and read it as examples of a good piece of work (I was followed to
work by a Salad Sandwich?! - that one was good!).
Also I don't want to go back to my school. I spent ten years there
hating most of it and I don't want to even consider going back to find it.
I've considered re-writing it but I can't remember the storyline :( What I
remember is a kid, getting a motorcycle for his birthday and having a crash -
but it was done using flashbacks, and the bits inbetween just ain't forthcoming
to my already leaky memory.
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Apr 11 17:57:41 2000 GMT ]--
From: (Wanted: Food By IV:Will Pay Cash) (phil-99)
Subject: Tired and bored...
Watching Due South. Wanted to ask Ian to go down the pub with me for
a coupla drinks tonight but cannie because he's gone home. Bah. Looks like
I'm gonna end up online all night tonight then, either that or in bed. Or
eating.
Could work? But on what? winsock programming maybe. Even with a
"help sheet" from the lecturer - I am STILL no clearer on the whole thing.
*sigh*
I'm doing a lot of that lately, ain't I?
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Apr 11 19:51:57 2000 GMT ]--
From: (Wanted: Food By IV:Will Pay Cash) (phil-99)
Subject: muhahahahahaaaaaaaaa
I can watch movies and TV with SOUND in Linux now :-) At long long
long last I found the kernel option I needed. Only problem I have now is that
everything is compiled into the kernel instead of as modules, because I
couldn't get modprobe to work :-(
Ahh well - only reason I need Windows now is for Winsock Programming
*muhahaha*
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Apr 12 00:44:19 2000 GMT ]--
From: (Wanted: Food By IV:Will Pay Cash) (phil-99)
Subject: Spent alot of today chatting with Shirley - we just talked pretty much
like we always have done and took the piss outta each other and flirted to hell
and back :-) It was really nice to talk to someone semi-normal *grin*
I've spent all evening compiling and recompiling kernels. I cannot
for the life of me get the modules idea to work! Everything works _fine_ if I
shove it in the kernel but it's hardly efficient now, is it? My main problem
is the sound card - if I can get the kernelised then I'll be happy - I really
haven't tried with many other things - maybe I should, because the sound card
driver can't be that big in the kernel now - can it?
It's frustrating though. There are no real step by step guides on
how to set up modules. They all assume various things and don't go through
what you have to do, or what you need to do if things go wrong. It's so
annoying to have followed the instructions and to not have it work as you
expected - only to go back to the instructions and realise theere is no
"troubleshooting" guide.
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Apr 12 10:25:33 2000 GMT ]--
From: (Wanted: Food By IV:Will Pay Cash) (phil-99)
Subject: kk...
Woke up at various times from 9:30->11am when I got up and started
spodding :) Sadsadsad. No work today so I'm not sure what I'm going to do. I
might go into town and see if I can get my money back for my train tickets that
I couldn't use on Saturday.
hmmmm... hungry. No breakfast foods in the house either, might need
to do a spot of shopping, I only need the usual - bread, milk, cheese (which I
can't believe even now how expensive it is) oh... and some Weatabix :-)
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Apr 12 19:45:03 2000 GMT ]--
From: (Wanted: Food By IV:Will Pay Cash) (phil-99)
Subject: hodie hum
I had a _really_ nice afternoon/evening with Caroline in town. She
asked about 4pm if I fancied a coffee so jumped on the 1st bus I could find and
met her in Coffee Republic. It was great to get out of this hole in the ground
for a while and actually see someone ... we just talked for an hour and a
quarter when we suddenly realised what time it was and thought we were gonna be
chucked out *smile*
I went to Tesco on the way back and picked up Lasagna pasta, cheese
milk and umm... bread rolls. Made a lasagna - which was rather nice :-)
Right, and I am going to save the half I made, unlike normal...
And now I just sent Kate an ICQ asking her to write to me. I wanna
know what she's thinking and how she's doing. I don't, however, expect a
reply. Never got a reply from the email I sent her at work :-\
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Apr 12 20:43:37 2000 GMT ]--
From: (Wanted: Food By IV:Will Pay Cash) (phil-99)
Subject: Currently listening to: Lonestar - Amazed
*sniffle*
When yer down, how to get yerself even further down in one easy lesson
I guess.
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Apr 12 23:28:58 2000 GMT ]--
From: (Wanted: Food By IV:Will Pay Cash) (phil-99)
Subject: Remind me next time, when I buy oranges, not to buy cheap ones :)
I'm spending more time peeling the damn things than I am eating them.
And they ain't particularly good ones either, a bit flat and tasteless. I came
close to munching on the lasagna but the bag of oranges saved the night
*smile*
I got leafnode working too, whoohooooo!!!!!! So I can now download
any news articles that I want to read and use a local news server :) It's not
really a major advantage but it just means that I can specify expiry times on
high-traffic groups. Makes it quicker for me too :)
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Apr 13 00:00:51 2000 GMT ]--
From: (Wanted: Food By IV:Will Pay Cash) (phil-99)
Subject: Well fuck her...
I called up, to talk. We talk... she says "sorry but I'm not in the
mood for talking right now". I say - "This is one of the hardest things I find
about us, I feel like I have to harrass you at times to get you to talk". She
hangs up.
Great communication skills girl.
Why did I bother?
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Apr 13 10:35:05 2000 GMT ]--
From: (Wanted: Food By IV:Will Pay Cash) (phil-99)
Subject: Oh, and I now have an ICQ message with what looks like a song quote.
Cannie be arsed to write it out but it is along the lines of "I told
you I never wanted to talk so sod off. Even lovers need a break sometimes.
I'll write more when my mind clears"
Grrrrrr.
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Apr 13 21:29:00 2000 GMT ]--
From: (Wanted: Food By IV:Will Pay Cash) (phil-99)
Subject: Bad day all in all...
Woke up around 10:30, spodded until 11:45 when I started to panic that
I would be late if I didn't get me arse in gear, So rushed a shower, no food
or drink and got to the bus stop. 15 minutes later I was at work. ARSE!
(it's normally around a half-hour to 3/4 hour journey into town). SO went and
foraged for food at the rather nice sandwich shop :)
Worked for 4 hrs, got home, tired. Ate lasagna from last night. Sat
and played on the computer. Achieved nothing really... upgraded fetchmail, got
leafnode working properly properly instead of half-properly :) umm. Got a
very bizzarre message from someone saying "your [sic] not off to work yet" -
assumed it was one of Kate's alter-ego accounts but as I got no reply to my
reply I guess not?
Found an email in my hotmail box this morning. (why she insists on
using my hotmail account is beyond me, as I very rarely check it). hmm. All
in all it's a pretty typical Kate mail. I wanna say stuff but I can't, blah
nothing exciting but for another "find someone to make you happy" stint. Oh,
and still hopeful stuff for the future...
I guess, that is the final thing to say...
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Apr 14 09:53:24 2000 GMT ]--
From: (Wanted: Food By IV:Will Pay Cash) (phil-99)
Subject: 1045 and I still haven't opened my curtains....
In fact, it's been about 36hrs since they were opened. I dread to
think what is happening out there.. Prolly the whole world's having a quick
party and when I go to throw them open everything will all be tidied up save
for the few crisp wrappers and beer bottles that inevitably lie around the
floor in Manchester anyhow :)
Got two bills yesterday, double whammy :( Why they couldn't have
waited until next month to send me them I don't understand... mobile phone one
is Direct Debit, which is a good thing - at least it'll get paid, pretty much
no matter how much the bank hates me right now. Also got fixed-phone bill, uck
:( This is for *checks* 07/02/2000. Fecking wonderful, innit? So I owe
WORLDxCHANGE telecom somewhere around ukp#47 - and that's for a MONTH! (I
say somewhere around because I should get an early payment discount if I pay by
27th, but as they have screwed up the billing it doesn't show it).
This could be a good thing about the events of the last week or so :)
Will save me a fortune in phone bills...
OK - I'm gonna do it, I'm gonna throw open these curtains and stare
right into the face of the bastard who's been dripping water onto my window all
night long too! But before I do that... dreams :)
I had a bizzarre dream, I don't often remember my dreams I admit but
this one did stick, kinda. It was yesterday morning and one fo the many times
I woke up I could remember this vividly, so really tried to stay awake and keep
it in my head but fell asleep again, bummer. I just remembered it this morning
:) From what I remember... Kate was running for a political post, and she was
on TV being interviewed and I was in the audience (I assume?) watching. She
was getting a hard time from one of the people interviewing her so I started
heckling them and stuff... sketchy I know but hey - it's a good start for me
:-)
Oh, and the world outside my Window looks pretty average for 11am in
the morning.......
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Apr 14 17:34:49 2000 GMT ]--
From: (Wanted: Food By IV:Will Pay Cash) (phil-99)
Subject: Tired... again
On the bus on the way home I was so hungry and so thirsty and
stuff that I was actually shaking... not good juju. Ate 4 cheese toasties and
24oz cup of coffee :-) Feel better but still starving :-(
Watching the Simpsons, ancient repeats yet AGAIN which is beginning to
piss me off. I think we've seen just about every single episode that the BBC
own the rights to show 15 times over.
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Apr 14 19:10:10 2000 GMT ]--
From: (Wanted: Food By IV:Will Pay Cash) (phil-99)
Subject: I was thinking on the bus on the way home about stuff...
Mainly about me... :) But in retrospect it prolly isn't all too
interesting to anyone but me - so I won't put it in here...
I've now had my Linux box running for *checks uptime* 2 days, and 18
hrs. I would rarely ever get that kind of time with Win :) Nice! I can do
everything here except Windows Sockets programming, so I at least have to keep
a minimal Windows install running... shame :)
And I'm learning more and more every day how powerful it al can be if
it's all properly set up... nice :)
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Apr 14 20:08:39 2000 GMT ]--
From: (Wanted: Food By IV:Will Pay Cash) (phil-99)
Subject: DAMNIT
I am SO skint :(
Thanks to Asda/Tesco/Barclaycard (one of them) making a fuckup - one
of the charges to my Visa card didn't go on until a WEEK after I made it. So
when I checked the B/C website on Saturday night to make sure I had enough cash
to take out some cash, I thought I was well in the clear in case anything
happenned.
One #30 shopping bill and on #20 phone bill later (both of which I
actually paid, a week before) and I have #2 credit left on my Visa card.
That was what I needed to live on for the next 2 weeks, UGH... seeing as we're
not likely to get paid from CSU/Man Uni for another 2 weeks! Even UMST Student
Association finance dept got me on the payroll in under 3 weeks!!!!
Money - shit!
I really hope that Barclays will be nice enough to let me use my Delta
card even though their cash machines hate me. Crap.
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Apr 15 14:32:55 2000 GMT ]--
From: (Wanted: Food By IV:Will Pay Cash) (phil-99)
Subject: Hmm, I was in a particularly foul mood last night... *reads again*
Remind me that I should only log onto Mono when I'm in a nice fluffy
happy mood, then I won't put nasty diary edits like last night's in :) A bit
of me that I don't really like is that angry bit...
Had a semi-useful morning... I dug out some notes for Languages and
Their Implementations and read through some of those, even though I didn't
actually understand half of what the eejit is trying to say (you have to switch
into some bizarre (one Z or two?) mindset when dealing with him - frustrating)
so I'll have another go soon, when my hands warm up. Been having trouble
typing because my hands are cold (or is it the other way round? Hands are cold
because I'm not typing enough? hmmmmmm).
Trying to rationalise over money. I have precisely #12.35 left of the
#50 I took out on Saturday night?!?!?! Blurgle. Where's it gone? *thinks*
Well OK - I spent a fiver on pizza at Caroline and Andrew's. I spent about the
same on munchies for the night.. so that's a tenner accounted for. I took 2
pounds into work yesterday and the day before for lunch, so that's 4 pounds :)
Oh - spent #5.46 in Tesco's on Tuesday after meeting Caroline for
coffee (another #3 odd) so that ccounts for nearly another tenner. So there's
around #24. Bus pass for this week was 6.70 so that's #30. Bloody hell...
it's amazing where it all goes when you look at it like this... now I just have
another tenner to account for?
*thinks hard*
I don't know :-\
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Apr 15 14:41:14 2000 GMT ]--
From: (Wanted: Food By IV:Will Pay Cash) (phil-99)
Subject: Well yesterday (day before?) I bought two cornish pasties, a pint of
milk, a half pound of mince, no doubt something else from Chorlton... so that's
another 5 pounds gone? OK thats exaggerating... 70p each for the pasties and
70 p for the mince, and prolly 40p for the milk... #2.50...
Grrrrr.
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Apr 15 14:42:31 2000 GMT ]--
From: (Wanted: Food By IV:Will Pay Cash) (phil-99)
Subject: Currently listening to:
Dave Matthews and Tim Reynolds - Live at Luther College
Absolutely amazing song called "Little Thing"
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Apr 15 18:40:58 2000 GMT ]--
From: (Wanted: Food By IV:Will Pay Cash) (phil-99)
Subject: It's Saturday evening... should be happy for that little thing?
I've not yet had the courage to step outside of the block... Well - I
don't think courage comes into it really but I've had no reason to leave.
*shrug* Watched Blake's Seven - which I have to admit, I really really
enjoyed! I'd never really watched it before and it was wonderful :) Crappy
sets, crappy f/x but wonderful scripts and storylines (just like Babylon 5,
except B5 has good sets and good f/x, but wonderful storylines *smile*). all
combine to make a memorable show!
Wheeeee you gotta love this:
phil@ps:~ > uptime
7:34pm up 3 days, 17:57, 3 users, load average: 3.07, 3.03, 3.00
Now how come Win could never match that? Sad really :) (God I am becoming so
much of a geek it's depressing *grin*)
I just made what I considered to be a really good foody thing... I
cooked pasta (as you do), stuck it in a colander, rinsed out the pan and just
fried off some onions (nearly caremlised), yellow/red peppers and courgette
(thinly sliced - else it takes too long to cook) until they were soft, and
threw in some of Asda's cheapskate Dolmio stuff... throw in pasta, heat and
eat. Oh, forgot the red/black pepper in the veggies. Scrumptious it was too.
Meals in minutes... limited washing up potential too :)
OK now I'm getting confused which screen's which :)
Spent half the afternoon trying to install GNUCash, an MS Money type
program for Linux... problem is, it demands a million and one other packages
that I didn't have, so I ran away and found them, compiled and installed them
only to find out some of them needed _other_ packages. Arrgghhh! I thought I
had it all, but I prolly screwed up something along the lines... which would be
a bad thing (tm).
Oh, and I've gotta spend my evening filling in an application form
*grin*
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Apr 16 11:42:42 2000 GMT ]--
From: (Wanted: Food By IV:Will Pay Cash) (phil-99)
Subject: Do you mind me asking you what day it is?
This comes to you courtesy of the fact that today, Sunday, I got
up at 11:30am, rushed to get ready for the day, at midday walked to the bus
stop, sat at the bus stop until I realised that in fact, today is not a Monday
(no matter how much it feels like Monday morning) - it is, in fact, a Sunday
afternoon. Such a difference, yet my feeble brain can't figure out the
difference without the help of the bus routes!
This is what I get for staying up 'till 4:30am I guess?
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Apr 17 10:59:07 2000 GMT ]--
From: (Wanted: Food By IV:Will Pay Cash) (phil-99)
Subject: Last night/Yesterday in general
Damn nice day it was... in a rush now so more details forthcoming
later on ;-) After I've found enough shrapnel to make up #6.70 in change I'll
be running off to work - UGH! I am still seriously considering not going in,
they would never notice but I would miss the extra *calculates* #18.00 for 4hrs
work :)
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Apr 17 12:44:08 2000 GMT ]--
From: (Wanted: Food By IV:Will Pay Cash) (phil-99)
Subject: heh... I'm still here
This is a bad thing (tm)... but I am not up to working today, I really
ain't... and I thought I got a really good night's sleep last night too :)
OK - report... yesterday I got a message from Caroline asking if I
wanted to go kite flying, wheeeeeeeeeeeee! I couldn't resist an offer like
that now, could I? So along on the tram we go (We being Andrew, Caroline and
I), to Heaton Park and fly kites and feed squirrels and it was all nice and
stuff...
Then get back to Manchester, go to Coffee Rebulic and sit in there for
how long? Musta been somewhere around an hour, chatting (I'm turning into a
damn gossip here!)... I then go back to their place, where nothing exciting
happenned but watching Andrew play Quake is a laugh :) (bloody mental he is,
absolutely nuts) Ummm, then Curry at the Shere Khan and seeing as Caroline
wasn't going to let me go home at that time of night (*smile*) went back to
theirs and stayed the night :)
Awwwwww *huggles* Thanks alot :-))) (hmmm, don't expect those too
often! I have an image to try and uphold ya know!) Got the fright of my life
when Caroline woke me up at some point (I haven't been woken up in the morning
for months now!) in the morning. Got bus home, decided work was not an option
and well... Godknows what is gonna happen next :)
*snores*
*snoozes*
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Apr 17 20:21:21 2000 GMT ]--
From: (Wanted: Food By IV:Will Pay Cash) (phil-99)
Subject: I just realised...
It's 9:30 almost.
I have pissed away an entire day playing around on this damn computer.
GNUCash _still_ doesn't work quite right (doesn't start up at all,
let's say), and I've downloaded various bits and bobs (KDE Development
Environments, I'd like to have something other than PICO and g++/gcc) to use
for the "bigger" projects :)
But still - I've done nothing of any value :(
Ahh well, what else are holidays for? *smile*
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Apr 17 20:22:08 2000 GMT ]--
From: (Wanted: Food By IV:Will Pay Cash) (phil-99)
Subject: Currently compiling?
QT 2.1 (I think?) 'cuz one of thse damn development environments
demanded it. I pander far too much to this computer, ya know... if it wants
it, I go and find it :)
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Apr 19 00:04:04 2000 GMT ]--
From: (Wanted: Food By IV:Will Pay Cash) (phil-99)
Subject: I had 2 very bizarre conversations tonight...
One on Mono and one on the phone... both with interminable flirts, it
appears :) The one on the phone was with Maree, a mad Australian submissive
lady who I've talked to for _ages_ and flirted and more with for even longer :)
That was surreal...
The one on Mono was not quite so surreal but I got a very nice
compliment out of it so I am not gonna complain in any sense of the word :)
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Apr 19 00:10:38 2000 GMT ]--
From: (Wanted: Food By IV:Will Pay Cash) (phil-99)
Subject: I was thinking today about Andrew, on Sunday afternoon...
He's not a caffeine person, obviously :) After an Americano he was
fairly perky but said he felt awful after it had worn off... and I realised
today that for me, that "after-high" feeling is how I tend to feel most of the
time. I'm pretty groggy most of the day, but I battle through it, always have
done.
I reckon some of the reason for this is that I don't drink enough.
not alcohol either - just general liquids. There are days (admittedly these
are the worst days) when I'll go from 7am->3pm without a drink, and I really do
feel like crap them days. But even normally, I tend to have a cup of water
before I leave, nothing else 'till I get home at anywhere between 1-3, and
then maybe a cup of coffee around 5-6pm...
But a strong coffee definitely makes me feel good - even if it's only
for a half-hour - it makes me feel like a normal person should, IMO - of course
:) This is what I like about where I work: with the free vend coffee machine I
can drink as much as I like :-)
I'm sure that there was a point to this edit but I've lost it now :-\
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Apr 19 16:48:18 2000 GMT ]--
From: (Wanted: Food By IV:Will Pay Cash) (phil-99)
Subject: ummmm, got up late.... _very_ late....
Was sat up playing around online in various forms until around 2:30am
last night - which was quite nice :) (hmmm, I've typed all of this sentence
and still none of it has showed up on the screen?)
OK I had major net problems a while back....
My exam timetable sucks :( Will put it here in a mo...
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Apr 19 17:28:37 2000 GMT ]--
From: (Wanted: Food By IV:Will Pay Cash) (phil-99)
Subject: Exams :-(
CT202 Concurrent Systems: Monday 15th
CT206 Languages and Their Implementations: Monday 22nd
CT204 Human Computer Interaction: Tuesday 23rd
CT211 Networking and Open Systems: Thursday 25th
CT210 Software Quality: Wednesday 31st
All at 9:30am :( I am surprised that they're spread out over 3 weeks - I
assumed it would only be two... *shrugs* At least it means I'm finished the
year on Weds 31st...
*sighs* (1900...) I seem to have struck a regular 7pm low point... hmmm. What
can I do to get myself out of this rut? *ponders*
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Apr 19 22:49:41 2000 GMT ]--
From: (Wanted: Food By IV:Will Pay Cash) (phil-99)
Subject: I gave in... called Kate - s'been how long? 5 days - a week now?
Didn't get anything, only stuff about being busy at work... *shrug* I
don't know what she thinks / what she's planning. hmm. Well... I've been
telling people that knoow and care about us, that we're almost definitely over
as a "boyf/girlf" type thing so I need to stick to that. No matter how much I
wish I didn't need to...
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Apr 20 01:23:12 2000 GMT ]--
From: (Wanted: Food By IV:Will Pay Cash) (phil-99)
Subject: Hmmm... this doom is addictive I tell you :)
Spent an hour and a half playing it earlier, by accident!
Also cut myself up shaving - and it hurts :(
Also got a rather nice TV listings script from Andrew that will need
some persuading to work, I think... now I just need to learn how to use sed :-\
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Apr 20 09:50:00 2000 GMT ]--
From: (Wanted: Food By IV:Will Pay Cash) (phil-99)
Subject: ummm - btw - up there ^ - I really meant Quake.
Stayed up 'till about 4am playing, ugh. Up at 10 tho, feeling
particularly chirpy - which is good :) Only bad thing, is that on this
gorgeous and wonderfully sunny day, I've gotta go into work this afternoon :(
Oh well - them's the breaks I guess.
On a high note - I spoke to my mum yesterday, and when I told her that
I was too skint to come home for Easter, she promised to send me some money
down :) I had to argue my point that I _would_ repay her when I get my loan
through, but I think when I told her that I could just transfer it straight
into their account without their knowledge she realised she was onto a loser :)
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Apr 20 19:38:15 2000 GMT ]--
From: (Wanted: Food By IV:Will Pay Cash) (phil-99)
Subject: If you're at all interested in Social Work or Pschology check out
the keypath <MAWB>, or visit:-
http://130.88.173.32:8080/social_work_books.html
or
http://www.bigfoot.com/~phil_sumner/social_work_books.html
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Apr 20 23:06:56 2000 GMT ]--
From: (Wanted: Food By IV:Will Pay Cash) (phil-99)
Subject: I've just spent the last hour or so writing to prospective employers
in the US :) I'm happy that I'm actually doing something about this
dream of mine, but I feel that I might have left it too late to get
anything except the "not-so-good" jobs.
Either way, I'm gonna apply left right and Chelsea untiL I get a
definite offer, save some cash (as much as I can) then badger my
folks to see if they'll "sponsor" me on this little soiree. I keep on
toying with the idea of applying to Virginia Beach (where Kate lives)
but deciding that would be, a bad thing - even though there are jobs a
million there.
Wherever I go I want it to be North-East USA. New England / New York
/ Somewhere around that region. My concern is that living in New York
is damned expensive.
Oh well - time to start up the ol' Quake... after Ally McBeal has
finished, of course *grin*
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Apr 21 12:11:58 2000 GMT ]--
From: (Wanted: Food By IV:Will Pay Cash) (phil-99)
Subject: I suggest if you want a laugh, you visit this site:
http://glassdog.com/overheard/
It's funny as all hell :) Mind you - the whole of the Glassdog.com
site is well worth exploring! If you can find a thing with links to other
pages, that you press a "recycle" button on and it shows up another link (great
explanation huh?) then look through some of those links - these sites are
great!
I was up 'till 3:30 or so last night, and I was soooo happy -
combination of it being "my" time of the night and having laughed my ass off at
some of the things at that page ^. I really do miss being able to stay up
until all hours of the night - it's the time when I am so much happier than
normal...
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Apr 21 15:49:37 2000 GMT ]--
From: (Wanted: Food By IV:Will Pay Cash) (phil-99)
Subject: BUSSES (excuse the straight lift from <MGA>)
Why, on a Bank Holiday - do Stagecoach Manchester deem it necessary to
TOTALLY remove one of their services? In fact, not just one service but
several (only one of which I use). The 85 bus route is the ONLY way of getting
down Alexandra Road and down Wilbraham Rd - how can they justify cutting it
like that? No notices up at the bus stop, nothing.
Consequently - after waiting for an HOUR and getting truly fed up of
waiting, I went and asked at the info place (surprised it was open). An hour,
and 3 86s (which leave me a 10min walk at the end) later. ARRGGGHH.
GMPTE are getting a VERY stroppy letter about this.
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Apr 21 19:59:18 2000 GMT ]--
From: (Wanted: Food By IV:Will Pay Cash) (phil-99)
Subject: hmm... I was steaming after that little excursion
Set off at 2:30pm, got home at 6. (just in time for the Robot Wars
grand final - which was _well_ worth watching) Went shopping at Tesco's
(didn't really need to, needed cashback) and wandered round a little.
Tell you what though. Without meaning to sound desperate, sad,
whinging, mad, depressed or anything... I am lonely. It seems to have crept up
on me over the last few weeks, just how much I do need the company of other
people, no matter how much I tell myself that I can live without. When I was
at school I was just about forced into keeping up with people. It was such a
small place you could never really get away, and when you could it was never
for long.
For a while, I relished the time I could spend alone (I have no qualms
about spending time on my own - sometimes it feels like the best times) but now
it's wearing thin and I don't know what to do about it. I mean, I have the
friends online from ChatGames and Mono but it's not a replacement - it can
never be a replacement for contact and time with people.
*shrug*
I dunno.
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Apr 22 01:07:11 2000 GMT ]--
From: (Wanted: Food By IV:Will Pay Cash) (phil-99)
Subject: 's late - and Late Night Poker is on the TV
This is strangely addictive! The rules are a mystery to me even now
but I can still sit and watch these people playing a game with the utmost of
seriousness and be amazed by it!
I think, as with all sports (????) - the commtary is what makes it
fun to watch though. These people do make it quite interesting...
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Apr 22 01:12:11 2000 GMT ]--
From: (Wanted: Food By IV:Will Pay Cash) (phil-99)
Subject: and I meant to point out as well :)
How nice it is to have the floor of the block to myself! Can do what
the hell, have music on as loud as I like, wander around and not have to worry
about who's gonna hear me talking to meself, forget to get dressed before going
to the shower and other such fun things :)
So nice to be able to act like you have a place of yer own :)
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Apr 22 01:53:57 2000 GMT ]--
From: (Wanted: Food By IV:Will Pay Cash) (phil-99)
Subject: Awwwwwww
Late Night Poker's finished for the series :-(
What am I gonna do late at night now?
*ponders*
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Apr 23 00:42:43 2000 GMT ]--
From: (Wanted: Food By IV:Will Pay Cash) (phil-99)
Subject: Bed soon
Lovely day, I'm being spoilt rotten, which is really nice :-) Just
wish I didn't _have_ to be spoilt rotten :-\ ummm, if my brain hadn't suddenly
shut down as I logged on (coincidence? I think not!) I would write more but I
don't think I'm capable.
Oh - bus driver was great. Nobody on the bus wanted to go to Sale or
Altrincham so he didn't go that way skipped the end of his route, and dropped
me of at the top of Hardy Lane, yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Apr 23 10:10:17 2000 GMT ]--
From: (Wanted: Food By IV:Will Pay Cash) (phil-99)
Subject: Was awake at 4am this morning still...
Laying in bed, thinking. Not about anything in particular but about
totally randomstuff, and all of a sudden, something hit me about how stupid I
must've been when I tried to move something on my computer the other day...
I can't understand why, at 4am, it suddenly hit me...
Was still, therefore awake, at about 5am, when I finished doing what I
had to do :) Laid in bed again and decided "if I'm not asleep by 6 I'll get up
and play some quake until I get picked up... gotta practice!! After I said
that to myself I think I must have just zonked :)
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Apr 24 02:46:38 2000 GMT ]--
From: (Wanted: Food By IV:Will Pay Cash) (phil-99)
Subject: Am awake at 4am again... I have an excuse tho, today!
Quake session that lasted well into the night. Good fun too!
Followed by a viewing of the Matrix (class film, SO cheesey in bits though).
More later...
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Apr 24 14:24:15 2000 GMT ]--
From: (Wanted: Food By IV:Will Pay Cash) (phil-99)
Subject: OK... to expand
LAN Party time! :) About the spoddiest thing possible to do I guess,
but hey - who cares? Uncle Tros (*grin*) came round at midday to pick up my
box (full tower case, hmmm fun... especially with all these damn cables coming
and going from it) and we transported it to Caroline and Andrew's place, where
we found a mass of wires and boxes already in place.
Now - imagine a small-ish living room. In metres?... about 3mtrs wide
by 7 long? Now imagine trying to fit in 6 computers + spods. Also - imagine
trying to do connect all these spods' computers to a network. And now imagine
this whilst you only have one 4 port hub. That was fun :) By 4pm all the
computers were networked, quaked up, and the fun was about to begin!!!
muhahaha.
I think I should gloss over the next bit :) I am truly appaling at
most computer games - apart from Flight Sims, of course - and truly got my arse
kicked. The only consolation was that jk was doing almost as badly as me! The
SBF (Silly But Fun) patch is great fun (triple fish gun, homing missiles and
allsorts of strange weaponry), but even with super-weapons I can still manage
to get killed every 2 minutes.
Pizza was ordered, pizza was eaten. Quake was played again. MP3s
were FTPed, spodding was done (6 people all spodding over one modem link? yum!)
and people started drifting away. When everybody but Uncle Tros, Caroline,
Andrew and I were left - the Matrix was watched :) (someone pointed out last
night that you can replace all of Keanu Reeves' lines with the word "dude" and
it still makes sense. Try it - it works!)
Then, home. Re-assemble computer, spod for a few minutes, collapse in
bed and wake up at 12:30pm. Very nice. I'm not even gonna attempt going
anywhere today, what with yet another Bank Holiday bus schedule...
Currently listening to: Euphoria 1 (I think)
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Apr 24 20:41:46 2000 GMT ]--
From: (Wanted: Food By IV:Will Pay Cash) (phil-99)
Subject: *sigh*
Incredibly boring day
Incredibly crap day in fact.
Wasn't going too badly until a few minutes ago... lots of nothing
followed by a sausage sandwich or two. Then by multi-player Quake. umm.
Decided to try Kate, hell why not? It's the same as every other time, busy at
the moment, sorry.
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Apr 24 20:44:23 2000 GMT ]--
From: (Wanted: Food By IV:Will Pay Cash) (phil-99)
Subject: Felt rough all day as well...
Had a foul headache since I woke up and tried everything to get rid of
it. Mind you I woke up late (12:30) so decided that going back to sleep was
not an option. Was gonna cook something tonight but can't be arsed. So rough.
*deep sigh*
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Apr 25 11:51:43 2000 GMT ]--
From: (Identity Crisis) (phil-99)
Subject: Tuesday afternoon
I have a registered mail waiting for me, containing lots of cash
therein, but I can't get to it, eek! It's sat in the office and the office is
closed :( So I'm currently using a Megarider that's a day or two out of date
(hmmmm) and sitting in the Manmchester Computing spod-labs (which are horrible
I'll have you know), waiting to go to work...
Ho hummmm.
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Apr 25 19:07:54 2000 GMT ]--
From: (Identity Crisis) (phil-99)
Subject: Yet another crappy day...
Just felt like shit all day, not been awake.
*sigh*
Anyone wanna do a life-swap for a few moments?
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Apr 25 20:58:12 2000 GMT ]--
From: (Identity Crisis) (phil-99)
Subject: I hate this I hate this I hate this
I hate being broke and I hate being as tired as I am
I hate being alone at nights.
10 things I hate about me, by me ;)
ok maybe not 10... more like 3.
Mind you - The Secret World of Michael Fry is worth watching
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Apr 25 22:48:19 2000 GMT ]--
From: (Identity Crisis) (phil-99)
Subject: a mail
Date: Tue, 25 Apr 2000 21:42:41 +0100 (BST)
From: Phil Sumner <phil-99@bigfoot.com>
Subject: Success
If you want something bad enough
To go out and fight for it,
Work day and night for it,
Give up your peace and your time for it
If only desire of it
Makes you quite mad enough
Never to tire of it,
Makes you hold all other things tawdry and cheap for it
If life seems all empty and useless without it
And all that you scheme and dream is about it,
If gladly you'll sweat for it,
Fret for it,
Plan for it,
Lose all your terror of God or man for it,
If you'll simply go after that thing that you want,
With all your capacity,
Strength and sagacity,
Faith, hope and confidence, stern pertinacity,
If neither cold poverty, famished and gaunt,
Nor sickness nor pain
Of body or brain
Can turn you away from the thing that you want,
If dogged and grim you besiege and beset it,
You'll get it.
[Berton Bailey - A Little Book of Cherished Poems]
[apologies for the edit, fix a coupla mistakes]
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Apr 26 09:59:45 2000 GMT ]--
From: (Identity Crisis) (phil-99)
Subject: And a decent night's sleep fixes it all
I don't know whether the Valarian actually helped last night, with me
being as knackered as I was, but I slept from around midnight to 9:30 this
morning and woke up feeling cheery (which is a damned miracle, I tell you!).
Also got the letter from my parents at long long last :) I asked them
if I could nick some money from them, seeing as I was a:) skint and b:) not
gonna be going home over the Easter break. They sent me #200!? I only wanted
about 50 squid :) Normally I wouldn't even be here writing this, I'd be down
the bank - but I can't really put this in the bank, it'll only leave me without
about 20 quid on my o/d... bad juju.
Leave for work in about an hour. Another fun-filled afternoon of
frolics in the silent office. I can't understand how those people can work in
the silence, it's oppresive! But as long as I never have to spend more than
4hrs in a row there, I'm not complaining... too much.
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Apr 26 17:16:23 2000 GMT ]--
From: I'mBeggingYouToForgiveMeForMyHaste (phil-99)
Subject: Well
What a crappy day.
But it's getting rapidly better, now that I'm home again.
This work really does suck, but it's money (eventually) that I sorely
need, and can't jack it in just yet... ahh well.
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Apr 26 17:20:05 2000 GMT ]--
From: I'mBeggingYouToForgiveMeForMyHaste (phil-99)
Subject: You know, Mono is a sick place :)
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Apr 26 17:55:02 2000 GMT ]--
From: SoMuchTimeToMyself, GotNoneLeftToShare.. (phil-99)
Subject: Trying not to act like a little lost teenager in here
But it's how I feel at the minute :-\ My mood's more changeable than
the weather in Manchester and I'm struggling not to act like some depressive
kid, demanding his own way and wanting everything, now. It's weird.
Perhaps it's the thought of exams? But I've not been thinking about
them, at all in fact. This is, yet another Bad Thing (tm). Anyhow, seeing as
I really cannot be dealing with cooking tonight, and in this mood, I am going
to go and eat out somewhere. I don't know where though, and there's nobody
around who I want to go out with...
In fact, right now, the best thing that's happening is that I have the
KLF blasting out of my little poxy speakers, making quite a reasonable volume,
as long as you ignore the bass end of things ;-) Nice! I wonder if I can
force these things any louder without totally destroying the lower end of the
music?
hehe... yep :)
I really am proud of these things - they are only about 6-8 inches
high but belt out a good noise. Only thing is they take either 6 batteries or
a power supply running at 7.5volts I think... ok, 6 volts.
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Apr 26 21:44:09 2000 GMT ]--
From: SoMuchTimeToMyself, GotNoneLeftToShare.. (phil-99)
Subject: Feeling better now, had a nice chat with some folk - making me feel
more like human again. Oh, and devoured a tub of Haagen Daazs Chocolate
Midnight Cookies ice-cream.
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Apr 26 21:50:51 2000 GMT ]--
From: SoMuchTimeToMyself, GotNoneLeftToShare.. (phil-99)
Subject: Was hoping to get this edit in before anyone else read that ;)
Damn you Alexis! lol
It was just gonna be, I don't know what brought on my absolutely foul
mood earlier... I just totally lost it, almost, lost control over what I was
thinking and found myself wishing that I could just give it all in...
But then again, I was like this after Christmas, but I had good reason
then...
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Apr 27 10:33:00 2000 GMT ]--
From: SoMuchTimeToMyself, GotNoneLeftToShare.. (phil-99)
Subject: Off to do revision tonight, should be interesting...
Now I find out what I know, and (hopefully) what I should know. I'm
fairly sure that I've got at least a basic understanding of all the
subjects. Lessee... we have:
o Embedded Systems (Lab/Coursework only)
o Human Computer Interaction (What a crock of shit)
o Networking and Open Systems (knew half of it at least before)
o Software Quality (half the exam will be multi-choice!)
o Concurrent Systems (tricky, but confident - good lecturer and good notes)
o Languages and Their Implentation (worried - almost a month 'till exam tho)
So of the 5 exams we have, I am only vaguley bothered by two:
Languages (basically a compiler course) and HCI (because the woman is so
insanely boring and foreign I never bother listening to her).
All I need to find now, after organising my notes last night, is to
find the syllabus' (syllabi? hmmm, good question - answers on a U2U at the
usual address please!) so I know exactly what to look at in detail.
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Apr 28 00:16:36 2000 GMT ]--
From: SoMuchTimeToMyself, GotNoneLeftToShare.. (phil-99)
Subject: ok... talking about control
I have thought alot about it today. Control has been a big part of my
life for years, control as in emotional control. I keep myself pretty tightly
under control most of the time, not much emotion gets through apart from when
I'm happy. When I get pissed off at anything I just tend to become a miserable
git who says nothing, goes nowhere and does nothing. Oh, and stews ;)
And it's bloody hard when it does all come out at last. I don't have
a clue how to deal with it. So, predictably, I end up like a miserable 14 year
old (I would say all over again but I never _did_ this when I was 14).
hmm. Don't ask me why I had to write this at 1:15am, I don't know!
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Apr 28 00:18:37 2000 GMT ]--
From: SoMuchTimeToMyself, GotNoneLeftToShare.. (phil-99)
Subject: In other news.
Spent a while up at Caroline and Andrew's, revising. Contrary to
belief, I did actually manage to read through a fair bit before we all started
giggling like li'l children *grin*
The line in Andrew's weedbot code:
#include "evil.h"
Just cracked me up ;-)
Came home, going to bed, sleeping, hopefully, and working tommorrow.
Oh the variety that is my life!
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Apr 28 15:42:10 2000 GMT ]--
From: SoMuchTimeToMyself, GotNoneLeftToShare.. (phil-99)
Subject: BORED AT WORK
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Apr 28 16:43:55 2000 GMT ]--
From: SoMuchTimeToMyself, GotNoneLeftToShare.. (phil-99)
Subject: Best expand on that ;)
I was spodding from work, well - if you can call it spodding.
Occasionally looking at a hypertrm window and hoping not to be spotted by the
big-boss-man ;) (OOOOO SHAFT!)
Off tonight to drink, hoorrraaayyyy! Haven't drunk any alcohol for a
long time (prolly a good thing) and need a drink or three-thousand. Need some
fod first though, must forage!
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Apr 29 17:36:44 2000 GMT ]--
From: SoMuchTimeToMyself, GotNoneLeftToShare.. (phil-99)
Subject: *groans*
Bob made my head hurt :-)
Went to the pub to meet Bob, Caroline, Andrew and Nige... football was
on so we decided to move outta the pub we were in and got side-tracked to the
Chinese (except for Nige, he went with a mate to the pub). In this Chinese we
ate 4 courses, devoured 2 bottles of wine, and spent a sodding fortune (thank
you VERY much Bob! much!).
Bob dragged me off to 5th Avenue, where Nige and friend were supposed
to be waiting, but they weren't :-\ My guess, they got turned away because
they asked for an NUS card from me, didn't think it was student night on a
Friday? So Bob ended up at mine for the night.
Moose City, they should rename 5th. Bob got accosted by some rather
nice young lady, who later on asked if we were gay... hmmmm. I didn't think
that we were doing anything _that_ dodgy! He insists that some rather cute
lassies behind me were after me but I couldn't give two hoots - I don't go out
to pull, I go out to have a good night ;-) (ok they night could be better if I
did but let's not go there *grin*)
Cinema today, Galaxy Quest is a laugh and a half. It really is funny,
worth watching for the pure "fromage" factor. Now I feel rough, didn't feel
bad all day but when I got on the bus I just got a twinge of that "apres-club"
feeling. uck!
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Apr 29 21:47:24 2000 GMT ]--
From: SoMuchTimeToMyself, GotNoneLeftToShare.. (phil-99)
Subject: I hate the going from being so social over the last two days
To the total opposite of being alone all evening. I'm definitely
learning more about myself, thanks to actually starting to know some people
outside the usual "uni" circle of friends. Yeah, I mean I'm starting to learn
that I don't value time alone as much as I always thought I did :-)
Ahh well, as soon as I get out of Hardy Farm, I am certain I'll feel
better about time alone. For a start, I won't know the walls inside and out
like I do this room!
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Apr 30 00:15:53 2000 GMT ]--
From: SoMuchTimeToMyself, GotNoneLeftToShare.. (phil-99)
Subject: I, am right now, bored, out of my _brain_
But I really don't wanna go to bed...
I can't get this Damned MS Intellimouse to work under X Windows - it
works fine in the console but it acts a little funny under X. Any ideas,
anyone?
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Apr 30 00:55:40 2000 GMT ]--
From: SoMuchTimeToMyself, GotNoneLeftToShare.. (phil-99)
Subject: Trying to update the system now. It's all little updates, 0.1
increments in the versions, mostly - but it's something else to do, may as well
use the bandwidth :) And at 2am we're not being charged for it!
Oh, it's only coming from Lancaster uni anyhow :-\
And I STILL haven't got that sodding mouse to work in X - I'm having
to keep the old serial (and crappy) one lying about by the pooter. And the new
one doesn't work in Quake either! Arrgghh!
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Apr 30 14:55:06 2000 GMT ]--
From: JustForToday,JustForAnEvening (phil-99)
Subject: Just been to town
Double Nutty Belgian Waffle Cone with Pralines and Cream + Belgian
Chocolate scoops. Heaven. Also spent a fortune on two books. Well, one
book and one spoken book - I wanted to get the Unabridged version of "Hannibal"
I saw in the US for about $35 but they want #60 for it here!!!!! ARGH! So I
bought the abridged one... shame.
Also bought "Learning Perl" - the Llama book :-)) *beams* So I can
now take over the world *grin* All in all, an expensive day :-)
---------------------------------------------[ Mon May 1 11:10:27 2000 GMT ]--
From: JustForToday,JustForAnEvening (phil-99)
Subject: Stayed up late last night..
Well... Was on the phone 'till 4:30am :-) d'oh! I didn't realise how
late it was until... well.... until I looked at the clock, lol.
ummm... I _really_ need to do some more revision. I'm gonna go up to
the kitchen this afternoon and attempt to do some more, but I don't hold out
much hope :)
---------------------------------------------[ Tue May 2 06:14:27 2000 GMT ]--
From: JustForToday,JustForAnEvening (phil-99)
Subject: *tired*
But at 7:10am whaddaya expect?!
In bed at around 11:00pm last night. Awake at 6:30 this morning. And
multiple times last night. I _really_ didn't want to think about getting up at
7am again today, it's been so long since I've had to be in uni I've forgotten
all about it...
---------------------------------------------[ Tue May 2 06:22:14 2000 GMT ]--
From: JustForToday,JustForAnEvening (phil-99)
Subject: I forgot to mention...
I was so damn SORE yesterday... my body ached like I'd done some kind
of serious exercise, but I didn't do much more strenuous than talk on the
phone, or maybe it was running for the bus that did it :)
Think I need to join Caroline playing badminton, lol.
---------------------------------------------[ Tue May 2 23:57:33 2000 GMT ]--
From: JustForToday,JustForAnEvening (phil-99)
Subject: Interesting day?
Woke at 6:30 after a fitful night's sleep. I _really_ didn't want to
have to face the day, I _really_ didn't want to go into Uni. I was happy,
pootling around and going into work in the afternoons, just making enough money
to keep my o/d at a steady level... nice.
Now that's all been fucked up again. A new body clock has to be
brought in to smash the old one to pieces. No more 4am finishes and 10am
wake-ups. At least, not until 4 weeks time. And I _still_ haven't done any
more _seirous_ reivsion. I did print out shitloads of Human Computer
Interaction stuff from the web this afternoon tho, so I'll sit and read through
those case studies whenever I get a spare moment.
See - these _examples_ that I found are a million times more
interesting than the pure _theory_ that the daft (and French) Cherie Blaire
immitator who calls herself a lecturer has given us. I can actually read these
and not have to take pro-plus to stay awake!!
I really don't want to go to bed. I want to stay up talking. I want
to have another outrageously long phone call about random shit with anyone. I
want, I want...
---------------------------------------------[ Wed May 3 00:04:10 2000 GMT ]--
From: JustForToday,JustForAnEvening (phil-99)
Subject: Anyhow, to go back a bit...
Lecture this morning that was a waste of time. She was putting
example questions on the OHP and waiting for ppl to write them down, and then
putting up the next one, whilst saying how many marks she _thought_ they would
be worth, giving what I think were totally made up numbers. Honest! Some of
them made no sense...
So I gave up on that at 10. went sat in the pub for a half-hour,
talking. Then bumped into some of my project group when I went outside.
Chatted and got given some work to do. Yuck. Then had a bottle of beer, and
went to the spodlabs where I blasted myself with Orbital and downloaded various
Usability Heuristics examples. Oh, and spodded ;-)
Went to work, and chatted to the guy who deals with us. Turns out his
computer was screwed, so I volunteered to fix it for him. Basically a Win98
reinstall. He offered me money, and I turned it down! Arrgghh!!! I am sure
he musta been able to see the pain on my face as I said "no, don't worry about
it" ;-)
Because his house is near Caroline and Andrew's I popped round there
for a half-hour or so, just for the hell of it and said Hi, andrew came home
and looked (no - was going to be) busy so I exited sharp-ish and went into town
to find food... ended up getting fish and chips, incredibly unhealthy but I
don't care. Was so hungry and it was so nice :-)
Got home at 8:20 or so, missing Uni Challenge and UMST losing...
spodded all evening. Done nothing else. I'm being so unproductive right now,
but do I care? Do I _hell_! ;) [note: why is it always around exam-time that
I always get like this? Very work-avoidance-are-us like. Pain in the butt]
---------------------------------------------[ Wed May 3 00:52:11 2000 GMT ]--
From: JustForToday,JustForAnEvening (phil-99)
Subject: *sigh*
Someone tell me to go to bed?
Please?
---------------------------------------------[ Wed May 3 12:03:24 2000 GMT ]--
From: JustForToday,JustForAnEvening (phil-99)
Subject: See, I told you ;-)
ugh
Been up - ummmmmmmm - 10 minutes?
---------------------------------------------[ Wed May 3 14:46:58 2000 GMT ]--
From: JustForToday,JustForAnEvening (phil-99)
Subject: omg
I need a watchdog to watch over me on the busses in future I think ;)
As I was sat on the bus back from town this afternoon, I was watching
a couple of lassies who got on, obviously a pair of students, one from the area
and one visiting, but that's not important :-) Being tired, bored and fed up
of the bus journey I closed my eyes and promptly started day-dreaming
(difficult choice of word there... lol... fantasising sounds wrong *grin*).
Ummm, all I'll say about that is that when someone got on the bus and sat next
to me I had the fright of my life! Was away in a land of my own, and a
very nice land it was too... "Back to reality with a jolt" springs to mind
as an appropriate phrase.
These bloody women, pshaw! Cause me all kindsa hassle ;-))
---------------------------------------------[ Wed May 3 21:00:05 2000 GMT ]--
From: JustForToday,JustForAnEvening (phil-99)
Subject: Just a quickie before I pop off to beddiebyes
I spent the evening doing nothing constructive. I seem to have become
a master at wasting time recently. My evenings pass by and I don't even know
what I've done with them. It used to be that I would work on projects or
whatever but I have totally lost interest. Hmm.
Spoke to Kate. We're done with. Or more precisely I said for the
final time (and she actually listened to what I was saying this time) that I
would not wait for her to finish her life there. Not if it's gonna be years
down the road. Prolly a good thing. Means I can go out moose hurling for real
now ;-) *gets out fin*
Or maybe I should say *sprays shark attractant on himself*? Seems I'm
fairly sharkable anyhow :) (or is that just a wish? lol)
(If I'm here later, kick my arse, if you can - disconnect/ban me, pls)
N.b: Not permanently :)
---------------------------------------------[ Thu May 4 00:20:59 2000 GMT ]--
From: JustForToday,JustForAnEvening (phil-99)
Subject: Well I'm here....
:-P
Lain in bed nbow for an hour, possibly more, and I can't sleep :(
Anyone wanna come help me sleep? :)
*listens to the echoes*
Bah...
---------------------------------------------[ Thu May 4 20:53:46 2000 GMT ]--
From: JustForToday,JustForAnEvening (phil-99)
Subject: Well I did think of something hilarious to write in here this arvo ;)
But I forgot it, so you're gonna get something mind numbingly
intropsective! (yeah yeah I know...)
Strange things are afoot. Very strange, in fact. Things that for me,
at least, seem to be a re-run of things that happenned with Deanna a long time
ago. Don't ask, because I won't tell :-) And no it's not a problem, it's not
trouble, and it's not gonna make me jump over the edge of a cliff. I just wish
I knew how I managed to start these things happening?
It's the ol' "you need to smack me in the face before I see it" thaing
I do believe. Been proved on multiple occasions to be true *grin* I've racked
up a phone bill and a half over the past two/three days. Lots of time on the
phone to Kate, and stupidly long (but very wacky) phone calls.
excuse me, mum on phone
---------------------------------------------[ Thu May 4 21:51:31 2000 GMT ]--
From: JustForToday,JustForAnEvening (phil-99)
Subject: Right
Same as last night pls :)
Badger me until I go to bed. 5:30am sleep-times are in no uncertain
terms, a bad thing... I'm gonna start sleeping like Alexis soon if I'm not
careful :-)
Missed lecture today. Decided that I really couldn't cope with it and
gave in. Work this aftenroon for 3hrs, missed an hour and went to the pub
w/Caroline and had a coupla pints, then Andrew came along and we ate. Talked a
bit but I was really really tired... shouldn't have stuffed myself like I did
but hey...
---------------------------------------------[ Fri May 5 09:06:07 2000 GMT ]--
From: JustForToday,JustForAnEvening (phil-99)
Subject: ARRRRRRRRRRRGGGGHH
Woke up at 7 this morning to realise that I have an assignment due in
today that I haven't even started. DOHDOHDOHDOH! So I'm going to be borrowing
someone else's code and altering it as much as possible :-\
Also found out that Daresbury (ChatGames meet) is THIS w/end, not next
- which is good in some ways, but foul in others. Means I have to rush around
like a loony trying to organise my stuff for the w/end :-\
ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGHHH
STRESS!
---------------------------------------------[ Fri May 5 16:44:16 2000 GMT ]--
From: JustForToday,JustForAnEvening (phil-99)
Subject: I have had the most DISGUSTING DAY!
FECKFECKFECKFECKFECKFECKFECK!
ARSE
And surely, later on, will come DRINK.
Currently swearing violently and loudly at the wankstain in my group
who decided to send me (or the group?) emails of all the individual files that
exist for our project. EVERY one of them in a seperate email. FECK.
Off to Daresbury tonight. FECK. If it wasn't for the fact that
Canadian Lisa is gonna be there I wouldnae be turning up.
Currently trying to destress by playing music at highhighhigh volume.
Oh, and also trying not to worry about all the money I'm gonna be spending this
weekend.
OK Phil... calm down. Stay calm... you can breathe now. *deep
breaths* *falls asleep at the keyboard*
---------------------------------------------[ Sun May 7 15:46:28 2000 GMT ]--
From: JustForToday,JustForAnEvening (phil-99)
Subject: Report: Daresbury
Now I know that Daresbury means nothing to 99% of you, but I don't
care ;) This is my diary - not yours *grin*
As you mighta guessed - Friday was a bad day. Got train to Warrington
and it was a struggle the whole way - I came close at every step to getting off
the train and turning back but because of a couple of ppl I decided I really
wanted to see I couldn't have done it.
Got there to a semi-warm welcome... it was nice to be recognised at
least! Lisa was cute, Gerry was even cuter and Nicky was miserable (more
later). Collapsed in the bath for a while and then started drinking, not
stopping until I couldn't have drunk any more if I tried. Talked, made a tit
outta myself and most importantly of all - forgot. Forgot why I was in such a
foul mood. Bed relatively early (2:30am or so)
Saturday: wake up, get breakfast (very good fry-up at Daresbury) and
sleep some more. Walk to pub with three blokes who I didn't know very well and
have a greta laugh (they're _very_ "blokey" - wannabe Ben Sherman types mebbe?)
and failed miserably to attract any cute birds *grin* Drank at the pub, ate at
the pub, came back to hotel. Slept some more, drank lots more, and did
Karaoke. Got lots of compliments, which is nice. I thought I'd forgotten, or
lost the knack of, singing for a while. I've come to the conclusion that if
you give me a microphone and let me go loud I can do it fine, but quiet and
unprepared I don't do so well.
But they confused me totally with "End of the Road" - they took out
all the lyrics except for the backing vocals which owuld kick in every now and
then and confuse hell outta me... tsk.
Drink more. Over this weekend, up to now - I have spent *calculates*
Around #45, including #11 on travel, and #7 on lunch on Saturday (which was
EXCELLENT - Ring of Bells in Daresbury - GO THERE!)so that leaves #35 on
alcohol, because I didn't buy any food there. That's quite impressive, IMO! :)
I haven't drunk that much in a long time, and boy - did it help or what?! Made
me happy at least...
---------------------------------------------[ Sun May 7 15:54:18 2000 GMT ]--
From: JustForToday,JustForAnEvening (phil-99)
Subject: But to nick one of Caroline's phrases: the dynamic has changed, the
way the ppl interact and the way that ppl talk has changed. I really wanted to
spend some time chatting with Lisa (Canadian lass) but she was too busy talking
with some other folk to interrupt and by the time she was free I was too pissed
to hold a conversation with a frog.
On Saturday a guy called TonyH (nick in the room) came, and Lisa was
obviously in raptures ;-) No matter how much she insisted that "nothing was
going to happen", just the same as it did with Davey and Jason... Dissapointed
is the wrong word - I think I'm worried that the same is going to happen (i.e.
- she'll find out how much of a bastard he is (not saying that he IS but you
know what I mean) and then feel all hurt for a few months).
Nicky. Nicky is lovely. She was a good bud of mien for a long time.
Then she got involved with Davey. Davey is 28 or so, Nicky is 18. Davey is
huge, Nicky is tiny. It's so "opposites attract", and I still think, even
after they've been together for over 6 months that it's not right. I'm prolly
just jealous because if Davey hadn't got there first I would have loved to be
in his position *smile* Even still... she has _never_ looked happy when I've
seen her at a meet. I don't know if she just doesn't like the amount of ppl
there or what, but she has a tendency to sit and look miserable.
Cliques. ChatGames of course has it's cliques, but they've never
really shown up in the past at meets. It was SO obvious this time though. For
the entire meet there were two distinct groups, which really really annoyed me,
because I'm not "with" either of them so felt very out of place at times. Dave
Cockland turned up on Sat night (Dave is a good friend and great guy who hasn't
been round CQ much lately either) which helped alot, because I sat and chatted
with him and his wife and his daughter (13 yrs old, easily looks 16 - and with
what she was wearing........) and son :)
---------------------------------------------[ Sun May 7 15:56:32 2000 GMT ]--
From: JustForToday,JustForAnEvening (phil-99)
Subject: All in all, I was dissapointed. I hoped for a really relaxing meet
where I could catch up on all the things I've missed but the little cliques
were in too strong effect to really be able to do that. I understand that some
people don't want to mix with the entire group, but it was just unpleasant at
times, how obvious it all was.
*shrugs*
I won't be going to the next one.
---------------------------------------------[ Sun May 7 20:27:18 2000 GMT ]--
From: JustForToday,JustForAnEvening (phil-99)
Got into a cab in NYC
There's an oriental man behind the wheel,
Started talking about heaven, like it was real...
Saying they got mansions in heaven,
And the angels are building one for me right now,
(chorus) And I know, they're saving the best for last
Look around this town and tell me that it ain't so
They're saving the best for last
Don't ask me how I know because it must be
Saving the best for last for me
You can go a hundred miles a second,
Don't have to drive no lousy cab
Got everything you want and more man and the king picks up the tab
You walk around, all the street's gold all day
And you never have to listen, what these customers say
I remember when I was a child
Lost in the streets of chinatown
My mother had a vision, and I was found
Saving the best for last for me
Whooooo ooooo
Whoooo ooooooooooo
Saving the best for last
[repeat to fade, basically ;-) ]
---------------------------------------------[ Mon May 8 19:02:54 2000 GMT ]--
From: JustForToday,JustForAnEvening (phil-99)
Subject: Really not meaning to be insensitive round here but......
It's split-up city round here atm, or so it seems to me. Lots of ppl
seem to be having "rocky patches", for want of a better word. Me? Not
involved with anyone and hoping it will stay that way for a while... tho I am
sure that I can think of a few relationships I would like to be having.
Bought 2 pints of milk earlier (about 3hrs ago) - have by now drunk
1.5 pints of it... yum :) Don't think I'll eat tonight, mainly due to the fact
that I have very little _worth_ eating. I've not been in the kitchen upstairs
to cook anything decent for over a week now!
Currently Listening to: Little Blue, Beautiful South.
Shortly to be followed by Fastball's, The Way.
---------------------------------------------[ Tue May 9 10:49:53 2000 GMT ]--
From: JustForToday,JustForAnEvening (phil-99)
Subject: Chair-bopping to The Dave Matthews Band, live at Luther College :)
I don't know the words to this so I can't sing :)
Speaking of singing, I was talking to a couple of the folks from
Daresbury in CQ (hmm, I can see that being difficult in the future:
ChatQuiz is the chat room name, but ChatGames is the forum name) last night and
was getting compliments a-million about the karaoke I did ;-)) *beams proudly*
Unfortunately, no amount of karaoke can make up for the pitiful amount
of work I have done over the last few weeks. I do try, but every time I
sitdown to do something, there is always something just slightly more important
that needs doing. For example, implementing access control to directories on
my website, learning Perl and so on :)
Sad, innit? *grin*
Skyved work yesterday. Hey, I don't get paid for it if I don't go so
I'm not feeling guilty. Well I did have a damned good reason to not go - we
had a presentation to do for our project. Went alright, except for the fact
that all of a sudden, the other day we started getting "stack overflows" at
some point, which is not a good thing :-( Still when we explained what had
happenned to the assessor ppl they seemed sympathetic. It worked, mostly! It
was just towards the end that things went pear-shaped :-|
Woke up this morning, got up, and had to sit straight back down again.
I felt so dizzy. Immediate thought, need a drink. Got up again and steadied
myself this time :) Got multiple glasses of water and even now, 2 hours later
I still feel like absolute crap. The enxt item on the agenda is to find some
food, I haven't eaten anything worthwhile thinking about for a wee while so
that might be it. If it's not that, then I'm just gonna be grumpy all day ;)
---------------------------------------------[ Tue May 9 17:58:42 2000 GMT ]--
From: JustForToday,JustForAnEvening (phil-99)
Subject: I had a nice day at work today.
I went into town earlier and bought a pizza from Poppilon pizza for
lunch (spicy chicken and green peppers, yum), wandered and then went to work.
Spent the day burning CDs and sticking new sleeves into CD cases. Oh, and
sticking stickers on the front. But it was nice, because everyone was chatty
for once! Not very often it happens that way :-)
On the way home I bought a pack of chips, and now feel incredibly fat.
I'm sure I've put on lots lately but I don't feel like doing anything about it.
---------------------------------------------[ Tue May 9 22:21:06 2000 GMT ]--
From: JustForToday,JustForAnEvening (phil-99)
Subject: Do I want
Do I want to spend $99 (yes, dollars) on an MP3 player?
It's a tough call... $99 + P&P, prolly come to about $120 TOPS.
That's around 70-80 pounds. I want to... indeed I want to! But can I justify
it to myself? I think the answer is no :-( More's the shame...
Maybe when I get paid... maybe...
---------------------------------------------[ Thu May 11 09:16:32 2000 GMT ]--
From: JustForToday,JustForAnEvening (phil-99)
Subject: Dream
I was in Helensburgh, walking through what I assumed to be
Somerfield's car park (I remember the days used to be Fine Fare), and I was
talking on the phone with some bloke I went to school with. I had a sneaking
suspicion that he might be in town and I was trying to avoid him. Eventually I
got bored of talking to him and put the phone in my pocket, still turned on,
with him on the line and all :)
Just then I looked up, and saw a familiar female face. I couldn't
quite place it but she looked up and stared at me as if she were thinking the
same. we both walked past each other and then I turned around and tentatively
said "Rachael?", whence she turned around, and we started talking.
Then, unfortunately, I woke up...
*shrug*
---------------------------------------------[ Thu May 11 15:45:06 2000 GMT ]--
From: JustForToday,JustForAnEvening (phil-99)
Subject: Reasonable day...
Picked up a Student Awards Agency for Scotland loan app. form (it is
SO crap that we have to go through them, even if we don't want the means
tested bit) which has to be in on Monday (yet another crap thing about the
SAAS). Missed lecture, due to waking up multiple times between 8am and 10am,
and deciding that it wasn't late enough to get up yet :) t'was a waste of time
anyway, by all accounts.
Backed up my /home and /etc partitions onto a zip disk today. just
need to get round to finding some software that will do a decent job of backing
up everything...
---------------------------------------------[ Fri May 12 08:09:26 2000 GMT ]--
From: JustForToday,JustForAnEvening (phil-99)
Subject: More CDs ripped...
No more work done
I really don't care. Hell - I can pass, that's all I care about right
now. Anything over the 40% is a just an added bonus...
Tummy's been rumbling since 9pm last night but I refused to feed it
any more because I didn't eat tea - but ate a load of chocolate and crisps from
the bar. First time I've been there in, probably months. Nothing changes.
Noticing that over the last few weeks I have put on weight. This is
in no uncertain terms, a Bad Thing(tm). I need to get back into the cooking
and being generally healthy thing, instead of what I've been up to the last few
weeks - eating out at every available opportunity.
Also noticed today that I have totally lost track of my Dilbert
Calender :-) Normally I'm really good at keeping it up to date but not
recently. Prolly stress :-) Speaking of stress - I've realised that there are
some physical effects of stress on me... strange one though... my nails and the
surrounding skin turn to jelly. Not literally, but they are in fairly bad
condition most of the yar, and at exam times they just totally go to pot.
I only noticed because I scraped the edge of my nail on a pizza box
yesterday and it bled profusely. hrmph.
---------------------------------------------[ Sat May 13 08:58:45 2000 GMT ]--
From: JustForToday,JustForAnEvening (phil-99)
Subject: Wonderful day yesterday...
Woke up around 9am and really couldnae be arsed to move - just felt
like my body was tring to tell me that I needed to be shot or something :)
Sent a message to Caroline saying "I don't wanna go to work!!"... lol
Went to uni, handed in some coursework, chatted with Caroline on Mono
until we decided that we'd go out for lunch at Cafe Rouge in town. I guess we
arrived there between 1:00->1:30, and by the time we'd eaten (very good!) and
drunk our glass of wine, was half past three! Eeeek! I don't know how we
manage to waste so much time between us!
Went to Vinyl Exchange (should rename that branch CD Exchange *grin*)
and spent 20 quid on 5 CDs (only one single). Dropped into work and filled in
a timesheet, felt guilty for not turning up this afternoon, but had Caroline
there as an excuse :-)
Back to Caroline's flat, made up _loads_ of Valarian capsules (exams,
coming up, want to try and make sure I'm sleeping properly through them. Erk
- that sounds dodgy!) Talked, spodded, Andrew came back, spodded, ate chinese
(scrummy!) watched TV, forgot I was leaving (blame Frasier) and then left for
home. Got lucky with the two busses, didn't have to wait more than 2 mins for
either of them.
Now been awake an hour. Fell asleep watching TV last night, the first
time I have done that in years. Don't know if it's a good thing, a
badthing, or even if it's a thing at all.
---------------------------------------------[ Sat May 13 15:17:02 2000 GMT ]--
From: JustForToday,JustForAnEvening (phil-99)
Subject: Woke up at 9am, UGH. Too early.
After I got back from the spoddiest household in the land *grin*, I
remembered thta there was a late bar on - so went over there to see what was
happening. I really feel uncomfortable there now - what with all the nurses
bringing their friends along and packing the place out with ppl I don't know.
It's not that I don't like it being busy, I just don't like worrying about who
all these ppl are.
Today - Vinyll Exchange again - the other branch. Bought McAlmont and
Butler album, which is brilliant (I think, still half way thru it) and also
Michael Crichton's "Lost World" from Empire Exchange.
---------------------------------------------[ Sat May 13 15:19:13 2000 GMT ]--
From: JustForToday,JustForAnEvening (phil-99)
Subject: I've dropped completely out of the Spod Tables too! WHOOO!
I must be doing _someting_ right :)
---------------------------------------------[ Sun May 14 01:09:11 2000 GMT ]--
From: JustForToday,JustForAnEvening (phil-99)
Subject: Spodding through Windows... this is a bizzare experience after so long
in Linux... things just don't work - no tab completion?!?!?!
I needed to reboot really - prolly turn it off for the night. Disks
have been running constantly now for over a week... I don't know if the
spin-down is working properly either :( Yeah, needed to record an MP3 as a wav
and the only way I could make it work the way I wanted was to use a WinAmp
plugin - using mpg123 -s > filename didn't work... thinking about it - mebbe I
shoulda left the -s off :-(
---------------------------------------------[ Mon May 15 05:22:13 2000 GMT ]--
From: JustForToday,JustForAnEvening (phil-99)
Subject: 0615
*sigh*
I did sleep last night, but I also remember being awake for alot of
it. But then again - I'm not sure how much I trust my perception of time at
times like this, especially late at night.
3 hours to go...
---------------------------------------------[ Mon May 15 11:19:21 2000 GMT ]--
From: JustForToday,JustForAnEvening (phil-99)
Subject: Exam went good
3/5 questions (standard). I could - surprisingly - do three :) Well,
I could do 90% of three anyhow, so I did those and felt relatively happy about
it all... I know ppl who only did 2 (even 1) question.
SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO HOT!
Sweating my butt off for being nervous and the heat didn't help. Now
sitting in my room with the window wide open, and it's still ridiculous. I
need to go shopping today to find some stuff I need (new shoelaces! trainers)
and I daren't go out :) But have to eat my pizza first. Have to cook it
first, actually.
---------------------------------------------[ Mon May 15 21:57:49 2000 GMT ]--
From: JustForToday,JustForAnEvening (phil-99)
Subject: Now tired
Had something to write.
Oh yes - called Kate. Spoek briefly. Looks like she'll be over here
in Fall (autumn) and there's a chance we can get together. Also looks like
there will be another ChatGames Lancaster(Pennsylvania) meet. If there si -
there is no argument - both Kate and I _will_ be there - as it was where we met
for the first time.
Why is it that this has now happenned three times? We've gone through
a tough bit - communication has gone out of the window (not on my part, I don't
think) and then after we decide it would be a good idea to end it all, we start
talking again and then the whole thing starts again? I don't think it's going
quite the same route this time - it doesn't feel as heavy - but I do hope that
whatever the outcome of the next x weeks, we do keep talking. Never had a
friend quite like her :)
---------------------------------------------[ Tue May 16 14:42:07 2000 GMT ]--
From: JustForToday,JustForAnEvening (phil-99)
Subject: Oh YES
Well - I was going to kill them when I called but that's not the point
here. There I was happily lying in my bed after having been to town and
wandered and bought some new shoelaces and coffee and got lunch and everything,
falling merrily on my way to sleep, when my bloody mobile rings. Good thing
though - the managers of the Jackson's Boat pub, just down the river from here
(2 minute walk) want me to go down there on Thursday evening for a "try out".
This could be the beginning of a beautiful relationship :-))
In town today I also bought something that I really shouldn't have
done but I saw it and _had_ to buy it. I went to Vinyll Exchange to look for
either the Ladysmith Black Mombazzo albumm that I nearly picked up when I went
there with Caroline or some Dave Matthews Band stuff. Didn't get either, but I
did get - The Hitch-hiker's Guide to the Galaxy, part one, on video!!!
*beams*96 minutes running time and I watched about 40 mins of it according to
this video player. WHEEEEEEEEEEEEE! Right now, listening to the Prodigy -
Music for the Jilted Gneration. Will prolly move onto the Divine Comedy soon.
*tired bounce*
---------------------------------------------[ Tue May 16 17:59:48 2000 GMT ]--
From: JustForToday,JustForAnEvening (phil-99)
Subject: Fish and Chips for tea
I really am eating so appalingly badly. So badly. I really need
to get back into cooking sometime soon. I haven't cooked anything more than
pasta or pasta bakes for over a week and a half now. Chinese and curries are
alright but hey...
Was persuaded to get some multivitamins over the weekend. Will see if
they make me feel a little less rough than my normal "roughness" level. Umm.
This afternoon I tidied up, put all my bills and statements into their correct
folders. Just need to sort my clothes out now.
Umm. Tired. Bed, prolly.
---------------------------------------------[ Tue May 16 21:43:58 2000 GMT ]--
From: JustForToday,JustForAnEvening (phil-99)
Subject: Now, I really don't wanna sound like certain other spods here - but
what the hell are all these people doing reading this diary? :)
Well - there's the two that I think must be jokes *grin*
And the people that I know...
And the rest... who baffle me.
But well - I ain't complaining... honest!
And I won't insist that my life is boring and stuff either.
Even though it might be :)
---------------------------------------------[ Thu May 18 07:24:33 2000 GMT ]--
From: JustForToday,JustForAnEvening (phil-99)
Subject: I'm up far too early.
I'm slowly getting myself back into the habit of getting up early
again - only to smash it all by working from 2000-0000 tonight. It'll be
interesting, this thing tonight - I've never actually worked in a "proper pub"
before (i.e. - one that doesn't involve students somewhere along the line! :->)
but I can't see it being any different in reality.
Oh - went to look at another house yesterday. This one, was 99.99%
perfect. The shame is - the other 0.01% ruins it really. It was clean, warm,
fairly cheap (#44 a week) in good condition, sounded like the landlords were
great (live next door) - everything. The ONE problem. It was 3 bedrooms - but
one of the bedrooms was tiny. It was getting towards box-room size. I was
going to say "I'd be willing to live in it", but I wouldn't. And I know it.
It is such a blow, because all the way round I was thinking "I love
it. It's right next to the main bus route, it's actually just like one of my
old houses at home, it's all round nice", and until we got outside again I
didn't even think about it.
Oh well.
There's always the next one :-|
---------------------------------------------[ Thu May 18 10:58:58 2000 GMT ]--
From: JustForToday,JustForAnEvening (phil-99)
Subject: Currently listening to: Incubus
Some random MP3s someone uploaded to my FTP ages back. I never really
sat and listened to it before, but I love it! I think I might have to search
for some of their stuff about. Verging towards the heavy side of things but
not quite there... I don't know where I'd put them if I had to describe them
using one of the normal "types"... *ponder*
Anyhow... I was incredibly lazy and went to McDs for brekkie. Double
Sausage and Egg McMuffin, yum :) Grease-tastic! Lunchtime is coming up and I
really shouldn't be hungry, but I am. And I still haven't done any work! Grr.
I'll do that after lunch :)
Still disappointed about that house, too.......
---------------------------------------------[ Thu May 18 15:02:42 2000 GMT ]--
From: JustForToday,JustForAnEvening (phil-99)
phil@ps:~/music > du -h | sort -k2
3.0G .
97M ./Blur-Parklife
141M ./Bon_Jovi_-_Cross_Road_-_The_Best_Of_Bon_Jovi
26M ./Boyz_II_Men
68M ./Crash_Test_Dummies_-_Give_Yourself_A_Hand
130M ./Dave_Matthews_&_Tim_Reynolds_-_Live_At_Luther_College_Disc_1
92M ./Dave_Matthews_&_Tim_Reynolds_-_Live_At_Luther_College_Disc_2
80M ./Eels_-_Beautiful_Freak
110M ./Eminem_-_Slim_Shady_LP
42M ./Fastball
63M ./Gomez_-_Gomez
73M ./Green_Day_-_Dookie
91M ./Hootie_And_The_Blowfish_-_Musical_Chairs
42M ./Marc_Cohn_-_Marc_Cohn
83M ./Marc_Cohn_-_The_Rainy_Season
116M ./Moby_-_Play
122M ./Pink_Floyd_-_The_Division_Bell
109M ./Ricky_Martin_-_Ricky_Martin
67M ./Singles
30M ./Singles/The_Divine_Comedy_-_Everybody_Knows_(Except_You)
6.5M ./Singles/The_Doobie_Brothers_-_Long_Train_Runnin'_-_CD_Single
91M ./The_Beautiful_South_-_Blue_Is_The_Colour
130M ./The_Divine_Comedy_-_A_Secret_History
85M ./The_Divine_Comedy_-_Fin_De_Sicle
128M ./The_Very_Best_of_Jazz_After_Dark_-_Disc_1
117M ./The_Very_Best_of_Jazz_After_Dark_-_Disc_2
90M ./Various_Artists_-_Essential_Soundtracks_The_Classic_Collection_disk_1
91M ./Various_Artists_-_Essential_Soundtracks_The_Classic_Collection_disk_2
144M ./Various_Artists_-_THE_BEST_TV_ADS..._EVER!_-_Part_1
138M ./Various_Artists_-_THE_BEST_TV_ADS..._EVER!_-_Part_2
144M ./Various_Artists_-_The_Chillout_Album_-_Disk_1
138M ./Various_Artists_-_The_Chillout_Album_-_Disk_2
66M ./incubus
108M ./pi
phil@ps:~/music > df .
Filesystem 1k-blocks Used Available Use% Mounted on
/dev/hdb1 3166948 3107968 58980 98% /music
Ummmm - oops. Maybe that's why I can't record any more CDs?!
---------------------------------------------[ Thu May 18 16:04:32 2000 GMT ]--
From: JustForToday,JustForAnEvening (phil-99)
Subject: Argh... Mono is SO lagged atm for me :(
---------------------------------------------[ Thu May 18 23:11:27 2000 GMT ]--
From: JustForToday,JustForAnEvening (phil-99)
Subject: ooooo I love playing with Unix commands :-\
sed sort grep awk and all those nice commands with horrid syntax.
Anyhow - the pub was good. Nice friendly staff, if a little bit too
familiar with each other at first to make me feel really in place but that's
only to be expected. I didn't have any booboos... it's all standardly
pub-bish. The only thing I think that they might think is that I'm not one to
think on my own... the only reason I say this is because I know alot of places
have their own "routines" that they stick with and don't tend to deviate from -
and I was trying to make sure I didn't break any of these. Now I know they
don't really, I'll get on with it my own way :)
---------------------------------------------[ Fri May 19 11:14:51 2000 GMT ]--
From: JustForToday,JustForAnEvening (phil-99)
Subject: *yawn*
Was woken up at horrible-o-clock by various alarms again. Turned them
off and went back to sleep, waking up again a few times until 11:30. Nice. I
will try and get some work done but I don't trust myself to actually do
anything worthwhile...
Oh, and need to try and figure out if I can work 'till 7:30 on
Saturday so I can actually make it into Manchester for 8:00-ish. Either that
or swap the shift totally... I really can't believe I forgot - I think I need
to start keeping a diary :)
---------------------------------------------[ Fri May 19 18:53:44 2000 GMT ]--
From: JustForToday,JustForAnEvening (phil-99)
Subject: I just had a successful cooking experiment!!!!!!!!!
*beams proudly*
Not often things experimenting go right :)
I made a turkey fillet (huge thing, cost: 1.70) marinaded in Scwarze's
"Montreal Steak" stuff... and loads of butter :) Put in the oven along with a
couple of Sweet Potatoes for around 20 minutes, maybe 25, and out comes one
delicious turkey thing and lots of wonderous roast potatoes.
Yummeeee... tried to give some turkey away to Keith (boring git from
upstairs who barely ever leaves!) and he refused, but Dave Sparkes' (scavenger
in excelsis?) eyes lit up when I asked him if he wanted any :) Was very good.
Prolly not as good as lunch, which was had at Cafe Istanbul with
Caroline. Was good, but not quite sure if it was worth the prices they were
asking... and the wine wasn't as good as Cafe Rouge's (but was cheaper, lol).
*smacks lips*
Yum.
---------------------------------------------[ Fri May 19 22:45:43 2000 GMT ]--
From: JustForToday,JustForAnEvening (phil-99)
Subject: Just as I start to get things sorted about relationships, guess what
happens? No - I mean really - Guess!
I get back and find an ICQ message saying "are you there?" so I reply
saying "I am now", only to be asked to call Kate. First words out of her mouth
are: "What web page do you think I am looking at?". Lemme give you a hint:
http://www.ins.usdoj.gov/
In case you need translations: www. Immigration and Naturalisation
Service (Dept of Justice) . Government Dept.
She's leaving.
She's leaving him.
And this time, I think it's for sure.
Her therapy has come to some good after all!
I don't know what I should be thinking. My instant reaction was one
of "oh, my fucking God, are you really trying to screw me up here?" My
secondary reaction was to be scared outta my wits. My tertiary reaction was to
see all the common sense arguments...
I'm scared. I think I settled on that sensation. I was just getting
it all sorted out, and now this.
---------------------------------------------[ Sat May 20 12:11:21 2000 GMT ]--
From: JustForToday,JustForAnEvening (phil-99)
Subject: Work this afternoon
I needed to wash my black trousers but there's a sodding queue in the
laundry :( Typical. So I'll just have to wear jeans today.
I'm still slightly out of it. Kate's revelations last night shocked
me more than I could possibly have shown or described. And I still don't know
how I should be thinking about it, whether I should be happy or not. After
all, I was just getting into my head the idea that I could quite happily have a
relationship with someone local :)
damnit.
And this Chiense tonight is going to be a pain to get to - I never did
get time to go down the Boat (Jackson's Boat) and ask about working 'till 7:30
or whatever. I'll prolly try and make it around 8:30 if I can do. Just to be
difficult :)
---------------------------------------------[ Sun May 21 13:58:16 2000 GMT ]--
From: JustForToday,JustForAnEvening (phil-99)
Subject: Made it at 8:15 :)
A very nice meal, with Wine :) 'nuff said. Just remind me to check
my spoon next time I am eating - just in case there's nothing on it again!
Woke up at 11:30 or so, feel incredibly lazy. Starting to get more
worried about tommorrow now - just as it's getting to be too late to do
anythign about it - typical brain of mine.
---------------------------------------------[ Sun May 21 21:56:03 2000 GMT ]--
From: JustForToday,JustForAnEvening (phil-99)
Subject: *groan*
'nuff said
---------------------------------------------[ Mon May 22 11:28:11 2000 GMT ]--
From: JustForToday,JustForAnEvening (phil-99)
Subject: Exam was easier than I ever expected
After looking through some past papers I was prepared for the worst -
but he changed the exam format! Thank you! :) The questions have been the
same sort of things for the past 3 years, this time he'd done them differently,
which for me - was only a Good Thing (TM) As it meant, there were two
questions in there I could answer _most_ of and one I could answer the ten
points bit satisfactorally (how do you spell that?!)
Home now. Need food. God I'm gonna turn into a bigger blob soon, I
really am... 5 course Chineses and munchies all day long... Thing is, until I
go out, I tend to do fairly well :)
Exam tommorrow is Human Computer Interaction. Nothing hard there
except for learning the "Rules of Usability", which are all a big fat waste of
time anyhow, IMO of course :-)
---------------------------------------------[ Mon May 22 16:12:07 2000 GMT ]--
From: JustForToday,JustForAnEvening (phil-99)
Subject: Why?
Why do people insist on asking me every time they see me, "How's the
revision going?". Every time they get the same answer in the same defeatist
tone - "It's not". It doesn't make me feel better - it doesn't make them feel
better - so WHY do they ask?
I can do a damn good job of forgetting about stressful things at times
like these, I don't need people to come along and make me remember. *sigh*. I
really ain't very good at dealing with stress, am I?
---------------------------------------------[ Tue May 23 21:40:04 2000 GMT ]--
From: JustForToday,JustForAnEvening (phil-99)
Subject: Been up at 0630 now for two days running, and am beginning to feel
worse for wear, prolly because of it. Very very tired. In town with Caroline
this afternoon looking for tat (she'll kill me) and I was really struggling to
stay awake - even though I felt fine when I left home!
Drank 3 cans of Caffrey's which made me feel slightly better. Also
just munched on an enormous bowl of pasta and tuna, which won't help me sleep
any, I guess, but I was hungry, OK!? Sleep + Empty Stomach does not happen!
Next exam Thursday.
---------------------------------------------[ Wed May 24 09:11:05 2000 GMT ]--
From: JustForToday,JustForAnEvening (phil-99)
Subject: That was a gorgeous sleep...
Feel much better now. Right, now - what to do? There's a few places
I want to go but I might just wait until I get paid until I go there... I could
read through my networking notes I guess, as they are vaguely interesting
compared to the others I've tried reading :)
Playing Planetarion now :-) I tried playing it before but the
combination of the slow site and boredom made me quit. Seems to have got
faster, which is a good thing :)
---------------------------------------------[ Wed May 24 18:26:11 2000 GMT ]--
From: JustForToday,JustForAnEvening (phil-99)
Subject: Shopping, and apple pie....
Gorgeous, it was. It was my Breakfast and my lunch... picked up
two packs of mince for 99p each, so gonna make a chilli/lasagna tonight.
Haven't decided yet. Said I would revise - didn't. Spent half the evening
attempting to make Licq compile and work properly. Hmm. Must try and get hold
of KDE 2 someday...
Exam tommorrow. Only two more. Tommorrow's is alright. Monday's
(Monday?) will be easy. No problems.
---------------------------------------------[ Thu May 25 11:01:27 2000 GMT ]--
From: JustForToday,JustForAnEvening (phil-99)
Subject: This was a LAUGH!
An exam I actually enjoyed answering! Whooo! I tell you - the
questions could have been answered by anyone with a vague clue about networks
and the principles behind them. About the only difficult thing was remembering
the different "ISO OSI 7 Layer Model" layers.
Launched into a full 1 1/2 page essay on Public Key encryption (a
subject I love, because I know it very well) and the same on Firewalls (what is
a firewall, describe how a firewall might operate wrt TCP/IP). I can't believe
it was so easy!
Ahhhh... only one more doss exam left.
You know, it is freakily quiet in here. There are *counts* 40
computers in here and only 3 people... normally this room is packed come
anywhere near lunchtime! Oh, and one person is leaving. Leaving me, on Mono -
and one other guy downloading MP3s thru Lycos.
Working Saturday evening. 8-midnight. Then I should find out my
regular shifts. Hopefully not a Saturday night, is all I will say. I'd rather
do Fridays, leaves my weekend free to go out to Chineses and things :)
Best head home I guess....
---------------------------------------------[ Thu May 25 13:34:57 2000 GMT ]--
From: JustForToday,JustForAnEvening (phil-99)
Subject: Exam Questions... to show how easy they were :)
1: a) Describe, in general terms, the problems that can exist when
exchanging information between two computers.
(5 Marks)
b) Explain how a layered system architecture provides a solution to these
problems. Briefly describe each of the layers in the ISO OSI Model.
(9 Marks)
c) Under what circumstances might it be impractical to implement the ISO
OSI 7 Layer model for reliable and efficient comms?
(6 Marks)
Well - OK - admittedly parts B) and C) are tricky-ish if you don't know the
Model but if you read it once then you've got it :)
Now this one was the pathetically easy one...
2: a) Describe the advantages and disadvantages of the following
transmission media for data comms:
i) co-ax cable [TV Aerial Cable, essentially]
ii) fibre-optic cable
iii) microwave
(12 Marks)
b) Two rural hospitals have have decided to combine their computer
systems. Discuss the factors that will influence your choice of
transmission medium between the two hospitals.
(8 Marks)
Now - look at part One - you could blag that having done NO part of the course.
Part 2 is just as easy to do, but I guess your reasons might change having done
the course :)
Anyhow, I will now return you to your normal programming...
---------------------------------------------[ Thu May 25 20:29:42 2000 GMT ]--
From: JustForToday,JustForAnEvening (phil-99)
Subject: OK, anybody reasonably techie could answer those...
Not implying that if you couldn't you were thick or something... but
they just struck me as being a piece of pish :) (You know, that phrase doesn't
quite seem to work as well in writing...)
Now I am absolutely exhausted but am holding out for 10pm. If I can
make 10pm I wil be happy, and then (and only then) will I collapse in bed.
Been drinking water all evening. I can't remember if I drank any during the
day but I have gone through 5 pints already now and still feel like more.
Currently Listening to...
Random MP3s... including Blue, Pi Soundterack (which looks ACE in
Synaesthesia, I swear - groups like Duran Duran make it look good too), Dave
Matthews Band, Best TV Adverts in the World, Bon Jovi (yay!), Eminem and more.
Currently Eminem - Don't Give A Fuck
Quite appro. for how I feel about uni some (lots) of the time...
---------------------------------------------[ Fri May 26 09:05:37 2000 GMT ]--
From: JustForToday,JustForAnEvening (phil-99)
Subject: Ugh, I had a foul night. FOUL, i tell you.
Went to bed about 2230-2300ish, woke up at 0330, tried to go back to
sleep again but failed. Listened to some of Hannibal, trying to persuade
myself to go back to sleep, which kinda worked. But after that, I woke up
every half-hour/hour or so until I gave in and got up at 9am. Ugh. I'm gonna
be a grumpy bastard today, I bet you.
Munched on croissants and apple juice for brekkie :) Yum. Now sat
here watching kids/educational TV. *sigh* WHat am I gonna do with myself
today then?
---------------------------------------------[ Fri May 26 13:57:06 2000 GMT ]--
From: JustForToday,JustForAnEvening (phil-99)
Subject: I've not yet moved from the 'pooter all day.
This is bad juju....
---------------------------------------------[ Sat May 27 11:06:35 2000 GMT ]--
From: JustForToday,JustForAnEvening (phil-99)
Subject: I was going to go to bed at 9pm last night, I felt so bad :(
Some bastard has given me a cold, and everything is so much effort...
I went to town to buy some bread earlier and it exhausted me :( So I got back,
and I ate 4 of the 6 donuts I bought, oops. Oh well, that'll be brunch then!
I feel bad for sigje. Being refused entry to any country must be one
of the most humiliating experiences ever. I can't imagine what it must be like
to be questioned for hours about your visit, having all your stuff searched
(actually, that last one I can - I got searched for "Fruit and Veg" on entry to
the US a few times) - not to mention that it will cause even more difficulties
on attempting re-entry.
Oh well.
Mick Hucknall is on TV soon :-) Yay! Simply red in concert, whuich
will be amazing - especially if they do my favourite songs (Holding Back the
Years, Stars, If You Don't Know Me by Now). Ugh, S Club 7 on CD:UK. Yuck.
"pop-tastic", some might say.
Going to have a nother look round the house we first saw on
Brantingham Road today. We'll prolly sign for it, as we really need somewhere
soon, I was going to say that we could wait till August but I'd rather be safe,
I guess.
Also going to climb back into bed now, hope I can sleep off some of
this cold. Ugh I just remembered I'm supposed to be working tonight. It's
gonna kill me. Can't really call in sick, I'll see how it goes.
---------------------------------------------[ Sat May 27 13:51:47 2000 GMT ]--
From: JustForToday,JustForAnEvening (phil-99)
Subject: House...
We're going for it. Just need to go see the agency and find out about
contracts and things first. Deposit is 2 months rent, IIRC, everything else
seem alright. It's far from perfect but out oif the choices we can find, it's
the only one that makes sense!
---------------------------------------------[ Sat May 27 18:00:12 2000 GMT ]--
From: JustForToday,JustForAnEvening (phil-99)
Subject: Ugh. Gonna go into work, despite feeling extremely bad.
Need to: shave, shower, iron trousers, find something decent to wear
with trousers, prolly involving more ironing. Yuck. I am feeling slightly
better though, I'm not feeling like I'm gonna collapse from a terrible headache
any more.
Best go then!
---------------------------------------------[ Sat May 27 23:28:04 2000 GMT ]--
From: JustForToday,JustForAnEvening (phil-99)
Subject: Work was tops :)
It was quiet, but not so quiet I had nothing to do all night. I
downed a couple of paracetamol before I went out and they obviously helped a
great deal. It was actually quite tough going because I'm being expected to do
more and more myself now, unsurprisingly, even though some of the stuff is
totally different from anything I've done before.
I'm also having trouble with the concept of "tips" *grin*
*thinks*
Beginning to get tired again now. Will be working tommorrow from 4-8,
so will sleep now, I think. Else I will be exhausted tommorrow. I slept for
two hours this afternoon, from around 3:30-6pm, which made me feel SO much
better. I think I should do that more often :)
I'm also beginning to lose track of days. I struggled to remember
what day it was today, and when asked to work tommorrow, I had to ask what day
that was :)
---------------------------------------------[ Sun May 28 11:22:54 2000 GMT ]--
From: JustForToday,JustForAnEvening (phil-99)
Subject: To give you an idea of how dead Mono is this afternoon...
I just alphabetalised (d'oh... alphabetically ordered) my Friends
list ([ESC][Y][F] if you don't know what I mean by Friends List).
Thrilling stuff, eh?
---------------------------------------------[ Sun May 28 21:24:39 2000 GMT ]--
From: WeOnlySmokeWhenBored, SoWeDoSixPacksADay (phil-99)
Subject: Work today was actually very good fun...
Well mebbe fun is the wrong word. It was enjoyable. The staff there
that I've met are all really friendly and have gone out fo their ways to make
me feel welcome - which is really really nice.
The bosses (Bill and Dee) are great too. Friendly, talkative, and
they know what it's like to be a skivvy :-) umm. The punters that I've met
have been a good crowd, no trouble yet. It's a pub on a river, so apparently
tends to get extremely busy ona nice sunny Sunday afternoon. With it
being a Bank Holiday tommorrow I'm expecting it to be nasty!
Sian (or I think that's how you spell it... she's a Scot) is cute as
sin, but 31 and taken, I believe *grin* Ummm. Only did 4hrs today but it was
hard work. Some demanding customers :)
---------------------------------------------[ Tue May 30 23:50:36 2000 GMT ]--
From: WeOnlySmokeWhenBored, SoWeDoSixPacksADay (phil-99)
Subject: Must go bed. Exam tommorrow. Not want sleepy. :)
Need to change flights tommorrow too.
Bought CD racks today *beams*
Ummmmm.
Nice day out with Caroline... lunch of pizza and ice-cream, she is a
BAD influence on me, I swear to you. Tommorrow = work in the afternoon which
I am mighty pissed about - last exam tommorrow as well. Oh well - it's MONEY!
And money is good! :)
Best go sleep, really.... Not even tired. Will take some valarian
and read in bed for a half hour :)
---------------------------------------------[ Wed May 31 12:26:41 2000 GMT ]--
From: WeOnlySmokeWhenBored, SoWeDoSixPacksADay (phil-99)
Subject: Exam easy.
Was a laugh watching half the room stand up and walk out after the
half hour was up :) The poor invigilator's face was a mask of "What the hell
is going on here?"
I of course stayed, for about 10 minutes more :) Glad I did too
because I caught two or three minor errors that I could do without. See - ya
get careless and ya makes mistakes!
Bought "Infinity Welcomes careful Drivers" yesterday, for the third
time. I don't seem ot be able to keep this book, I have leant my copy of it to
two different ppl and never got either back, so decided to buy another one that
is gonan be just for ME! *muhahahaaaaa* *coughs* Yes, well....
I now have flights to Brussels (leave on Friday, return on Monday),
Belgian Francs (monopoly money!)... all I need to do now, is think about
clothes, uck! Best learn how to use the iron again :) (Still pissed about the
fact that Paul dropped mine on the carpet and got nylon in the nozzles, GRRRR,
that was a really good one too...)
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Jun 1 16:51:24 2000 GMT ]--
From: WeOnlySmokeWhenBored, SoWeDoSixPacksADay (phil-99)
Subject: *sigh*
Remind me next time that I decide to stay at the pub after work, to
make sure I eat something beforehand? I'd eaten a sausage roll at 9am, and a
few packs of peanuts all afternoon, then proceeded to drink 5-6pints of Old
Speckled Hen, then wondered why I was violently ill... the worst bit, I didn't
actually feel ill until I got into bed. (well, I don't think I did - I have
very hazy memories between leaving the pub and getting into bed)
So today I've felt CRAP all day long. Done laundry, been to shop,
eaten pack of biscuits, drank bottle of milk (2 pints in under 30 mins) and
played with both Squid and Planetarion. It's sick, now my web connection goes:
My computer -> Squid, running on my computer -> University Proxies
Well - it's not so bad I guess, but it's an extra layer that's
unneccesary. I'm toying with wwwoffle but I think squid might win, just due
to the sheer amount of flexibility and documentation about for it.
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Jun 6 10:52:56 2000 GMT ]--
From: WeOnlySmokeWhenBored, SoWeDoSixPacksADay (phil-99)
Subject: Wow... 4 whole days :)
Brussels. Good.
Chocolate, amazing. Beer, twice as good :)
When I've woken up a bit I'll put a longer edit here...
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Jun 7 00:49:31 2000 GMT ]--
From: WeOnlySmokeWhenBored, SoWeDoSixPacksADay (phil-99)
Subject: Well, let's go through the weekend then...
Set off on Friday morning for Manc airport, got on flight to
Brusseles, landed in Brussels. Met Caroline, Andrew and Pete at airport, went
to Pete's dropped off my stuff, got changed after discovering that I forgot to
pack that pile of t-shirts I put on the bed.
Went to Brussels to go karting. Got dropped off in the middle of
nowhere by some mad taxi driver (ok I exaggerate) and had to walk what felt
like bloody miles (but was only really about 2-3km) in the hot hot HOT sun.
ummm. Went Karting, came 3rd last and 2nd last consecutively :) Andrew
pootles well ;-)
Went back to Pete's after eats, lovely big spaghetti bolognese, and
wonderful belgian beer. I think that was Thursday sorted ;)
Saturday, sleep in, get breakfast, go out, get lunch, eat, drink, be
merry. Damnit I forgot exact details already, or maybe I'm too tired :)
Either way, it was HOT! went out Sat night and was fed red bull (bad idea, I
never drunk it before, really gave me such a buzz I couldn't cope with standing
still!) and good beers :) BIIIIIG beers!
Sunday, exceedingly lazy day. Hungover! Squabbled over food. Or
lack of it :) Or maybe that was just me, but hey...
Monday, Brussels again, shopping for beer and chocolate :) Fly home.
The exceedingly short version of the trip. But it was fun, it was SO
nice to get away from here and to see Pete again :) I find it hard to believe
I've only ever spoken to him about twice before! :)
Thanks Pete!!!
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Jun 8 19:03:26 2000 GMT ]--
From: WeOnlySmokeWhenBored, SoWeDoSixPacksADay (phil-99)
Subject: Lazy days... the best kind
Got a choice for 3rd yr project to make now :( Not right now, but
soon. None of the "stock" projects look really inspring, except for maybe one
but I think it may be mobbed :(
Was gonna go to cinema today but too tired.
Really missing Kate atm :( How soppy and sentimental :\ Think I
might order chinese tonight as I feel incredibly lazy.
Mono's been quite active today, has been really nice.
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Jun 9 10:02:12 2000 GMT ]--
From: WeOnlySmokeWhenBored, SoWeDoSixPacksADay (phil-99)
Subject: So I'm working from 12-5 today...
Not sleeping properly, but not as bad as it used to be, I guess. The
net in general has me in it's greasy grip, holding me in when my brain says
"tired" and making sure I don't get me to bed until it's finished with me,
making me communicate with whomever it pleases.
Alternatively, you could just say that I'm a spod :)
I managed to break KDE (sorta Window Manager for Linux) last night,
which has really pissed me off, because no matter what I do I can't make it
work again :( So now spodding through Windows which is a bad thing - I'm so
used to doing things the console/xterm way now, I'm struggling :)
*yawn*
I look like a yeti, I need to shave.
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Jun 10 01:12:23 2000 GMT ]--
From: WeOnlySmokeWhenBored, SoWeDoSixPacksADay (phil-99)
Subject: Long and boring day
Pissed, because I realised today that I had to apply to stay at Hardy
Farm over summer, by today. So as soon as I got back form work at 5pm, wernt
to the office - to find it closed. ARGH! So I slipped my app under the door,
hoping that they'll accept it.
Hell, I've nowhere else to go so if they don't... I'm screwed!!
Realising how much I miss being "with" someone more and more, again.
Wanting to have someone to share things with, wanting to have someone to spend
my spare time with. Wanting to have someone to grow old with.
They'll all come.
Eventually. But I want it now.
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Jun 10 11:06:00 2000 GMT ]--
From: WeOnlySmokeWhenBored, SoWeDoSixPacksADay (phil-99)
Subject: Went to see the pplies in the office here today...
No answer. I wandered in, hoping to see a letter in the pigeonhole
saying "Yes, you can stay" but nothing as of yet. Well - I'm not so much
worried about whether I can stay or not as worried that they're taking their
time about telling me.
Feeling slightly better tho, this morning (afternoon now). Still mad
as hell that I can't get KDE to work :( Might just re-install the whole lot -
hell I've tried removing and re-instaling RPMs by the million already...
nothing seems to want to make it work.
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Jun 11 10:32:12 2000 GMT ]--
From: WeOnlySmokeWhenBored, SoWeDoSixPacksADay (phil-99)
Subject: Ping? *grin*
Work last night was a laugh, spent the whole evening being "flirted
at" by the Boss' wife :) Not serious, but enough to warrant going bright red
multiple times :) Add to that the gorgeous lassie who was veryveryveryveryvery
nice and you have perfection in an evening :) Yum.
So doing today, 2-8 which will be long but hell, the money's nice.
And after that I have some time of,f doing just casual work until Tony finishes
working his 2 week notice period - then I get his 4-8 shifts every weekday!
YAY! Those ones are nice, because it means I:
a) don't have to get up early for it
b) have most of the day free to do other things
c) don't finish late!
d) have time (just about) to go out in an evening after :)
Decided that I need to find out what kinda state my bike is in, because I'm
going to end up cycling to work when we move house. Such a shame I'm moving to
the other end of town... only a shame for this job - as where I am now is so
perfect, only a 5 min walk at most. Well, it'll only be a 10 min cycle or so
from the other end :)
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Jun 12 09:21:31 2000 GMT ]--
From: Pan-PubescentBeastsRoamThroughTheStreets (phil-99)
Subject: OK now this got me slightly worried :)
Users On
spod spod_nameline <CFTV> In The Vagina
*laughs*
Well let's see. I've now had my net access taken cruelly away from me :( They
yanked the cable last night, without warning - so it worked before I went to
work and then didn't work as I tried to log on when I got back. Scum! So now,
I am spodding from Uni, which really sucks... pain in the butt too as I really
need to play around with Qt versions that I needed to d/l. Thanks be I bought
a Zip Drive a while ago :-)
Went to the pub last night with Darren (whom I'm moving in with next month) and
we just had a couple of quiet pints and put the world to rights :) Then I was
in bed by 11pm - awake at 7:30am - voluntarily!!?? I'm sick! Hell, I was
in Uni by 9:15am :)
Had a very interesting conversation with one of the regulars last night. I
took a book w/me because I expected it to be quiet, but didn't get much of a
chance to read it. She asked me what it was and I replied "The Q Letters".
When asked for an explanation I ummed and ahhhed a bit before explaining it,
only for her to develop a glint in her eye and beg to borrow it :)
Strange how things come out.........
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Jun 12 14:07:34 2000 GMT ]--
From: Pan-PubescentBeastsRoamThroughTheStreets (phil-99)
Subject: YAYYYY!
I got net access back, whoo!!!
I was just planning who I could drag out down the pub as well :(
Looks like I'll be spodding all day then :)
Well, I really need to fix my KDE before I move, that or get a copy of
SuSE 6.3/4 from Ian :-\
Oh, and need to figure out PPP and DHCP before I leave too...
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Jun 13 00:45:06 2000 GMT ]--
From: Pan-PubescentBeastsRoamThroughTheStreets (phil-99)
Subject: I really should stop worrying about people..
I find it stupidly easy to develop "attatchments" to people... people
that I barely know, whether it be random or whether it be more than that. I
mean, I have a tendency to feel sorry for people, to wish that I could be there
to help, even though I know that the help that I offer is next to useless.
Every time I imagine that by even being there, it may be different... every
time, I'm dissapointed... I think I just expect too much from what is an
obviously short "relationship" from the start...
But it doesn't make it any easier, to read the hurt, to feel the pain,
and to want to be there, to at least attempt to make it better. You have to
remember, that not long ago - an edit like this would not have been possible.
Emotions caged up and stuffed into a tiny box as tightly as possible. It
worked! For a while :) A combination of relationships and the internet (which
some ppl refuse to believe!) have helped me in this respect, at least.
SO - next time I appear cold, I appear to shrug you off, whomever you
may be, trust me: I share whatever it is - I just don't know how to start.
Sensitivity was never one of my finer points :) hence being a barman!
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Jun 13 16:41:20 2000 GMT ]--
From: Pan-PubescentBeastsRoamThroughTheStreets (phil-99)
Subject: Well that'll teach me not to write when I've had some drinks :)
How to go too far? Well - too far for me, anyhow...
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Jun 15 02:50:31 2000 GMT ]--
From: Pan-PubescentBeastsRoamThroughTheStreets (phil-99)
Subject: Should be asleep ;)
Damned Americans, keeping me on the phone!
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Jun 15 12:38:26 2000 GMT ]--
From: Pan-PubescentBeastsRoamThroughTheStreets (phil-99)
Subject: Eventually slept, but only for about an hour and a half, so I'm gonna
be absolutely (excuse my French) fucked tonight. I dunno, I just didn't feel
like bed at all last night.
*yawns*
Parents home tommorrw, then I can beg them for money :)
Really need to get the deposit back from them, at least...
Got my TV card sorta working again in Linux... still can't figure out
why I can't get the tuner to actually tune ;-) Seems to be stuck on one
frequency...
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Jun 16 19:23:05 2000 GMT ]--
From: Pan-PubescentBeastsRoamThroughTheStreets (phil-99)
Subject: hmmm
Well things really are going pear shaped round here...
I am now skint, as skint can be. My parents haven't yet called me
back to tell me whether or not they will sub my deposit and rent for these
three weeks, and I'm spending more money than normal...
Plus the electricity for half of Chorlton and Sale went off today
about 1pm, and hasn't yet been restored here - meaning we're running off a
generator. Don't fancy spodding for too long with a situ like that!
Oh well...
*hugs to everyone, just for the hell of it*
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Jun 16 19:34:56 2000 GMT ]--
From: Pan-PubescentBeastsRoamThroughTheStreets (phil-99)
Subject: It's not that bad, really...
I just tend to dramatise it, I think...
But then, the money situ really IS that bad... There is no way in
heaven nor hell I can pay the deposit that's expected but *hopes* my parents
said that they would be willing to pay that, as it is fully refndable and
stuff. Also I am due back the #85 deposit I paid for this place at the
beginning of the year very soon, might have to hassle the office ppl about that
soon, as I haven't heard a peep... June 19th I think I heard, was the date...
My personal life, is surprisingly good right now... Well - OK maybe
not that good but I've had a good week. I've talked to new ppl (albeit on the
net / phone) and seemed to get along with them quite well. I've spent alot of
time out in the pub with Ian (from Hardy Farm/my course - fellow 0 points for
copying coursework sufferer) but I think I've been out now every night since
Sunday, and that's no good thing...
Also still need to mail Pete his FHM :)
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Jun 17 09:29:20 2000 GMT ]--
From: Pan-PubescentBeastsRoamThroughTheStreets (phil-99)
Subject: YAY!
Called my dad, and he's volunteered to pay my deposit AND the first
month's rent :))) WHOOOOOO!!!! Never expected that much from him :) I still
feel bad for asking for cash :)
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Jun 17 13:26:29 2000 GMT ]--
From: Pan-PubescentBeastsRoamThroughTheStreets (phil-99)
Subject: Surprised that nobody's msg'ed me about this namleine yet :)
Not an obvious lyric, but one that some ppl on here should reognise!
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Jun 18 23:17:41 2000 GMT ]--
From: Pan-PubescentBeastsRoamThroughTheStreets (phil-99)
Subject: ugh, horrid day...
So hot.
Went to work an hour early at 2pm 'cuz I guessed it would be busy.
This is me, back, now.
Admittedly I did stop after work and have a few drinks.
But then again I did help clear up at the end!
And I did stay until 8:30 cleaning out the bloke's toilets because
some fuckwit had put toilet paper down the urinals :( And even then, I stayed
- helping "train the new guy". And when it got busy at last orders :(
Why am I such a mug?!?!
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Jun 19 00:18:18 2000 GMT ]--
From: Pan-PubescentBeastsRoamThroughTheStreets (phil-99)
Subject: Right now have mince pie in the Micro...
Been sat in the freezer for weeks now so I assume it was someone's who
moved out. This is only a good thing, as right now I don't want anything to
eat that cannot be cooked in the micro :) And am starving!
Also wish I could be watching the Hitch-hiker's guide right now *grin*
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Jun 19 12:50:07 2000 GMT ]--
From: Pan-PubescentBeastsRoamThroughTheStreets (phil-99)
Subject: I'm sweltering here...
I sat outside for about 20 minutes, eating my lunch whilst I wait for
the Cashier's office ot open at UMST. What STUPID opening hours they have.
10:00->12:30 and then 2:30->4:30 ?! Like who really needs two hours for
lunch?
Anyhow, I digress :-) I decided to come and spod for a while, then go
back to the Cashier's and see if they were open. But it's even hotter in the
spodlabs than it is outside, or at least it feels like it! Ugh :(
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Jun 21 12:30:56 2000 GMT ]--
From: Pan-PubescentBeastsRoamThroughTheStreets (phil-99)
Subject: hmmmmm
Need coffee. s'my day off, yay! Well I'm off until Friday and I am
NOT doing this afternoon/evening no matter what they ask :) Will do Thursday
gladly but not today!
Still extraordinarily skint. EEP! Just had a thought... my mum has
made out a cheque for Around Town Flats for the deposit, when I've already done
one? Damnit why wasn't I in when she called..... then I coulda sorted it out
properly :)
Yeah as I say, very skint, but hopefully I'll be getting a decent pay
slip this week! Still don't think it'll give me enough but *hopes* It might
make the cash machines spit money at me again :)
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Jun 21 12:49:54 2000 GMT ]--
From: Pan-PubescentBeastsRoamThroughTheStreets (phil-99)
Subject: OUCHOUCHOUCHOUCH
I just checked my bank account.
3 cheques, all went out on the same day :((
#115 for rent here
#200 for deposit
#10 agency fee.
All before my parents have sent down anything, meaning that now, I am
more than #300 over my overdraught limit. Oh fun. This is going to take some
explaining to both bank managers and parents, I think....
It's yet another case of "WHY THE HELL didn't you take the cheque to
the bank when I gave it to you? Same day would be nice!" Then it may not have
felt quite so bad :)
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Jun 21 21:48:18 2000 GMT ]--
From: Pan-PubescentBeastsRoamThroughTheStreets (phil-99)
Subject: OK Well I'm slightly hacked off by the fact that yet again, the hall
admin here took over a week to put a cheque in to be cashed. Grrrr! But
nothing I can do about that now...
I need to look at flight prices for the US. Looking at going over ni
September if I can make it. I really want to try my hardest to save up as much
as possible, so looks like I'll be working extra-hard :)
*sighs*
And I never made it out of my dressing gown today :(
hrmph.
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Jun 22 11:51:29 2000 GMT ]--
From: Pan-PubescentBeastsRoamThroughTheStreets (phil-99)
Subject: Ack, had a REALLY bad day yesterday. Motivation? Whassat then?
I think checking bank balances at that time of day is definitely a bad
thing... it knocked me out for the day :( Umm, going to go and talk to the
nice ppl at the bank today and see if they'll give me more cash to work with
until I can get my stuff sorted out.
Just talking about meets and things, looks like I might not be able to
make it to the ones I wanted to go to - the Cardiff meet for example. I
really wanted to go, but don't think I'll be able to afford it :( Woulda
been nice to have gone down and seen Nicky, without having Davey hanging round.
Anyhow. Need to go find flight prices and things :) Seey'all...
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Jun 22 13:40:05 2000 GMT ]--
From: Pan-PubescentBeastsRoamThroughTheStreets (phil-99)
Subject: Damnit damnit damnit
Yesterday it tells me the cheques have cleared. Today it tells me the
cheques have actually bounced. GRRRR! And they charge a FIVE pound fee for
every cheque that bounces, nice of the man to tell me that when I was talking
to him about how much I needed more money!
It still strikes me that it's stupidly easy to get them to extend your
overdraught. I just spent 2 minutes explaining my situation and he nodded and
said "how much do you want?". Admittedly anything over #1,250 attracts a rate
of interest but that won't be like that for long, hopefully :| I'm now going
to get nasty letters from the agency telling me to sod off because my cheque
bounced, I bet you... damnit damnit damnit, why can't it all be easy?
Oh great and I just noticed that my rent cheque bounced. Well, I have
a receipt somewhere that says I paid #115 in rent, I'm sorted *smiles* No, I
wouldn't be that much of a bastard, but right now I feel like it!
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Jun 22 22:32:41 2000 GMT ]--
From: Pan-PubescentBeastsRoamThroughTheStreets (phil-99)
Subject: My scan is all screwed up :(
bah... and StarOffice is refusing to install......
Bad day, I think...
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Jun 23 10:48:24 2000 GMT ]--
From: Pan-PubescentBeastsRoamThroughTheStreets (phil-99)
Subject: Work, 12-5 / 8-12
s'gonna be a long day, but I can cope *zzzZZZzzzZZZzzz* Was awake at
4am yesterday playing xRally :) A little game I found on Freshmeat.net - kinda
like Pacman but with cars, bizarre!
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Jun 23 20:58:52 2000 GMT ]--
From: Pan-PubescentBeastsRoamThroughTheStreets (phil-99)
Subject: grrrrrrrrrrrrr
Went into work for 8pm, only to find I wasn't actually s'posed to be
working. I'm gonna get Dee when I see her next :( So sat and had a couple of
pints, which Tony kindly had paid for :)
Now considering going to a cashpoint, getting money and buying kebab
or chinese, but trying to hold back as I can't afford it really :( Checking
bank account on net banking now after having been paid #60 for this week, but
still not sure exactly how much I have...
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Jun 23 22:49:03 2000 GMT ]--
From: Pan-PubescentBeastsRoamThroughTheStreets (phil-99)
Subject: http://www.emusic.com/albums/13101/
It's tempting. VERY tempting. USD$10.89 for an album in MP3 format, yet it
still seems far too much t be paying considering I won't be paying anything for
postage and packaging... I seem to have a Clannad craving atm, relaxing,
haunting and yet meaningful (assuming you can find the lyrics, which you can do
easily: http://www.jtwinc.com/clannad/main.html) music.
Well it's either Clannad or Eminem. Both of those seem to rate higly
with the musical taste bits in my brain atm!
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Jun 24 00:51:51 2000 GMT ]--
From: Pan-PubescentBeastsRoamThroughTheStreets (phil-99)
Subject: Got a phone call at the Boat today...
"Can I speak to Joe please?"
I look around. Only one person in. A regular.
"Are you called Joe?" "No, he says".
So I go back to the phone.
"Sorry, no Joe's in today."
Kid on the other end says "Are you sure, it's my friend, Joe King"
I say "No, get off the phone you idiot."
If you're gonna do a prank call, at LEAST have the audacity to make it
original and FUNNY! Something like that is lame and a waste of my
newspaper reading time!
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Jun 24 09:57:10 2000 GMT ]--
From: Pan-PubescentBeastsRoamThroughTheStreets (phil-99)
Subject: Well looking out the window...
I think it's gonna be a lovely quiet day at work! And this can
only be a good thing :-) Spent this morning playing with net banking,
paying my bills and organising various bits of paper. Right now the only thing
left to pay (thank the Gods for internet banking) is Barclaycard and that's
because I really want to give them a hefty lump, but that'll have to wait for a
while... 2 weeks yet 'till they'll be banging down my door demanding payment :)
Payslip for this week, yay! But I'm still paying tax, argh! I
need to find that damned P46 and quick :-\ I know I put it somewhere safe :)
It's a pain, This week I lost 16.50 of a 75 pound wage (I know it doesn't seem
like much really, but that extra tenner a week would be enough over summer to
pay for a flight to the US (if I got it cheap, at least!))
I guess I should consider packing things up soon. Need to get stuff
ready so I can move out with the minimum of fuss. And I have so much crap
lying around that it's gonna take forever. Maybe do that tommorrow evening.
Roll on the 1st July. And BUGGER! I haven't bought
Kate a birthday present :( Damnit! 3rd July... I have exactly zero ideas on
what to get :-\
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Jun 25 11:20:30 2000 GMT ]--
From: Pan-PubescentBeastsRoamThroughTheStreets (phil-99)
Subject: Wow!
Mono seems to be running REALLY fast for me at the moment... normally
even when things are running fast there's a slight gap between typing and words
appearing - now it feels like it is instant! Dunno what's changed?
Anyhow. Mini-meet yesterday was nice :) Michelle, Ian, Andrew and
Caroline all came to the Boat yesterday afternoon/evening and then we went out
to the Sedge Lynne in Chorlton for food and drink :) Was a very nice evening.
Was a plasant surprise meeting Michelle and Ian, even if Ian does remind me
LOTS of someone I used to know at Hardy Farm last year.
Yep. Just spoke to my mum too, was nice... still jealous that she
went to the US without me :-)) umm... work today, 4-8. In an attempt to make
myself not eat crisps, I shall not eat lunch until 3:30 or so... so before then
I need to wander down the late shop and buy rolls and milk. Oh, and sugar -
you can't eat a bowl of porridge without either brown sugar or honey :)
*slurps*
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Jun 25 14:03:24 2000 GMT ]--
From: Pan-PubescentBeastsRoamThroughTheStreets (phil-99)
Subject: OK... haven't made it to the shop yet :)
Haven't made it out of this dressing gown yet, either. Have: made
coffee, made pasta and pesto (yum), drunk coffee, eaten pasta and pesto (double
yum), spoken to mother. Written bizzarely blank email to someone as a result
of CTRL+C/CTRL+X being far to close to each other (Cancel and Send msg in
Pine).
Have: Learnt how to get nice line counter in top left of screen so
hopefully I can avoid getting any more of those nasty Sig11 termination errors
which have screwed up my Last Access Database 3 times in the last 2 days.
Will: Get ready for work soon.
Am: Singing along to various songs, ranging from "Let's Face the
Music" through to Incubus/Green Day. :) Spodding. Worrying about packing, of
which I have done: none. 6 days to go now, I'm just hoping that we can get
everything sorted quickety quick! AFAIK Darren is still on Holiday and won't
be back in Manc until the 1st July, which is awful planning on his part.
*sighs* All I want is a nice easy and quiet life :)
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Jun 25 21:32:19 2000 GMT ]--
From: Pan-PubescentBeastsRoamThroughTheStreets (phil-99)
Subject: Made it to the shop :)
ACK - forgot sugar. Damnit! So no sweet porridge for me tommorrow.
Bought chips, as I am feeling extraordinarily lazy. I'm not doing anything to
help lose any weight here, and everytime I eat I start to feel guilty about it
but brush that aside as I realise just how hungry I was.
*thinks* I've definitely got bigger, this is no good thing. But me
with my crappy eating habits have little chance of actually losing anything
quickly. Oh well... maybe I should put some effort into my food :)
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Jun 26 00:26:54 2000 GMT ]--
From: Pan-PubescentBeastsRoamThroughTheStreets (phil-99)
Subject: Something that may interest a few of you...
I've been meaning to complete this for AGES but never got round to it,
tonight I decided to do it. I have a book, entitled "All About You". Basically
it's a series of questions that you fill in, and keep it for future reference.
Nothing fancy. But I started copying it out to the web and got a few
interested noises a while back, so thought I'd finish it off.
It's not finished as of now, but almost there. Take a look, please
do, at http://www.cus.org.uk/~phil-99/homepage/allaboutme.html - it's an
interesting read, if you go all the way through and don't even write anything
down. But if you have a few hours to spare, it's well worth writing some
answers down to these questions :)
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Jun 26 00:53:32 2000 GMT ]--
From: Pan-PubescentBeastsRoamThroughTheStreets (phil-99)
Subject: *snuffles*
I'm re-reading through my trip diary for summer 1999 (hmm, it says 98
on the page, have to fix that) and just reading through the stuff I wrote about
Kate then :) Remembering...
Philadelphia train station, sitting next to each other, neither of us
looking at the other for fear that one of us would crack, wondering where on
earth the future was going to take us to after, if anywhere.
*sighs*
If only I'd known how much trouble that woman was gonna cause me... :)
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Jun 26 01:29:03 2000 GMT ]--
From: Pan-PubescentBeastsRoamThroughTheStreets (phil-99)
Subject: ARGH!
Have a Yahoo! ID lying around somewhere... basically I used to have a
geocities email account (had it for yrs) and when Yahoo! took over geocities I
decided I no longer wanted to be a customer of theirs. The only way I could
delete my geocities account was to create a Yahoo one 1st?!?! Yes... weird.
But anyhow... I know it exists but I can't figure out the account name :(
Password I know what it will be (choice of 2) but no matter what I try....
*sighs*
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Jun 26 13:07:49 2000 GMT ]--
From: Pan-PubescentBeastsRoamThroughTheStreets (phil-99)
Subject: Well the deposit is now sorted out for the house...
Shoulda gone and paid cash, thinking about it, I walked past the bank
on the way to the agency... I just got hassle from the Steward here about my
rent cheque being returned but told him that until I get the cash my parents
have promised me, there is nothing at all I can do about it... Wish it wasn't
like that but it is... what scares me, is that I took around 8 pound to town
with me today, and came back with about 50 pence!
I bought: Coffee (2.25), Bus ticket into town (1.20), bus ticket to
agency (45p) so that makes 3.90. Then bus ticket home, 1.20 - now at 5.10 ..
oh, I forgot about the drink and ice cream I bought, that was 1.50, so 6.60 or
so. Then the jar of honey (1.40) makes #8 exactly. Jeez, it's horrifying
where and how quickly it goes :-\ I never really think about it until it's too
late...
Oh, trying to get hold of my mum. Jeeeeeeeeez it's stupid. She has a
mobile, why isn't she answering it? I doubt she left it at home (she's
paranoid about not taking it with her)... if she's at work she has a reasonable
excuse but I've tried 5 times now, she can't be that busy! Neeeed to talk
to her...
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Jun 27 11:02:17 2000 GMT ]--
From: Pan-PubescentBeastsRoamThroughTheStreets (phil-99)
Subject: YAYYYY!
Money! I have Money! MONEY I tell you!!!!!!!!
*coughs politely*
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Jun 27 13:24:09 2000 GMT ]--
From: Pan-PubescentBeastsRoamThroughTheStreets (phil-99)
Subject: So, one cheque deposited, now wait the requisite 6 months for it to
clear and I'll be relatively flush again :-) Well, relative to my
version of zero pounds, which resides in reality, somewhere below 0 :)
I was just thinking... a cuple of my recent namelines have been from a
fairly well known band. Does nobody know where they come from?
Normally whenever I use lyrics I get a message from at least one
person saying "Ahhhah! You got that from x" but for this one I haven't
had one of those yet!
Let me expand then...
Pan Pubescent Beasts, Roam Through The Streets,
And coffee shops,
Their prey gather in herds, with stiff knee length skirts,
And white ankle socks,
But while, they search for a mate,
My type hibernate, in bedrooms above,
Composing their songs, of Love.
Young, uniform minds, in uniform lines, in uniform ties,
Run round, with trousers on fire,
And signs of desire, they cannot disguise
While I, try to find words, as light as the birds,
That circle above,
To put in my songs, of love.
Fate doesn't hang on a wrong, or right choice,
Fortune depends on the tone of your voice,
So sing, while you have time,
Let the sun shine, down from abov
And fill you songs, of love.
(take me!) (chorus-y bit)
[damn - my typing sucks, thank Gods for the "edit" ability in mono!]
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Jun 27 20:13:00 2000 GMT ]--
From: YouOuttaGiveMeSomething(YouSaidYouWould) (phil-99)
Subject: So tired.
I don't understand why. Work was quiet. By the end I had 2 ppl in :(
Got a load of hassle from Tara (big lass who thinks she runs the place
by her attitude soemdays) for munchine her Jelly Babies, I tried apologising
but she wasn't interested - so I just told her to stuff it if she didn't want
to hear what I had to say and left. Too pissed off to be dealing with the kind
of crap she likes giving out.
I can see that this job is going to drive me mental by the end of
summer unless things pick up :( I really really wish that I had put some
effort into finding a summer placement now. And if somebody doesn't pick up
that phone that's ringing upstairs I will hurt them.
TV is shite, too :(
Damnit.
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Jun 27 21:08:23 2000 GMT ]--
From: YouOughtToGiveMeSomething(USaidYouWould) (phil-99)
Subject: I'd like to copy tadpole's latest diary edit and say "me too"
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Jun 28 01:16:54 2000 GMT ]--
From: YouOughtToGiveMeSomething(USaidYouWould) (phil-99)
Subject: I live with some disgusting ppl :(
I just went to the bathroom (toilet, OK?) and decided when I went in
there that there was no way in HELL that I would clean it up before I used the
place. *shudders* It scares me that ppl can use a toilet and leave it in such
a state :((
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Jun 29 11:32:17 2000 GMT ]--
From: YouOughtToGiveMeSomething(USaidYouWould) (phil-99)
Subject: EEEEEEEEEEEEEEP!
Woke up at 12:15, s'posed to be meeting Michelle at 1pm, oopsie!
Well I think I needed it though. Was exhausted when I got back from
work last night. Ended up staying after 8pm (when I am supposed to finish) to
almost 10pm :( *sighs*
Had a nice tea though - chips and spring roll :)
Best go :)
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Jun 29 22:02:57 2000 GMT ]--
From: YouOughtToGiveMeSomething(USaidYouWould) (phil-99)
Subject: Very pissed off now...
Spent the last half-hour in the kitchen where Benoit and his female
friend (I hesitate to say Girlfriend as I am sure he must be gay) who sat there
gabbering away in French and German (yes both). When I looked at them (round
the corner I was) the girl said "if you need a hand, just ask", and then went
into fits of giggles. Why? I don't know... I can't understand enough foreign
to know what they were saying. But they both found it highly amusing.
Anyhow. The kitchen is now mostly packed into one box. I just need
to get my wok, and all my cups into a smaller box soon. Not too hard :) Room
is mostly done. Books all done, just clothes and random shite now. Should
take me an hour or two tommorrow at worst.
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Jun 29 22:25:08 2000 GMT ]--
From: YouOughtToGiveMeSomething(USaidYouWould) (phil-99)
Subject: *calms*
This Acoustic Alchemy CD is really good. It's just so, well -
calming! This is what it says on the back of the CD:
The meoldically brilliant, rhythmically diverse twin guitar dynamic
of Acoustic Alchemy has been an exciting part of the smooth jazz landscape
since 1987. Determined to keep the musical spirit and energy of Acoustic
Alchemy thriving, Greg Carmichael begins a new chapter in the band's career
with fresh new collaborators and an ongoing commitment to multiple stylistic
influences, from Soul and Country to Pop, Jazz, Latin and Reggae
I really don't know what relevance the track titles have to the songs
tho :-) (Excuse the edit, damn 'tribs)
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Jun 30 14:02:20 2000 GMT ]--
From: YouOughtToGiveMeSomething(USaidYouWould) (phil-99)
Subject: Right...
BT are being arses now :(
Just called up some number I found on the BT website to try and sort
out a line arrangement but there are two problems. They say that some of he
wiring has been moved, hence needs re-doing - which requires an engineer -
which requires 7 days notice (possibly). ALSO - the previous tenants are in
debt to BT, which means that until we can prove that we live there, that we
won't be able to get the line installed and sorted out properly :(
Bugger... good job we've all got mobiles! And this means my Red Hot
Ant subscription fees are going to waste, eeeeeep!!! Oh well... gives me more
time to find a modem, I guess :)
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Jul 1 09:47:28 2000 GMT ]--
From: YouOughtToGiveMeSomething(USaidYouWould) (phil-99)
Subject: See <MGA> for my day so far.
The agency, due to gross incompetence, appear to have fscked up my
plans for the next week. By telling us TODAY that we can't move into our house
until they've checked it - they seem to have arranged it specifically so that I
have no pre-arranged housing available.
Crap! Time to hurt someone... to say I am angry can't come close.
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Jul 1 14:45:31 2000 GMT ]--
From: YouOughtToGiveMeSomething(USaidYouWould) (phil-99)
Subject: *calmed down*
Not quite so bothered about it now. I have options, and those options
so far are:
1) go home for a week or so. Problem with this is it means I have
to cart stuff home and back again. Advantage is, means I can live rent free
and also bring back things from home that may come in handy :) I do, however,
have an offer of dumping some stuff in various places if necessary.
2) Stay at Hardy Farm. I don't yet know if this is a viable option,
but I have at least shoved a note in the office (great way of communicating,
hey? Shove notes "under office door if closed") to the tune of "we need to
stay here for a few days".
3) I have had one very cool offer that I don't think I could take up
unless things got really desperate... just because I know how much of a pain in
the arse I can be! *hugs* And thanks :)
Option 1 has a particular appeal, but it is extra unwanted hassle and
also means I'll be out of direct contact with the agency for a while :-\ From
now on I am going to ask them questions about everything I can and do need to
know, not going to assume that they know what they're doing anymore.
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Jul 1 14:48:11 2000 GMT ]--
From: YouOughtToGiveMeSomething(USaidYouWould) (phil-99)
Subject: Oh, and they also pissed me off by telling me the other day "right,
you and the other two folk need to sign these things for electricity, gas and
water rates". I got the water. What they DIDN'T tell us, was that they didn't
actually organise anything, they only kept those forms for reference.
If they'd have told me this, I could have organised electricity and
gas suppliers at the same time I was doing BT. They really are beginning to
get to me, severe lack of communication on their part.
That would have been fun - move into the house only to find no gas, no
electricity and no phone. How to start off well? :)
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Jul 1 15:27:01 2000 GMT ]--
From: YouOughtToGiveMeSomething(USaidYouWould) (phil-99)
Subject: OK - I'm going to attempt to start keeping my diary in the CUS BBS,
purely so that I can upload it to a web page every day with a nice easy cron
job :)
If you want to carry on reading what will doubtless be the same crap, please do
the following:
1: Visit http://www.cus.org.uk/~phil-99/diary.html
2: Telnet to cus.org.uk and log in as BBS. From there you can log in as guest
and view my diary on the CUS BBS :)
3: I'm sure I can find some way of doing it nice and easy, like... :)
One question... anyone have any experience of getting current diaries and
using mconv to format them for .cm format? Is it just a simple, mail it to
yourself and play with mconv deal?
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Jul 3 01:05:41 2000 GMT ]--
From: YouOughtToGiveMeSomething(USaidYouWould) (phil-99)
Subject: okok, I cannie be bothered with that, but I will be copying this diary
over to CUS on a regular basis... basically so I can explore various
bits and pieces with mconv and cron jobs :)
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Jul 3 01:07:10 2000 GMT ]--
From: YouOughtToGiveMeSomething(USaidYouWould) (phil-99)
Subject: Oh, and I want more ice-cream :)
I ate a tub earlier, and felt incredibly fat afterwards, only to be in
desperate want of more now! Typical :|
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Jul 4 20:22:48 2000 GMT ]--
From: YouOughtToGiveMeSomething(USaidYouWould) (phil-99)
Subject: Ummm, work today was boring as sin... no more than 10 ppl in from
4-7:30 and then it got busy-ish. Getting pissed now as a cheque I
deposited on the 26th STILL hasn't cleared!!!!! ARGH!
Frustrating as I need cash for a haircut and can't afford one, 'cuz
the cash machine (or tellers in the bank) won't give me the money I
need. Bastards.
How can it take so long to clear? I know it's coming from the Royal
Bank of Scotland to an English bank but still....
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Jul 4 21:09:14 2000 GMT ]--
From: YouOughtToGiveMeSomething(USaidYouWould) (phil-99)
Subject: DamnitDamnitDamnit
I missed an hour of 187 on C5 :( This is an excellent film, IMO.
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Jul 5 16:07:03 2000 GMT ]--
From: YouOughtToGiveMeSomething(USaidYouWould) (phil-99)
Subject: Well, money problems temporarily averted...
Only for them all to pop back up again when next month's rent goes
out, on the 1st August, but that is an age off yet :) Or so it seems now... an
age and three/four (depending on what day it falls) pay packets off...
I had a mystery 75pound payment authorised on my account but not taken
out that I couldn't for the life of me figure out... so I went to the bank
today and asked if they could tell me what it was... they say "28th June, it
was authorised", but can't tell me who it was to. I'm racking my brains trying
to figger out who I could possibly have made a 75 pound payment to (not likely
to be a shopping thing at #75 exact, I thought), and not until I started to
think about the phone and modem situation I find myself in a long time later,
did I realise that Red Hot Ant have finally decided to take my cash :)
Took their bloody time now, didn't they? Confused me to hell!
Right, I won an auction on QXL for a 56K internal (non-win) modem
which cost me ummmm, #13+p&p which makes it about 16quid I believe. I
transferred the cash direct to their account but haven't yet told them of this
fact, so might have to mail them now...
In fact, I will do that now... damnit why is StarOffice 5.2 so much
slower compared to 5.1? This thing takes an age to load up... tum-te-tum...
Damnit, nobody in on the phone, have to mail them now...
uhhhhh....
Must do laundry...
Work tonight... 8-12
Hasn't been a nice day so I'd imagine it will be quiet.
Good.
I think I made a fuck up yesterday and gave someone change for #20
when they only gave me #10... feeling bad as we spent a lot of time discussion
ppl pinching from the till just the day before, eeep... might have to mention
this to the bosses tonight, or at least ask if they were down last night.
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Jul 6 00:21:18 2000 GMT ]--
From: YouOughtToGiveMeSomething(USaidYouWould) (phil-99)
Subject: Am now listening to another one of my ultra-relaxing CDs...
The Very Best of Jazz, After Dark... the track listing is: (CD1)
01_-_Ella_Fitzgerald_-_Every_Time_We_Say_Goodbye.mp3
02_-_Tony_Bennet_-_I_left_My_Heart_in_San_Fransisco.mp3
03_-_Julie_London_-_Cry_Me_a_River.mp3
04_-_Kenny_Burrel_-_Midnight_Blue.mp3
05_-_Dinah_Washington_-_Mad_About_the_Boy.mp3
06_-_Chet_Baker_-_Somewhere_Over_a_Rainbow.mp3
07_-_Paul_Desmond_-_A_Taste_of_Honey.mp3
08_-_Billie_Holiday_-_That_Ole_Devil_Called_Love.mp3
09_-_Sandra_Vaughan_-_Come_Rain_or_Shine.mp3
10_-_Bob_Brookmeyer_-_Misty.mp3
11_-_Peggy_Lee_-_Black_Coffee.mp3
12_-_Miles_Davis_-_Blue_in_Green.mp3
13_-_Michael_Petrucciani_-_In_a_Sentimental_Mood.mp3
14_-_Dexter_Gordon_-_Im_A_Fool_to_Want_You.mp3
15_-_Bill_Evans_-_My_Foolish_Heart.mp3
16_-_Sonny_Rollins_-_Round_Midnight.mp3
17_-_Nina_Simone_-_I_Love_You_Porgy.mp3
(CD2)
01_-_Grover_Washington_Jnr_-_Mercy_Mercy_Me.mp3
02_-_Kenny_G_-_Songbird.mp3
03_-_George_Benson_-_Theme_From_Summer_of_42.mp3
04_-_Freddie_Hubbard_-_Fragile.mp3
05_-_John_Cameron_Quartet_-_Go_Away_Come_Back_Another_Day.mp3
06_-_Astrud_Gilberto_-_Meditation.mp3
07_-_Stan_Getz_-_O_Grande_Amor.mp3
08_-_Cannonball_Adderley_-_Once_I_Loved.mp3
09_-_Paul_Desmond_-_Wave.mp3
10_-_Cafe_Brazil_-_The_Girl_From_Ipanema.mp3
11_-_Barry_Allen_-_Early_Autumn.mp3
12_-_Bernard_Hermann_-_Theme_From_Taxi_Driver.mp3
13_-_Chet_Baker_-_These_Foolish_Things.mp3
14_-_Ella_Fitzgerald_-_Someone_to_Watch_Over_Me.mp3
It's one of those albums you just stick on and melt to, find yourself sat
there, in the swivel chair, swinging round and wondering why it all matters,
and enjoying the moment so much that you don't care what is going on in the
real world - you're there, in your own little happy place, with the music
swirling and dancing around your mind, pressing all those buttons that just say
"relax, chill out, don't worry - in fact, don't even bother thinking".
*sighs in pleasure*
On that note... I am going to copy a poem that someone wrote, a long time back,
entitled "Music", or something similar, as soon as I can find it :)
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Jul 6 00:29:06 2000 GMT ]--
From: YouOughtToGiveMeSomething(USaidYouWould) (phil-99)
Subject: The Music, by Danielle Grzegorczyk
The music soars,
floats,
glides
Through the air,
Groping,
yearning,
caressing
a tender ear.
Playing sound of joy,
terror,
mystery,
The sadness,
love,
pain,
is portrayed.
The music continues on,
Endless,
knowing,
caring,
It speaks your words,
your pain,
your grief
How does it know your losses,
your gains,
your truths?
Silenced by the emotions,
sentiment,
excitement
That abounds,
controls,
cascades
all around you
You become entangled,
entwined,
involved
In the sounds.
The sounds tell your questions to be gone,
For you've found the answers,
In the music.
[Excuse the sloppy editing]
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Jul 6 00:32:17 2000 GMT ]--
From: YouOughtToGiveMeSomething(USaidYouWould) (phil-99)
Subject: Wonder, another by Danielle Grzegorczyk
A sight of wonder.
Cascading off a high Plateau.
The wind blows sweet melodies,
of music being plated below.
A gathering is beneath you.
A son is born.
A man reaches towards the sky,
thanking the heavens for the child.
The young wail of life blends with the joyous melodies.
A man is given his son to hold -
the first time together,
yet, they both have a common bond.
Both are born at the moment.
One as a child, one as a father.
The story told in their eyes,
forsees a life.
A life of wonder.
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Jul 6 22:27:49 2000 GMT ]--
From: YouOughtToGiveMeSomething(USaidYouWould) (phil-99)
Subject: Damnit I'm tired...
And dagnabbit, no I go to bed. It doesn't feel like
bedtime yet... work today was horrible, absolutely horrible... I just wanted
out of there from about 5pm (started at 4) and didn't see anybody I knew for
about 2 1/2 hrs, and it dragged on and on and on and on, with snotty old-age
pensioner customers who don't seem to realise that although you are being paid
to do a job, you're not being paid enough to act like you're enjoying doing it
when in fact, you are fed up.
I think everyone in the world should spend 6 months doing barwork, and
then the world would be a better place - they would all understand how it feels
to have everyone believe that they are so many times more superior to you.
*growls*
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Jul 6 23:02:26 2000 GMT ]--
From: YouOughtToGiveMeSomething(USaidYouWould) (phil-99)
Subject: I really should one of these days get round to sorting out some
individual MP3 playlists instead of just shoving them all in and ff'ing the
ones I don't feel like listening to at the time :)
My playlist currently extends to somewhere around 550 tracks, kinda
taking the mickey really :) One day I will get round to making it so that I
can choose tracks for a particular mood...
Also need more disk space (might delete Windows *grins*) for more
MP3s, am at 99% now on my /music partition.... started taking up space on my
/home partition now for extra ones :) Might spill over to /opt soon! :)
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Jul 7 12:46:18 2000 GMT ]--
From: YouOughtToGiveMeSomething(USaidYouWould) (phil-99)
Subject: Tuesday
TUESDAY?
I really want to go and have a go at this agency for being USELESS
but what would that achieve? In reality, what would that do for us? It would
just make them pissed off at us, which wouldn't be a good thing.
We called them up this week, and they told us that Carpets were being
done today, and it would be ready this afternoon. We call them up this
afternoon, and they tell us it will be being cleaned on Monday. WHY THE FUCK
DIDN'T THEY TELL US THIS AT THE FUCKING TIME THE FUCKING MORONS? (Slightly
pissed off? Me? Nawww).
What's most frustrating, is the fact that they KNOW this stuff needed
doing. Fine, take your time about it, but WHY can't you tell us the truth
about when it'll all be ready? We're hanging (quite literally) on every word
they say, taking it as the gospel truth. Not because we want to, but because
we HAVE to. And they're consistently lying to us.
If it wasn't all organised already I would take my business elsewhere,
but I can't.
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Jul 8 06:39:26 2000 GMT ]--
From: YouOughtToGiveMeSomething(USaidYouWould) (phil-99)
Subject: You know, Kid's TV these days sucks :)
So, we went to the Agency and shouted at them. Not quite literally
but we did explain to them in very annoyed tones that we needed to move in now.
They said "it needed cleaning" and we said "we'll do it" and they said "fine
then, move in if you want".
So today, we're going in!
I'm, however, going to be in Cardiff, so won't actually be moving
'till Sunday but still - we'll be picking up the keys today! YAY! Looking
forward to going down to Cardiff this morning/afternoon, will be interesting to
see some ppl who are gonna be there...
Went out last night to the pub. Yet again I hadn't eaten for ages
beforehand and got just a little pissed :) Feeling a little rough now, as a
consequence, but hey... I still can't believe how damn cheap booze is in the
Wetherspods pubs :)
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Jul 9 22:48:29 2000 GMT ]--
From: YouOughtToGiveMeSomething(USaidYouWould) (phil-99)
Subject: Great meet
Would love to chat, but can't, am packing up the remainder of my crap.
Speak to you all asap, when I get the phone line sorted...
*hugs* &
*snogs* &
*waves* &
(& = delete as appropriate)
If you desperately need me, phil-99@bigfoot.com or 0771 889 4067
Oh, and sorry for not calling you back Bob :\
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Jul 12 11:24:47 2000 GMT ]--
From: YouOughtToGiveMeSomething(USaidYouWould) (phil-99)
Subject: Welll...
So let's recap. The meet, and the move. Cardiff meet was excellent,
woulda been nice to have stayed longer or got there earlier but still, it was
great. Got on the midday train to Cardiff, and almost 4hrs later (how can it
take so long, it's not THAT far is it?) got to the station. Was wandering
round looking for a suspicious pair or group of ppl at the station and well,
you couldn't miss 'em :) Seems that they were glad it was me they were waiting
for and not some of the other ppl that had come off the train :)
Move swiftly to pub, then (as is normal at spodmeets) spend what felt
like ages sat in the pub. Move to the only pub I have ever been to that had
tables with chairs on one side alone :) (yes I know...) Then again, wander
round looking for somewhere to go. Pool club, ice skating, pubs and allsorts
of places were suggested but AIAICR we ended up loitering and then headed to
the hotel bar (which was incredibly expensive, remind me never to offer to buy
a round in a hotel again).
CF1 seems like a good place to go at night... was a
metal/heavy/"whatever you wanna describe it as" floor upstairs and what was at
first an indie bit downstairs, with cheap drinks (for a club) and good music :)
Well I had a good night... left there at 1:30 or so with myste and oozer, sat
talking for a while and when tad and rik got back, slept.
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Jul 12 11:55:36 2000 GMT ]--
From: YouOughtToGiveMeSomething(USaidYouWould) (phil-99)
Subject: Sunday.
Wake up early, somewhere around 9:30, sit and think, wonder if it's
worth going back to sleep or not. Decide not to bother, as it shouldn't be
THAT long 'till ppl wake up and start moving.
I think the Sunday Papers arrived at about 11-11:30, which I then sat
and read through for a bit, until Tad and Rik got up. ummm, got dressed
(well, changed) and then back to town with Tad and Rik (myste was busy that
afternoon apparently... bah! busy during a meet?? Some ppl.. *grin*) and meet
up with flippy and beardy.
Oh, and also - I know now that on Sundays, you don't need to pay for
parking in Cardiff! was a nice walk though *smiles*
Now next time that Tina Turner is doing a concert in Cardiff, do not
try and find any food over that weekend. Please! We looked round numerous
places only to find them either packed or stopped serving food. We ended up in
a new place called Live(?) that although fairly expensive, did the most
heavenly garlic bread I have ever tasted. And the Salmon and goat's cheese
foccacia was wonderful.
I learnt over the weekend that: rik has an incredibly powerful sneeze,
tadpole really IS toast and cheese obsessed, flippy has a breast fixation,
beardy really has no beard, myste uhhhhh, I'm sure there must be something...
oh, myste has a really nice car that's got a million and one things wrong with
it but it's still cool :)
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Jul 12 12:02:34 2000 GMT ]--
From: YouOughtToGiveMeSomething(USaidYouWould) (phil-99)
Subject: Now I wouldn't normally do this, but I decided that it was uhh, fairly
apt for me, for some reason. I had about an hour's wait at Cardiff station on
Sunday after I missed my originally planned train, so decided to buy a book. I
bought Hannibal by Thomas Harris, you know - the sequel to Silence of the
Lambs. But yeah, I was sat there watching the trains come and go, thinking and
reading, then came across this passage.
It's all about when Clarice Starling (FBI agent who originally
interviewed Dr. Lecter) goes back to the Asylum to try and find Dr. Lecter's
medical records. She's stodd outside Lecter's cell, debating whether to go
into the cell or not.
"Here she had heard things about herself so terribly true her heart
resounded like a great deep ball. She wanted to go inside. She wanted to go
in, wanting it as we want to jump from balconies, as the glint of the rails
tempts us when we hear the approaching train."
I don't know about anyone else, but that is so scarily true for me at
times, I read it and had to go back and read it again a few times to make sure
it was what I thought it was.
*shrugs*
Just a thought...
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Jul 12 12:10:18 2000 GMT ]--
From: YouOughtToGiveMeSomething(USaidYouWould) (phil-99)
Subject: The house..
It's a house. It's in good nick compared to how it was when we saw
it. They've done a whole load of work and done a lot of painting, replaced the
kitchen, torn down that grotty porch and basically put right everything we saw
that was wrong with it!
There are still some things, but not half as much as there was
beforehand. My main gripe: my room as of now consists of a bed, a wardrobe and
a chest of drawers. I'm sure I saw somewhere that "student accomodation"
should include a desk as well. (Oh, I have a chair).
I'm currently still in the process of sorting out the damned phone
line, we've got gas and electric but as of now, no official supplier... we were
told by the agency that we would have to sort it out ourselves but neither of
the two who's responsibilities those two are have done anything that I know of
about it yet... so I'm trying to find as much info as possible to try and sped
them up :)
Yeah, that's about it... my computer is currently set up but totally
alone in the world, unconnected and lonely :) Shouldn't be long now... yay!
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Jul 13 13:38:14 2000 GMT ]--
From: YouOughtToGiveMeSomething(USaidYouWould) (phil-99)
Subject: You know, UMST finance dept are CRAP.
I just checked my bank account again, and it turns out that the cheque
I gave them almost 2 weeks ago was only drawn on TODAY! You know what that
means? That means that yet again - it bounced. If they'd have taken it out
the same day or even the day after I gave it to them, it woulda been fine, but
no. FUCKERS.
This now means that I have around #150 less than I should do, because
of those useless idiots at UMST. Idiots. And it had been such a good day up
till this point. Such a good day...
Right. I need to go to work. Start at 4, finish at 8, then hopefully
gonna get to the pub this evening. Michelle or David, if you read this and
fancy going for a drink or two give us a call :) Number's up there ^^
somewhere.
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Jul 17 14:07:15 2000 GMT ]--
From: YouOughtToGiveMeSomething(USaidYouWould) (phil-99)
Subject: 4 days w/out an edit in here? wow! This is getting good... and I can
bet you that I've dropped right out of the spod tables. (almost wrote spod
tadpoles there... worrying) Well, all is not lost - I have a phone line coming
on Wednesday - yayayay! I called up BT today and after spending 30 minutes or
so on hold and being shunted around 3 departments, I got through to someone who
told me "you have an appointment on Wednesday, between 10:30 and 1pm". Right,
nice of someone to actually tell me of this!!
So anyhow. The house is getting into quite a good state I think.
Darren's parents came up over the w/end and spent a fortune (thank you LOTS and
LOTS Mr. and Mrs. Gilbethorpe) on various things, the most important of those
being the net curtains that we now have up, seeing as the ppl who the agency
said would be coming round on Wednesday never did turn up after all.
Hmmm, vaguely annoying - the zip drive that I am using here is either
not working, or the disk is screwed :( I blame NT :) I want to copy all my
mail and stuff to cus.org.uk so that I can at least carry on collecting my mail
and not have to bother about doing things like putting all my mail files back
together between Pegasus (absolute and utter SHITE) and Pine.
Currently sat in the spodlabs at Uni listening to Marc Cohn, and the
Divine Comeday, Fin De Siecle.
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Jul 22 17:26:52 2000 GMT ]--
From: YouOughtToGiveMeSomething(USaidYouWould) (phil-99)
Subject: Spodding from Michelle's (thanks hun) so can't be long!
Got pone line, YAY!
msg/mail me if you want it :)
Stuff going good.
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Aug 3 12:28:27 2000 GMT ]--
From: YouOughtToGiveMeSomething(USaidYouWould) (phil-99)
Subject: This really is sad... I can't believe I'm still not spodding from home
:( I wanna kill those bastards at RHA/BT (whoever is stopping me from getting
thru).
Anyhow. Apart from that, life is, actually, very good right now :)
I'm having a great time at work, I'm having a good enough time at home, though
house training the other two is proving to be a little tougher than I expected
:) I never woulda thought it was so hard to work a hoover, ya know? *grins*
Uhhhh. I need to ask Michelle and Ian a favour, if I haven't rung you
by tonight could I ask you to give us a call? Am working till 8, so not home
till about 8:45. Or try me mobile :) Thanks *smiles*
HOPEFULLY gonna get to the US late August. Kate's going home so if I
can get a cheapo last minute flight I will get my buttski out there. Problem
is - all the flights I can find are 450 quid right now, which is wayyyyy too
expensive :( Ahhh well.
Anyhow, time to scan! Haven't done one of these in over 2 weeks!
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Aug 10 12:08:58 2000 GMT ]--
From: YouOughtToGiveMeSomething(USaidYouWould) (phil-99)
Subject: No chance of getting to the US unless something last minute pops up,
but I can't believe that it will. #450 is way too much cash!
Still things are going well. Pissed slightly at the fact that I cut
the grass as much as I could with my measly 5 metre extension cord yesterday,
only to be told today that the agency were sending someone round to do it
today! ARGH! Oh well, it's all good exercise.
Weather is foul, hopefully means yet more dead shifts at work. with
Sharn (long time staff who does most of the shifts) going on holiday next week,
means I'm going to be doing well over 40 hours next week, which therefore means
lots of money :) YAY! *smiles*
Uhhhh, not much else? Oh, took part in an experiment for the
Psychology dept. yesterday, all about memory. Got paid #7 for it, so can't
complain :) Need to see Cherub again sometime soon *smiles*
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Aug 15 13:55:14 2000 GMT ]--
From: YouOughtToGiveMeSomething(USaidYouWould) (phil-99)
Subject: Right, now I'm pissed (partly)
I can't get online still, now for one completely and utterly different
reason. I haven't used my computer at all for the last week or so because I've
not had any need, nor the time to do so. So when I went to turn it on on
Saturday afternoon, I was surprised to find that it didn't boot up. No beeps,
no flicker on the monitor, nothing.
One stripdown later, still nothing. Processor, motherboard and power
cables plugged in and STILL not a single "beep" from the POST (Power On Self
Test). This therefore means that either my motherboard or processor are dead.
Also, if this is true, then getting hold of a new one will likely be expensive.
An ATX socket 7 motherboard will be about #50? But, if it's the processor
that's gone, I think it might be easier to head to the slot 1 format and go for
a Celeron or whatever the other ones are called. Mebbe an Athlon, but price is
the #1 factor.
Anyhow. Everything else is good. I'm working shitloads this week.
Sharn (one of the lassies at work) is on holiday and I am covering almost all
of her shifts, which means that I'm doing the double (12-4pm and 8-12midnight)
5 days this week. Gonna kill me but it's 25 extra hours...bumps it up to about
50 this week :)
Ummmm, and I'm not doing anything with my life except work and eating.
Had a BBQ the other evening, which was nice... going round to see Ian and
Michelle tonight after work. Need to see Caroline and Andrew sometime soon,
must have coffee :)
Missing Mono now. I'm finding that I'm spending more time doing
things that I really shouldn't now that I can't spod. Oh, and I guess I should
put this here now. I started smoking again, after I was fed a few drinks a few
weeks back someone handed me a cig and it was just 2nd nature to go for it.
It's amazed me, I've gone from a yr of nothing to going through 15-20 a day,
uck. Must stop again soon. And yes I know I'm going to get hassle about it,
which is why it's been so long before I put it in here.
Anyhow, time to go.
*waves and hugs*
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Aug 18 11:02:07 2000 GMT ]--
From: YouOughtToGiveMeSomething(USaidYouWould) (phil-99)
Subject: Things still all happy :)
I'm beginning to worry about going back to uni in September now
though, it's only a month off and I really am quite enjoying this lifestyle
that I've got for myself. I'm comfortable financially (as long as no more
damned computer bits break), am happy with my friends, and am happy with work.
OK yes it is a bar job but it's better than nothing.
Speaking of which, I have been doing stupid amounts of hours this
week. Let's calculate how many. 8+4+8+4+4+8+4 = 38hrs this week. Well it's
not as bad as it was going to be, but we got a new lass in (who's worked there
before, is rather cute and a loony) so she took over some of the shifts I was
going to be doing (thanks be). It was due to be about 45hrs. Think of the pay
packet tho Phil, think of it :) #136.80 - nat. ins. Nice :)
Best move soon, meeting Caroline for Lunch :)
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Aug 18 11:06:31 2000 GMT ]--
From: YouOughtToGiveMeSomething(USaidYouWould) (phil-99)
Subject: Oh, and I forgot something.
I think I'll put it in later, but it was bad juju, BAD juju.
But it all came right in the end, :)
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Aug 20 15:44:32 2000 GMT ]--
From: YouOughtToGiveMeSomething(USaidYouWould) (phil-99)
Subject: That bad thing.
I was awoken on Thursday (I think) at 9:30am by a loud knocking on
the door. As I rushed out in my dressing gown to answer it I found a blokey
stood there, who promptly announced he'd come to take away our washing machine,
tumble drier and fridge-freezer. I think I laughed, he didn't.
He then promptly told me that they were rented, and not ours. He
proceeded to explain some stuff that by that point in time, I didn't take in,
becausde of the combination of exhaustion and panickiness, I asked him to go
away and come back later. Several phone calls later resulted in my being told
that the washing machine was not ours and was rented by the previous tenants,
but the fridge-freezer was the property of the agency, for sure.
The man comes back, the man takes the washing machine (we don't
actually have a tumble-drier) and asks where the fridge is. I tell him that
I'm not letting him take it. He proceeds to call up his office, they read out
a serial number, make and model. They just happen to mtch, exactly. What can
I say? He took that too, and "kindly" gave me a receipt for it.
One phone call to the agency later and they say that we will have a
fridge that afternoon, but no washing machine, which is understandable. Later
that evening, a fridge-freezer arrives (we got a choice of two, oooo!). Then
later still, a washing machine arrives. Uhhhhh? What the hell am I supposed
to think now? So we now have a washing machine and fridge-freezer again.
Bizzare.
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Aug 20 15:48:44 2000 GMT ]--
From: YouOughtToGiveMeSomething(USaidYouWould) (phil-99)
Subject: Also, my computer is STILL screwed :(
New mobo and processor that got replace STILL don't work. I'm
worried that I might have to replace everything. If it was a lightening strike
then it coulda fried the PSU, but the things still power up right, which is
worrying. I've left the mobo and CPU for testing but I ain't hopeful. They
refused to test my graphics card and memory, however. If those 4 components
work right, I don't care about the rest, as long as I can find myself a cheap
modem. ALL I want is to be able to go online with it.
Being net-less is really forcing me to adapt atm, hopefully into a
better person, but then again I'd say that about everything. I'm finding more
time to do other things. For example, we painted our living room yesterday,
I'm doing lots of housework, lots of reading, and hopefully being netless
(well, not having a permanent connection) during term-time will make me work
more.
Speaking of which, I really don't wanna go back to the daily grind
of lectures and things right now. I'm enjoying things as they are, why does it
have to change?
Hopefully be spodding again on Wednesday, so will speak to y'all then.
Missing y'all.
Me
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Aug 23 13:18:08 2000 GMT ]--
From: YouOughtToGiveMeSomething(USaidYouWould) (phil-99)
Subject: Well it's Wednesday, and as far as I know, there's been no phone call
home yet from Micro Direct. GOnna nip down there this afternoon and ask them
in person what's going on. I need my computer bits, and I really really want
to know if it's just my m/b and CPU that have died or whether it's my graphics
card/memory too! I hope the memory's OK, else I really am screwed :( Can't
afford to be spending that much money on RAM right now.
Manc Meet in a week, can't wait! Seems like an age since I saw half
the folk who are coming :) Will be funfunfun.
Best go to M/D I guess :|
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Aug 30 11:19:58 2000 GMT ]--
From: YouOughtToGiveMeSomething(USaidYouWould) (phil-99)
Subject: Hmmm.
It works, embarassingly simple problem that I won't tell you
about. Just to save face :)
Trying to sort out my Dial up Networking now!
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Sep 4 00:27:38 2000 GMT ]--
From: YouOughtToGiveMeSomething(USaidYouWould) (phil-99)
Subject: Well I just discovered how thick I really am.
I have a Red Hot Ant connection - it's not my fault that I've been
dialling 0800 xxx whereas the number is 0808 xxx ........ now on my screen, an
8 looks eerily similar to a 0, OK????
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Sep 4 06:24:11 2000 GMT ]--
From: YouOughtToGiveMeSomething(USaidYouWould) (phil-99)
Subject: Meet...
Or, Character Assasination?
Meet overall, was good fun. The Thursday night exceedingly cheap beer
and amazingly bad looking mooses session was funfunfunfunfunfunfunfun, even if
I do blame Urchin for feeling terribly bad all day Friday...
Friday evening in the Goose. Nice, typical start to meet, people
chatting and drinking :) Then I met Jodi (Fuschia [sp?]) and Robbob, then ran
off to Rockworld with them. Good night! Been a long time since I was there...
Uhhh. Saturday, pub, shopping, and work - for me at least. I truly
couldn't afford curry so decided that work was the best option for me. Felt
awful before going to work but as the night went on I started to get better and
better.
Sunday. Pub, lunch, byes.
Sorry for the shortened meet view but it's 7:30am on a Monday???
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Sep 5 10:36:43 2000 GMT ]--
From: YouOughtToGiveMeSomething(USaidYouWould) (phil-99)
Subject: hmmm...
Now 15 days until registration for uni, and I'm looking forward to it
less and less every day... chosing 3rd yr. projects and options and then having
to start working again - it's all so against the grain of what I have now...
Just think... only 8 months until it's all over.
Hmm, I need a desk... time to go find one.
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Sep 6 10:52:46 2000 GMT ]--
From: YouOughtToGiveMeSomething(USaidYouWould) (phil-99)
Subject: Well I have a desk, and a set of shelves now... so my room is slowly
filling up yet becoming tidier :) Spent a half-hour this morning when I woke
up struggling with the TV aerial. When we moved in, we needed to extend the
aerial from the "in" point in my room to the living room, so an extension was
bought and a hole drilled in the wall. Unfortunately, the cable is too thin to
fit properly in the co-ax connector thingies - so we struggle with that
constantly.
Anyhow, so I found that someone has managed to snap off the bit of
wire that we need, so I got out the pliers and, over the back of my computer,
with no space, tried to strip it. I think I took about 6 inches off the wire
:) Ooooops.
And now I'm sat here thinking "I'm certain I was supposed to be doing
something today", but can I even begin to think what it might be? No. Ahh
well. Can't be that important then :)
And I just looked at my bank account after the weekend's debauchery.
UGH, is all I can say :(
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Sep 7 12:34:51 2000 GMT ]--
From: YouOughtToGiveMeSomething(USaidYouWould) (phil-99)
Subject: ARGH!
Yesterday I decided, I was going to buy an OnDigital box. Well, not
buy - but you know what I mean - seeing as you get the box free. So I merrilly
tramped off to Manchester, into Dixons and said "I want an OnDigital box". The
man said "Sorry, we're out of stock, try the St Anne's Square branch". SO I
tramped off there, and lo - nothing there either.
Debbenhams, Lewis', Granada Rentals, Dixons, EVERYWHERE I could think
of, is out of stock, apart from the Pre-paid one, which I can't afford, as #100
up front is just too much!
ARGH!
Anyhow, was up last night until 4am playing Trivia in ChatGames
(http://www.chatGames.com) and hence, didnae wake up until about 11:30am, oops.
There go my plans to try the Stretford Arndale for one.
Been promised a trip to somewhere with Sharn (from work) to look for
one trhough, yay! I do like Sharn, she's lovely, and I really do enjoy working
with her. She's single... she's cute... the only problem is - she's 30 :-\
Ahhhhh well - not like she'd have me anyhow *smiles*
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Sep 7 23:05:47 2000 GMT ]--
From: YouOughtToGiveMeSomething(USaidYouWould) (phil-99)
Subject: Damnit, this cold is wiping me out. Bed at midnight?????
Well, maybe the beer hasn't helped *grins*
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Sep 8 16:59:55 2000 GMT ]--
From: YouOughtToGiveMeSomething(USaidYouWould) (phil-99)
Subject: Well I phoned in sick, which I had big big doubts about doing, I
really don't like letting people down, but I do feel rough rough rough at the
moment. I can't stop a:) sniffing, b:) coughing and c:) sneezing, which would
look really good behind a bar, no?
So I watched most of A Clockwork Orange with Catriona (Alex's girlf)
who came round to do some work here, but then Darren returned, with some of his
mates who are all out to get ultra-pissed tonight, and here's me going to be
watching TV and nursing a cold... awwwwwww. Tough life, innit? *grins*
So instead of being social, I decided my room needed arranging
properly. So I now have what feels like more floorspace, with my chest of
drawers acting as a bedside table, a cupboard in one recess and my computer in
the other one. I sit between the computer desk and the bookshelves. Cosy :)
Only problem is now, I am running out of plugs. I just found another
2-way adapter which was much needed, but now I need to find another to plug in
various other bits too, hmmm. Could do with another lamp as well :)
Oh, and I guess, someday, I should put the side panel back on my
computer *grins*.
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Sep 10 23:02:16 2000 GMT ]--
From: YouOughtToGiveMeSomething(USaidYouWould) (phil-99)
Subject: Goddamnit, I feel like crap...
Now, readers of this diary will know that I don't moan very often
about feeling rough (or do I?)... but this, whatever it is, has made it's way
first from my nose, to my chest, then on to the rest of my body. A previously
easy 10 minute cycle has turned into a daily chore and leaves me exhausted.
The simple things that I want to do - I can't be arsed to do, because I know my
bones will whinge at me for moving them.
Ugh.
Anyhow - tonight, was Elaine's birthday. One of the ex-staff's
girlfriend, and the mood was high in the place - I don't think I've ever seen
everyone so happy - even the miserly regulars were smiling :) And then there
was me, trying to look happy... but failing, I think - especially when I curled
up in the corner of an alcove somewhere and attempted to sleep, oops. It
was a fun night, honest! It had just left me feeling truly knackered.
Haven't spoken to Kate in a while, best do that tonight........
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Sep 12 22:51:06 2000 GMT ]--
From: YouOughtToGiveMeSomething(USaidYouWould) (phil-99)
Subject: Much better now... still coughing lots but even that's getting better
Spent the last 2hrs doing a variety of housekeeping tasks. Ironed for
the first time in 2 months, got rid of the huge pile of clothes that were
accumulating at the foot of my bed, re-arranged stuff - now instead of having a
wardrobe next to my bed I have a chest of drawers, much more useful as a
bedside table, and makes the place look much "airier" as the wardrobe is in one
of the alcoves by the fireplace... all I need now is something to go in the
fireplace, to cover up that dirty great metal plate :-\
Spending some time coding, as well - which is ood. Re-opened an old
project of mine - porting a football league program from C to C++ - now got it
using objects instead of just functions... it works, or should I say - it does
some of what I want it to - it takes input from a file and will calculate the
lague table. Some things I know will break it though, such as two digit scores
and malformed files. These are things that will take just a little bit of
hacking though.
Also , I forgot this though - it doesn't yet sort the table. Having a
bit of trouble with this, which is a bad thing... thinking about using qsort()
but the documentation in K&R (The C Programming Language) isn't exactly
brilliant... function prototypes are all very well.... might end up writing my
own :)
Been getting a few emails about Fresher's week stuff... I've been
collared into doing some stuff for the Computer User's Society at UMIST, well -
I _am_ a member of the committee I guess... *sighs* 9am on a Monday morning?
EEP! Need to mete up with Pete and some others to finalise what we're gonna
actually do...
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Sep 13 22:41:12 2000 GMT ]--
From: YouOughtToGiveMeSomething(USaidYouWould) (phil-99)
Subject: Should really get out of this habit of staying after work...
But Sharn is so nice to talk with, she's lovely - really. And after a
four hour shift where you barely see another soul - it's good to be able to sit
and chat with someone for a while. To be honest, it feels like ppl at work are
the only social contact I'm getting regularly at the moment. I'm sleeping
late, working late and probably not helping myself... but well - I'm not
complaining, by any stretch of the imagination :))
Got some real hassle from someone in ChatGames the other day - all
because I wrote that he "might be a Ben Sherman wannabee". Got called a tosser
and various other nasty names, which I don't care about - but this was in
Public, in a busy chat room. Still worked up about it, mainly that someone
would have the balls to do that without contacting me personally first.
*sighs*
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Sep 15 00:36:31 2000 GMT ]--
From: YouOughtToGiveMeSomething(USaidYouWould) (phil-99)
Subject: I have an On Digital box, yayayayayayayayyyyyY!!!!!
Spent the whole night playing and exploring....
Slightly annoyed that we can't get all the channels and are going to
have to get a blokey out to play with our aerial and things... boooo. #40 for
that? If I had the ladder and stuff to do it myself, I would - gladly :-\
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Sep 15 10:01:26 2000 GMT ]--
From: YouOughtToGiveMeSomething(USaidYouWould) (phil-99)
Subject: hmmm, a week for an aerial guy to come out...
And no I appear to have lost reception for every channel :( The
problem is that the aerial comes in through my room, and through a hole in the
wall. When we moved in - Darren's dad decided that instead of making the hole
bigger, he would cut off the end of the Co-Ax cable to fit the plug-thing
through the wall. What he didn't realise, was that the extension cable was too
think to fit in the plug things properly :( So currently it's held together
with blu-tak :)
So I'm prolly gonna spend all day dealing with this. Want to get hold
of a timetable for this year at Uni today as well. Considering moving my
computer as I've noticed when it is on - reception on the TV is shite. Fine on
my TV Card though *grins* Caroline - you fancy coffee/lunch? :)
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Sep 17 00:54:07 2000 GMT ]--
From: YouOughtToGiveMeSomething(USaidYouWould) (phil-99)
Subject: We had some scary people in the pub tonight...
Well - not so scary, as vaguely worrying. They came in and asked "is
there a swinger's party in here tonight? We heard there was one through the
internet." We were like "ummmm, no... you must mean 'xxx' pub" somewhere else.
They then proceeded to spend the night getting pissed and having a great time
knowing that we were sat there talking about them.
Ummm. That doesn't make them sound bad, but it was just peculiar, if
I was interested in the "swinging" scene - they wouldn't have endeared me
towards it in any way, they were nothing but creepy. (that's not saying I'm
pro/against swinging - just these ppl :-> )
Just watched "Fargo" on FilmFour. It's a WONDERFUL film, so dark and
sick, but it is a comedy in so many places, well in fact - overall. But it's
like "The Talented Mr. Ripley", I've seen that several times now and think that
it's great - Fargo is the same. You always find bits you missed 1st time
round. I can forsee that I will be spending lots of my late nights watching
FilmFour :-)
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Sep 17 01:19:05 2000 GMT ]--
From: YouOughtToGiveMeSomething(USaidYouWould) (phil-99)
Subject: Just read something in the Stag Night Planning file...
I have a HUGE urge to go and spend an afternoon in B&Q's... there is
so much we need, so much I want to buy but can't quite afford, I just want to
go and look :) Go make a list of everything we need....
Sad, I know - but true *grins*
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Sep 17 01:25:50 2000 GMT ]--
From: YouOughtToGiveMeSomething(USaidYouWould) (phil-99)
Subject: Fargo, from the FilmFour website...
William H Macy is in trouble and needs money fast. In desperation, he hires the
comically inept Steve Buscemi and Peter Stormare to kidnap his wife, hoping his
wealthy father-in-law will cough up the ransom. But the plan soon takes a
violent twist and smart police chief Frances McDormand gets involved.
Chilling, hilarious and decidedly odd, this is yet another
award-winning masterpiece from the Coen brothers.
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Sep 17 19:20:50 2000 GMT ]--
From: YouOughtToGiveMeSomething(USaidYouWould) (phil-99)
Subject: Decided now that I _definitely_ need to move my computer. Where it
is, whenever I turn it on, the TV reception goes crappy :( This is not good,
especially for the already poor OnDigital reception...
But where to move it? Decisions decisions....
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Sep 20 00:31:44 2000 GMT ]--
From: YouOughtToGiveMeSomething(USaidYouWould) (phil-99)
Subject: Nice day yesterday...
Is Fresher's week, so I decided to go to UMST and see the sights, and
see if our timetable was out yet. It's not. Great one! And the computation
dept. STILL has last year's t/tables on the websites, <f>ing brill, hey?
Ended up going to 5th :) My God that place is cheesey but good :) I
can't help feeling that the intake of Fresher's will need some time to get used
to how to behave in clubs like 42nd and 5th... There was some, uhhhh...
rudeness is the wrong word... but definitely stuff not normal for 5th :)
Work today, I took under 30 orders in 4 hours. Super.
Still no payslip from last week...
Still don't know when I'm working, or if I'm working this sem.
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Sep 20 00:53:35 2000 GMT ]--
From: YouOughtToGiveMeSomething(USaidYouWould) (phil-99)
Subject: Oooo, got more Channels on OnDig already, just by putting the aerial
bits together properly, with no more loose wires :) Got FanatasyX, ooooo - not
that I'll be forking out the cash for it *smiles*
Ack, forgot - Yankee Footie's on!!!!
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Sep 25 10:23:04 2000 GMT ]--
From: YouOughtToGiveMeSomething(USaidYouWould) (phil-99)
Subject: Well that was actually very very interesting... just over 2hrs on
Neural Networks, just the outline of the course for now but it really does
sound like it will be an interesting one... I can't wait :)
Trying to actually get to see people about anything in this dept. is a
nightmare :-\ *sighs* NEED to organise 3rd Year Project stuff and it's just
not happening...
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Sep 25 11:52:01 2000 GMT ]--
From: YouOughtToGiveMeSomething(USaidYouWould) (phil-99)
Subject: Yay!
My 3rd Year Project... all revolves around translating Braille to Text
and back and forth, but this is to do with Braille II, which has lots of
contractions in it. Need to be able to selectively do all the contractions,
which could be fun... bloody tough, though - especially as it has to work in
English, Welsh and French, I believe...
Ariel engineer coming this afternoon, and I need to get to Hardy Farm,
to give them money so that I can register at uni, erp :( Need a car :)
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Sep 27 12:02:15 2000 GMT ]--
From: YouOughtToGiveMeSomething(USaidYouWould) (phil-99)
Subject: Was thinking last night on my way home...
Well, was looking at some asian (?) lassies walking along the road,
and they were wearing the full get-up, black headdress, long (for lack of a
better word) tunic-type thing, and I couldn't help thinking - why?
Yes I understand that it's religious/national dress - but why was it
made so damn un-sexual? :) Looking at her face I was thinking "ohh, you could
be quite cute", but the whole dress seems intentionally designed to removed any
trace of sexuality from the wearer. Just thought it was odd :)
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Sep 27 12:49:21 2000 GMT ]--
From: YouOughtToGiveMeSomething(USaidYouWould) (phil-99)
Subject: YAY!
Tesco.co.uk deliver for me!!!!!!!!!
YAYAY!
No more shopping? Ever? :)
Also means I don't have to fuss about carrying stuff home from
Safeway's, that horrible Safeway's that I try to avoid at all costs :) Oh I'm
happy now *grins madly*
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Sep 28 11:11:40 2000 GMT ]--
From: YouOughtToGiveMeSomething(USaidYouWould) (phil-99)
Subject: Oh No...
---------------------------------------------------[Thu Sep 28 02:08:36 2000]--
From: Monochrome Account-Birthday Script (interact:3)
To: phil-99
Hi, phil-99.
Tugs' Monochrome Original Creation-date Kernel (MOCK) has discovered
that your account was created 1 year ago today!
Happy (sad?) Mono-Birthday!!!
MOCK.
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Oct 1 00:29:13 2000 GMT ]--
From: YouOughtToGiveMeSomething(USaidYouWould) (phil-99)
Subject: Got my payslip for this week, and I swear - I nearly had a heart
attack. The Inland Revenue got round to repaying my tax, _in a lump
sum_! #192, my boss weren't happy, said it had screwed up the wages
bill for this week nicely :)
On other notes, nothing happenned.
5th last night.
Good night. Spent lots, got drunk. Nicked traffic cone.
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Oct 3 00:11:29 2000 GMT ]--
From: YouOughtToGiveMeSomething(USaidYouWould) (phil-99)
Subject: Well...
Neural Nets is going well - I'm a little confused at the workthroughs
of the weight adjustment algorithms though, so I'll see if it makes more sense
tommorrow... it seems to me like they never stop increasing the weights, which
can only be a bad thing, as it never stops learning?
Hmm.
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Oct 4 12:52:52 2000 GMT ]--
From: YouOughtToGiveMeSomething(USaidYouWould) (phil-99)
Subject: Well, today...
Woke up late. Very late. Was up till 3am yesterday, and I'm trying
to make sure I don't stay up that late too often atm... so being 2pm, and me
still in my dressing gown.......
I've decided to start saving my tips from work. I know it's a little
late for that now, but one lass who left a while ago did it, and saved up over
#50 in a month or so. Will be interesting. I need to go to the bank sometime
and change up all the two-pence-pieces I currently have sat on my bedside
drawers :)
I'm really glad I've got this month out the way (welllll - last month)
as it seems to have cost me alot of money. I thought I had more than I did, so
I went out the other day and bought myself a gorgeous new jacket from M&S, a
black moleskin one, and it's coming in useful already... the wind last night on
the walk home was horrendous. Didn't feel a bit of it, though.
Mum and dad planning on visiting sometime soon, they said. Maybe this
weekend or next weekend. They're planning on coming down for my birthday, I
think the plan is.
Oh yeah, speaking of which... it's my 21st next week. Anybody want to
do anything? I'm trying to get Mon/Tues/Weds off so that I can do stuff those
three nights, and hopefully Saturday too. Let me know :) Oh, actually, scrub
Tuesday - I think I'm being dragged out somewhere on Tuesday night.
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Oct 5 11:13:36 2000 GMT ]--
From: YouOughtToGiveMeSomething(USaidYouWould) (phil-99)
Subject: If there's one thing that winds me up like no other, it's people
slagging off students. Even if it's "only a joke", it's frustrating to try and
get it through ppl's heads that no matter what the sterotype, all students are
not layabout good-for-nothing morons who scrounge off the state and sit and
watch daytime TV every day. Some of us, yes, but most?
*hrmph*
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Oct 7 15:39:53 2000 GMT ]--
From: YouOughtToGiveMeSomething(USaidYouWould) (phil-99)
Subject: Hmmm, beeeeeeer
Decided today that I needed a decent tipple in the house. So went out
and bought a bottle of single malt, very nice. I think I might just sniff it
for a while before I drink any :)
I need to do my ToR doc but it's SOOOO boring :(
I might just try and finish off Robinson Crusoe.....
Either that or read some more "Core Internet Protocols" so I can
correct our Distibuted Systems and Networking lecturer some more *grins*
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Oct 8 23:55:55 2000 GMT ]--
From: YouOughtToGiveMeSomething(USaidYouWould) (phil-99)
Subject: Went into work for a 12-3 shift, got home at 7:30pm :(
Not a good day. We had many comments about the place being more like
a kindergarten than a pub. I have shouted and growled and scowled and shot
evil looks at more kids today than I have done in the last 2 years, and it's
worn me down :( I _hate_ the little bastards.
Parents possibly coming down next weekend, yay!
Interesting news snippet, not sure if I should be writing it here or
not, but hey - it's deletable later :-) As many of you know, I come from a
service family - my dad's an ex-submariner in the navy and currently works as
shore-side support. Found out today that as the Senior WEO (Weapons
Engineering Officer) shoreside, he's been sent over to the US (Georgia?) to
investigate a fatality that occurred on board one of the (presumably) V Class
subs. Someone fell down a missile tube, possibly?
Nasty. But no matter how nasty it may be, I still have this amusing
little cartoon that runs through my head of someone wandering along the deck
and not seeing this huge 3 metre hole in front of them and falling down onto
the point of a missile :)
He'd best be back for next weekend :-\
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Oct 9 20:45:25 2000 GMT ]--
From: YouOughtToGiveMeSomething(USaidYouWould) (phil-99)
Subject: Long day today,... knackered now.
Was in for 9am, and didn't leave until almost 5pm :( Most of that was
spent trying to waste time... Lecture/tutorial until 11:30 or so, meeting at
3:30, was gonna go home but ended up hanging around and it not being worth
going home in the end.
Got good feedback on my Terms of Reference doc though, apparently some
of it was excellent but some of it was appalingly bad :) You can tell which
bits I did 5 minutes before the meeting *grins* Going to finish off the
amendments tonight, got a meeting on Weds afternoon, and not gonna get much
done tommorrow, hopefully *grins evilly*
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Oct 10 00:01:04 2000 GMT ]--
From: YouOughtToGiveMeSomething(USaidYouWould) (phil-99)
Subject: Lemme get this right...
1am, and over 20 users on? What's going on here then??
Currently listening to music from the Pi soundtrack. Banging, for
lack of a better word :) Downloading yet more Lonestar stuff from Napster, do
like them - and think that their version of "Smile" is tops :)
Ooooo now "And would I be outta line, if I saiiid, I misss youuuuu?"
Groovy bass beats with an interesting (for lack of a better word)
scratch effect - then "Because the mu-mumuum-muusic has so much class".
(followed by much scratching *grins*)
"You blink, you miss a beat, you keep one eye open at all times
you think that youre on the brink, the shit hasn't even begun to hit the fan,
consequence, you see will be stranger than a gang of drunken minds,
situation, has a stink [descends into guitar I can't hear lyrics]"
Hmmm, odd mood :)
If anyone can identify the song that those are hte opening lines to, I
will be surprised :)
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Oct 12 01:12:40 2000 GMT ]--
From: YouOughtToGiveMeSomething(USaidYouWould) (phil-99)
Subject: I am about to Kill Windows Update
Look at <MGA> to find out why.
Anyhow, finding the Braille translation table development hard work -
mainly because I don't actually know the structure of the Welsh language,
LOL. It really is difficult to figure out if certain letters should be at the
beginning, end or middle of the word if you can't speak it :-P
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Oct 12 17:46:00 2000 GMT ]--
From: YouOughtToGiveMeSomething(USaidYouWould) (phil-99)
Subject: Got home today about 5pm...
On my birthday, I left a bottle of Whisky in the living room that I'd
been drinking, and forgot to move it back. I found ALex sat in the living room
having a sup. Really, I wouldn't mind it - but a:) he didn't ask, b:) he
didn't even say he had done when I came in, and c:) that cost me a fecking
fortune. In under a week, when I have had only 2 glasses - can you explain why
half the bottle is gone?
Not happy...
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Oct 13 10:16:37 2000 GMT ]--
From: YouOughtToGiveMeSomething(USaidYouWould) (phil-99)
Subject: Currently reading Robinson Crusoe.
Normally I can finish a book quickly, but this - I am struggling with.
I'm reading it whenever I feel I can be bothered to think about it, but it's
language and the way the author has used words and phrases is just... tricky?
Doesn't seem like he's designed it to be easy to read :(
Trying to get licq working so I can install it on CUS and run it from
uni, nice to have ICQ here... unfortunately the QT Libraries don't seem to be
a:) set up right, or b:) the version they claim to be :)
I need food. Eaten a banana so far today - very healthy of me :)
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Oct 16 18:18:16 2000 GMT ]--
From: YouOughtToGiveMeSomething(USaidYouWould) (phil-99)
Subject: Today's been Bizzare. Parents were up for the weekend, had a nice
time with them. Went out today with Caroline for Coffee again :)
Suddenly started feeling odd on the way home though. The realisation
(well, more a thought) that comes every now and then that when I go home, what
am I going home to? Hmm. Would love to come home to someone...
So I won't bore you anymore with my tiredness-induced ramblings on
that, else I'll be here all night...
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Oct 16 22:32:49 2000 GMT ]--
From: YouOughtToGiveMeSomething(USaidYouWould) (phil-99)
Subject: Forgot about my new phone :)
Nokia 3210e on Orange Just Talk - very cute compared to my old beast!
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Oct 17 01:22:25 2000 GMT ]--
From: YouOughtToGiveMeSomething(USaidYouWould) (phil-99)
Subject: Oh yeah... new Modem too, so I _should_ now be able to spod from Linux
again, YAY!
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Oct 18 02:33:44 2000 GMT ]--
From: YouOughtToGiveMeSomething(USaidYouWould) (phil-99)
Subject: I wonder if Leeza can possibly comprehend how much trouble he caused
me tonight. Apart from me getting SMS's at 11:15pm while I was at work? He's
decided that TumbleWeed needed "sorting out", so has proceeded to do what I had
done already, and screw it up in the process.
To clarify. I'd calculated the total scores for a certain truncation,
and put those in a file. There were no stats with them, due to a lack of time.
Now, Leeza took it onto himself to do the stats, and work out the total scores.
So he added the TOTALS I have done, to the previous totals.
Then effectively proceeds to tall me I am crap.
Thanks!
To think I stayed up till 3:30am trying to do something that I coulda
done in 10 minutes if I had a mono internal account, hey?
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Oct 18 13:22:11 2000 GMT ]--
From: YouOughtToGiveMeSomething(USaidYouWould) (phil-99)
Subject: Much better now that I think I've managed to sort things out...
I just need to add two sets of numbers together and there you go,
instant scores. I am SO glad I couldn't be bothered to clear out my desktop
after I did the last lot of scores - they've been sat there for about 2 weeks
now in a corner :)
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Oct 18 22:15:46 2000 GMT ]--
From: YouOughtToGiveMeSomething(USaidYouWould) (phil-99)
Subject: What have I done today then?
Sorted out Weed, gone into Uni, had a project meeting where I Think I
found out I've been doing exactly the wrong thing this last week. Umm. Stayed
in town until late, came back home, spodded, sorted out more stuff, watched TV,
spoke to Kate, sniffled at Ally McBeal (Billy died!) and well - then I'm here,
now.
Excitement - huh?
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Oct 21 12:59:52 2000 GMT ]--
From: YouOughtToGiveMeSomething(USaidYouWould) (phil-99)
Subject: Swimming, chinese food and sleep.
Nice :)
Going to be spending ALL today tidying up. Before leaving, I'm sure
Alex and Darren decided to make as much mess as possible. No matter how much
I am tempted to "leave it and see how long it takes for them to clean it up" I
don't think it's worth it, as they won't. So today, is my designated cleaning
up day.
Shouldn't really take long. Just get rid of the crap that accumulates
(HOW does one person generate so many tissues? I mean - it's disgusting) and
hoover (do they know what it is?) and then do (most of my) washing up.
Oh, and then go shopping. Decided it's probably best for me to go and
do physical shopping today as I have very little food left and it'll take
Tesco's a day or two :-)
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Oct 22 23:34:43 2000 GMT ]--
From: YouOughtToGiveMeSomething(USaidYouWould) (phil-99)
Subject: hmmmm, Carlsberg Export and Bailey's - good combo.......
I like nights like this :-)
Time to hit the whisky?
(why do I feel a strange compulsion to spell whisky with an E?)
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Oct 23 23:48:29 2000 GMT ]--
From: YouOughtToGiveMeSomething(USaidYouWould) (phil-99)
Subject: Spent a long time today doing JavaScript stuff. It really is a
stupidly simple language but it's tedious. JS is one of those languages that
if you had a reference for it handy, you could do anything at all with it in
very little time. Unfortunately, I don't have one reference, and all the web
ones give me little bits of knowledge that are kinda handy...
Also got round to completing braille stuff today. I'm still having
to guess at an awful lot of the stuff as I really don't know how many words in
the welsh language use "EDD" in them, or "EN", or various other string
contractions...
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Oct 23 23:50:21 2000 GMT ]--
From: YouOughtToGiveMeSomething(USaidYouWould) (phil-99)
Subject: Also got hacked off with Darren today. He wanted to get the General's
Daughter from OnRequest (#2.99 a film) and when I asked him (after it started)
why he didn't have it, it was because "he was too tired to watch it". (I know
he didn't have it because I have locked those channels out to prevent odd
things appearing on my bill, lol)
Now - seeing as he was going to record it at the same time _anyhow_, I
fail to see his logic. No, really. It's very odd.
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Oct 24 01:13:18 2000 GMT ]--
From: SmoothAsSilkCoolAsAirOhItMakesYouWanaCry (phil-99)
Subject: Spent the night reading my diary on my Webpage...
<blatant plug>
http://www.bigfoot.com/~phil_sumner/
</blatant plug>
Things really never do change, do they?
Listening to Radio late night stuff - there are some wonderful
dance tunes being played atm, this one sounds like it's the Guiness advert tune
(the one with the horses and the waves and the "tick tock" stuff). It really
is superb...
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Oct 24 23:12:52 2000 GMT ]--
From: SmoothAsSilkCoolAsAirOhItMakesYouWanaCry (phil-99)
Subject: Tuesday... Grand day...
Went to the Reuters presentation which although interesting, was
uninspiring. They seem to push "managerese" - if you enter their graduate
schemes then you will more than likely become a manager of some description.
Whilst I know that route is unavoidable forever - I would like to stay away
from it for as long as possible.
Real Time Systems lecture - the lecturer got confused over a complex
bit of CSP, and I'm sat there thinking "should I go up the front and explain
this, as I can do a much better job than he can". I don't particularly like
him, anyhow.
Still haven't taken WinModem back to MicroDirect. Should do that
tommorrow if I wake up early enough, I'll take it out. Having taken some
Valarian tonight to try and force sleep upon me - I won't attempt it now :)
Tommorrow: Project meeting at 9:30, work at 12-4, and again from 8-12.
Penitance for having today off :-)
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Oct 25 02:28:07 2000 GMT ]--
From: SmoothAsSilkCoolAsAirOhItMakesYouWanaCry (phil-99)
Subject: 3:30am, still up. Not good.
Had trouble with my TV card and needed to fiddle lots to fix it. Took
out new modem and will take that back to MicroDirect today. Printed out
project work so far and am worrying more and more that it's not gonna be right
and I've got the whole idea wrong...
Might go watch a video...
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Oct 25 04:29:20 2000 GMT ]--
From: SmoothAsSilkCoolAsAirOhItMakesYouWanaCry (phil-99)
Subject: 5:30 am, still up...
*hrmph*
And yes, I have gone to bed - but my brain is refusing to sleep :(
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Oct 25 08:24:15 2000 GMT ]--
From: SmoothAsSilkCoolAsAirOhItMakesYouWanaCry (phil-99)
Subject: Ahhh, the challenge begins...
9:30am meeting, and my brain is starting to catch up to the fact that
it was in fact bedtime, about 9 hrs ago. Let's see how well this goes. I've
already forgotten my Zip disk that I was gonna bring in and print off some
stuff...
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Oct 26 14:10:35 2000 GMT ]--
From: SmoothAsSilkCoolAsAirOhItMakesYouWanaCry (phil-99)
Subject: It wasn't that bad, surprisingly.
After I'd broken through the tiredness barrier at about 1pm, I woke
up alot. Got home from work at about 4:30 and dozed until 6, then was fine
until I went to bed at 2am (after watching Ally) and slept thru till midday.
Went into a lecture today only to find it cancelled. Thanks mate.
Good to know that our lecturers keep us up to date on cancellations. Bah!
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Oct 26 14:20:18 2000 GMT ]--
From: SmoothAsSilkCoolAsAirOhItMakesYouWanaCry (phil-99)
Subject: hmmm - fish, onion rings and potatoe fritters. A healthy (yeah) but
yummy lunch :)
On an aside - do you have ANY idea how hard it is to find a hardware
modem these days? All I want is a cheap 56k modem, but NOT a WinModem! ARGH!
Anyone recommend where to get one from?
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Oct 27 03:44:59 2000 GMT ]--
From: SmoothAsSilkCoolAsAirOhItMakesYouWanaCry (phil-99)
Subject: Time to drink lots and lots of red bull? Well, as I don't like the
stuff, Irn-Bru will have to make do, I think...
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Oct 27 03:46:52 2000 GMT ]--
From: SmoothAsSilkCoolAsAirOhItMakesYouWanaCry (phil-99)
Subject: I was going to sleep - I was going to go to bed as soon as I got back
from work at 1am, but I wasn't tired. And I haven't felt tired at all, and
even now I'm not.
Damnit I'm becoming like Alexis :)
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Oct 27 19:09:36 2000 GMT ]--
From: SmoothAsSilkCoolAsAirOhItMakesYouWanaCry (phil-99)
Subject: Lecture from 9-10 was a waste of my time. May as well have gone to
bed. As it was, went shopping and slept from 12-4:45. Ahh well. Going to
check out more company presentations on the netwise.ac.uk website...
Have a groovy new light in my room, bought from Habitat (blame Mirath
- I told her our Debit Cards would never be the same again if we went in
there!!!) so I can actually see properly when I spod :)
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Oct 30 06:55:14 2000 GMT ]--
From: SmoothAsSilkCoolAsAirOhItMakesYouWanaCry (phil-99)
Subject: Not been able to get online most of the weekend - in fact I ma on with
Freeserve now, eep! I forgot...
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Oct 30 06:55:14 2000 GMT ]--
From: SmoothAsSilkCoolAsAirOhItMakesYouWanaCry (phil-99)
Subject: Not been able to get online most of the weekend - in fact I ma on with
Freeserve now, eep! I forgot...
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Oct 31 16:44:05 2000 GMT ]--
From: SmoothAsSilkCoolAsAirOhItMakesYouWanaCry (phil-99)
Subject: Presentation tonight, Exxon/Esso
(yes Caroline, I said it was yesterday, I thought it was... duh?)
Not really interested but I really don't wanna have to spend much more
time at home :-) I'm finding myself throwing myself into the little work I
have atm (or the web) so I have reasons not to talk to Darren and Alex - as I
know I'll only end up giving them severe grief about things...
Little things - like the curtain that has been sat underneath the
living room table for a week now, because I ran out of curtain hooks. Now it
would take 5 minutes to go and buy some more but I ran out of cash, and asked
someone else to get some - have they yet? No. The bin bag that's been sat by
the back door for 3 days now that I refuse to move, as an experiment. The
hoovering that hasn't been done in a week, since I did it last.
*sighs*
I can't wait until I can get a place to myself :) It'll be _all_ mine
and I can keep it how _I_ want it (I don't share very well... 10 years of
Boarding School taught me to be bloody-minded).
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Nov 1 01:54:08 2000 GMT ]--
From: SmoothAsSilkCoolAsAirOhItMakesYouWanaCry (phil-99)
Subject: The Exxon presentation was surprisingly enlightening...
I was a little dissapointed at the IT offering though. There were
only 2 IT students in a room of over 60 people, the rest were management or
mech./chem. eng., the sick people :) There was one rep from the GIS (Global
Information Systems) department there, but she turned out to be "support", and
had absolutely NO experience or qualifications with computers before she
started.
Trying to get any info out of her about the GIS dept. was nigh on
impossible, except trying to figure out what the company was like... However,
I'm going to apply to both Exxon and Reuters as 1st contacts, if only for the
experience of filling in the forms :) I'm also going to hound the Teleca
people at the job fair on Friday, as they really appeal to me, for some reason.
I think half of it is that I could stay in Manchester...
I've got a project meeting tommorrow, I'm supposed to have been
working on User Requirements for my system, but to be honest, I've not done
anything. I've not even tried. I have, however, thought a lot about it.
Unfortunately this doesn't count...
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Nov 1 09:24:38 2000 GMT ]--
From: SmoothAsSilkCoolAsAirOhItMakesYouWanaCry (phil-99)
Subject: This little snippet from a spod's diary...
"but I *need* someone now... I am feeling so lonely right now it hurts a lot."
This is a recurring theme in this spod's diary, it pops up every few weeks and
every time it shines through that they are desperate to be involved in a
relationship. I can't understand this attitude, it seems to me that this
attitude can't lead to a relationship - if you're that desperate you'll try
everything and everything will be false, forced and fake. You can't build
anything on foundations like that!
Anyhow... in for the meeting. Darren (yet again) decided he would
knock on my door at 8:25, 5 minutes before he wanted to leave... now - I ask
him to knock on the door if I'm not up, which I normally am but there are some
days I need more time than the alarm clock gives me. Like today. So when he
comes banging on the door at 25 past 8 it gives me just about enough time to
put on my clothes and get my work together. Nothing else...
This is becoming a nasty routine, 3 days a week.
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Nov 1 19:11:05 2000 GMT ]--
From: SmoothAsSilkCoolAsAirOhItMakesYouWanaCry (phil-99)
Subject: A feeling of dissatisfaction is growing...
The problem is, I don't know what about.
Is it work? Is it not having any free time? I don't know, but I'm
sure I'll find it sometime soon... or if I don't, I'm in the shit...
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Nov 1 01:54:08 2000 GMT ]--
From: SmoothAsSilkCoolAsAirOhItMakesYouWanaCry (phil-99)
Subject: The Exxon presentation was surprisingly enlightening...
I was a little dissapointed at the IT offering though. There were
only 2 IT students in a room of over 60 people, the rest were management or
mech./chem. eng., the sick people :) There was one rep from the GIS (Global
Information Systems) department there, but she turned out to be "support", and
had absolutely NO experience or qualifications with computers before she
started.
Trying to get any info out of her about the GIS dept. was nigh on
impossible, except trying to figure out what the company was like... However,
I'm going to apply to both Exxon and Reuters as 1st contacts, if only for the
experience of filling in the forms :) I'm also going to hound the Teleca
people at the job fair on Friday, as they really appeal to me, for some reason.
I think half of it is that I could stay in Manchester...
I've got a project meeting tommorrow, I'm supposed to have been
working on User Requirements for my system, but to be honest, I've not done
anything. I've not even tried. I have, however, thought a lot about it.
Unfortunately this doesn't count...
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Nov 1 09:24:38 2000 GMT ]--
From: SmoothAsSilkCoolAsAirOhItMakesYouWanaCry (phil-99)
Subject: This little snippet from a spod's diary...
"but I *need* someone now... I am feeling so lonely right now it hurts a lot."
This is a recurring theme in this spod's diary, it pops up every few weeks and
every time it shines through that they are desperate to be involved in a
relationship. I can't understand this attitude, it seems to me that this
attitude can't lead to a relationship - if you're that desperate you'll try
everything and everything will be false, forced and fake. You can't build
anything on foundations like that!
Anyhow... in for the meeting. Darren (yet again) decided he would
knock on my door at 8:25, 5 minutes before he wanted to leave... now - I ask
him to knock on the door if I'm not up, which I normally am but there are some
days I need more time than the alarm clock gives me. Like today. So when he
comes banging on the door at 25 past 8 it gives me just about enough time to
put on my clothes and get my work together. Nothing else...
This is becoming a nasty routine, 3 days a week.
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Nov 1 19:11:05 2000 GMT ]--
From: SmoothAsSilkCoolAsAirOhItMakesYouWanaCry (phil-99)
Subject: A feeling of dissatisfaction is growing...
The problem is, I don't know what about.
Is it work? Is it not having any free time? I don't know, but I'm
sure I'll find it sometime soon... or if I don't, I'm in the shit...
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Nov 2 12:22:47 2000 GMT ]--
From: SmoothAsSilkCoolAsAirOhItMakesYouWanaCry (phil-99)
Subject: YAY - Reading two days :)
No uni for two days, time to catch up on Project work (ugh)
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Nov 5 01:36:14 2000 GMT ]--
From: SmoothAsSilkCoolAsAirOhItMakesYouWanaCry (phil-99)
Subject: Saturday today?
I've gone round all today insisting it's Sunday... not a wise move!
Working with Sharn tommorrow, yay! She was in tonight and I sat and
listened to her chatting with various pplies and reminding myself why I enjoy
working with her ;-) Silly me... Yet I don't think I could ever pursue a
relationship with her if I got the chance - a little too much of an oddball for
me (says him... 'nuff said) - and she's 31 this yr :)
Job fair good, lots of CVs given to lots of people (not the big
companies though, mainly little ones - Pi technologies, Teleca, NATS) and lots
of experience gained in the art of asking the right questions and not making an
idiot of yourself (which I managed to do with Teleca quite nicely!). You know
when everything you pre-planned just flies out of your head and leaves you
standing with nothing to say? Yep, like that :(
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Nov 6 00:43:39 2000 GMT ]--
From: SmoothAsSilkCoolAsAirOhItMakesYouWanaCry (phil-99)
Subject: Nice to work with her again, been a long time...
Gabbing and slagging off people.
Especially ppl we live with and the state they leave the place in.
Currently downloading office update stuff, upgraded to Office 2000 as
I borrowed a CD from Ian, and couldn't let it go to waste now :) It's actually
faster than '97 on my machine! YAY!
Not even tried to get online through Linux properly yet. It's gonna
involve playing around with PnPdump again, I can feel it :( I think I might
just see if I can start from scratch again, and get a decent installation
done... all my other Linux installs have been "experimental" at best! But they
worked!
This modem is starting to annoy me already. It seems to have another
anti-wardialling mechanism :( With RedHotAnt in the state it gets in the
evenings, this is a bad thing. Ho-hum.
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Nov 6 08:41:49 2000 GMT ]--
From: SmoothAsSilkCoolAsAirOhItMakesYouWanaCry (phil-99)
Subject: Ugh, I hate early mornings!
:)
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Nov 6 11:20:42 2000 GMT ]--
From: SmoothAsSilkCoolAsAirOhItMakesYouWanaCry (phil-99)
Subject: I also hate internet shopping... I came VERY close to spending #50 on
something I really don't want earlier today :) It's toooooo easy to spend
money on things you take a quick fancy to...
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Nov 6 18:58:01 2000 GMT ]--
From: SmoothAsSilkCoolAsAirOhItMakesYouWanaCry (phil-99)
Subject: I gave in, I forked out #50 for a h/w modem... I think that the
Creative V.90 PnP beastie I got was another winmodem, as Linux refused to
play. Now got a PhonicPro external, seems to work well so far!
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Nov 6 23:08:08 2000 GMT ]--
From: SmoothAsSilkCoolAsAirOhItMakesYouWanaCry (phil-99)
Subject: LINUX SPODDING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
EEEE
EEEE
EE
:-)
If a little slow at first, it works!!! Yay! Ignore the instructions
on www.internet-support.net/redhotant/linux.html as they are pants! wvdial did
it for me as soon as I actually managed to get through :)
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Nov 7 11:46:22 2000 GMT ]--
From: SmoothAsSilkCoolAsAirOhItMakesYouWanaCry (phil-99)
Subject: Panicking, remembered I promised myself I would do this assignment
today, has to be in on the 9th... couldn't find the sheet, in amongst
the piles of crap that are in my room...
Found it eventually. Now just got to _do_ it... *yawns*
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Nov 7 11:48:36 2000 GMT ]--
From: SmoothAsSilkCoolAsAirOhItMakesYouWanaCry (phil-99)
Subject: And the User Requirements/Classification of contractions for my
project that I am supposed to have done for tommorrow :(
Got to decide if I can do enough to have it done before I go out
tonight. If not, I ain't going nowhere.
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Nov 7 17:11:40 2000 GMT ]--
From: SmoothAsSilkCoolAsAirOhItMakesYouWanaCry (phil-99)
Subject: Started on the CSP and gave up, I just can't seem to do it :(
Involves too much thinking about stuff that is boring as sin...
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Dec 14 01:13:33 2000 GMT ]--
From: PackingYourBagsJustLikePeopleInTheMovies (phil-99)
Subject: How do you cope, knowing that someone else is doing it?
Someone is, and it hurts. And especially when I get told about it
afterwards, and how good it was. As if knowing it even goes on isn't enough,
being told about it really sucks.
But what can you do? Get out? Stay in? Carry on, risk change and
breaking everything, all the very few plans that <B>do</B> exist? And then
there's the question: would it actually be better?
Who knows. I should do. Maybe.
Excuse this little burp in the transmission.
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Nov 5 01:36:14 2000 GMT ]--
From: SmoothAsSilkCoolAsAirOhItMakesYouWanaCry (phil-99)
Subject: Saturday today?
I've gone round all today insisting it's Sunday... not a wise move!
Working with Sharn tommorrow, yay! She was in tonight and I sat and
listened to her chatting with various pplies and reminding myself why I enjoy
working with her ;-) Silly me... Yet I don't think I could ever pursue a
relationship with her if I got the chance - a little too much of an oddball for
me (says him... 'nuff said) - and she's 31 this yr :)
Job fair good, lots of CVs given to lots of people (not the big
companies though, mainly little ones - Pi technologies, Teleca, NATS) and lots
of experience gained in the art of asking the right questions and not making an
idiot of yourself (which I managed to do with Teleca quite nicely!). You know
when everything you pre-planned just flies out of your head and leaves you
standing with nothing to say? Yep, like that :(
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Nov 6 00:43:39 2000 GMT ]--
From: SmoothAsSilkCoolAsAirOhItMakesYouWanaCry (phil-99)
Subject: Nice to work with her again, been a long time...
Gabbing and slagging off people.
Especially ppl we live with and the state they leave the place in.
Currently downloading office update stuff, upgraded to Office 2000 as
I borrowed a CD from Ian, and couldn't let it go to waste now :) It's actually
faster than '97 on my machine! YAY!
Not even tried to get online through Linux properly yet. It's gonna
involve playing around with PnPdump again, I can feel it :( I think I might
just see if I can start from scratch again, and get a decent installation
done... all my other Linux installs have been "experimental" at best! But they
worked!
This modem is starting to annoy me already. It seems to have another
anti-wardialling mechanism :( With RedHotAnt in the state it gets in the
evenings, this is a bad thing. Ho-hum.
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Nov 6 08:41:49 2000 GMT ]--
From: SmoothAsSilkCoolAsAirOhItMakesYouWanaCry (phil-99)
Subject: Ugh, I hate early mornings!
:)
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Nov 6 11:20:42 2000 GMT ]--
From: SmoothAsSilkCoolAsAirOhItMakesYouWanaCry (phil-99)
Subject: I also hate internet shopping... I came VERY close to spending #50 on
something I really don't want earlier today :) It's toooooo easy to spend
money on things you take a quick fancy to...
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Nov 6 18:58:01 2000 GMT ]--
From: SmoothAsSilkCoolAsAirOhItMakesYouWanaCry (phil-99)
Subject: I gave in, I forked out #50 for a h/w modem... I think that the
Creative V.90 PnP beastie I got was another winmodem, as Linux refused to
play. Now got a PhonicPro external, seems to work well so far!
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Nov 6 23:08:08 2000 GMT ]--
From: SmoothAsSilkCoolAsAirOhItMakesYouWanaCry (phil-99)
Subject: LINUX SPODDING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
EEEE
EEEE
EE
:-)
If a little slow at first, it works!!! Yay! Ignore the instructions
on www.internet-support.net/redhotant/linux.html as they are pants! wvdial did
it for me as soon as I actually managed to get through :)
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Nov 7 11:46:22 2000 GMT ]--
From: SmoothAsSilkCoolAsAirOhItMakesYouWanaCry (phil-99)
Subject: Panicking, remembered I promised myself I would do this assignment
today, has to be in on the 9th... couldn't find the sheet, in amongst
the piles of crap that are in my room...
Found it eventually. Now just got to _do_ it... *yawns*
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Nov 7 11:48:36 2000 GMT ]--
From: SmoothAsSilkCoolAsAirOhItMakesYouWanaCry (phil-99)
Subject: And the User Requirements/Classification of contractions for my
project that I am supposed to have done for tommorrow :(
Got to decide if I can do enough to have it done before I go out
tonight. If not, I ain't going nowhere.
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Nov 7 17:11:40 2000 GMT ]--
From: SmoothAsSilkCoolAsAirOhItMakesYouWanaCry (phil-99)
Subject: Started on the CSP and gave up, I just can't seem to do it :(
Involves too much thinking about stuff that is boring as sin...
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Nov 8 12:38:58 2000 GMT ]--
From: SmoothAsSilkCoolAsAirOhItMakesYouWanaCry (phil-99)
Subject: Somehow managed to break TumbleWeed last night. Oooooops.
Although it apparently wasn't broken for anyone but me? How did I
manage that? :)
Should mention that I have taken over that section from Kinkajou, he's
given it up and I'm now a member of staff on Mono. (everyone: ooooOOOOO) CUS
Social tonight. Curry last night.
Missed meeting this morning. Woke up in time but decided that I
didn't have anything of any worth to do so decided not to waste his time. Need
to get that work done. Now. NowNowNowNowNow.
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Nov 8 15:22:59 2000 GMT ]--
From: SmoothAsSilkCoolAsAirOhItMakesYouWanaCry (phil-99)
Subject: Well... quick visit to Manchester turned into a 3hr jaunt.
And to think I only went in to get my certificate of student status
thing for Council Tax. (the Council's systems are so poor that they can only
print two names on the council tax letters, and with my surname being last
alphabetically it was missed off - making me think I didn't have anything to
do. Then wondered why we got a "final reminder" :-( Eejits). Ended up buying
the KerKraft 400 (Zombie Nation) single as I _love_ that, and getting a coffee.
Must call John/Christian/someone who knows about CSP Coursework as I
am screwed, can't think. It is about extracting the processes involved in a
system from a text based description and I really can't wrap my head round it.
Well, I probably could if if I put my mind _really_ to it but I don't want
to, that's the poink here!
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Nov 8 17:12:20 2000 GMT ]--
From: SmoothAsSilkCoolAsAirOhItMakesYouWanaCry (phil-99)
Subject: hmmm... started it at least. Got some "untimed" stuff done, just
needs translating to being "timed" .
2 hrs before I need to leave for the CUS thing tonight. See how much
I can get done. I need to finish this before I can start doing prject work,
unfortunately, else I won't get this in by 3pm tommorrow :-| Don't fancy
losing 25% of marks because of it being 24hrs late, thank you very much!
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Nov 5 01:36:14 2000 GMT ]--
From: SmoothAsSilkCoolAsAirOhItMakesYouWanaCry (phil-99)
Subject: Saturday today?
I've gone round all today insisting it's Sunday... not a wise move!
Working with Sharn tommorrow, yay! She was in tonight and I sat and
listened to her chatting with various pplies and reminding myself why I enjoy
working with her ;-) Silly me... Yet I don't think I could ever pursue a
relationship with her if I got the chance - a little too much of an oddball for
me (says him... 'nuff said) - and she's 31 this yr :)
Job fair good, lots of CVs given to lots of people (not the big
companies though, mainly little ones - Pi technologies, Teleca, NATS) and lots
of experience gained in the art of asking the right questions and not making an
idiot of yourself (which I managed to do with Teleca quite nicely!). You know
when everything you pre-planned just flies out of your head and leaves you
standing with nothing to say? Yep, like that :(
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Nov 6 00:43:39 2000 GMT ]--
From: SmoothAsSilkCoolAsAirOhItMakesYouWanaCry (phil-99)
Subject: Nice to work with her again, been a long time...
Gabbing and slagging off people.
Especially ppl we live with and the state they leave the place in.
Currently downloading office update stuff, upgraded to Office 2000 as
I borrowed a CD from Ian, and couldn't let it go to waste now :) It's actually
faster than '97 on my machine! YAY!
Not even tried to get online through Linux properly yet. It's gonna
involve playing around with PnPdump again, I can feel it :( I think I might
just see if I can start from scratch again, and get a decent installation
done... all my other Linux installs have been "experimental" at best! But they
worked!
This modem is starting to annoy me already. It seems to have another
anti-wardialling mechanism :( With RedHotAnt in the state it gets in the
evenings, this is a bad thing. Ho-hum.
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Nov 6 08:41:49 2000 GMT ]--
From: SmoothAsSilkCoolAsAirOhItMakesYouWanaCry (phil-99)
Subject: Ugh, I hate early mornings!
:)
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Nov 6 11:20:42 2000 GMT ]--
From: SmoothAsSilkCoolAsAirOhItMakesYouWanaCry (phil-99)
Subject: I also hate internet shopping... I came VERY close to spending #50 on
something I really don't want earlier today :) It's toooooo easy to spend
money on things you take a quick fancy to...
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Nov 6 18:58:01 2000 GMT ]--
From: SmoothAsSilkCoolAsAirOhItMakesYouWanaCry (phil-99)
Subject: I gave in, I forked out #50 for a h/w modem... I think that the
Creative V.90 PnP beastie I got was another winmodem, as Linux refused to
play. Now got a PhonicPro external, seems to work well so far!
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Nov 6 23:08:08 2000 GMT ]--
From: SmoothAsSilkCoolAsAirOhItMakesYouWanaCry (phil-99)
Subject: LINUX SPODDING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
EEEE
EEEE
EE
:-)
If a little slow at first, it works!!! Yay! Ignore the instructions
on www.internet-support.net/redhotant/linux.html as they are pants! wvdial did
it for me as soon as I actually managed to get through :)
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Nov 7 11:46:22 2000 GMT ]--
From: SmoothAsSilkCoolAsAirOhItMakesYouWanaCry (phil-99)
Subject: Panicking, remembered I promised myself I would do this assignment
today, has to be in on the 9th... couldn't find the sheet, in amongst
the piles of crap that are in my room...
Found it eventually. Now just got to _do_ it... *yawns*
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Nov 7 11:48:36 2000 GMT ]--
From: SmoothAsSilkCoolAsAirOhItMakesYouWanaCry (phil-99)
Subject: And the User Requirements/Classification of contractions for my
project that I am supposed to have done for tommorrow :(
Got to decide if I can do enough to have it done before I go out
tonight. If not, I ain't going nowhere.
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Nov 7 17:11:40 2000 GMT ]--
From: SmoothAsSilkCoolAsAirOhItMakesYouWanaCry (phil-99)
Subject: Started on the CSP and gave up, I just can't seem to do it :(
Involves too much thinking about stuff that is boring as sin...
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Nov 8 12:38:58 2000 GMT ]--
From: SmoothAsSilkCoolAsAirOhItMakesYouWanaCry (phil-99)
Subject: Somehow managed to break TumbleWeed last night. Oooooops.
Although it apparently wasn't broken for anyone but me? How did I
manage that? :)
Should mention that I have taken over that section from Kinkajou, he's
given it up and I'm now a member of staff on Mono. (everyone: ooooOOOOO) CUS
Social tonight. Curry last night.
Missed meeting this morning. Woke up in time but decided that I
didn't have anything of any worth to do so decided not to waste his time. Need
to get that work done. Now. NowNowNowNowNow.
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Nov 8 15:22:59 2000 GMT ]--
From: SmoothAsSilkCoolAsAirOhItMakesYouWanaCry (phil-99)
Subject: Well... quick visit to Manchester turned into a 3hr jaunt.
And to think I only went in to get my certificate of student status
thing for Council Tax. (the Council's systems are so poor that they can only
print two names on the council tax letters, and with my surname being last
alphabetically it was missed off - making me think I didn't have anything to
do. Then wondered why we got a "final reminder" :-( Eejits). Ended up buying
the KerKraft 400 (Zombie Nation) single as I _love_ that, and getting a coffee.
Must call John/Christian/someone who knows about CSP Coursework as I
am screwed, can't think. It is about extracting the processes involved in a
system from a text based description and I really can't wrap my head round it.
Well, I probably could if if I put my mind _really_ to it but I don't want
to, that's the poink here!
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Nov 8 17:12:20 2000 GMT ]--
From: SmoothAsSilkCoolAsAirOhItMakesYouWanaCry (phil-99)
Subject: hmmm... started it at least. Got some "untimed" stuff done, just
needs translating to being "timed" .
2 hrs before I need to leave for the CUS thing tonight. See how much
I can get done. I need to finish this before I can start doing prject work,
unfortunately, else I won't get this in by 3pm tommorrow :-| Don't fancy
losing 25% of marks because of it being 24hrs late, thank you very much!
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Nov 9 12:21:25 2000 GMT ]--
From: SmoothAsSilkCoolAsAirOhItMakesYouWanaCry (phil-99)
Subject: I guess I shoulda started on it earlier. I started it at about 11:30
after a bizzare night of sleep. Woke up multiple times and my mouth was dry as
a bone every time, and no matter how much water I drank when I woke up next
time it was the same. Odd.
Anyhow - when I got into it and started doing it (albeit arse to front
- doing the specs first and then doing the alphabets afterwards) it wasn't as
bad as I had thought... still boring but it's got better.
Diagrams. Finite State Machines. Joy.
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Nov 10 22:28:54 2000 GMT ]--
From: SmoothAsSilkCoolAsAirOhItMakesYouWanaCry (phil-99)
Subject: *yawns*
Tired. Achy. Poor.
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Nov 11 00:49:19 2000 GMT ]--
From: SmoothAsSilkCoolAsAirOhItMakesYouWanaCry (phil-99)
Subject: Heard a BRILLIANT quote today that I wanted to write in here...
Unfortunately I forgot it :)
Radio 4 rocks.
I said to Mirath the other day - I want to find somewhere totally
silent. Completely and utterly devoid of all sound that isn't natural. No
car engines roaring by, no roar of tarmac vs. rubber, no alarms, nothing.
The sound of the wind in trees, water on river beds and banks, birds
and animals making polite conversation with one another. They will be the only
sounds I can hear.
Do any of you remember the CS Lewis book, part of the Narnia series,
about the rings? The "Wood Between The Worlds"? There. That is what I want
to find.
Speaking of which, I must dig out those books and re-read them, it's
been too long.
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Nov 11 14:44:01 2000 GMT ]--
From: SmoothAsSilkCoolAsAirOhItMakesYouWanaCry (phil-99)
Subject: That was, a completely random diary edit, for me at least :)
Waiting.....
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Nov 12 02:19:01 2000 GMT ]--
From: SmoothAsSilkCoolAsAirOhItMakesYouWanaCry (phil-99)
Subject: New speakers are amazing. Thank you Bob!
I haven't had sound quality this good for an age :) Or volume!
Giving them a really good try out at the moment. Playing mid-metal
(not quite heavy, not quite soft) at myself at stupid volumes. If I'm deaf in
a few days, excuse me.
Recorded ExistenZ tonight, which is a good thing. Excellent film, and
also recorded Hackers, which whilst being factually idiotic in many places, is
still a wonderful film. Considering sitting up and watching them now, but
think my bed is calling me much stronger than the sofa - unless of course I
take my duvet into the living room, as our sofa is actually fairly comfy :)
And yes, I do apologise for not letting you know, M., but please don't
give me hassle about it again, I've got enough to deal with as it is - not
every spare moment can be spent with people. Work has a bad habit of popping
up on me.
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Nov 12 03:05:43 2000 GMT ]--
From: SmoothAsSilkCoolAsAirOhItMakesYouWanaCry (phil-99)
Subject: I'd forgotten how much fun Synaesthesia is :)
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Nov 13 12:58:11 2000 GMT ]--
From: SmoothAsSilkCoolAsAirOhItMakesYouWanaCry (phil-99)
Subject: Argh, I just spent ten minutes trying to explain to two lassies who
obvously couldn't code a for loop if it was put in front of them, how to
perform a bubble sort - type - thing on an array of intgers :-|
I didn't want to do it for them, ya see - so tried to explain. Bad
idea.
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Nov 13 22:58:25 2000 GMT ]--
From: SmoothAsSilkCoolAsAirOhItMakesYouWanaCry (phil-99)
Subject: I was bad. I was very bad. I apologise in advance.
I went shopping today.
Safeways often have some very good cheap offers on.
I just happenned to see, Haagen Daazs ice-cream tubs (500ml) for
#1.99, and couldn't help picking up 2. I tried to stop myself, but I couldn't
stop the natural progression of nature, ya know?
I then wandered into the reduced freezer section, and saw a Banoffee
pie that had battered packaging, going cheap. Could I say no? No :(
As I say - I was bad.
But the Belgian Chocolate Haagen Daazs was heavenly, oh so good.
Who needs sex when you have that?
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Nov 14 13:52:06 2000 GMT ]--
From: SmoothAsSilkCoolAsAirOhItMakesYouWanaCry (phil-99)
Subject: Further to that, I have realised why I keep snacks away from my
cupboards as much as possible... as I sat up, 2:30am, watching eXistenZ, I
decided I fancied a snack, and ended up eating most of the yoghurt that I
bought and swore would last me a week...
Willpower, where are you hiding?
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Nov 14 14:17:56 2000 GMT ]--
From: SmoothAsSilkCoolAsAirOhItMakesYouWanaCry (phil-99)
Subject: And now I am angry... this email exchange:
Me: When's good for a next meeting?
Supe: Tuesday at 2 would be good.
Me: Fine then
Me turns up at 2:00, and waits until 2:15 and then gets bored of
waiting. Me also writes snotty emails to supe complaining that because of
this, he has missed a lecture, which possibly could be very important.
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Nov 15 02:00:10 2000 GMT ]--
From: SmoothAsSilkCoolAsAirOhItMakesYouWanaCry (phil-99)
Subject: Me goes to work.
OK I'm bored of that me stuff... work was fine, nothing exciting.
Walk home, scared the shit out of me. Fog. The river is maybe 4 metres wide.
I couldn't see across it. Even with my super-dooper-you-can't-bend-it torch.
Was shining my torch along a particularly dodgy bit of road I regularly walk
(where I also regularly cause coitus interruptus, I am sure), and at the end of
the road, I saw a car go past. Little did I know that this car had orange and
blue markings down it's sides until it turned round and followed me along the
street for a while.
Worrying.
I joined a gym, too.
For #30 a month, I'd best make sure I go. And Caroline - you're
coming with me! We're paying the cash, it has to go to some good. And Andrew
as well - if you're paying for it - you have to use it.
Fitness beckons.
*remembers the old days when he spent 2hrs EVERY DAY at the gym*
I still can't believe I used to do that :)
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Nov 15 02:44:15 2000 GMT ]--
From: SmoothAsSilkCoolAsAirOhItMakesYouWanaCry (phil-99)
Subject: And I can't believe I'm up at 2:30am again.
At least I ain't watching Videos this time :)
My diary seems to have become alot more terse recently, no long bits
of text, just lots of short sentences glued together with some punctuation.
Sure it makes sense to someone.
I spent last night, an hour and a half searching for a poem I studied
while I did German A-Level (which I quit, soon after starting). It's subject
matter was a tiger, caged up. The poem described what could be seen in the
tiger's eyes.
I'm sure it was Goethe. I really am, but much hunting round on
the net revealed nothing that reminds me of the text I seek, in English or
German. If anyone knows what I am on about, let me know, please.
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Nov 15 03:32:43 2000 GMT ]--
From: SmoothAsSilkCoolAsAirOhItMakesYouWanaCry (phil-99)
Subject: When the weight of the world has got you down,
And you wanna end your life,
Bills to pay, a dead end job,
And problems with your wife,
Don't thrown in the towel 'cuz there's a place right down the block,
Where you can drink your misery awayyyyyyy!
At Flaaaaaammmmiiiiiiiiinng Moe's, (Let's all go to Flaming Moe's)
Where Liquor in a mug, can warm you like a hug,
Happiness - is just a flaming moe away,
Happiness - is just a flaming moe away.
[Sing to the "Cheers" theme tune.]
I'm beginning to see the advantages of vi (or vim) after playing with
vilearn for a little while :-) Sure beats pico *grins*
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Nov 15 23:38:27 2000 GMT ]--
From: SmoothAsSilkCoolAsAirOhItMakesYouWanaCry (phil-99)
Subject: Tired now.
The gym is very nice, went there this evening, mainly for a scan
around to see what kind of facilities the place offered, and to see how easy it
would be for me to slip back into doing this exercise thing.
Without pushing tooooooo hard, I think I'm going to enjoy it. The
place seems like it's great. Lots of equipment, good entertainment (4 TVs,
which you can listen to through a cool system you plug yer headphones into) and
the radio on all the time. There is lots of help around if you need it, and I
think I'm gonna do what C did today soon, and go for a "fitness assesment" type
thing. Uck :)
I'm gonna hurt tommorrow though.
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Nov 16 08:23:22 2000 GMT ]--
From: SmoothAsSilkCoolAsAirOhItMakesYouWanaCry (phil-99)
Subject: OK, I am _really_ gonna go to the doctor's today...
Open surgery until 9 or 10, ISTR.
Every morning when I wake up I'm spending about 20 minutes sniffing
and sneezing and generally sounding like hell on legs. Not pleasant at all.
Feels even worse than it sounds and looks.
Not too sore yet, either :))
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Nov 16 08:48:41 2000 GMT ]--
From: SmoothAsSilkCoolAsAirOhItMakesYouWanaCry (phil-99)
Subject: Found an old CD today - Parlophone's "Flavour of the Label".
Some great stuff on here - Idlewild, Neil Finn (Twisty Bass), Bentley
Rythm Ace, Dr John, Sparklehorse. And Bran Van 3000 before they EVER became
famous with "Drinking in LA"! :)
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Nov 16 11:30:33 2000 GMT ]--
From: SmoothAsSilkCoolAsAirOhItMakesYouWanaCry (phil-99)
Subject: Must remember to check files with vouches before giving everybody
in the world access... *thwaps self*
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Nov 16 18:41:30 2000 GMT ]--
From: SmoothAsSilkCoolAsAirOhItMakesYouWanaCry (phil-99)
Subject: *growls at crappy lecturers*
Went in for a lecture only to find it was a waste of time. Why bother
going through 15 examples of divisions and spend 25 minutes doing it when
you could just say "this number means that and this number means this"?
*sighs*
Made a pasta and mince bake tonight - from scratch. Decided to
actually use those recipe cards I've had for 2 years now - and very nice it was
too - but next time I'll put more spices in it - a little bland...
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Nov 17 01:36:14 2000 GMT ]--
From: SmoothAsSilkCoolAsAirOhItMakesYouWanaCry (phil-99)
Subject: Feel guilty now...
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Nov 18 03:05:18 2000 GMT ]--
From: SmoothAsSilkCoolAsAirOhItMakesYouWanaCry (phil-99)
Subject: Gym again today... did about 50 minutes of gumph.
Really should get some kind of routine worked out instead of doing
whatever I want - I end up neglecting upper body stuff as it is so hard for me,
I can do legwork all day long and not worry too much! Rowing and handbikes,
however, kill me arms within minutes of starting :(
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Nov 18 10:58:34 2000 GMT ]--
From: SmoothAsSilkCoolAsAirOhItMakesYouWanaCry (phil-99)
Subject: Would anyone mind explaining to me why Netscape is currently reloading
the HMV website repeatedly because I resized the window????????
*mutters something about crap software*
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Nov 18 14:39:16 2000 GMT ]--
From: IKissUjustSoIknowInYourEyesLoveItGlowsSo (phil-99)
Subject: hmmmmmmmmmmmmm
Apple crumble, here we come.
I can smell it.
And I tell you, it smells gorgeous :-)
*wafts some of the scent at the screen*
Jealous? You should be :-P
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Nov 18 16:20:06 2000 GMT ]--
From: IKissUjustSoIknowInYourEyesLoveItGlowsSo (phil-99)
Subject: It didn't taste quite as good as it smelt...
But that's mainly because I don't have any lemon juice, and didn't put
enough sugar in, whilst trying to be relatively healthy :) It was still good
though *grins* And I have some left, if you get round here quick enough!
*waits for the hordes to come to the door*
No, I said HORDES!
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Nov 19 01:42:54 2000 GMT ]--
From: IKissUjustSoIknowInYourEyesLoveItGlowsSo (phil-99)
Subject: Surprised to come home this evening, and find Darren at home with new
woman :) Very cute too... if this one goes according to plan, then
I'll be the only unhitched one - with no plans to get hitched up with
anyone in the near future.
(And yes I know, you pedants out there will talk about Kate, but
whatever happens with that - GodOnlyKnows)
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Nov 19 18:56:34 2000 GMT ]--
From: IKissUjustSoIknowInYourEyesLoveItGlowsSo (phil-99)
Subject: Got sent home yesterday with sandwiches and stuff from the buffet that
was on for Keith's 50th b/day party. 90% of it is still sat in the kitchen as
I don't wanna eat it... not that it's bad stuff, but I'm just not hungry enough
to persuade myself to eat it yet - plus I wanna cook, but need to persuade my
body it's not had enough today :)
Been so physically tired the last few days - must be this exercise
thing - but it can only be a good thing, huh? :)
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Nov 20 00:02:01 2000 GMT ]--
From: IKissUjustSoIknowInYourEyesLoveItGlowsSo (phil-99)
Subject: Was watching the Usual Suspects, but promised myself a brief spod
before I went to bed - and that I WILL be up at 7am tommorrow. As Darren is
going down south somewhere for an interview at stupid am, I have to get the bus
in the morning - ugh :( Haven't caught a rush-hour bus for weeks!
Talked to Kate tonight... it was odd, it's been over a week since I
got a mail saying "off to blahblah tonight for a week, speak to you later". I
wonder if I managed to explain just how pissed I was at that short notice
thing... *shrugs*
Must send off Student Status thingie to Council Tax folk tommorrow.
Been sat on it for almost a week now.
Currently listening to: a mix of all my MP3s, right now it's Eels,
"Your Lucky Day in Hell". Oh no, changed now to The Dave Matthews Band, and
"Haloween".
Anyone wanna buy 2 winmodems? an ATX PSU? An S3 Virge 4mb Graphics
Card (AGP)? Please?! :)
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Nov 20 14:48:34 2000 GMT ]--
From: IKissUjustSoIknowInYourEyesLoveItGlowsSo (phil-99)
Subject: Thrilling morning in Uni...
Lecture on Neural Nets where we went over the same stuff *yet again*.
Lab Support thing for an hour, we actually got a few questions this
week! YAY! Spent nearly 20 minutes trying to explain to a bloke why he didn't
need to do what he'd done - as it was already there in the skeleton code that
was provided... d'oh!
Started on my interim report at last - has to be in on Thursday. Only
found out about it a coupla days ago though - oops. A fairly big report to be
anded in, but a lot of it is just repeating in bigger words, what was in our
Terms of Reference... (admittedly, all I have typed out is the headings...
ladedahhhh).
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Nov 20 15:41:27 2000 GMT ]--
From: IKissUjustSoIknowInYourEyesLoveItGlowsSo (phil-99)
Subject: Downloading Eminem's "Stan" atm... almost 10Mb worth of music in one
shot, but it'll be worth it, it's a good song :) If a little sick *grins*
Suit me to the ground then!!
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Nov 20 21:54:42 2000 GMT ]--
From: IKissUjustSoIknowInYourEyesLoveItGlowsSo (phil-99)
Subject: *gurbles*
My body hurts.
I'm all alone in the house - at last. I've been mentally cursing the
other two to "get the fuck out and leave me alone" all week long - just for an
evening. So I can spod as much as I like, talk to whomever I like on the phone
and not have to worry, and do whatever I like for a while - whilst not having
to think about other people.
I really don't share well :-\
At least - not my privacy and personal space - 10 years of enforced
sharing and practically zero privacy kinda makes it a premium.
So I now have "The Very Best of Jazz - After Dark" playing loud. Very
loud. Gonna go and make a cuppa green tea, and prolly sink to bed. I made
stewed apples earlier, as I couldn't be bothered with doing another apple
crumble - but kinda left the apples a little too long... apple mush, anyone? :)
Tasted nice though - musta been the cinnamon I used.
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Nov 21 18:20:31 2000 GMT ]--
From: IKissUjustSoIknowInYourEyesLoveItGlowsSo (phil-99)
Subject: Interesting to note, that I've now spent more time working on TW stuff
than I have on my Interim Report, in the last 2 days... so if anyone accuses me
of not doing anything (not looking at any particular reader at all.. no, not
you - yes - you, I'm not looking at YOU) then I will well and truly tell you
where to stick it :)
I forgot that .in = centred and .il = left justified... duhhhh. And
it took forever for the two that I wanted to pop up in the main menu so I could
check it...
Report to be handed in on Thursday. My Wednesday is 90% free, so I
will spend most of the day doing that, interspersed with a gym visit.
Hopefully.
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Nov 22 03:08:51 2000 GMT ]--
From: IKissUjustSoIknowInYourEyesLoveItGlowsSo (phil-99)
Subject: *groans*
Ouch, this hurts my eyes writing in a badlly set up xterm...
Yes, I'm working
Yes, it's 3am
I know
Don't say it...
It needed doing. Desperately. It needs doing by Thursday afternoon,
and going by what others have said - it's around 15 - 20 pages of text. This
is a bad bad thing.
I currently have 2.
Including all the subtitles, which I typed in first...
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Nov 22 04:35:29 2000 GMT ]--
From: IKissUjustSoIknowInYourEyesLoveItGlowsSo (phil-99)
Subject: Make that 3...
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Nov 23 01:31:27 2000 GMT ]--
From: IKissUjustSoIknowInYourEyesLoveItGlowsSo (phil-99)
Subject: Not quite finished, but finished enough for my liking...
And I ain't staying up late again tonight.
Spent the last hour printing off papers for Real Time Systems
coursework. Basically a big research essay on a tough subject, well - choice
of subject. (mine is Worst Case Execution Time prediction).
Tired...
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Nov 23 02:14:29 2000 GMT ]--
From: IKissUjustSoIknowInYourEyesLoveItGlowsSo (phil-99)
Subject: Hmm, it's late, but not that late...
Proggie on BBC2 about Glasgow that I had to watch... made me wanna
be there again...
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Nov 23 11:49:22 2000 GMT ]--
From: IKissUjustSoIknowInYourEyesLoveItGlowsSo (phil-99)
Subject: Yummy sleep.
Teleca turned me down :(
Gonna give it another bash though - will play around with my CV lots
when I'm in Uni today and send it off to urchin for possible jobness :)
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Nov 24 12:24:15 2000 GMT ]--
From: IKissUjustSoIknowInYourEyesLoveItGlowsSo (phil-99)
Subject: Well yes, I forgot - OK? ;)
Long coffee, and a decision.
Is there anything any of you can recommend that might help with
"promises". i.e. - promises to myself that things will be done. I only say
this because well - I know a lot of people do things because they feel if they
don't, they'll dissapoint someone.
Whether this be partner, parents, friends, whoever. I don't feel
this, and I'm always making promises to myself and then breaking these (partly
because I forget them, duhh, and partly because they "aren't that important" at
the time).
What I'm after, is a - well - I think Vows is too strong a word, or is
it? I'm after something that will help me keep the promises I make to myself.
Self-improvement is the game here :)
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Nov 26 20:45:03 2000 GMT ]--
From: IKissUjustSoIknowInYourEyesLoveItGlowsSo (phil-99)
Subject: *yawns*
I'm really wondering what I'm doing here...
5 days a week of work is really starting to get me down. I'm dropping
Saturdays as of one or two weeks away, which can only be a goodgood thing.
I've had enough of having no weekend to myself. But I still regret getting
myself into the position where I have to work to go on... :(
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Nov 27 13:07:40 2000 GMT ]--
From: IKissUjustSoIknowInYourEyesLoveItGlowsSo (phil-99)
Subject: Was up till silly hours of the day yesterday working...
For no reason, I'll have you know. No deadlines until December the
7th now, but I was there - my brain was working properly and I could do it
without thinking :)
I'm gonna hoover I think. See how much I can piss Alex off by taking
it in the living room (hey, it needs doing, the aim isn't to piss him off but
the fac that he'll sit there whilst I tidy round him is annoying at best).
Oh, and I missed this morning's lecture. I did wake up at 7am, but
when I went into the kitchen to grab a drink I found that I was having
difficulty staying vertical - so decided that the lecture was a bad idea.
*shrugs*
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Nov 27 22:52:32 2000 GMT ]--
From: IKissUjustSoIknowInYourEyesLoveItGlowsSo (phil-99)
Subject: I really pushed myself this afternoon at the gym, and if it weren't
for the fire alarm causing me to spend 10 minutes cooling down I
probably would have done much more than the hour and a half I did.
Also finding out that relatively little exercise is doing wonders
already - I've always had bad upper body strength, and rowing is a
particularly hard exercise for me. When I first started I couldn't do
a kilometre without hurting. Today I did 1750 metres at a fairly fast
pace (both time/500m and Strokes Per Minute) and didn't hurt at all
until I stopped (when my arms refused to move for about 2 minutes...)
Couldn't be dealing with cooking today so went to Princess of Hearts
and bought a curry :) Yummmmmmmmmmmiiieeee.
Bought Classic FM's "Relax More" album as well. Caroline raved so
much about the "Relax" album I just had to get it. It's brill! Buy
it!! Go on!
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Nov 27 22:55:35 2000 GMT ]--
From: IKissUjustSoIknowInYourEyesLoveItGlowsSo (phil-99)
Subject: Oh, and if you think clowns are evil now, you should listen to some
Insane Clown Posse stuff :)
(I happen to like it, for humour value of course!)
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Nov 29 09:56:48 2000 GMT ]--
From: IKissUjustSoIknowInYourEyesLoveItGlowsSo (phil-99)
Subject: Well, that was a remarkably good meeting...
One thing about Gareth - he doesn't mind talking :) I can sit there
and listen to him and he doesn't seem to care. I tend not to ask him much
because there isn't much for me to ask (often), and when I do he normally
launches into an answer that might take 5 minutes to explain.
Today was good though. Talking about presentations and the like, and
he's full of good advice :)
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Nov 30 00:48:13 2000 GMT ]--
From: IKissUjustSoIknowInYourEyesLoveItGlowsSo (phil-99)
Subject: Well, I eventually got my auto-BT-phone-bill script done...
then BT go and screw up by not actually having my current bill on
their site. Great one guys. And I am not wading through nearly 12 pages of
calls trying to figure out who called who how many times! No thank you!
*ponders*
Feel really guilty too. Been a bad bad boy today, foodwise. I didn't
realise it until I'd finished them, but I ate a pack of biscuits during today.
A whole pack. Bad juju.
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Nov 30 10:51:33 2000 GMT ]--
From: IKissUjustSoIknowInYourEyesLoveItGlowsSo (phil-99)
Subject: Well, CV is updated and I think it looks fairly good now.
Mind you, I said that before :)
Hopefully urchin'll manage to persuade someone that they really do
want to take me on *grins* Out of all the companies I've looked at so far
Teleca seem like the best one (impressions I've got from workers I've talked
to).
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Dec 1 12:18:41 2000 GMT ]--
From: IKissUjustSoIknowInYourEyesLoveItGlowsSo (phil-99)
Subject: apologies for f*cking up the diary somehow...
Somewhere between 0100 and this morning (probably when Janitor was run
from my crontab) the file got deleted. Now even though I've tried to simulate
this problem again by running Janitor on the file again - I can't do it!!!
I hate intermittent problems, they're the worst kind :(
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Dec 1 13:22:44 2000 GMT ]--
From: IKissUjustSoIknowInYourEyesLoveItGlowsSo (phil-99)
Subject: Writing Presentations, ooooooo
Joyous.
Currently on slide #5 and I'm aiming to stay under 7, and I ain't
anywhere near done yet. Oops. I guess I can discount the title slide though,
so I got a chance now :)
Hohum.
I really do resent having to work, I really really really do. It gets
in the way so badly. *mutters: must do better with money next term*
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Dec 3 00:41:52 2000 GMT ]--
From: IKissUjustSoIknowInYourEyesLoveItGlowsSo (phil-99)
Subject: To say that I am pissed off now doesn't come close...
I've had enough. I've had enough of working shitty hours, I've had
enough of having to curtail a social life that needs as much help as it can
get, I'm fed up of not being able to do the things I want because I'm committed
to working 22hrs a week.
If it weren't for the fact that we have a temp manager in right now I
wouldn't be there at all :( Instead I'm going to finish the other half of that
bottle of white I bought yesterday and go to bed, only to trundle into work
tommorrow as though nothing is wrong.
I hate it.
Really.
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Dec 3 01:39:23 2000 GMT ]--
From: IKissUjustSoIknowInYourEyesLoveItGlowsSo (phil-99)
Subject: *growls*
More wine, must drink more wine...
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Dec 3 11:11:32 2000 GMT ]--
From: IKissUjustSoIknowInYourEyesLoveItGlowsSo (phil-99)
Subject: And again, it gets in the way...
Woke up early with the intention of going to the gym, since I haven't
been since Thursday, now. But no, can I realistically make it to town and back
before 12? Of course I couldn't have done.
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Dec 3 23:16:07 2000 GMT ]--
From: IKissUjustSoIknowInYourEyesLoveItGlowsSo (phil-99)
Subject: Argh.
I'm knackered, so am going to bed...
Before midnight, I'll have you know.
Expect to see me back at 3am.
Hopefully the night-cap might sort it out......... (this Ardbeg really
is VICIOUS at 47.5%) *breathes flames*
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Dec 4 15:43:19 2000 GMT ]--
From: EricTheGardenerWillFind,EricTheGardeneer (phil-99)
Subject: *crosses fingers*
Wish me luck...
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Dec 4 23:39:25 2000 GMT ]--
From: EricTheGardenerWillFind,EricTheGardeneer (phil-99)
Subject: I didn't really need it too much...
Although 10 minutes was nowhere near enough :( About 1/2-2/3 through
I was told "Your ten minutes are almost up", and ended up having to rush
through the rest of the slides, missing out on some info that I really wanted
to include.
Gareth was good though - he asked some questions that were to my
benefit :)
Went to the gym after, to try and rid myself of the shakes (it was
that good!), and was co-erced into taking part in a "Fit-pump" class. It's
essentially a weights session with low weights and lots of reps, with
enthusiastic ppl leading set to cheesey music :) Whilst it was a fairly good
work out, I really wanted to go and push really hard this afternoon, and didn't
get the chance to do it as hard as I wanted.....
Got gome to find the place a _mess_. It's been getting worse, so I
hoovered, washed up and generally cleaned. All the while I was doing this,
making as much noise as possible - I didn't so much as get a comment from
upstairs like "thanks". Hell, I'm even washing the <F>ing setee cushion covers
because THEY were filthy.
*sighs*
I really can't wait until I can get my own place...
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Dec 5 10:34:51 2000 GMT ]--
From: EricTheGardenerWillFind,EricTheGardeneer (phil-99)
Subject: *growls*
I give up. I try to keep this diary down to a decent size and what
happens? It gets deleted. It works fine when I run it manually, but crontab
seems to do something that it doesn't like........
Was up early this morning, but went back to bed again :) Wondering
whether I should bother attempting to do the Yoga classes at the gym sometime -
it's something I've fancied for a while but never got round to checking out.
Oh, and my body hurts. In places I didn't even know could hurt :)
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Dec 5 18:06:29 2000 GMT ]--
From: EricTheGardenerWillFind,EricTheGardeneer (phil-99)
Subject: Yep, it hurts bad...
I've said very little except "ouch" all day :)
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Dec 6 23:29:06 2000 GMT ]--
From: EricTheGardenerWillFind,EricTheGardeneer (phil-99)
Subject: When I got back from the gym...
I finished 3/4 a bottle of wine without even thinking about it. This
was a bad thing, and might also explain why I was so vocal at telling M. to
stop complaining and that things will never be as perfect as she wants.
Got home at about 10:30 to find Darren attempting to make a cake, and
blaring xmas songs out the living room, which immediately put me in a bad bad
mood. Never mind the headache.
Christmas is stupid. It's a waste of all our time. It's a drag which
means nothing to anyone but everyone thinks it means everything to them. At
least I have the decency to admit it means nothing to me and don't care. The
only good thing is the presents. The enforced family contact, the supposed
"goodwill" (which, btw - isn't part of life for all those burglars eyeing up
your richly decorated house) and festivity is all a front... but for what?
*fumes*
(at being in such a bad mood)
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Dec 7 12:02:23 2000 GMT ]--
From: EricTheGardenerWillFind,EricTheGardeneer (phil-99)
Subject: a lot happier about it today, though I still think Christmas sucks :)
Currently pondering whether it's worth going into a lecture that will
be boring - considering every single other one he's given has been boring. I
guess I have to go - he may say something interesting tofay :)
Trying to download Spooks, Things I've seen from Napster, but the only
people who have it seem to be on treacle-slow connections. Bah. (Not that my
connection is anything special - but 1.6k/s is silly.)
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Dec 8 01:18:23 2000 GMT ]--
From: EricTheGardenerWillFind,EricTheGardeneer (phil-99)
Subject: I was trying to think on the way home of words that could describe
life at the moment. I struggled. What I would like to do, is
come up with a list of words I think describes some portiion of life,
and write why I think that word is suitable. Maybe one a day, or
summink.
I need to come up with a list first :)
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Dec 8 01:42:28 2000 GMT ]--
From: EricTheGardenerWillFind,EricTheGardeneer (phil-99)
Subject: Oh, I should also mention that Late Night Poker is WAY cool :)
Work was shite. Duncan, if you ever read this I was so ready to get
you turfed out tonight. If you want something, you ask. You don't give me
shit because I didn't read your mind. You know my name, I know yours.
I've had it. New Year's Eve will be my last day.
Of course, I haven't told them yet.
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Dec 10 18:34:43 2000 GMT ]--
From: EricTheGardenerWillFind,EricTheGardeneer (phil-99)
Subject: I am such a skiver :)
But I don't care. Having the weekend off has been the best feeling in
a LONG time. Being able to go out at the drop of a hat, nice.
Oh, didn't go in this morning either - decided that whatever mystery
illness I have won't be a 24hr bug - more like a 48hr one :)
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Dec 10 20:41:43 2000 GMT ]--
From: EricTheGardenerWillFind,EricTheGardeneer (phil-99)
Subject: I've a thing for these.
It's an idea for a Christmas present that I can't really ask most of
my friends to get for me, which is a real shame in some ways as I really want
it, but I guess this is special :)
Mind you, after I've talked it over, I'm going to try the mental
version first and if that doesn't work - then it has to be physical. Hmm.
This could be fun :)
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Dec 11 12:25:16 2000 GMT ]--
From: EricTheGardenerWillFind,EricTheGardeneer (phil-99)
Subject: Spent most of yesterday afternoon doing DIY
I bought a plug socket thingy - but never realised it was only the
front - the box is sold seperately, d'oh. Yeah, got fed up of extensions
running through the house. Also replacing our phone extension wire with a
proper one that I can fix the end to the wall, and have a phone plug there,
instead of just a connector. (it _does_ make sense, honest).
Just need to buy some 6" screws to connect it to the wall, and the box
for the plugs now. ALso bought a couple of timers so that we can at least
leave one light on over the xmas hols. The house is likely to be empty for
about a week, don't want to risk too much.
Woke up late today, as well.
Prolly because I didn't go to sleep until late. Was sat up reading
O'Reilly's "Running Linux" book until late. Unfortunately it hasn't taught me
much new, or useful yet. But I guess half the reason I bought it was to make
sure what I think I know is really the way things should be.
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Dec 11 21:32:52 2000 GMT ]--
From: EricTheGardenerWillFind,EricTheGardeneer (phil-99)
Subject: When you think of a cow, what phrase springs to mind?
Whatever it is - I bet it's not "Grazing Boomerang". I heard them
described as thus on a Radio 4 program this evening. About cows. And how they
have affected humans.
Also - did you know that each cow can provide (on average) 55ft sq. of
leather when dead? Eeep!
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Dec 12 00:25:55 2000 GMT ]--
From: PackingYourBagsJustLikePeopleInTheMovies (phil-99)
Don't ask me what this is about, I just think the song is delicious...
15_-_Various_Artists_-_Faithless_-_Don't_Leave_(Floating_Mix).mp3
Packing your bags like people in the movies do,
All severe, and not saying a word,
And I'm sitting down here just watching you,
And I'm thinking:
Where is all the love gone?
Where's the love gone to?
Don't leave,
You got me hurting,
Don't leave
You know it's never been easy to love someone like me,
Oh, don't leave.
Hanging with friends like we used to do,
I didn't know anything was wrong,
And last night while I was thinking it through,
Trying to find who am I and what d'you need me to do?
Don't leave.
There's a record you used to play,
there's Judy singing 'best to be without you',
And I know just what she's singing______
Where did all the love go?
Where's the love gone to?
Don't leave.
You got me hurting,
Don't leave.
You know it's never been easy to love someone like me,
Oh, don't leave.
Where did all the love go?
Where's the love gone to?
Don't leave.
We'll fly around the world, give you what you're giving me,
I should have dressed you up in pearl,
Find me a ? to touch your skin,
Don't know how to write a love song,
But Don't leave.
You got me hurting,
Don't leave.
You know it's never been easy to love someone like me,
Don't leave.
Don't leave.
Don't leave.
Don't leave.
(lyrics snagged from
http://www.webspace.com.br/perla/discotrack/inter/faithless/reverence_02.htm as
I couldn't be arsed to write them out)
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Dec 12 01:03:50 2000 GMT ]--
From: PackingYourBagsJustLikePeopleInTheMovies (phil-99)
Subject: Tell me, honestly - do you find this site frightening?
http://www.romegeorgia.com/Sheriff/sexoffenders.html
I do.
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Dec 12 01:09:46 2000 GMT ]--
From: PackingYourBagsJustLikePeopleInTheMovies (phil-99)
Subject: Or this?
http://www.co.clark.wa.us/sheriff/inter/comminfo/sexoffender/level3.htm
hmmm.
Maybe it's just me, but I don't think releasing the names and
especially the adresses of convicted offenders is right...
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Dec 12 11:32:15 2000 GMT ]--
From: PackingYourBagsJustLikePeopleInTheMovies (phil-99)
Subject: hmmm, odd.
I can't seem to sit at my computer and listen to the radio. Something
is causing massive amountf of interference. I think someone's spying on me,
and their equipment is causing EM Interference :)
Jut got to finish off Real Time Systems c/w now.
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Dec 13 01:35:48 2000 GMT ]--
From: PackingYourBagsJustLikePeopleInTheMovies (phil-99)
Subject: Today I:
o finished c/w
o bought audio switch box
o rigged up audio switch box
o bought back-box for the double switch I bought without one
o rigged up extension lead so it's not as ugly as it was
o been to work, got soaked, worked, and walked home soggy
o kept my promise, which is the first day I've managed it so far...
o been instructed to buy some elastic bands, as penance for not
keeping it yesterday. What this involves, I don't know.
Oh, I should also mention - I've now developed a headache :)
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Dec 13 09:25:26 2000 GMT ]--
From: PackingYourBagsJustLikePeopleInTheMovies (phil-99)
Subject: Hmmm, I've only been up 10 minutes and I've had a surreal day already!
I was rudely awakened by the sound of my mobile ringing, and it turned
out to be someone from "Resource Aviation" (well, so it says on the email)
offering me a job! (?) I forgot I put my CV on Jobsite.co.uk the other day.
Also woke up just too late to go into the meeting I had scheduled, so
fired off an email to Gareth apologising. Hmm. Can the day get better? :)
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Dec 13 09:51:15 2000 GMT ]--
From: PackingYourBagsJustLikePeopleInTheMovies (phil-99)
Subject: UHH...
And another one.
A recruitment agency this time, asking all kinds of odd questions :)
This could be one fo the best moves I've made all year *grins*
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Dec 13 16:50:40 2000 GMT ]--
From: PackingYourBagsJustLikePeopleInTheMovies (phil-99)
Subject: Am bored now...
Finished off coursework for Neural Nets, sent that off to the lecturer
by email. Had breakfast/lunch/tea (Venison sausage, vegetables (assorted) and
a coupla slices of bread) and am about to finish off my Internet and
Distributed Systems assignment. Need to find out more about ASP and and PHP
though, before I can finish.
I can hear Alex and Darren playing MarioCart next door. *growls*
They don't do anything else, I swear. Between MC and Neighbours, that's the
life.
*yawns and stretches*
Am going to the gym this evening, will aim to get there around 6, I
think. Give tea some time to settle down :)
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Dec 14 01:13:33 2000 GMT ]--
From: PackingYourBagsJustLikePeopleInTheMovies (phil-99)
Subject: How do you cope, knowing that someone else is doing it?
Someone is, and it hurts. And especially when I get told about it
afterwards, and how good it was. As if knowing it even goes on isn't
enough, being told about it really sucks.
But what can you do? Get out? Stay in? Carry on, risk change and
breaking everything, all the very few plans that do exist? And then there's
the question: would it actually be better?
Who knows. I should do. Maybe.
Excuse this little burp in the transmission.
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Dec 14 01:09:43 2000 GMT ]--
From: PackingYourBagsJustLikePeopleInTheMovies (phil-99)
Subject: Can't decide whether to keep that edit or not...
Argh. Decisions.
Yep, kept........
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Dec 14 15:36:06 2000 GMT ]--
From: PackingYourBagsJustLikePeopleInTheMovies (phil-99)
Subject: I have an essay sat in front of me.
I tend to bold things I want to expand further, so I make lots of
notes and bold them, only to expand and replace them later. All I shall say,
is that I currently have 5 pages of text and a lot of bold :)
I've had yet more emails and phone calls from agencies today. I'm not
sure I regret putting my CV on JobSite, but it's getting frustrating - one of
them was all ready to offer me a job there and then I think, until I told them
I was a student still!
Blimey.
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Dec 15 01:38:42 2000 GMT ]--
From: PackingYourBagsJustLikePeopleInTheMovies (phil-99)
Subject: I had the most gorgeous walk home tonight...
The sky is clear. The stars and moon were shining bright as
spotlights in the sky. The air was cold, crisp and felt clean. I was
listening to Jazz FM (??!), and they were playing great music (shame about the
DJs - Hannibal Selector?).
Alright, something to think on. Can you ever remember a moment of
complete darkness? Thinking on it, I don't believe I can. By total darkness I
don't just mean the lack of light - I mean the lack of light where you know
there is no way out. No turning on the lightswitch, no opening up the cupboard
door.
It was something I was thinking about on the way home. How it would
be to experience an eclipse during a power cut, for example. It would be one
of the most awe-inspiring feelings.
I think :)
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Dec 15 01:42:19 2000 GMT ]--
From: PackingYourBagsJustLikePeopleInTheMovies (phil-99)
Subject: Got lots of edits to make to an essay so I think I'll be up late.
(like I'm not already?!)
Unfortunately that means either rebooting or using Star Office (ugh)
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Dec 15 02:54:01 2000 GMT ]--
From: PackingYourBagsJustLikePeopleInTheMovies (phil-99)
Subject: Unfortunately as well - I've not yet done either...
*kicks self*
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Dec 15 03:27:08 2000 GMT ]--
From: PackingYourBagsJustLikePeopleInTheMovies (phil-99)
Subject: Wow - late night radio 1 rocks! :)
Not yer normal late night, I mean REALLY late night!
Damn mono, must.... stop.... spodding!
Mind you, I'm getting lots done - honest. This essay may soon reflect
how much work I really have put into it eventually - as soon as I can figure
out how to say what I want to.
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Dec 15 04:44:59 2000 GMT ]--
From: PackingYourBagsJustLikePeopleInTheMovies (phil-99)
Subject: That bloody woman drives me batty...
Yet I'm terrified that I could lose her as a friend - so try to accept
as much of it as normality as I can. Then it's really annoying because she
does something that just melts me and you can't help but forgive the odd bits.
*confused*
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Dec 15 22:49:46 2000 GMT ]--
From: PackingYourBagsJustLikePeopleInTheMovies (phil-99)
Subject: I have beer, I have mono.
I was going to ask what else I need, but that is a silly question.
I wanted to go out tonight but by the time I got back from work I was
so exhausted I cold just about make it through the door to the sofa.
I've also missed the X-Files :(
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Dec 17 23:43:34 2000 GMT ]--
From: PackingYourBagsJustLikePeopleInTheMovies (phil-99)
Subject: I ended up going to the Hardy Farm late bar. It was "Kinky Christmas"
and my God, it was kinky in some respects :) Some people wouldn't have looked
out of place at a Rocky Horror show, some looked very moose-like and some.
Well, some were just plain sad!
I drank lots, though. It were cheap. Very cheap.
I also had a mad hangover on Saturday, which explains why I was quite
subdued (wasn't I?). Curry was had, after ice-cream. Then lego. Then
Beetlegeuse :)
Then home.
Today: woke up at 12:15 to a phone call asking me why I wasn't in
work. Oops. Went in, told Dee that I wanted out and told her that the 14th of
Jan was my cut-off. She understood. Good.
Home, tidy. Darren and Alex go home tommorrow. I can get people
round now - without having to worry about what a hole the house might be in
when I eventually get back through the door. Will also give the heating a
rest. Yet again - the realisation that turning on the heating costs _money_
hasn't hit home yet to Darren, and as far as I can tell, it has been on from
10am, through to 11pm when I realised it was still on.
I don't want to pay this next gas bill :(
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Dec 18 11:38:59 2000 GMT ]--
From: PackingYourBagsJustLikePeopleInTheMovies (phil-99)
Subject: I really hope this doesn't offend anyone :) But it IS hilarious!
http://www.divine-interventions.com/index2.html
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Dec 18 14:01:05 2000 GMT ]--
From: PackingYourBagsJustLikePeopleInTheMovies (phil-99)
Subject: Yet again, Mono seems to lose the plot...
Mono Moans has turned into a "battleground", but what isn't realised,
is that there is actually only one team on this battleground. I can't
understand - if something bothers you, and you know that your comments aren't
taken seriously in general - would you put your thoughts in a public file?
I know I wouldn't... but hey, I have a modicum of sense that I
understand others don't. Anyhow....
Ooooo, "This Guy's In Love With You", by Fastball. Class tune.
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Dec 18 15:56:40 2000 GMT ]--
From: PackingYourBagsJustLikePeopleInTheMovies (phil-99)
Subject: And it gets even funnier, with a mix of people trying to take it
seriously, not realising that there are those with a sense of "humour" trying
to get involved.
As somebody said - it should be in the humour section, that file.
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Dec 18 19:02:58 2000 GMT ]--
From: PackingYourBagsJustLikePeopleInTheMovies (phil-99)
Subject: From "I'm Sorry I Haven't a Clue" tonight:
[mid-general-game-show spoof]
Tony Someone: I'll have one from the top, and 5 small ones please Carol
Presenter: That gives you one dundee cake and 5 eclairs. Your target: toad in
the hole!
[countdown clock ticks for 30 seconds]
Tony: I've only got toad in the blender I'm afraid
luvvit!!!!
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Dec 19 00:09:35 2000 GMT ]--
From: PackingYourBagsJustLikePeopleInTheMovies (phil-99)
Subject: Have an offer of an interview with TTPCom...
Will take the offer of the interview, if nothing else. Assuming he
hasn't ballsed up and assumed that I'm not actually a student atm.
TTPCom sound interesting. Doing software for Mobile Phones and
GSM/Bluetooth products. They are in Herts though, which is a bummer - but if
they're gonna give me a job, it'll do.
Went to the gym today, worked really hard. I've already pushed myself
up a level on the treadmills, guess I'm just more confident about running on
them now - I always have hated that. 10 minutes of running though, tough work,
but the weights is kinda getting easier - at least I'm not shaking as much as I
was after :)
Wanted to go in for FitPump but I was so into it by the time I forgot.
Sat and watched TV most of the night. Been so nice to have the house
to myself. Oh yes. Shame it won't stay like this for too long, in some ways.
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Dec 19 10:36:53 2000 GMT ]--
From: PackingYourBagsJustLikePeopleInTheMovies (phil-99)
Subject: Whhooooooooooooooooooohooooooooooooooo
They're giving me an interview. Sometime in January! YAY!
AND they'll refund my travel expenses :))
Apparently they floated last year - valued at 500m and they're only
4yrs old or so as a company. Nice. Can't wait, I tell ya!
Take a peek at http://www.ttpcom.com/
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Dec 19 17:40:50 2000 GMT ]--
From: PackingYourBagsJustLikePeopleInTheMovies (phil-99)
Subject: Spent over 90 minutes from 12pm today, doing nothing...
This, I'm getting paid for. And I am going back to do more of it at
8pm. I read the Telegraph, the Mirror and the Express. I did the crosswords
as best I could.
Boredom doesn't come close.
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Dec 20 01:45:44 2000 GMT ]--
From: PackingYourBagsJustLikePeopleInTheMovies (phil-99)
Subject: It got better.
Stopped and got my donner meat and chips on the way home, as I was
starving. Also ate some biscuits whilst spodding. Stomach is trying to
persuade me I'm still hungry, when I plainly can't be...
I hate this feeling, argh!
Christmas shopping tommorrow, is the plan. Unfortunately I don't know
what I want to buy yet, so it's not going to be a fun day. In any way. Must
remember to pay Andrew back his money!
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Dec 20 12:17:11 2000 GMT ]--
From: PackingYourBagsJustLikePeopleInTheMovies (phil-99)
Subject: oops, xmas shopping plan #1 out the window - get up at 9am...
xmas shopping plan #2 is in effect: laze around and leave it even
later than I have done. It's gonna be busy now no matter what time I go.
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Dec 20 12:18:00 2000 GMT ]--
From: PackingYourBagsJustLikePeopleInTheMovies (phil-99)
Subject: Oh yeah - gonna go to gym tonight as well. Trying to figure a way of
combining shopping and gym, but I might buy stuff I don't want to leave there,
and I don't wanna trudge round manc after a workout.
*ponders*
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Dec 20 16:46:37 2000 GMT ]--
From: PackingYourBagsJustLikePeopleInTheMovies (phil-99)
Subject: xmas shopping plan #2 had limited success...
I found a pressie for M&T, but I also got something I _was_ gonna give
to my parents, but is probably suitable for them as well. hmmmmm. Two
presents bought, anyhow.
Also finding out just how hard it is to do work with wires and cables
and plugs and things when your hands are shaking. I feel like I have got
Alzheimer's disease :(
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Dec 20 22:43:42 2000 GMT ]--
From: PackingYourBagsJustLikePeopleInTheMovies (phil-99)
Subject: That should read "Parkinson's Disease", d'oh.
Well I truly fscked up with the first attempt - thought I was being
clever and cut the cable too close the the jack, leaving me totally unable to
do anything at all with it. d'oh. Went to Maplin on the way to the gym,
bought a new jack, and promptly lost it on my way to pick up me cheese. How?
I really don't know! I had it, then I went to the shop and bought a Twix, and
suddenly didn't have it any more.
I wish I knew.... it's only 99p but it's bloody annoying!
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Dec 21 03:10:29 2000 GMT ]--
From: PackingYourBagsJustLikePeopleInTheMovies (phil-99)
Subject: What a BIZZARE night.......
I seem to have arranged a wife-swap. Somehow. Some bizzare sequence
of events that lead to me (uhhh?) agreeing (UHHHH?) to get with this lass if my
girlfriend would get with her boyf.
Now, I'm really not sure if I really agreed to this or if I'm dreaming
- but if I did, I must be really moronic because - WTF was I thinking???
Really? REALLY???
*thwaps self*
Time to find the ignore list on ICQ I think. Normally I don't talk to
random people who msg me... I hate the net somedays.
*reads history*
I did agree, didn't I? *THWAP*
*thwap*
Mind you, it's not like I told her my name, phone number, address,
anything personal except that I live in Manchester. So I ain't _that_ moronic.
Oh well - if anyone actually wants to take her up on the offer - I'll
pass on her ICQ number :)
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Dec 21 17:23:58 2000 GMT ]--
From: PackingYourBagsJustLikePeopleInTheMovies (phil-99)
Subject: Nice day...
Spent two hours or so round at Cherub's, which was nice - she's
feeling ill so I was keeping her company. Went to Maplin again and bought the
requisite stuff.
Oops, have to go, bbs
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Dec 22 12:49:15 2000 GMT ]--
From: PackingYourBagsJustLikePeopleInTheMovies (phil-99)
Subject: YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!
3rd January I'm off to Cambridge - oh yay! :))
*plans*
*schemes*
*plots*
They'll love me, they'll give me the job. Of course they will.
This means I need to dig out some relatively smart clothes, hmm.
Maybe I should ask my folks for a new suit for Christmas, the old one is just a
little bit too small by now :) *thinks* 4yrs old? Yup.
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Dec 23 11:31:12 2000 GMT ]--
From: PackingYourBagsJustLikePeopleInTheMovies (phil-99)
Subject: Argh, just because I'm going home, my brain wants to do nothing but
sleep. Probably the simpler option, thinking of it. Anyhow. Hair is now cut,
Phil is looking relatively tidy and ready to go home. No doubt has forgotten
something though :)
1315 coach, with me being paranoid about lateness I'll be out of here
by midday. Have fun y'all, dirnk lots and whatever your holiday is - enjoy it.
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Dec 23 11:45:20 2000 GMT ]--
From: PackingYourBagsJustLikePeopleInTheMovies (phil-99)
Subject: Oh, before I do go - I just have to mention....
Chorlton today was ridiculous. They were queuing out the door of the
Butchers and place whose name I can't remember. You could just see that the
people at the end of the queue would be there 30mins+ - idiots. If they hadn't
left it so late.....
(says him, who still has to buy another coupla presents...)
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Dec 25 01:17:11 2000 GMT ]--
From: PackingYourBagsJustLikePeopleInTheMovies (phil-99)
Subject: Never did buy those presents...
Christmas Day, eh?
Ohhhhhhh well - a day to spread my non-belief as far and wide as I can
(not very far at all, 'cuz I get bored very quickly). A time for sleep too,
huh? :)
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Dec 27 20:27:28 2000 GMT ]--
From: PackingYourBagsJustLikePeopleInTheMovies (phil-99)
Subject: Home again, nice.
House is, however, fscking freezing. Heating was on, though you
wouldn't believe it!!! Oh, and my floppy drive has packed in :( Godknows why,
it just refused to work at bootup. And I never even touched the thing...
I have a CD-RW at LOOOONG last :) So I can free up some of that space
devoted to MP3s again *grins* Anyone want to be inflicted with my crap taste
in Moosic?!
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Dec 28 00:49:51 2000 GMT ]--
From: PackingYourBagsJustLikePeopleInTheMovies (phil-99)
Subject: I had no idea waiting for a CD to burn could be so boring :-\
And yes, I am using the "test" thing, only because I don't trust my
system as far as I can throw it right now... Double the time, in other words.
Go on MP3s, burn! Burn!!! BURN!!!!
Then I can d/l MORE and inflict even worse music on you all!
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Dec 28 02:49:20 2000 GMT ]--
From: PackingYourBagsJustLikePeopleInTheMovies (phil-99)
Subject: hmmm, I just typed part of the google addie into my browser window
(www.goo) and automatically pressed enter. What do you think popped up?
Not Google.com anyhow.
Have YOU ever heard of www.goodvibes.com ? And have you been using my
computer?! :)
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Dec 28 17:44:15 2000 GMT ]--
From: PackingYourBagsJustLikePeopleInTheMovies (phil-99)
Subject: I bought a few albums the other day... got #20 of "Wot Records"
vouchers from someone (their son owns the shop *grins*) so went and spent even
more than #20, oops.
Oh yeah - got my payslip for last week - and they've given me my
holiday pay - yay! About #160 worth :)) Wondered why I felt rich! Speaking
of work, I was there from 12-4, and will be back at 8, but it was so busy - the
snow seems to have brought out all the morons in the world who want to go and
build snowmen and stuff.
Humbug! :)
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Dec 30 01:57:35 2000 GMT ]--
From: PackingYourBagsJustLikePeopleInTheMovies (phil-99)
Subject: An example of my playlist...
This is an old one from before my HDD got trashed...
2pac - Life goes on
(2 Pac) - California Love
2pac - Changes
4 non blondes - whats up
(aerosmith) - Jamies Gotta Run.mp3
(Air) - Sexy Boy.mp3
(Alice Cooper) - Poison.mp3
(Alice in Chains) - Them Bones.mp3
(alishas attic) - i am i feel.mp3
(All saints) - Never ever.mp3
(Annie Lennox) - Love Song For a Vampire.mp3
(Annie Lennox) - Walking on Broken Glass.mp3
(Apocalyptica) - Unforgiven.MP3
(Babylon Zoo) - spaceman.mp3
(bangles) - walk like an egyptian.mp3
(Barenaked Ladies) - Brian Wilson.mp3
(Barenaked Ladies) - One Week.mp3
(Barry White) - Can't Get Enough of Your Love, Babe.mp3
(Barry White) - Just the Way You Are.mp3
(Bart Simpson) - Do The Bartman.mp3
(Basement Jaxx) - Red Alert.mp3
(Baz Luhrmanun copy) - Alcohol.mp3
(Baz Luhrnman) - sunscreen.mp3
(bedrock featuring kyo) - for what you dream of.mp3
(Ben Folds Five) - Brick.mp3
(Berlin) - Take My Breath Away.mp3
(Billy Idol) - White Wedding.mp3
(Billy Ocean) - Get Outta My Dreams, Get Into My Car.mp3
(Blackstreet featuring Dr Dre) - No Diggity.mp3
(Blueboy) - remember me.mp3
(Blur) - Tender.mp3
(Bobby Mcferrin) - don't worry be happy.mp3
(bob marley) - could you be loved.mp3
(brian eno) - deep blue day.mp3
(Britney Spears) - sometimes.mp3
(Bryan Adams) - Ever Loved a Woman.mp3
(Chemical Brothers) - Hey Girl Hey Boy.mp3
(Counting Crows) - A Long December.mp3
(cranberries) - dreams.mp3
(cypress hill) - insane in the brain.mp3
(DarioG) - Sunchyme.mp3
(david Bowie) - Space Oddity.mp3
(Deep Blue Something) - Breakfast at Tiffany's.mp3
(don novello) - camouflage.mp3
(eagles) - Hotel California.mp3
(Eminem) - My Name Is.mp3
(eric clapton) - tears in heaven.mp3
(Faithless) - God is a DJ.mp3
(Genesis) - Jesus he knows me.mp3
(Green Day) - Basketcase.mp3
(Green Day) - Time Of My Life.mp3
(Green Day) - Welcome to Paradise.mp3
(Green Day) - When I Come Around.mp3
(Guns n Roses) - Paradise City.mp3
(house of pain) - jump around.mp3
(Iggy Pop) - The Passenger.MP3
(Jamiroquai) - Virtual Insanity.mp3
(Jamiroquai) - Canned Heat.mp3
(Jewel) - Foolish Games.mp3
(Jewel) - Hands.mp3
(Jewel) - I'm Sensitive.mp3
(Jewel) - Who will save your soul.mp3
(jimi hendrix) - foxy lady.mp3
(John Lennon) - Imagine.mp3
(Led Zeppelin) - Stairway to Heaven.mp3
(leftfield) - a final hit.mp3
(Lenny Kavitz) - flyaway.mp3
(lou reed) - perfect day.mp3
(Marcy Playground) - Sex and Candy.mp3
(Marvin Gaye) - I Heard It Through The Grape Vine.mp3
(Massive Attack) - Teardrop.mp3
(Massive Attack) - karmacoma [live].mp3
(Massive attack) - unfinished sympathy [live].mp3
(Matchbox20) - Real World.mp3
(Meredith Brooks) - Bitch.mp3
(Metallica) - Enter Sandman.mp3
(Michael Jackson) - Billy Jean.mp3
(Mr Oizo) - Flat Beat.mp3
(Mungo Jerry) - In The Summertime.mp3
(No Doubt) - Don't Speak.mp3
(Offspring) - Self Esteem.mp3
(Paul Simon) - Graceland.mp3
(Paul Simon) - you can call me Al.mp3
(Pink Floyd) - hey You.mp3
(Placebo) - Pure Morning.mp3
(Prozzak) - Sucks to be you.mp3
(Pulp Fiction) - Son Of A Preacher Man.mp3
(Radiohead) - street-spirit.mp3
(Red Hot Chilli Peppers) - Under the Bridge.mp3
(R.E.M.) - At My Most Beautiful.mp3
(shanks and bigfoot) - sweet like chocolate.mp3
(Sheryl Crow) - All I wanna do.mp3
(Sheryl Crow) - Can't cry anymore.mp3
(Sinead O'Connor) - Nothing Compares 2 U.mp3
(Sixpence none the Richer) - kiss me.mp3
(Smashing Pumkins) - Tonight, tonight.mp3
(Space) Female of the Species.mp3
(Spin Doctors) - 2 Princes.mp3
(Stardust) - Music Sounds Better With You.mp3
(The All Seeing I) - The beat goes on.mp3
(The All Seeing I) - Walk Like a Panther.mp3
(The Cranberries) - Animal Instinct.mp3
(Theme) - Sesame Street Techno Mix.mp3
(The Prodigy) - Voodoo People.mp3
(The Smiths) - How Soon Is Now.mp3
(The Tragically Hip) - She Didn't Know.mp3
(TLC) - Waterfalls.mp3
(Tom Petty) - Free Falling.mp3
(tom petty) - you don't know how it feels.mp3
(Top Gun) - Dangerzone.mp3
(Tori Amos) - Cornflake Girl.mp3
(Van Halen) - Jump.mp3
(Vengaboys) - Up And Down.mp3
(Verve Pipe) - Freshman.mp3
(warren g) - regulate (remix version).mp3
(Will Smith) - Wild Wild West.mp3
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Dec 30 19:15:24 2000 GMT ]--
From: PackingYourBagsJustLikePeopleInTheMovies (phil-99)
Subject: I actually should add - that was only one directory :)
On there I also had:
Catatonia - Equally Blessed and Cursed
Catatonia - International Velvet
Dave Matthews Band - Crash
Crash Test Dummies - God Shuffled His Feet (I think)
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Dec 30 19:20:58 2000 GMT ]--
From: PackingYourBagsJustLikePeopleInTheMovies (phil-99)
Subject: I love my new toy :)
I also love the other new toy - I can at last record more of my CDs
thanks to this CD-RW. And it even reads the CDs properly! Unlike my old one
which would spit half of them out first time round...
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Dec 30 19:55:41 2000 GMT ]--
From: PackingYourBagsJustLikePeopleInTheMovies (phil-99)
Subject: Ooooooo, I just realised why it's normally warmer in my bedroom when
I'm spodding, than it is in the rest of the house... I never knew that my
monitor gave off so much heat - it's almost as warm as the radiators!
Either way - the house is fscking freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeezing!!!
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Dec 31 12:55:13 2000 GMT ]--
From: PackingYourBagsJustLikePeopleInTheMovies (phil-99)
Subject: *growls*
All I wanna do is find info on how much LaserQuest and Karting are,
and can any of these companies have this info on their websites? Of course
not. *growls*
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Dec 31 14:21:39 2000 GMT ]--
From: PackingYourBagsJustLikePeopleInTheMovies (phil-99)
Subject: Have a look at:
http://www.cus.org.uk/~phil-99/sun/mvc-028f.jpg
:))
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Jan 1 23:58:52 2001 GMT ]--
From: PackingYourBagsJustLikePeopleInTheMovies (phil-99)
Subject: Ho Hum
I worked. I saw 5 people in the pub who were non-staff. There were 3
staff in. Great. But, I got a few drinks in, and had a nice time. Eventually
got rid of the piss-heads at 3:30am, spent a while tidying and talking, went to
bed at about 4-4:30.
Was up again at 11:45, back at work at 12:00. Ugh.
I feel like my lungs have a coating of tar in them. Haven't stopped
coughing since I left and went into the real air :( Now really need to go
sleep. But I am planning stuff. Planning and plotting, trying to figure out
if I can do the things I want to.
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Jan 2 00:00:36 2001 GMT ]--
From: PackingYourBagsJustLikePeopleInTheMovies (phil-99)
Subject: Having a little problem with this whole car thing. The money that I
thought I had, I don't seem to have. Even though I thought I did. Yeah.
Shows you how closely I monitor my bank balance.
Well. I have #35 in my pocket, so I can at least pay the deposit.
Cheques will get me through, until I get paid on Friday. It's frustrating
though. I should have money - I just can't stop squandering it :(
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Jan 2 00:33:14 2001 GMT ]--
From: PackingYourBagsJustLikePeopleInTheMovies (phil-99)
Subject: But saying that, I've figured out why I am so skint...
Bass Leisure Retail, in their infinite wisdom, decided that because
nobody would be in the office to process pay on the Monday, that they would
simply do an average on the amount of hours we worked the previous weeks.
Unfortunately, this doesn't work. As I worked at least twice as many
hours last week as I did the previous 4. Thus, I have spent about #50 more
than I should have done. Whilst if Bass had paid me the right amount, I
wouldn't be in credit (or within my limit) - I wouldn't be up shit creek like I
am now.
And I REALLY hate the way that it takes some shops a week to process
Delta/Switch claims. I spent stuff in the Nature Store over a week before the
money went out my account. *growls* I k eep on saying that I should allow for
it, but when you spend money via electronic means, shouldn't it be debited
immediately?? I mean - it's almost as bad as paying by cheque in some cases!
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Jan 2 12:21:47 2001 GMT ]--
From: PackingYourBagsJustLikePeopleInTheMovies (phil-99)
Subject: *yawns*
Oops, I just realised I should be at work right now...
But seeing as I woke up at midday - I was never gonna make it. They
can cope. I'm sure. I need this time off - after having been there from
1830-1600 the day before.
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Jan 2 14:28:52 2001 GMT ]--
From: PackingYourBagsJustLikePeopleInTheMovies (phil-99)
Subject: EXAMS!
15th - Project and Financial Management
18th
24th
26th
The other 3 I can't remember what order they come in.
Leaves me the 20th free, which is only a good thing :)
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Jan 2 18:16:16 2001 GMT ]--
From: PackingYourBagsJustLikePeopleInTheMovies (phil-99)
Subject: More pics...
http://www.cus.org.uk/~phil-99/newpics/MVC-021F.JPG
This is the only one of that page that's really worth it.
Maybe MVC-019F.JPG or or MVC-020F.JPG are nice as well...
just please don't look at MVC-026F.JPG :)
They're of the snow that we had round about...
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Jan 2 18:31:07 2001 GMT ]--
From: PackingYourBagsJustLikePeopleInTheMovies (phil-99)
Subject: Why is it, all my better pictures seem to feature Electricity Pylons
in them, huh? I just been looking through some... odd.
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Jan 3 23:07:58 2001 GMT ]--
From: PackingYourBagsJustLikePeopleInTheMovies (phil-99)
Subject: *tired*
Drove 400 miles today, almost exactly. 150 of those are covered by
the rental, and at 0.20ppm works out at 12.50 extra. Noooo, that not right.
250/0.2 = 12.50. Ahhah, that's why... 250*0.2 = #50 extra.
EEEP!
Bloody Multimap said it was only 150 miles each way...
Mind you, I guess I did get lost twice on the way there, and went a
junction too far on the way back and had to go through Manchester - but
100 miles extra? No chance.
Oh well - they're refunding it all :)
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Jan 6 00:52:40 2001 GMT ]--
From: PackingYourBagsJustLikePeopleInTheMovies (phil-99)
Subject: What have I done today then?
Work.
Sleep.
Oh yeah... recovered :)
My brain feels like cotton wool because of the copious amounts of
cheap lager that was consumed last night :) Never mind the body aching after
all that exercise. Dancing is fun, but is a disguised form of exercise!
I've also bought Kate's plane ticket from Dublin-Manchester. For #25
pound I couldn't say no. Hey, if it gurantees me that she's coming, I'm fine
with that. So she'll be here on the 20th, going to Oxford on the 21st, coming
back on the 23rd, and leaving for Dublin on the afternoon of the 24th. I think
that's about long enough to have some diabolical plans plotted :)
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Jan 6 12:32:27 2001 GMT ]--
From: PackingYourBagsJustLikePeopleInTheMovies (phil-99)
Subject: Must.... go.... gym......
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Jan 6 13:13:23 2001 GMT ]--
From: PackingYourBagsJustLikePeopleInTheMovies (phil-99)
Subject: I will go - as soon as that lazy git msg's me back :)
Just calculating how much money I should have available for going back
to Cambridge. Oh, good point. Did I mention that they want me back for a 2nd
interview?! Well, if I did, ignore this - and if I didn't:
__ ___ _ ___ ___ ___ _ _ ___ ___ ___ ___ ___ ___
\ \ / / | | |/ _ \ / _ \ / _ \| | | |/ _ \ / _ \ / _ \ / _ \ / _ \ / _ \
\ \ /\ / /| |_| | | | | | | | | | | |_| | | | | | | | | | | | | | | | | | | |
\ V V / | _ | |_| | |_| | |_| | _ | |_| | |_| | |_| | |_| | |_| | |_| |
\_/\_/ |_| |_|\___/ \___/ \___/|_| |_|\___/ \___/ \___/ \___/ \___/ \___/
*grins*
My body isn't going to like me for a week or so, but well - this is
the punishment you get for being a lazy bastard for 3 weeks over Christmas.
I'm hoping that they don't ask to see me again until after exams. I
told the guy at the agency that I couldn't really do between now and the 29th,
but if it was really urgent I could do before the 16th. We shall see.
(I'd rather it was after exams - purely for monetary reasons - they
don't actually give any money until after all the interviews... hrmph. Makes
it easier for them, but could make it tricky for me :( hmmm.)
-------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Subject: I wrote a fairly long splurge on LiveJournal tonight. I'm pondering
whether I should start using LJ as a personal diary, as you can set it up so
that only certain/no users can access it. But then again - would I want it to
be like that? Whilst I don't like knowing who's read my diary in such explicit
detal as Mono's logs show - I don't like not havign a clue even how many people
read it on LJ.
*ponders*
I dunno.
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Jan 8 12:32:40 2001 GMT ]--
From: PackingYourBagsJustLikePeopleInTheMovies (phil-99)
Subject: Ooooo. Saturday was gooooood.
Went for Curry round Caroline's. I'm still amazed by the size of that
balti paste jar :) Yeah, we stayed up late. Umm. Very late. Like, 8am late.
Then I went home. Well, I thought that the busses started at about 8:30am, but
nooooo. Not until 9:30 :( *hrmph* Sat in McDs for 90minutes :)
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Jan 9 02:11:55 2001 GMT ]--
From: PackingYourBagsJustLikePeopleInTheMovies (phil-99)
Subject: Spent almost 3hrs round at M.'s tonight trying to fix their computer.
For some reason, when they put in the CD-RW it messed up their Sound,
and this was causing it to hang. This was discovered after about 10 minutes
playing around and investigating various routes, eventually using a bootlog.txt
startup thingie.
The remaining time was spent removing, reinstalling, rebooting,
shouting, gesturing, and various other "ings" at the computer as it refused to
recognise the fact that the hardware I wanted to install really did work. The
only thing I can think is that when he put in the CD-RW he knocked the card
slightly, and it worked it's way loose somehow. As when I took the card out
(twice, mind you) and put it back the second time, it worked fine.
It's REALLY frustrating when you get something to work, but you're not
totally sure why it works, or even why it didn't work :( But hey...
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Jan 9 02:14:24 2001 GMT ]--
From: PackingYourBagsJustLikePeopleInTheMovies (phil-99)
Subject: Oh, I also spent an hour at the gym today. Felt good. Had Kernkraft
400 blaring away for part of it, felt sorry for the person who used the
headphone things after me, the volume was set at "ridiculous" :)
I really do enjoy going there. It's a nice atmosphere to go a workout
in. Not at all pretentious - you see people from all walks of life, all levels
of fitness, all levels of expertise there. It's nice.
The swimming pool was warm, too! First time I've been there and not
winced as I got in! :)
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Jan 9 02:20:35 2001 GMT ]--
From: PackingYourBagsJustLikePeopleInTheMovies (phil-99)
Subject: Oh, and I meant to mention...
3Com are moronic idiots.
Ian had a 3905C-TX network card. Put it in, put in CD, start up.
Search CD for drivers. None. Nada. Manually search for drivers. Nada again.
Natch. The morons didn't put the driver on the CD that is supplied for the
390x cards. ARGH! Spent 20 minutes finding and d/loading correct ones...
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Jan 10 16:42:19 2001 GMT ]--
From: PackingYourBagsJustLikePeopleInTheMovies (phil-99)
Subject: Got train tickets for Kate.
Also gave in and bought chips. Bad Phil.
Gym tonight, yay. Can't wait to get out.
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Jan 11 00:13:26 2001 GMT ]--
From: PackingYourBagsJustLikePeopleInTheMovies (phil-99)
Subject: Yummy, I worked harrrrrd...
And rewarded myself with stir-fry. And a coupla slices of bread.
*ponders*
*ponders again*
I CAN'T BELIEVE IT!
It's really happening!
*bounce*
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Jan 11 00:29:30 2001 GMT ]--
From: PackingYourBagsJustLikePeopleInTheMovies (phil-99)
Subject: A semi-random thought....
Is it love? Or is it not? I dunno. I guess time will tell, but I
don't really want to have to wait. I want it now. But it would be hard.
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Jan 11 00:29:40 2001 GMT ]--
From: PackingYourBagsJustLikePeopleInTheMovies (phil-99)
Subject: Hmmm *babbles*
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Jan 11 00:44:13 2001 GMT ]--
From: PackingYourBagsJustLikePeopleInTheMovies (phil-99)
Subject: I meant to mention...
I now have 4 interviews, yay!
2 telephone interviews. One with Hitachi and one with Rockfish?
A second one with TTPCom
And one with NATS (National Air Traffic Control Services)
YAYYYYY!
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Jan 11 12:56:35 2001 GMT ]--
From: PackingYourBagsJustLikePeopleInTheMovies (phil-99)
Subject: Oh, make that 3...
After reading through the hitachi briefing I found out that Rocfish
are the recruitment arm of Hitachi... d'oh :)
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Jan 12 02:13:45 2001 GMT ]--
From: PackingYourBagsJustLikePeopleInTheMovies (phil-99)
Subject: HoHum...
The tedium of work is too much now. Now I can see light at the end of
the working-student-life I'm finding it harder and harder to be polite to
customers. People who come up and specify exactly how their drinks should be
(I want a bacardi and coke in a tall glass with one piece of ice and half a
slice of lemon, twice as much coke (diet) as bacardi, and make sure it's
stirred) are going to be told exactly where they can shove it, and people who
look at me like a piece of dirt can wait until I'm ready to serve them.
It has been quite a successful week though, for me. I have done some
revision (reading notes - even more boring than the lectures), found info on
Karting and LaserQuest, and sorted a lot of stuff out for when Kate visits.
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Jan 12 11:39:28 2001 GMT ]--
From: PackingYourBagsJustLikePeopleInTheMovies (phil-99)
Subject: You know, I said all that up here about work, and you know as well as
I do that when I get back to work today it'll be all smiles and "how
can I help you"'s.... *shrugs*
My body seems to have developed it's own routine now. Wake up at
8am, hit alarm off button, wake up at 9:15, snooze and then wake up at
11:15. This is 5 days in a row I've woken at exactly the same time!
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Jan 13 02:14:13 2001 GMT ]--
From: PackingYourBagsJustLikePeopleInTheMovies (phil-99)
Subject: Damnit...
Just read something I probably didn't want to read...
:(
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Jan 13 02:26:07 2001 GMT ]--
From: PackingYourBagsJustLikePeopleInTheMovies (phil-99)
Subject: It's been a great night...
It could have finished in style, but ended in a fizzle when the wine
was stupidly expensive. Why didn't you phone us, and remind us just how
expensive wine at the Peking Court is, hey Bob?
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Jan 13 13:47:19 2001 GMT ]--
From: PackingYourBagsJustLikePeopleInTheMovies (phil-99)
Subject: WHOOOHOOOOOOO! My loan is in at long long LOOONG last. I feel rich
again, even though in reality I am far from it... well, almost all 900
pound of it is currently in the savings accounts. Most of it in the
"e-savings" account, which I can't actually get at unless I'm online.
Unfortunately it's all too easy to transfer it when online, but it is
another barrier to spending it all :)
I looked at the balance in the net banking and was thinking "I'm sure
that there's a digit wrong there somewhere" :)
*relief*
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Jan 14 02:22:07 2001 GMT ]--
From: PackingYourBagsJustLikePeopleInTheMovies (phil-99)
Subject: I was gonna be in bed two hours ago :(
I sat up watching a Documentary on the Boeing 777 contruction (really
interesting series actually... HONEST!), and then some more crap, then spent a
while playing with my playlist editor :)
MP3Manager32 is BRILLIANT! It cna handle MP3s from different CDs in
the playlist, which is my major problem. It'll even tell you which CD to put
in when you request a song in the CD section of the database.
I printed out a list of all the MP3s I have recorded. Currently
stands at 61hrs, over 5Gb. Uck. I need more disk space :)
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Jan 15 14:16:23 2001 GMT ]--
From: PackingYourBagsJustLikePeopleInTheMovies (phil-99)
Subject: Whoa!
The world feels like it's going at half speed....
No I ain't on speed, I just had a coffee - and it's gone straight to
my head. Mayeb it's the beer, maybe it's the coffee - maybe it's the combo
(does such a thing as caffeinated beer exist?) - but I feel odd....
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Jan 15 15:15:20 2001 GMT ]--
From: PackingYourBagsJustLikePeopleInTheMovies (phil-99)
Subject: Anyhow...
I seem to have screwed up my Win98 installation. Oops. All I did was
remove Novell Client32 and everything went Wacko. Even though Client32 is
gone, when I try to re-install Dial-Up Networking it asks for the Novell disks.
*growls* I'm gonna do a totally clean install today/tonight, I think. I would
do it now, but unfortunately, I only have a Beta Win98 disk from when I was
involved in the MSN/Win98 beta program. It works fine, but if I can get a
final version copy, I will be much happier.
Also gives me a chance to free up some disk space.
I might even get rid of Linux and finally try and get a copy of
FreeBSD or OpenBSD or whichever one I can get a copy of... *ponders*
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Jan 16 12:40:29 2001 GMT ]--
From: PackingYourBagsJustLikePeopleInTheMovies (phil-99)
Subject: Ahhhhh, clean and new Win98...
*screen sparkles*
*disk tinkles*
Meep, I'm sure it should make that noise Maybe scrubbing the HDD was
a bad idea... :)
Ummm. I've got some Market Research to go to tonight. 2hrs and I get
paid 25 pounds, YAY! And that's about all that I can say - my life
has turned boring all of a sudden...
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Jan 16 20:22:06 2001 GMT ]--
From: YoureGettingIdeas,AndWhenYouSleepAtNight (phil-99)
Subject: I'm worried...
I might just be jealous, but I'm worried nonetheless...
In fact, I might even go as far as to say I'm scared.
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Jan 17 01:26:04 2001 GMT ]--
From: YoureGettingIdeas,AndWhenYouSleepAtNight (phil-99)
Subject: I had a really nice night... went round M's and just spent the night
chatting and teasing the poor lass :) *grin*
Still worried, but hey. I guess it's fairly obvious at least
partially why I'm feeling this way - but the real reasons are just too deeply
hidden away for me to know what to make of them, I guess.
I just worry that it's all going to go totally wrong. And there's
nothing I can do about it. And if it does go pear-shaped, does that mean that
the last 18months have been wasted?
I don't know.
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Jan 17 01:28:23 2001 GMT ]--
From: YoureGettingIdeas,AndWhenYouSleepAtNight (phil-99)
Subject: Damnit, I just remembered a website I had to visit (as in - HAD to
visit) and the second I fired up IE it fled from my memory...
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Jan 17 11:52:35 2001 GMT ]--
From: YoureGettingIdeas,AndWhenYouSleepAtNight (phil-99)
Subject: Listening to radio from Canada atm, edge102.com's live feed...
It's remarkably good quality, you know? Over a 56k link I thought it
would be apalling...
And they played an Incubus track the second I started listening to it!
YAY! First time I ever heard Incubus on the radio :)
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Jan 18 01:08:37 2001 GMT ]--
From: YoureGettingIdeas,AndWhenYouSleepAtNight (phil-99)
Subject: Ugh, I'm still awake :(
This is bad...
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Jan 18 01:14:25 2001 GMT ]--
From: YoureGettingIdeas,AndWhenYouSleepAtNight (phil-99)
Subject: Bought the Spooks Single (Thing's I've Seen) today, and it has two
very cool remixes on it. Nomrally I shun remixes but these really do
give the tune an added edge :)
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Jan 18 23:16:22 2001 GMT ]--
From: YoureGettingIdeas,AndWhenYouSleepAtNight (phil-99)
Subject: A bit dim, that's what I am...
I decided to try out OpenBSD. And in the process, fried my nice shiny
new Win98 install and everything I'd downloaded... *sighs* I swear to you,
fdisk normally doesn't do anything until you hit "w" (in linux, at least).
Oh well. Spent a while thinking I could recover it but scandisk just
barfed at what there was left. Shame, really.
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Jan 18 23:33:40 2001 GMT ]--
From: YoureGettingIdeas,AndWhenYouSleepAtNight (phil-99)
Subject: Whoa... the screen looks different with proper S3 drivers installed
and 16bit colour :)
Anyhow. Exam today was EASY! YAY! Well, actually - it wasn't so
much easy as I knew everything on it. It was still challenging in parts, as
some of the 1 point questions (20 of the bastards) could have involved essay
style answers - so you had to be careful there...
The only bit I wasn't too sure on was the SSL bit, I'm not too
sure on the details of how SSL works. But hey - that was only 4/20 and I'm
sure I got at LEAST 14 out of the other two sub-sections.
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Jan 19 11:26:09 2001 GMT ]--
From: YoureGettingIdeas,AndWhenYouSleepAtNight (phil-99)
Subject: *bounces*
*bounces*
*bounces*
*bounces*
*bounces*
*bounces*
*bounces*
*bounces*
*bounces*
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Jan 21 17:39:01 2001 GMT ]--
From: YoureGettingIdeas,AndWhenYouSleepAtNight (phil-99)
Subject: Angry
Annoyed
Dissapointed
Jealous?
Curious
Scared
These are just a few of the emotions that ran through me when I was
told that she wouldn't come.
I hope you're happy now........
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Jan 21 21:18:00 2001 GMT ]--
From: YoureGettingIdeas,AndWhenYouSleepAtNight (phil-99)
Subject: How can you drop from the sheer joy of Friday's "*bounces*" to today's
absolute annoyance in the space of 24hrs? :(
Saturday night was nice. Maybe could have done with a few less people
around and a little less advertising that I'd had "a bad day", but hey. Thanks
M., for organising a brill night, and I apologise for not staying longer.
Thanks Caroline and Andrew for taking me in and feeding me beer and
ice-cream :) *grins* Any plans to go to the gym next week? :))
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Jan 22 12:40:27 2001 GMT ]--
From: YoureGettingIdeas,AndWhenYouSleepAtNight (phil-99)
Subject: Tum-te-tum...
It's all over - all I need to do is send my promise back.
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Jan 22 23:17:26 2001 GMT ]--
From: YoureGettingIdeas,AndWhenYouSleepAtNight (phil-99)
Subject: I've had probably the most boring day I've had in months...
I've tidied my room. I can now see the floor!!! I've hoovered. I've
done laundry. I've organised my notes (a little late?). I've updated my list
of CDs. I spent 10 minutes revising, then Darren and Alex came home and
demanded to watch Neighbours in the same damn room I was working in. Not a
happy bunny was I.
Currently watching Fargo. BRILLIANT movie. Sick, but excellent.
Frustrated, in some ways, though. Understandably so, I think.
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Jan 22 23:20:58 2001 GMT ]--
From: YoureGettingIdeas,AndWhenYouSleepAtNight (phil-99)
Subject: I've had so many people say this to me over the last few days...
"You should find yourself a nice local girl."
Well hell - if I was remotely interested in finding myself a local
lass I would have done a year, two years, three years ago when I came here. If
I knew of a single person who would grab my interest and who wasn't already
taken, I would have done. Trust me on this.
I don't need anyone.
I might want someone, but I can easily get by without anyone. I
have managed for 21yrs, I can manage for a little while longer I think.
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Jan 22 23:24:32 2001 GMT ]--
From: YoureGettingIdeas,AndWhenYouSleepAtNight (phil-99)
Subject: I don't think my stomach likes me...
Our freezer is acting oddly. Things in it aren't staying frozen, and
I'm not sure if it's because it's so damn cold in the extension/shed thing or
whether it's shagged.
Anyhow, I found some mince in there that seemed to be frozen still,
and decided that I may as well use it up, it hadn't been there long. I think
it might have been a little toooo old. Not that I feel really rough or
anything, but my tummy's beginning to tingle a little :)
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Jan 23 00:14:40 2001 GMT ]--
From: Crisis Centre (phil-99)
Subject: I've also had enough of PAYS (Pay as You Spod)
I feel guilty for even coming online now... :(
But on days like today, where other options are limited, you know how
it is... a quick spod turns into a 2hr session.
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Jan 23 01:51:06 2001 GMT ]--
From: Crisis Centre (phil-99)
Subject: Downloaded the Specials, Ghost Town tonight...
I've been looking for this for AGES. I don't know why, either. I
heard it on an advert a while back and I've been trying to remember to get it
ever since. It is such an excellent tune. So excellent.
Now I just need to find the lyrics :)
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Jan 23 01:53:15 2001 GMT ]--
From: Crisis Centre (phil-99)
Subject: In fact, if this is right, the lyrics are incredibly short:
----
This town is coming like a ghost town
All the clubs are being closed down
This place is coming like a ghost town
Bands won't play no more
Too much fighting on the dance floor
Do you remember the good old days before the ghost town
We danced and sang and the music played in any boom town
This town coming like a ghost town
When you see them fight against themself
This place is coming like a ghost town
No job to be found in this country
Can't go on no more
People getting angry
This town is coming like a ghost town
----
Two verses, very slow, lots of musical interlude. Loping melodies that carry
you along.
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Jan 23 01:57:23 2001 GMT ]--
From: Crisis Centre (phil-99)
Subject: Wonder
A wight of wonder
Cascading off a high plateau.
The wind blows sweet melodies
of music being played below.
A gathering is beneath you.
A son is born.
A man reaches towards the sky,
thanking the heavens for the child.
The young wail of life blends with the joyous melodies.
A man is given his son to hold -
the first time together,
yet, they have a common bond.
Both are born at the moment.
One as a child, one as a father.
The story told in their eyes
forsees a life.
A life of wonder.
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Jan 23 02:08:21 2001 GMT ]--
From: Crisis Centre (phil-99)
Subject: http://www.icoc.org/index.html
Scary stuff.
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Jan 23 02:14:13 2001 GMT ]--
From: Crisis Centre (phil-99)
Subject: Scary biscuits indeed...
I just looked at the UK version of that site, and found out where
their Manchester branch is. Now a long time ago, talking over 6 months now, I
was approached in the street by someone who tried to convince me that religion
was a good thing, and I tried to persuade him I wasn't interested. The only
way I got out of it was by agreeing to go to a meeting and accepting their card
and stuff, which had a map on it.
It's the same thing. At least, the same place.
Kate's told me some fairly bad things about the IOCC. Makes me glad I
_did_ refuse to give them my phone number after all.
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Jan 23 02:14:26 2001 GMT ]--
From: Crisis Centre (phil-99)
Subject: And I'm sorry for all the edits tonight :)
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Jan 23 02:30:01 2001 GMT ]--
From: Crisis Centre (phil-99)
Subject: Oh, I guess I should say:
I did the test.
It was all very predictable. You can see what the questions are
aiming for from a mile off and henceforth I got bored half-way through. Most of
them I had very little opinion on anyhow, on my skim read.
Yep, I came out as Atheist (I think).
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Jan 23 02:54:43 2001 GMT ]--
From: Crisis Centre (phil-99)
Subject: However... this one didn't suprise me in the slightest...
"You like to schedule....even your LEISURE time! It helps to you if it has a
purpose, even if that purpose is sociability...to you, love means bigtime
commitment, steadiness and consistency...you behave appropriately for what the
situation demands (for example, romantic in the beginning, and so on).."
That first bit is so true - I use my Palm to organise my entire life, from work
through to when I'm planning on going out :)
"When you give your word and are ready to settle down, you follow-through...
you expect your partners to act in a similar manner...you may stay in a poor
relationship because of a sense of duty...you might have strong but unspoken
reactions under that cool facade..."
Yes.
Oh yes.
Oh YES.
If only I could have...... :-|
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Jan 23 14:59:19 2001 GMT ]--
From: Crisis Centre (phil-99)
Subject: Further to that edit.
I didn't mean the bit about staying in a poor relationship, I meant
the bit about the cool facade and having strong feelings underneath it.
Am currently spodding from uni, how sad :) First time I've done this
in months! I came in to bring books back, and found a book I reserved back in
November for me to pick up, YAY! Shame, the exam it's for is TOMMORROW!
(Argh, how come I always get the keyboards with dodgy space bars?)
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Jan 23 18:00:52 2001 GMT ]--
From: Crisis Centre (phil-99)
Subject: Mildly annoyed that I downloaded AOL's Software (FIFTY SIX MEG!)
earlier, and forgot a Zip disk. Went home to pick one up, came back, and it
had been deleted. GRRRR. Spend 10 Minutes downloading it again then, it ain't
my bandwidth bill.......
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Jan 23 23:16:30 2001 GMT ]--
From: Crisis Centre (phil-99)
Subject: AOL Rocks :)
Flat Rate access, here we go (thanks)
I'm not touching the officially sanctioned AOL software with a
bargepole though. Yes, it's installed - but it's staying right there in the
system tray!
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Jan 24 02:37:24 2001 GMT ]--
From: Crisis Centre (phil-99)
Subject: Ho hum, it's now 2:30 and I'm spodding...
Can't sleep...
This exam must have me worried.
And I may as well have gone for curry last night, for all the work I
got done.
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Jan 25 16:28:39 2001 GMT ]--
From: Crisis Centre (phil-99)
Subject: I'm getting hacked off with AOL now, I can't seem to get a good
connection speed. In fact, I still can't see the "I" at the start of this
sentence.
Maybe I just need to trweak my setting.
Interview with NATS today. Went well - he asked me questions on my
course, things like ummmm, what concurrency was, what Real Time meant in terms
of computing. Nice.
Said that they were intercviwing 300ppl or so, of which about 80 would
be ivitied to their second interview/assessment centre, and 18 of those would
be taken on. Tough, eh?
(ARGH, I can't see the previous sentence/paragraph YET!)
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Jan 25 18:51:55 2001 GMT ]--
From: Crisis Centre (phil-99)
Subject: Last night was interesting...
At 12pm, I was going to go for one drink, then come home and pick up
my net shopping, and spend a quiet afternoon. At 9pm, I was still sat in the
ScuBar , and Ste decided it would be a good idea to order a pitcher. You know,
the ones with Red Bull and lots of spirts in them?
Well... up to that point I was relatively OK, I mean - I was drunk,
but not fally-downy drunk. After about half a glass of this stuff, I was
asleep in the toilets. Ooops. At half-ten, I felt much better and went home
:) This morning, I felt like jelly. Not hungover in your standard "throbbing
headache" sense, but in a "oh _god_ my body hates me" sense :)
Managed to convince my body it was for the greater good that it feel
better by 2pm, for this interview though.
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Jan 25 18:53:07 2001 GMT ]--
From: Crisis Centre (phil-99)
Subject: Currently Listening to: Eels - Electro-Shock Blues
Class album. Really good stuff.
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Jan 25 20:16:36 2001 GMT ]--
From: Crisis Centre (phil-99)
Subject: I _really_ want Ice-Cream. _really_.
I have some, but it's hidden at C&A's :(
I might have to go buy some more, because I _really_ want it.
I could always make custard, I guess....
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Jan 27 01:43:59 2001 GMT ]--
From: IGotAnInterviewIGot2InterviewsIGot3Inter (phil-99)
Subject: http://www.atf.treas.gov/pub/gen_pub/report2000/index.htm
http://www.atf.treas.gov/churcharson/
HeHeHeHeHeHeHeHeeee :)
Sorry, I just think its fascinating that there is an entire force
devoted to Church Burnings!!!! No matter how many times, it'll still strike me
as a hilarious tribute to modern America that it's necessary :)
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Jan 27 01:50:00 2001 GMT ]--
From: IGotAnInterviewIGot2InterviewsIGot3Inter (phil-99)
Subject: Tonight had the potential to be horrible, but turned out to be really
nice. I had the inklings of a hangover from 3hrs beforehand (hmmm, last exam
drinks), Kate had just sent me a letter with nothing but money and a scribbled
3 word note, (which although not a bad thing.....) and M. was in a particularly
off mood.
It all came good though, in the end. In thanks partly to David who
played Dub Syndicate to me a lot of the night :) I like, I like, I like!
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Jan 28 13:52:36 2001 GMT ]--
From: IGotAnInterviewIGot2InterviewsIGot3Inter (phil-99)
Subject: Yesterday...
Painting. Lots of it. An entire house of it. OK the house is only a
2u/2d + bathroom house but still, 5hrs to paint it all wasn't bad going, I
don't think. I ended up covered in it, only because I insisted on wiping my
hands (covered in white paint) on my trousers (which were black). Niiice.
Waited for nearly 45 minutes for a bus on Princess st though, which
was vaguely annoying. If the two of us had any money we would have got a taxi,
but we were both a little poor at that time.
Went out to HMV today.
Baaaad. Eeeeeevil.
Spooks' album, on Import. #17.99 :(
"Pay It All Back (Vol. 4)". Only #9.99. Damn good it is too!!!
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Jan 28 23:01:11 2001 GMT ]--
From: IGotAnInterviewIGot2InterviewsIGot3Inter (phil-99)
Subject: Today...
www.livejournal.com
Beer was drunk.
Simpsons were watched.
CDs were bought.
CDs were listened to.
CDs were muchly enjoyed!!!
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Jan 29 15:22:10 2001 GMT ]--
From: IGotAnInterviewIGot2InterviewsIGot3Inter (phil-99)
Subject: Dude....
I've had such a crappy day already... 9am lecture was fairly interesting, I
admit. But waking up at 6:45 is just sick. I've spent most of the day feeling
muddled and confused and tired and when I went home at about 10:30, I fell into
bed and asleep. Woke up at 12:55 only to remember my 1pm lecture :(
I also feel fat. I've done very little but eat and drink for the last two days,
and I haven't been to the gym in a week. I'm beginning to struggle a little on
walks that shouldn't make me struggle at all :( I _need_ to get back into the
gym routine.
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Jan 29 22:45:28 2001 GMT ]--
From: IGotAnInterviewIGot2InterviewsIGot3Inter (phil-99)
Subject: Spent most of the evening sending SMSs to someone...
Random babble is the way to go :)
Cheered me up no end!
City Life got me down, with their idea of what Manchester is becoming,
though there are a couple of things I want to try and make it to I saw in
there, you'll have to ask for details :) Uhmm. Read some notes I printed off
the web from when I was at uni. Quite helpful. Type Systems, bloody tough
concept to wrap head round at first :)
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Jan 31 15:21:15 2001 GMT ]--
From: IGotAnInterviewIGot2InterviewsIGot3Inter (phil-99)
Subject: I'm using LiveJournal a lot now, thinking about it...
It's great. If in Windows, you just have the prog running in the
system tray and type your edit when you feel like it. No logging onto Mono, no
messing around with keypaths :)
Also has a Linux client so can be installed on CUS :)
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Feb 1 13:05:59 2001 GMT ]--
From: IGotAnInterviewIGot2InterviewsIGot3Inter (phil-99)
Subject: Had an amusing wake-up call this morning :)
Well, it's amusing in hind-sight, got me worried when I first got it
though :( Ahh well.
Bus I was on, coming home. Involved in an accident because of a
stupid bint who didn't understand basic road signals... *sighs*
Got a fair whack of criticism from Gareth on my project stuff.
Basically I need to make myself clearer. I assume that everyone else has the
knowledge about the project that I do, and it doesn't work like that ;)
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Feb 1 23:31:02 2001 GMT ]--
From: IGotAnInterviewIGot2InterviewsIGot3Inter (phil-99)
Subject: Who needs clubs?
I've got the Prodigy BLARING out of these speakers. I have beer. I
have Baileys, I just don't have moosen. :) *turns up speakers some more*
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Feb 2 01:47:05 2001 GMT ]--
From: IGotAnInterviewIGot2InterviewsIGot3Inter (phil-99)
Subject: Remarkably happy with my new chair :)
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Feb 3 13:05:43 2001 GMT ]--
From: IGotAnInterviewIGot2InterviewsIGot3Inter (phil-99)
Subject: Remarkably happy with my night out last night...
I drank lots, got fed up with the venue, and left at 1am. After they
played Chesney Hawkes I knew it could only get worse...
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Feb 4 14:35:10 2001 GMT ]--
From: IGotAnInterviewIGot2InterviewsIGot3Inter (phil-99)
Subject: Diary stuff... trying to fill in a questionnaire for Hitachi, but
failing miserably because I _really_ hate them. Problem I have with it is that
I have to take it with me to the interview, so I can see it being used heavily
for question material... don't wanna lie too much :)
Panicking about tommorrow. Not baout the interview itself, but
actually _getting_ there. I really don't trust the train companies any more,
to get me where I want to go. Especially when the Train Line quoted me almost
#150 for a return trip to a station just north of Cambridge!!
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Feb 4 15:00:53 2001 GMT ]--
From: IGotAnInterviewIGot2InterviewsIGot3Inter (phil-99)
Subject: Outkast - Miss Jackson
Can I just say right now - WHAT A SONG!
Even now after I've heard it a million times, I still love it, and the
video is just even more excellent. Catchy music seems to be grabbing me quite
hard atm - or maybe I'm just musically starved? :)))
(yeah right)
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Feb 6 10:37:30 2001 GMT ]--
From: IGotAnInterviewIGot2InterviewsIGot3Inter (phil-99)
Subject: Ooooooo
London, eh? The big bad capital of the world?
Nuffink special. Not as nice as Glasgow. Or at least Glasgow only
has two main train stations to get lost between. This place has at least 4
that I can think of, BAH!
Interview yesterday was nasty nasty nasty nasty nasty. I was so tired
and felt that I looked so rough by the time I got there I think I'd given up
caring, and when I was left waiting for over 45 minutes for some operational
director blokey, I got rather angry... (not surprising really).
Went to bed at 8:30pm last night, got up at around 2:30am and couldn't
get back to sleep, so I'm gonna be good for _nuffink_ today. Ahh well.
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Feb 7 14:48:26 2001 GMT ]--
From: IGotAnInterviewIGot2InterviewsIGot3Inter (phil-99)
Subject: Oh what fun, it is to be, sat in labs at university.
I need gym. My bum big. My belly big too. I was sat opposite a very
cute lass on the train on the way back from London yesterday. Very cute
indeed. I just suffered this absurd lack of any confidence to talk to her :)
Well, it didn't help that she wasn't actually _opposite_, per se., but the
other side of the gangway type thingie. So I contented myself being a voyeur
and looking. Prolly a bad thing to do, I know... but I can dream, eh?
Subject: Interviews. Such fun, they are. 3hrs each. TTPCom were fairly OK, I
am however, not too certain about the way the company works. Not sure whether
I could be completely happy in a "flat" management system. As far as I can
figure out there are only 3 layers. Grunts, project managers and "the board".
It's far from traditional, and they do say that when people first start they
sometimes feel uncomfortable... so I won't let that put me off.
Didn't help that I ended up talking with a geek. One of those "holier
than thou" geeks too. He was basically showing off that he got his name on the
Bluetooth spec because he "found so many bugs in it they asked [him] to fix
them". He annoyed me. As did having to wait 45 minutes from one person to the
next for the last guy. I ended up asking everybody I could what was going on.
Argh.
Hitachi were nice. The work there is similar. Mobile Comms., but
they also do a lot of Hardware Development. TTPCom are mainly software, or at
least what I'm looking at is. With Hitachi I'd be expected (if I didn't know
much electronics) to learn it on the job. This is a good good thing (tm).
There is one massive disadvantage though - it's in Maidenhead. Pretty much the
arse end of the world.
The interviews themselves I don't want to judge. After all, I thought
I did really badly with TTPCom and I ended up with a second interview. I
thought I did really well with NATS, and though I was told I'd get an answer
within a week or two, I'm still waiting. So I'm not going to build up my hopes
too much, nor drop them too low. What happens, happens.
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Feb 7 14:49:10 2001 GMT ]--
From: IGotAnInterviewIGot2InterviewsIGot3Inter (phil-99)
Subject: Oh, and yet again - if I find someone trying to set me up I won't be
happy! OK? :P
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Feb 8 23:50:37 2001 GMT ]--
From: IGotAnInterviewIGot2InterviewsIGot3Inter (phil-99)
Subject: I'm sat here in my swivelly chair with a glass of Whisky... whilst I
would like to say it was smoothly slipping down, I can't. This stuff is like
firewater on my throat, and every sip lights up one of those fried potato bits
I had for tea, raising the internal temperature of my body by a few degrees.
It's Vicious!
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Feb 9 01:13:01 2001 GMT ]--
From: IGotAnInterviewIGot2InterviewsIGot3Inter (phil-99)
Subject: In 2 weeks, I have spent over 3475 minutes online to AOL
How truly truly sad is that? :(
Nearly 58hrs.
29 a week?! Ouch :(
I do have a life as well, believe it or not!
-------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Subject: I wrote this on the train...
I was feeling rather pissed off at the time... been travelling for over 4hrs
and had 5hrs sleep in the last 48. So it sounds a little uhhh... depressing.
Sat on the train on the way home, trying to hurt myself. Nothing serious, you
understand - how you supposed to cause serious damage when there's someone sat
nearby? But yeah, pulling hair, scratching with my (admittedly short) nails,
anything to relieve the tedium of being sat on the train - something to get the
frustration out. Been awake now for over 16hrs and only had 5hrs sleep last
night. Spent over 9hrs on the train so far.
I JUST WANT TO BE AT HOME!
(preferably with a cute girly to cuddle up to)
10:10pm we were due in. It's now 10pm and we haven't passed Sheffield yet.
*sighs resignedly*
Current Mood: angry, annoyed, frustrated
Current Music: Dodgy movie on Beeb1?
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Feb 12 16:06:46 2001 GMT ]--
From: IGotAnInterviewIGot2InterviewsIGot3Inter (phil-99)
Subject: Long but nuice weekend. Lou was different to how I remembered her,
but then again - I haven't seen that much of her in the past. Maybe my
memory's making up things again. Does that quite often.
I've persuaded myself to go to the gym, but I only ate 30 minutes ago.
So I will be going soon.Varnished my table yesterday, but those twerps I live
with didn't tell me they were going away and wouldn't be around to bring it
inside like I asked them to. Hence it got rained on. The varnish was dry
though. I'll have to give it another coat though.
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Feb 12 21:04:50 2001 GMT ]--
From: IGotAnInterviewIGot2InterviewsIGot3Inter (phil-99)
Subject: http://www.geocities.com/SoHo/Studios/5423/
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Feb 13 09:54:43 2001 GMT ]--
From: IGotAnInterviewIGot2InterviewsIGot3Inter (phil-99)
Subject: Just got AvantGo for my palm thingie. It rocks big-style. Beats
Mobi-Pocket's news thing anyday. Sooooo, yes. Lectures. Work. MUST work.
Teleca have offered me a phone interview but the guy doesn't ever seem to
respond to his email when I send it... so... best get offline I guess :)
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Feb 14 00:01:43 2001 GMT ]--
From: IGotAnInterviewIGot2InterviewsIGot3Inter (phil-99)
Subject: I went to uni and did lots of work. Yay.
Gonna do the same tommorrow I think. Seem to be able to work there
better than I can do here. TOo many distractions here. There, I know why I'm
there. Here, I work in my bedroom, not good.
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Feb 16 10:52:56 2001 GMT ]--
From: IGotAnInterviewIGot2InterviewsIGot3Inter (phil-99)
Subject: Been told to update this more often...
Working on VB stuff. Ugh, it doesn't seem to work the way I think it
does, which is making things interesting - to say the least. SO went out and
bought "Practical Visual Basic". It's pants. Important stuff (in my eyes at
least) has very little emphasis and basic stuff is pushed hard. Argh!
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Feb 16 11:27:43 2001 GMT ]--
From: IGotAnInterviewIGot2InterviewsIGot3Inter (phil-99)
Subject: OMG!!!!!!!
THE PROCLAIMERS ARE ON RADIO 1?!?!
This is so bizzarre... I haven't heard of them for years, and all of a
sudden they pop up on Simon Mayo's leaving do? I thought it was someone
copying them until I heard the voices - distinctive they are :)
Oh, and btw - I HATE VISUAL BASIC!
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Feb 16 16:08:30 2001 GMT ]--
From: IGotAnInterviewIGot2InterviewsIGot3Inter (phil-99)
Subject: Gonna go watch Hannibal :)
Read the book a gazillion times. I wanna see if they ruined it or did
as well with it as they did with the original...
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Feb 17 15:09:27 2001 GMT ]--
From: IGotAnInterviewIGot2InterviewsIGot3Inter (phil-99)
Subject: James King gave Hannibal a scathing review.
Kinda right, but not really. Yes, it is a little OTT in places, but
you expect that from a film touted to be the movie of the year, don't you? And
especially from Hannibal Lecter!
I dunno. I enjoyed it - even though I wish they'd done some things
differently. I know we shouldn't compare it to Silence of the Lambs - the two
stories have totally different plot elements and tell radically different
stories but still, the comparison is too tempting not to make.
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Feb 19 12:21:29 2001 GMT ]--
From: IGotAnInterviewIGot2InterviewsIGot3Inter (phil-99)
Subject: Today.... I come in at 9, I finish at 4, and officially I have no time
off at all. Unofficially I have most of the day to myself. This is not a good
thing. I'm unable to any work on my project while I'm here, and I can't even
do any coursework as it's a group thing.
Oh well. I'm now sat in labs and supposed to be helping people with
their programming wibbles. As far as I can see, there isn't a single person
here who's trying to do any programming. *growls* This is frustrating. I
coulda gone home!
I also have dork-boy of the century sat next to me, he's a true geek
and always has to rub it in that he's "done it all before". He tried to talk
to me but my healthy dose of ignoring did the trick, I think...
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Feb 21 18:53:10 2001 GMT ]--
From: IGotAnInterviewIGot2InterviewsIGot3Inter (phil-99)
Subject: Wednesday Evening...
Went down the pub yesterday with Ian (Chorlton) and had a few drinks,
was nice :) Going to help M with the Motorsports stuff later on tonight,
though I'm still not exactly sure what it is she wants help _with_.
*ponders*
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Feb 23 01:09:09 2001 GMT ]--
From: IGotAnInterviewIGot2InterviewsIGot3Inter (phil-99)
Subject: I sat tonight watching Drug Nation on E4, wondering aimlessly how come
I never got into drug culture? It's not like the people I knew didn't get into
drugs - I know that half my year smoked pot, I know that at least some of my
year did speed when they went out clubbing. How come I never got sucked in?
I feel really bad for admitting this, actually, but when I watch
things like Drug Nation I find myself wishing that I could (or more like
_would_) do drugs just to experience the highs that these people talk about. I
find myself thinking "what harm can it do if I was only to do it once?". This,
I know - is a BAD thing. And before any of you give me grief about it, I am
fairly sure that if it ever came down to it in a real life situation I would
bottle out :)
But isn't it tempting? The sweet high, the energy rushing through you
and the certain knowledge that you're going to have a better night than you've
ever had before appeals to me, even though I _know_ the downsides. I _know_
the effect that these drugs can have on you isn't likely to be positive (and I
don't care what anyone says - chemicals of any description which are man-made
are in general bad for us) in the long term, but STILL - the appeal says "come
on, feel it, feel what I can give you".
It's scary at times to think that I could be susceptible.
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Feb 25 01:34:14 2001 GMT ]--
From: IGotAnInterviewIGot2InterviewsIGot3Inter (phil-99)
Subject: I FOUND THE HHGTG adventure RPG thingie!!!
YAY!
*plays*
*shouts*
*confused*
*cheats*
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Feb 26 22:51:29 2001 GMT ]--
From: IGotAnInterviewIGot2InterviewsIGot3Inter (phil-99)
Subject: Well...
One down, 4 to go.
Called up John Prodger this afternoon and found out for sure that
TTPCom have turned me down. Shame, really - but I'm relieved. It sure as hell
makes organising stuff a lot easier for me, and I can stop stressing about it.
I'm really not sure I would have coped well with their corp.
structure.
So, tommorrow is an "open day" with PI Technologies. Not totally sure
what this means, but they said it _wasn't_ an interview in the letter I got.
*shrugs* Quite frustrating in some ways but might make things easier. Leaving
from manc Picc at 7:45am :( Means I have to be out house by 7am at LATEST. Up
by 6:30a, AT LATEST. Joy.
Thursday - Interview with Teleca. Cool. Thanks yet again Urchin.
That sounds like a VERY cool job. Can't wait to see the company in action, and
talk to Urchin a bit. A little worried about how I managed to organise that on
the same day I promised to go out in Manchester for the pre-meet stuff, but
it's not that important... I'll be around, but still not entirely sure what
time.
David - Pay It All Back (Vol 1) ROCKS! This is better than Vol 4, IMO
so I'll be after your others, to try and get a taste. Mind you, I still say
the New Age Steppers need to get rid of that singer... *shudders* She's
awful!
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Feb 26 23:02:10 2001 GMT ]--
From: IGotAnInterviewIGot2InterviewsIGot3Inter (phil-99)
Subject: CDNow...
Whilst being excellent, decided to ship my two CDs together ("Go
Simpsonic With the Simpsons" and "Pay it all Back [Vol 1]"). Fine, but when
you consider the size of the box I have sat in front of me which they came in.
It's spprox 12" long by 4" deep by 5" wide.
For 2 CDs.
*ponders*
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Mar 5 12:35:50 2001 GMT ]--
From: IGotAnInterviewIGot2InterviewsIGot3Inter (phil-99)
Subject: I've noticed a distinct lack of diary entries recently. Bother.
I'd like to say I just have nothing interesting to say, but that's not
interesting so I won't.
Had a fabulous weekend at the meet. Would have liked to have been
able to spend more time meeting people I hadn't met before but it was good
anyhow. Shame things went wrong...
o Karting track was busy when we turned up. Was told it was free.
o Friday night pub had a dress code. WTF?!?!
o Comedy club was sold out. We had no clue it would be busy.
Anyhow, as I say, t'was fun. Thanks for making a good meet, everyone!
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Mar 5 15:02:07 2001 GMT ]--
From: IGotAnInterviewIGot2InterviewsIGot3Inter (phil-99)
Subject: Though, I am now officially skint :(
I'm going to have to take one of the two evil options I hoped I
wouldn't have to do. I have to either ask my parents for money, or dip into
my savings :(
I don't want to do either - my savings are for things after graduation
and my parents sub me plenty already. (Not giving me money, but they pay for
the REALLY big things like accom and tuition) *sighs* Oh well, time to bite
the bullet. This will, after all, be the first time in 3 years that I have
asked them for money. Not bad going :)
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Mar 6 10:47:37 2001 GMT ]--
From: IGotAnInterviewIGot2InterviewsIGot3Inter (phil-99)
Subject: 28/38 in the "Dumbing Down"
[http://www.guardian.co.uk/quiz/questions/0,5961,387414,00.html?]
I still totally disagree with that phrase/way of thinking. Just
because people don't know every word of every novel that Dickens wrote doesn't
mean that people are being dumbed down. We're learning (and being taught)
different things with a different emphasis on education these days.
*shrugs*
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Mar 7 00:17:22 2001 GMT ]--
From: IGotAnInterviewIGot2InterviewsIGot3Inter (phil-99)
Subject: *ponders*
Had a really nice evening tonight with M. and Ian. Had tea and M. got
me some phone credit - thanks hun, you're a superstar! It was lovely :)
Unfortunately my tummy's telling me I'm hungry now. Bah.
Oh, and K., does this qualify? :) Can I do it now? Please?!
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Mar 8 09:48:29 2001 GMT ]--
From: IGotAnInterviewIGot2InterviewsIGot3Inter (phil-99)
Subject: I had to hold off last night thanks to Mono, bah!
Uhhhm. Yeah, so. Nothing very interesting happening. Project
meeting today, followed by "Emerging Technologies in Information Management"
coursework. Joy. Should be fun :( I hate group work - at least with only me
at the controls I have nobody else to blame, and can't BE blamed by anyone
else.
Don't know what to say to Gareth. Prolly go with the "not much
happening" line of things. Draft report to be in in 3 weeks time though, so
have to ask him about that.
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Mar 8 11:33:31 2001 GMT ]--
From: IGotAnInterviewIGot2InterviewsIGot3Inter (phil-99)
Subject: I think Gareth despairs with me...
Every meeting runs along the same route - and every one ends with the
same thing - I come out with a sense of dread that I'm going to have to work on
my project stupidly hard soon...
*sighs*
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Mar 8 13:20:21 2001 GMT ]--
From: IGotAnInterviewIGot2InterviewsIGot3Inter (phil-99)
Subject: Hmmm, spent about an hour working on Database stuff.
Neither I nor Chris understand what we're supposed to actually be
doing - well, not so much what, but how. It's really really really really
really really really really really frustrating. The examples we've got are all
simple and don't come close to explaining how a more complex diagram might fit
together. Ugh.
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Mar 8 22:49:16 2001 GMT ]--
From: IGotAnInterviewIGot2InterviewsIGot3Inter (phil-99)
Subject: I just watched quite a disturbing film, on the Branch Davidians and
the siege/assault on Mt. Carmel. I was really too young to appreciate the
scale of it when it happenned, back in 1993, but seeing it now is horrifying.
They had lots of extracts of people being questioned about it, afterwards -
high ranking FBI/BATF officials - as well as Janet Reno - all looking extremely
uncomfortable.
From the InfraRed evidence abvailable, it certainly looks like that
fire was no accident. It certainly looks like that fire was not (and could
not have been) set off by the Davidians. But, with all things - it was ruled
bythe Suprme Court that the Branch Davidians commited suicide. Odd,
considering that the FBI claim that NO ROUNDS were fired during the entire time
they were involved (remember they only came in after the BATF fucked up) - yet
modern military shells and explosive devices were found in the complex.
I must admit that the film did have a heavy bias towards a cover-up by
the government, yet they still did quite a good job of presenting information
from the "other side" fairly. I might have to have a peek around on the web
for a while now, just to find more info...
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Mar 8 22:55:12 2001 GMT ]--
From: IGotAnInterviewIGot2InterviewsIGot3Inter (phil-99)
Subject: On an aside, it's results day tommorrow. It's a good job my
supervisor is the examinations officer else I wouldn't know this. Nice of
someone to ensure everyone in the department gets informed about little things
like this, isn't it?
If I was to say I wasn't worried, I would be lying. I really don't
think I'm going to come out of this year with more than a 2:2 - looking at how
enthuiastic I am about everything right now, I'd put it at 3rd. But, as I
always said, you never know....
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Mar 8 23:47:01 2001 GMT ]--
From: IGotAnInterviewIGot2InterviewsIGot3Inter (phil-99)
Subject: *sighs deeply*
Why do I have to get a bad stomach now of all times?
*growls at body*
Someone remind me to call up both BT and North West Water tommorrow?
Thanks...
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Mar 9 14:33:53 2001 GMT ]--
From: IGotAnInterviewIGot2InterviewsIGot3Inter (phil-99)
Subject: Well...
I passed, at least. I don't have an average of under 40%, in fact
it's not even under 50% and only very slightly under 60%. This means that if I
keep on the way I'm going, I should be easily able to get a 2:2. I'm
dissapointed with one module though - Project and Financial Management. I
managed a feeble 36% for that, which (even though it is only a 10 credit module
as compared to others being 15) has dragged my average mark down from a fairly
round 60%.
*shrugs*
Should I be happy? Should I be dissapointed? Or should I just carry
on the way I have been doing? Not really caring, as long as someone will pay
me money to do something I enjoy? I know which option I'm going for.....
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Mar 10 01:52:22 2001 GMT ]--
From: IGotAnInterviewIGot2InterviewsIGot3Inter (phil-99)
Subject: And nobody reminded me to call up either BT or NWW
Gits :)
Got some more programming done, but came across a problem that I
hadn't allowed for. A slight design problem that is as of yet unresolved.
Ooops. Not a major one, but one that requires fairly careful consideration :)
I may simply carry on in a fashion that suggests the problem really
doesn't exist, only for it to contradict previous design decisions - in fact -
contradicting the entire reason I designed it in this fashion. Unfortunately,
I don't know whether to code it sensibly, or whether to code it in the way
it was designed, and admit the design flaws in the report (which has to be
handed in, in draft (or is that draught? Which is the right usage for this
context?) form in 2 weeks time). Which one, which one...
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Mar 10 12:57:09 2001 GMT ]--
From: IGotAnInterviewIGot2InterviewsIGot3Inter (phil-99)
Subject: EasyEverything is the perfect place to waste lots of time, eh? :)
Bus at 1:25 allegedly - been in Manc since 12, spent a half-hour
getting lunch (don't go to the Chinese place in the Arndale, it's nothing
special - bland) and spent the rest of the time spodding. Oooooooo I lead an
exciting life, don't I?
Going to LL to see C+A, possibly help with various bits and bobs too.
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Mar 11 16:45:22 2001 GMT ]--
From: IGotAnInterviewIGot2InterviewsIGot3Inter (phil-99)
Subject: Project Stuff...
I just need to transfer it all over to VBA now. Recreating the Forms
will be the hardest bit - the code will just be a copy/paste jobby. Pain in
the arse it will be, wish you could just import a form into VBA from VB.
Actually, speaking of that, may as well give that a go now...
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Mar 11 23:31:16 2001 GMT ]--
From: IGotAnInterviewIGot2InterviewsIGot3Inter (phil-99)
Subject: A Hand-Job... hmmm.
I could just do with another!
Heck, never mind another :)
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Mar 11 23:43:52 2001 GMT ]--
From: IGotAnInterviewIGot2InterviewsIGot3Inter (phil-99)
Subject: 9-4pm tommorrow. How will I cope, eh?
I've got no chance when I stop being a damn student.
I spent most of tonight shouting and swearing at VBA for being so
utterly crap. Simple things, like bringing an object to the front of a pile,
is just not there - or if it is, it's entirely unobvious. Not havign control
arrays is a MAJOR failing, surely? I would have put them as one of the most
useful things I've found VB to do, and because VBA doesn't support them, I
needed to do a complete re-write of certain code sections.
*sighs* But it's almost complete now. Almost there. only problem
is, the bit of code that I haven't so much as touched appears to have stopped
working properly. Though, I get the feeling that might be partly due to
Win2000 fucking up the way you open multiple documents. (It no longer opens
multiple documents within itself, it spawns another instance of itself and
opens the other documents in that new instance. Odd, but hey...)
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Mar 12 15:09:10 2001 GMT ]--
From: IGotAnInterviewIGot2InterviewsIGot3Inter (phil-99)
Subject: Must... stop... flirting... :)
Someday I'm going to get in trouble because of it! I'm already far
too involved with a coupla people :| Ahh well. It'll all work out in the end!
:) (I hope!)
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Mar 12 15:38:41 2001 GMT ]--
From: IGotAnInterviewIGot2InterviewsIGot3Inter (phil-99)
Subject: Make that 3...
I've had so many comments about that edit already, jeez! Lemme think,
2 of them aren't anything to do with Mono - so you wouldn't be at all
interested :)
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Mar 13 01:41:28 2001 GMT ]--
From: IGotAnInterviewIGot2InterviewsIGot3Inter (phil-99)
Subject: No, I'm not going to tell you
OK? :)
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Mar 13 01:43:23 2001 GMT ]--
From: IGotAnInterviewIGot2InterviewsIGot3Inter (phil-99)
Subject: Meeting at 11am tommorrow, funfun.
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Mar 14 20:59:59 2001 GMT ]--
From: IGotAnInterviewIGot2InterviewsIGot3Inter (phil-99)
Subject: I am really quite pissed off... went into town this evening to a:) buy
train tickets to Cambridge (yet again... *sighs*) and b:) go to the CUS Social.
Supposed to start at 7pm, as far as I could figger, nobody turned up by 7:45,
when the footie finished, so I gave up and left.
*growls*
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Mar 16 00:28:17 2001 GMT ]--
From: IGotAnInterviewIGot2InterviewsIGot3Inter (phil-99)
Subject: Blatant copy/paste...
Sorry :)
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Mar 16 00:45:32 2001 GMT ]--
From: IGotAnInterviewIGot2InterviewsIGot3Inter (phil-99)
Subject: Wrote lots more on an interview theme too, but am so exhausted I need
sleep. Now.
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Mar 16 13:41:23 2001 GMT ]--
From: IGotAnInterviewIGot2InterviewsIGot3Inter (phil-99)
Subject: Sath ere in labs witha dodgy space bar...
Finding I'm satwitha document open in front of me, thatI justdon't
want to edit. Idon't want to doit... I want to - but I just reallyreally have
no fecking motivation - it's easier to spod than it is to write.
I'm also getting annoyed atthe suggestion that Mononeeds to become
more "children friendly". Why? Because someone saw a program thatdemonstrated
how seedy the net is? If any parent lets their kid surf alone, chat alone, go
and meetpeople alone whom they've never met before then IMO - there is nobody
to blame but themselves.
Fine, someone COULD write a letter to the Sun and someone could write
a story on us, on how we're all a bunch of freaks who will rapeyour daughters
and steal your sons given half the chance. But before it gotto thatstage, you
have to remember - ALL COMMUNICATION ON MONO IS LOGGED! The Mono admin can
happilly (and easily) prove how a particular user acted, whether they were
provoked into this action, etc.
The net is NOT a safe place. As manypeople do, compare the net to a
city street. It's the only way.
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Mar 16 15:27:34 2001 GMT ]--
From: IGotAnInterviewIGot2InterviewsIGot3Inter (phil-99)
Subject: I'm trying desperately hard to drown out the noise of the <F>ing
drills out the front of my house with music - loud music - but it's not
working. I can still hear them. Come on Incubus, do your stuff. Make me
forget about that racket with your own.
Today, I am actually embarassed of myself. I can't believe I'm
running away from it like that - how feeble can you get, eh? *sighs* It's
certainly easier to run than to face them. Why do I know that they're going to
come back full force later?
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Mar 19 11:18:11 2001 GMT ]--
From: BeingShafted,AfterDroppingSandInVaseline (phil-99)
Subject: Something I'm fionding particularly frustating right now...
People who insist on repeating using different words/examples exactly
the same thing as I say/said a little while earlier. It's frustrating when it
happens because it's almost saying that "you didn't do it right, so I'll do it
right for you".
*growls*
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Mar 19 14:43:48 2001 GMT ]--
From: BeingShafted,AfterDroppingSandInVaseline (phil-99)
Subject: There are some things that should be kept private.
I really didn't need to know what I just found out. *ugh* *UghUghUGH*
Horrible mental images.
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Mar 19 14:50:48 2001 GMT ]--
From: BeingShafted,AfterDroppingSandInVaseline (phil-99)
Subject: I was propositioned today...
No, not in that way either - I wasn't anywhere near Fairfield St!
Nope, I was made an offer that would have been very difficult to say
no to. :) So I didn't. Though it will involve having to think,
might have to get a bit of revision done first though, I don't know
how well I'll be able to do - after all, it's been a while!
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Mar 19 15:03:29 2001 GMT ]--
From: BeingShafted,AfterDroppingSandInVaseline (phil-99)
Subject: http://www.limehouseschool.co.uk/
This is terrifying. This is my school, it's been nearly 3yrs since I
even saw the place, and now they actually have a working website... pictures of
people I used to know. People who I had forgtten about. Meep.
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Mar 19 16:52:59 2001 GMT ]--
From: BeingShafted,AfterDroppingSandInVaseline (phil-99)
Subject: I mean it - it really did have me thinking quite hard :)
I've half-written an email to the head, whom I remember very well, and
am half-way through drafting a letter to myold house-master, Mr WC Jones who
was very very cool to me when I was there....
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Mar 20 10:55:30 2001 GMT ]--
From: BeingShafted,AfterDroppingSandInVaseline (phil-99)
Subject: I'm not a happy bunny today...
Woke up early, went into the living room to relax and watch Play Music
only to find that the house was shaking. Quite literally, I sat down, put on
the TV, and my chair started to wobble.
I've put up with this construction over the road for nearly 2 months
now. 2 months of almost permanent noise during the day. I think I am losing
my mind. When I went into lectures yesterday - there was someone hammering in
the lecture theatre below and I very nearly lost it. Nearly. It wouldn't be
so bad if it wasn't directly outside my Living Room window. They seem to have
been working on that patch of the footpath for weeks now.
They've stopped for now, which means I can turn the radio down a
little. It doesn't help, really - having the radio turned up as loud as I can
comfortably have it - it doesn't drown out the noise at all. It probably just
serves to piss the neighbours off. Shame.
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Mar 20 12:22:40 2001 GMT ]--
From: BeingShafted,AfterDroppingSandInVaseline (phil-99)
Subject: They've stopped now... have been for an hour or so. Good :)
I'm drinking coffee.
I'm surrounded by cups, and plates, and things that really should be
in the kitchen. But it takes too much effort to move them.
I'm listening to Radio 1.
I'm considering why I haven't got myself a cute girlie :)
And I've decided - it's because I'm too lazy to bother with a girlie.
That includes both finding one and keeping one.
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Mar 20 22:43:31 2001 GMT ]--
From: BeingShafted,AfterDroppingSandInVaseline (phil-99)
Subject: Excuse my drunken (partial) ramblings...
Somebody said to me today "Why aren't you getting laid?". Nice subtle
questioning style there :) The answer I gave was probably smoke and mirrors,
something to deflect attention from the issue - I admit this freely. Sex has
never been a massive interest of mine, I don't care for going out "on the pull"
and fail to understand people who get depressed because they're not "with"
someone.
The answer I gave was "laziness". I have myself a good life. A
partner would only fuck that up. Completely. I'm also far too lazy to work at
a relationship - if it's working, then fine - I'm happy as it is - who needs it
to go any further? I have lots of friends I'd put in this relationship style
from both the past and the present.
I guess a more realistic and proper admission would be fear. Let me
get one thing straight. Unlike Anthea and Vanessa (and Stevo, by all accounts)
- I DO NOT fear loneliness. Being alone has no worse prospects than being in a
loveless relationship. What I do fear, though - is rejection.
I understand 100% that in reality, a "no" is the worst that it can
get, and maybe a slap here or there :) But look at me - I manage perfectly
well with people when introduced to them (c.f. - rachel/colin or emily) as
total strangers, but if I had to approach them first to "get to know" them, I
would be stumped.
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Mar 20 22:44:35 2001 GMT ]--
From: BeingShafted,AfterDroppingSandInVaseline (phil-99)
Subject: You know, after watching Davina twirl and whirl through the streets
tonight on Streetmate, I have decided that I want to be on that show! It
does the introduction part for you, and the rest is often easy enough :)
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Mar 21 00:16:50 2001 GMT ]--
From: BeingShafted,AfterDroppingSandInVaseline (phil-99)
Subject: in reponse to an email I fired off earlier to Teleca!
"Hi Phil
....funny you mention that. I just signed a letter today which should go in
this evenings post. Its an offer letter. I will try phone sometime to
discuss it a bit further...not something to do via email."
Can I just say - FUCK YES!!!!!!!!!!
(It's all I've been able to say for the last few minutes)
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Mar 21 00:20:39 2001 GMT ]--
From: BeingShafted,AfterDroppingSandInVaseline (phil-99)
WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
I'm happy now :)
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Mar 22 10:47:32 2001 GMT ]--
From: BeingShafted,AfterDroppingSandInVaseline (phil-99)
Subject: *bounces*
Nothing in the mail today :( Cheapskates musta used 2nd class :)
What to do with my day off? Work on Project Report? (ugh).
*sighs*
Oh well....
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Mar 23 14:58:48 2001 GMT ]--
From: BeingShafted,AfterDroppingSandInVaseline (phil-99)
Subject: I just spent nearly 3/4hr talking to an Orange Customer Service rep.
All I wanted to do was upgrade my PAYG phone to a Contact one. I feel
like I can afford and budget for a contract phone again now - as it appears
that I'm really spending more on calls than I ever did do before :)
Credit check - it bombed out twice for the poor guy. Prolyl coz my
credit rating is so low the computer can't handle it :) lol nahhh, I should
have a mostly clean record. I think I have 2 late Barclaycard payments and
that's about it.
So, within a week I should have a shiney new sim card, yay!
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Mar 24 00:52:45 2001 GMT ]--
From: BeingShafted,AfterDroppingSandInVaseline (phil-99)
Subject: Damnit, I need beer - it'd make the night pass quicker.
*sighs*
Nice night - went for dinner with M&I.
Still need beer though :-\
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Mar 24 20:24:27 2001 GMT ]--
From: BeingShafted,AfterDroppingSandInVaseline (phil-99)
Subject: I think I might treat myself to beer.
It'll be the only way to pass the night away quicker with these two
in. I WANT TO PLAY MY RECORDS! I went to Chester today with M., had a really
really nice day and bought:
o Black Box Recorder - The Facts of Life (CD Single)
o The JAMS - It's Grim Up North (Vinyl 7")
o The Timelords - Doctorin' the Tardis (Vinyl)
o Simply Red - Ev'ry Time We Say Goodbye (Vinyl)
o Pink Floyd - The Wall (Vinyl)
o Monty Python's Contractual Obligation Album (Vinyl)
All for #20 exactly - #4.50 off the marked price :) Nice!
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Mar 24 20:25:15 2001 GMT ]--
From: BeingShafted,AfterDroppingSandInVaseline (phil-99)
Subject: In fact, treating myself to beer has nothing to do with it. Using
beer to get away from the fact that I have a project report (Draft / Draught)
to be in on Friday.
It works, too.
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Mar 25 02:07:41 2001 GMT ]--
From: BeingShafted,AfterDroppingSandInVaseline (phil-99)
Subject: #45 a single, for the KLF's "Kylie said to Jason"
Apparantly very rare. Haven't seen it online for less than #50.00 yet
this means very little in the big scheme of things. It's a promo single. I
was tempted. I was - but I really don't have the amount of knowledge in this
area necessary to start spending money I just can't waste on things that could
be worth very little in the long term.
I feel that it's a shame, almost, that I even doubt I should spend
this money on a rare single - but #45 is a LOT of money. I considered buying
it for a friend (boy, I wonder who?) in the hope that they would buy it at cost
price, for me at least. But when you're talking #45 - you can't take that
gamble.
I was a little hacked off - they had the HHGTG Radio Series on Vinyll,
yet not the original Vinyll series on Vinyll. (i.e.- all 4 books on
seperate disks/records). Shame - as I really want those. My dad has books 1
and 2, I want to find books 3 and 4 for him, ON VINYLL!
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Mar 25 11:30:50 2001 GMT ]--
From: BeingShafted,AfterDroppingSandInVaseline (phil-99)
Subject: Oh, and still no letter through from Teleca :(
*sighs*
Somebody's being a bit slow....
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Mar 25 12:29:43 2001 GMT ]--
From: BeingShafted,AfterDroppingSandInVaseline (phil-99)
Subject: HoHumHoHumHoHum...
I'm trying. I have my project report open in front of me but actually
DOING any of it seems to be impossible. I try, and then something in my brain
says "nahhh, don't bother".
*shrugs*
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Mar 25 13:55:16 2001 GMT ]--
(electron ~)50% grep "Kt" u1/diary/testing.cm | wc -w
16
(electron ~)52% grep "kate" u1/diary/testing.cm | wc -w
43
(electron ~)53% grep "Kate" u1/diary/testing.cm | wc -w
1942
(electron ~)54% grep "kt" u1/diary/testing.cm | wc -w
28
I'm scared!
testing.cm is a file that contains all my diary entries, ever :)
Obsessed? Me? I don't think so...
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Mar 25 21:40:44 2001 GMT ]--
From: BeingShafted,AfterDroppingSandInVaseline (phil-99)
Subject: I don't know what I'd call this...
It's not depression, it's *sighs* a complete lack of enthusiasm to do
anything - I haven't so much as gotten dressed today - having had my project
report open most of the day, staring it it blankly thinking "I can't do this".
The frustrating thing - I know I could do it, but I can't.
What is this?
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Mar 26 15:02:35 2001 GMT ]--
From: BeingShafted,AfterDroppingSandInVaseline (phil-99)
Subject: Currently Downloading:
Otis Redding - Sittin by the Sock of the Bay
UB40 - Kingston Town
*bounces*
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Mar 27 12:40:32 2001 GMT ]--
From: BeingShafted,AfterDroppingSandInVaseline (phil-99)
Subject: Yeah yeah yeah.
I know.
*goes deep deep crimson*
Thanks go to both Mirath and Ankh who made me go that colour.
Subject: Snobbishness
This is something that bothers me. Some people seem to have it that
certain things are beneath them, or that doing things for reasons other than
the reasons they do them are somehow less valid. I can't think of a specific
example now, but it's something that bothered me at the time.
The very idea that someone can be of a different station in life is
what really gets me, I guess. For example - I come from an upper-middle-class
family. I went to private school. My father's in the Navy. My mother works,
we have two cars. We have a big TV, and good living in general.
Would someone from a working-class family, who went to public school,
who have a 14" TV, who live in a terraced house in Grimsby look down on me?
*shrugs* I don't know, but I would hope not.
This has been an unorganised and un-neccessary rant, brought to you by
the letter B (Boredom) and the number 23.
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Mar 28 10:24:26 2001 GMT ]--
From: BeingShafted,AfterDroppingSandInVaseline (phil-99)
Subject: Something Pie said reminded me...
As I lay awake at 2am some morning this week, the birds started to
pipe up. AT 2AM?! Has nobody told them that people generally sleep at night,
hell - never mind people - birds generally sleep at night too!!!
*grrr*
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Mar 28 10:27:28 2001 GMT ]--
From: BeingShafted,AfterDroppingSandInVaseline (phil-99)
Subject: Also, in other Mr 99 related news...
Phil today received his offer letter from Teleca. About Bloody Time
Too! Basically:
o Salary: 20k
o Holiday: 25days, with up to 5 compulsory
o 5 months probation :( 1 week's notice...
o On completion of probation: pension/share scheme, life insurance
Anything else important I should mention?
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Mar 28 16:22:22 2001 GMT ]--
From: BeingShafted,AfterDroppingSandInVaseline (phil-99)
Subject: I've just been to town and bought:
o Computer Ethics, a book
o The Enigma, by Alan Turing
From Waterstone's
o Pay It All Back (VOl. 5)
o Goodnight Moon, by Shivaree
o Mellon Collie and the Infinite Sadness, Smashing Pumpkins
From Vinnie's (All on CD)
Niiiiiiiiice :)
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Mar 29 00:09:28 2001 GMT ]--
From: BeingShafted,AfterDroppingSandInVaseline (phil-99)
Subject: I'm watching "The Worst Journey in Britain" at the moment
The basic premise seems to be that this guy has to travel round
various parts of the Uk via public transport (trains and busses) whilst
carrying various objects. FOr example, a surfboard, a gorilla backpack, a doll
(life sized!), and if he doesn't make it to the place he's supposed to get to
by the time he's supposed to be there, he has to carry that object again the
next day, as well as the object he would have picked up.
It's hilarious!
The British public seem to react to the camera - it either brings out
all the best, or all the worst in people - it's amazing! Some people act
really nicely to him whilst others (notably Virgin trains staff) are just
disgustingly rude...
If you get a chance to watch it - DO! :)
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Mar 29 00:10:32 2001 GMT ]--
From: BeingShafted,AfterDroppingSandInVaseline (phil-99)
Subject: I just downloaded 3am Eternal, by the KLF
Nothing unusual in that, you might say - but it's an Orbital remix.
Can we say "Wow"? :)
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Mar 29 02:03:36 2001 GMT ]--
From: BeingShafted,AfterDroppingSandInVaseline (phil-99)
Subject: And can I also add - Shivaree: wow
Spent a while downloading a few live tracks and they rock.
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Mar 29 13:04:25 2001 GMT ]--
From: BeingShafted,AfterDroppingSandInVaseline (phil-99)
Subject: Once again - I don't actually want to know...
But then again - it's not _my_ diary, I guess.
Design/Implementation to go. Specification proving harder than I
thought. Whatever I write turns out to sound either pretentious or absolute
pap. But this is only a draft (is it Draught or Draft? really? This is
bugging me now...) I guess.
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Mar 29 13:10:37 2001 GMT ]--
From: BeingShafted,AfterDroppingSandInVaseline (phil-99)
Subject: Found it:
http://www.m-w.com/cgi-bin/dictionary?book=Dictionary&va=draught
Main Entry: draught, draughty
Pronunciation: 'dr[a']f-tE
chiefly British variant ofDRAFT, DRAFTY
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Mar 29 13:57:34 2001 GMT ]--
From: BeingShafted,AfterDroppingSandInVaseline (phil-99)
Subject: I'm wanting to listen to the radio whilst I work, but Mark 'n' Lard
aren't good to work to - too much talking. Radio 4 is even worse, but maybe
it'd have that hypnotic effect? :) Any commercial radio is out the window
straigt off because I don't listen to commercial radio - full stop. So that
leaves (well - Classic FM doesn't count) Classic FM or Radio 2/3.
*sighs*
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Apr 1 17:46:19 2001 GMT ]--
From: BooooogieWooogieWooogieWooogieWooogieWoo (phil-99)
Subject: Prepare for many single line edits, possibly single words whilst I try
and sort out what I really want to say from what I actually say.
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Apr 1 17:46:55 2001 GMT ]--
From: BooooogieWooogieWooogieWooogieWooogieWoo (phil-99)
Subject: I went to Liverpool this w/end to see C&R. Had a really good weekend,
wish that every time I went to visit people that I could enjoy it as
much.
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Apr 1 17:48:26 2001 GMT ]--
From: BooooogieWooogieWooogieWooogieWooogieWoo (phil-99)
Subject: Something happenned recently that's changed me, no - changed the way I
think about certain things. You know how it is - you think you can
manage and then when it actually happens all you can do is sit and
look blank. Painful, though nice, I guess!
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Apr 1 17:51:33 2001 GMT ]--
From: BooooogieWooogieWooogieWooogieWooogieWoo (phil-99)
Subject: *shrugs*
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Apr 1 17:52:12 2001 GMT ]--
From: BooooogieWooogieWooogieWooogieWooogieWoo (phil-99)
Subject: *examines self*
Heh *giggles*
Oooooo yeah!
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Apr 1 18:04:37 2001 GMT ]--
From: BooooogieWooogieWooogieWooogieWooogieWoo (phil-99)
Subject: *chills*
Currently Listening to: Mozart - Clarinet Concerto in A
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Apr 1 18:09:19 2001 GMT ]--
From: BooooogieWooogieWooogieWooogieWooogieWoo (phil-99)
Subject: Currently listening to: Faithless - Don't Leave (floating Mix)
I ADORE this mix.
I also really enjoy the Vinyll Faithless promo remixes I got - one of
them doesn't resemble "God is a DJ" in any way, but the rest are all excellent
stuff...
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Apr 1 22:08:38 2001 GMT ]--
From: BooooogieWooogieWooogieWooogieWooogieWoo (phil-99)
Subject: DamnitDamnitDamnitDamnitDamnit!
*frustrated & pained*
NO FAIR! :)
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Apr 2 10:37:46 2001 GMT ]--
From: BooooogieWooogieWooogieWooogieWooogieWoo (phil-99)
Subject: I guess I should explain now :)
Excuse me if I confused anyone - I wasn't trying to say anything or
suggest anything, or even make you think I was suggesting anything or saying
anything. It's just my ugly "feelings" raising their head after being reminded
that they do exist :)
Ugh, mornings... I found out this weekend that C&R don't do mornings
very well either. Well, unless your definition of mornings includes that which
they did very well in the morning. But I doubt morning-goodness can be defined
by that.
(sleeping, you dirty minded individuals...)
I'm currently pondering which piece of coursework I should start
first. I could finish off my machine learning, I guess... that could be nice.
Would also be a chance to flex the C / Perl muscles, as to make it easier I
think a little program might do the work better than I can. Quicker, too :)
Well, it's either that, Project report (ugh), Database work (UGHUGHUGH) or OO
work (not so ugh...).
Which one? Anyone got a coin/bottle/spinner thing I can use?
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Apr 2 10:38:50 2001 GMT ]--
From: BooooogieWooogieWooogieWooogieWooogieWoo (phil-99)
Subject: I'm also absolutely starving.
Unusually for me, I didn't eat stupidly late last night (helped
partially by the fact I was in bed before midnight. Unheard of!) so now my
tummy's telling me that food would be advantageous. Cheese sandwiches it is,
then?
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Apr 2 22:28:12 2001 GMT ]--
From: Kryten,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99)
Subject: Where would all the calculators go?!
No silicon Heaven?
and
I feel a Jackson Pollock coming on.
All quotes from a brilliant (possibly the best ever) Sci-Fi series
that came out of the Beeb. Thank you Red Dwarf also, for my current nameline,
which I heard, and just burst out laughing the second I figured out to which
nefarious purposes I could use it ;-)
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Apr 2 22:39:14 2001 GMT ]--
From: Kryten,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99)
Subject: Oh, and apparantly the dirty-minded individual is often right!
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Apr 3 14:26:47 2001 GMT ]--
From: Kryten,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99)
Subject: Eric The Gardener
Eric The Gardener
Julius Ceasar came, saw, conquered, went away
'Cause it rained here all the time
Too many sniffs and colds
Got up his Roman nose
So he left it all behind for Eric The Gardener to find
Eric The Gardener will find Eric The Gardener
Julius Ceasar knew that when his life was through
Something of him would stay behind
Not in a Roman tomb or in an Italian womb
But buried deep in English slime
For Eric The Gardener to find
Eric The Gardener will find Eric The Gardener
Julius Ceasar sleeps soundly beneath your feet
With the rest of human-kind
Dig deep and dig some more
Dig to the planet's core
Dig 'til you've gone out of your mind
But all you will ever really find is Eric The Gardener
All you can ever hope to find is Eric The Gardener
- Divine Comedy
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Apr 3 14:27:33 2001 GMT ]--
From: Kryten,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99)
Subject: Why? Because I love the song...
And I can sing along to that one fairly well :)
Sweden is, however, the bestest track on the album...
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Apr 3 16:01:09 2001 GMT ]--
From: Kryten,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99)
Subject: I've spent two days doing:
o Absolutely nothing
I will do something soon, I swear to you.
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Apr 3 18:30:49 2001 GMT ]--
From: Kryten,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99)
Subject: "Man, I Feel Like a Woman"
Why not:
"Man I Feel Like a Man"
or
"Woman, I Feel Like a Man"?
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Apr 3 21:41:35 2001 GMT ]--
From: Kryten,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99)
Subject: Hmmmm, listening to John Peel online, when I could just walk over to
my radio and turn it on and get exactly the same content, in higher
quality and a few seconds earlier...
I love the online age *grins*
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Apr 4 09:07:32 2001 GMT ]--
From: Kryten,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99)
Subject: Damnit, one of the books I ordered last night is out of print :(
It sounded quite interesting as well: "Telepaths Don't Need Safewords"
*sighs*
It's probably a good thing. Whilst the books weren't expensive I
should save my money for the next couple of weeks. Next weekend has
the potential to be expensive, and I promised my folks I would go home
at some point...
Ho Hum.
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Apr 4 09:19:32 2001 GMT ]--
From: Kryten,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99)
Subject: Whilst on the topic of book shopping, Waterstones.co.uk looks and
works fantastically! Nice :)
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Apr 4 12:53:01 2001 GMT ]--
From: Kryten,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99)
Subject: Ooooo, my first ever Trainline _booking_
Went surprisingly well. In all the times I've tried to use it in the
past and it's bombed out on me, this is surprising! So I'm picking up a ticket
to Liverpool from the FastTicket machines - let's see if they're as good as
Amtrak's beasties!
I still can't decide what I want to do after graduating... do I want
to work for a month? Probably not. Do I want to travel? Yes. Where?
Europe? I've never been a big fan of Europe in general as a holiday
destination. It's a little too... close to home? Maybe? I don't know - but
then again I've never really been. Only been to Lanzarote and that doesn't
really count :)
America, while nice, and I know I would have places to stay, people to
see and friends to meet, is maybe a little passe(imagine the accent over e)? I
could quite fancy somewhere like Australia - but the flight prices are
ridiculous. Maybe, uhhhh the Far East? I dunno....
As has been said many times before - "We shall see".
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Apr 4 15:40:52 2001 GMT ]--
From: Kryten,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99)
Subject: Well, FastTicket machines worked - ooooh!
I'm (frankly) amazed! ;)
Also bought a Railcard - a little late possibly, coulda saved myself a
fortune on train fares and things but I have a feeling this could come in handy
over the next few months. #18 isn't bad, really.
Looked in KingBee Records but did't see anything particularly
interesting. A few Simply Red singles that mighta been nice but the amount of
money I had in my pocket amounted to about 75p. Hmmm.
*potters*
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Apr 5 01:28:00 2001 GMT ]--
From: Kryten,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99)
Subject: Isn't it surprising how unrelated events are sometimes inextricably
linked?
One thing seems to cause the other without you ever expecting it, or I
guess a better description is that one day can improve life through an
incredibly simple process?
OK, that's not much better... *ponders* How do I put this?
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Apr 5 01:41:25 2001 GMT ]--
From: Kryten,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99)
Subject: Have I _really_ become incredibly cryptic?
Even I don't know what I was on about when I wrote some of this! How
I could expect anyone else to understand is beyond me :)
I just remembered something I promised I would do this weekend. Erk.
I'd best get into practice now else I could find myself really regretting it.
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Apr 5 13:04:38 2001 GMT ]--
From: Kryten,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99)
Subject: *growls harshly at Babis Theodoulidis*
I'm going to hurt him if I have to see him again, I swear. The
lecture notes on "how to use Envisioneer" go something like this (c/p):
"Define study scenario"
"Define possible set of inputs"
"Define possible output"
"Query project database and collect relevant data in a single table"
"Decide on methods to use"
WTF USE IS THAT YOU USELESS MORON?
Not happy...
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Apr 5 14:03:46 2001 GMT ]--
From: Kryten,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99)
Subject: *sighs*
I come to uni to work, and what happens?
Brain shuts down and tries to fall asleep. I guess having Mono here
doesn't help. I guess not wanting to do this doesn't help. I guess that not
actually giving a shit right now doesn't help either.
Phil, once again you've outdone yourself...
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Apr 6 11:14:05 2001 GMT ]--
From: Kryten,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99)
Subject: I get the feeling that Michelle isn't going to let me live this down.
But I wasn't about to lie. Stay quiet, yes - but lie? No.
Unfortunately staying quiet is almost as bad as telling the truth when you're
trying to lie without lying! :-) Anyhow M., if you want more you'll have to
catch me when you're on yer own... *grins*
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Apr 8 19:48:43 2001 GMT ]--
From: Kryten,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99)
Subject: I have an incredible amount to write...
But M. asked me round and I am in no fit state to refuse. I am
currently blasting my head with Orbital (Green album cover?) in order to try
and persuade myself to wake up.
In short, I had another bloody fabulous weekend at the Liv. Meet and
wish sincerely that I didn't have to come back to dreary Manc., back to this
dullity I can call my own life... much better to be living someone else's :)
*hugs* go to all the Liverpool meet folk...
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Apr 8 23:48:10 2001 GMT ]--
From: Kryten,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99)
Subject: From m-w.com's word of the day:
pococurante (po-ko-koo-RAN-tee, -kyoo-)
adjective
Indifferent, apathetic, nonchalant.
noun
A careless or indifferent person.
[From Italian, poco little + curante, present participle of curare, to
care, from Latin, curare, cure, care.]
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Apr 8 23:51:26 2001 GMT ]--
From: Kryten,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99)
Subject: (Just how I feel....)
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Apr 9 21:11:15 2001 GMT ]--
From: Kryten,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99)
Subject: The weekend was great. It's so wonderful to get away from Manchester
and go live someone else's life for a little while. Especially when
you get to spend time with some really great people like Damian, Colin
Rob and Rachel :)
Friday, went to Liverpool early, spent most of the afternoon sat in
Colin's place waiting for him to get back from picking up Rob.
Chatted lots, and lots :) Went to the pub, where we met Rik, Steve
and someone whose name I still can't remember... had great night,
watching Colin get drunker and drunker :) Went back to Rachel's, read
and slept.
Saturday. Woke up at some silly hour of the day. Sat and watched TV,
chatted, Rach made brekkie, watched some more TV (some of it quite
harrowing... on a Sat morning?!) and then went round Colin's.
Colin had managed to do something to Shadow, his 'pooter. This took
up most of Saturday afternoon trying to fix it. Saturday night,
pretty much the same thing, but Bec, Casey and msb (?) were there.
Sang lots, to cheesey music. Went back to Rach's, slept.
Sunday, woke up sillily early again, watched Breakfast with Frost with
a very sensible Dr Carey *smiles* I like his attitude, except maybe
to that of gays within the church. He seems to have the right idea
about how to treat non-christians though. Went for Lunch, at which
point I was ridiculously poor, went home.
That was my weekend. And it was really nice :)
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Apr 10 14:42:55 2001 GMT ]--
From: Kryten,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99)
Subject: Perl is such a horrid language...
I guess I should say that Other people's perl is horrible, more than
anything. I wish people would use decent identifiers so that I can at least
GUESS what it means!
*yawns* Tired, got a tiny tiny bit of work done...
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Apr 10 14:48:31 2001 GMT ]--
From: Kryten,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99)
Subject: Another appropriate m-w.com entry...
One entry found for maniacal.
Main Entry: maniacal
Pronunciation: m&-'nI-&-k&l
Function: adjective
1 : affected with or suggestive of madness
2 : characterized by ungovernable excitement or frenzy : FRANTIC
- maniacally /m&-'nI-&-k(&-)lE/ adverb
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Apr 10 22:38:19 2001 GMT ]--
From: Colin,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99)
Subject: I was just asked if I wanted to go to America with someone I've never
actually met. How bizzarre. This Sara lass is intriguing as
anything! :-))
I want ice-cream :)
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Apr 11 08:47:59 2001 GMT ]--
From: Colin,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99)
Subject: Interesting....
From: http://www.slc.co.uk/frames/lr/sss/repaydet.html
"Will I be able to request a current balance?"
"You can request a current balance from SLC. However SLC are only told by
the Inland Revenue of the total deductions from your wages, or self
assessment tax returns after the end of the current financial year."
Does that mean you're paying interest on the full balance until the
end of the tax year?! That sucks Beavis. Then this bit takes the biscuit:
"By totalling the deductions shown on your pay slips from the balance shown
on your latest annual statement you will be able to calculate your current
balance"
ROFL
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Apr 11 11:35:43 2001 GMT ]--
From: Colin,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99)
Subject: OK, I _really_ want ice-cream now... I might have to go down the
garage and get some - I'm sure they stock Haagen Daazs... *drools*
Then again, I really should have breakfast and a drink first!
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Apr 11 19:38:57 2001 GMT ]--
From: Colin,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99)
Subject: Dude... interesting developments in relationship fronts - not on my
part though. "Watch this space" :)
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Apr 12 00:22:35 2001 GMT ]--
From: Colin,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99)
Subject: 1am...
I fired up Napster earlier to download something. By the time it had
started, I'd forgotten what it was I wanted. Duhhhhh. Really frustrating, as
I'd wanted this for a while... whatever it was!
Programming some stuff to help with Machine Learning coursework. It's
proving much more difficult than I expected. I thought I'd made life fairly
easy for myself by choosing a nice simple construct to put my data into - but
no, I don't think it's gonna work properly that way. Damn!
Spent most of the evening/night playing with LJ - reading various
people's journals, exploring their websites and such. Some of it really
interesting - I've got myself some new regular reading ("friends" in their
terms) and hopefully got myself some new readers.
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Apr 12 13:16:47 2001 GMT ]--
From: Colin,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99)
Subject: Sorry, more lyrics for you:
My heart was broken, my heart was broken
Sorrow Sorrow Sorrow Sorrow
My heart was broken, my heart was broken
You saw it, You claimed it
You touched it, You saved it
My tears are drying, my tears are drying
Thankyou Thankyou Thankyou Thankyou
My tears are drying. my tears are drying
Your beauty and kindness
Made tears clear my blindness
While I'm worth my room on this earth
I will be with you
While the Chief, puts Sunshine On Leith
I'll thank him for his work
And your birth and my birth.
[The Proclaimers - Sunshine on Leith]
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Apr 12 13:17:51 2001 GMT ]--
From: Colin,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99)
Subject: AND more:
I could tell the meaning of a word like serene
I got some '0' Grades when I was sixteen
I can tell the difference 'tween margarine and butter
I can say "Saskatchewan" without starting to stutter
But I can't understand why we let someone else rule our land
We're Cap in Hand
I could get a broken jaw from being in a fight
I know its evening when day turns to night
I can understand why Stranraer lie so lowly
They could save a lot of points by signing Hibs Goalie
But I can't understand why we let someone else rule our land
We're Cap in Hand
We fight - when they ask us
We boast - then we cower
We beg
For a piece of
Whats already ours
Once I thought I could make God a bribe
So I said I was in his lost tribe
Getting handouts can he so frustrating
"Get in line son, there's five million waiting"
I can't understand why you let someone else rule your land
You're Cap is Hand.
[Cap in Hand - The Proclaimers]
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Apr 12 14:04:17 2001 GMT ]--
From: Colin,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99)
Subject: Way cool: http://www.oneword.co.uk/
Spoken material being broadcast on the net. Very cool - currently
listening to "Guliver's Travels". Stig of the Dump is on at 11:45 :)) YAY!
This is Radio 4 without the news. Beauty!
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Apr 12 21:01:06 2001 GMT ]--
From: Colin,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99)
Subject: Done it again... fired up IE to search for something, only to find out
when Google had loaded, I couldnae remember wtf I was going to search for :(
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Apr 12 21:02:50 2001 GMT ]--
From: Colin,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99)
Subject: Current Music: Incubus - When It Comes
Mood: bouncy-ish ;)
I got some of my project report done. Whoo! OK, it was mainly adding
diagrams and references, but it's more than I have done in a long long time!
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Apr 13 17:59:41 2001 GMT ]--
From: Colin,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99)
Subject: *groans* I went to town and bought another two books today. One:
Internet People (Or something similar) which (even after reading 20 pages) I'm
not sure what it's supposed to be about, and one on Proffesional Issues (for my
course...). My Barclaycard got turned down... I was not happy about that,
considering I should have at LEAST #150 credit on there?
*growls*
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Apr 14 01:18:21 2001 GMT ]--
From: Colin,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99)
Subject: *drunk*
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Apr 14 01:31:32 2001 GMT ]--
From: Colin,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99)
Subject: Current music: Film Four Essential Sountracks
Current Track: Minefields - Prodigy
I had a REALLY good night tonight. Went out with Bob and Nige to the pub and
out to to 5th. I lost it somewhere about when they played the Prodigy's "Out
of Space" as always... I REALLY need to go out to a dance-y club sometime.
While 5th has some advantages (cheap, friendly, no dress code) it gets dull
after a while. The majority of the music doesn't appeal to me and what little
does is over so quickly that I may as well not have bothered getting excited
for it.
But it's still a good night, with the right people. And Bob and Nige are these
"right people". Thanks guys :) I needed that.
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Apr 14 18:22:29 2001 GMT ]--
From: Colin,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99)
Subject: One of the best Simpsons Songs EVER :-)
Well Mr. Burns had done it,
The power plant had won it,
With Roger Clemens clucking all the while,
Mike Scioscia's tragic illness made us smile,
While Wade Boggs lay unconscious on the barroom tile...
We're talkin' softball...
>From Maine to San Diego.
Talkin' softball...
Mattingly and Canseco.
Ken Griffey's grotesquely swollen jaw.
Steve Sax and his run-in with the law.
We're talkin' Homer... Ozzie and the Straw.
We're talkin' softball...
>From Maine to San Diego.
Talkin' softball...
Mattingly and Canseco.
Ken Griffey's grotesquely swollen jaw.
Steve Sax and his run-in with the law.
We're talkin' Homer... Ozzie and the Straw.
Not even the lyrics, the song is a beauty.
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Apr 14 18:23:59 2001 GMT ]--
From: Colin,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99)
Subject: I've got to write something nice about M.
:)
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Apr 14 18:33:19 2001 GMT ]--
From: Colin,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99)
Subject: I heard Google being talked about on the bus yesterday.
Google WILL take over the world :)
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Apr 15 10:02:12 2001 GMT ]--
From: Colin,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99)
Subject: Yummy
I have only got Rachel to blame for this (and I will do, because she
deserves to be blamed for something.) (Not as much as Damian though):
http://www.ajolie.com/gallery.htm
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Apr 15 13:45:04 2001 GMT ]--
From: Colin,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99)
Subject: It's aliiiiiiiiiive
Nearly 5hrs later, and it works. It now creates a tree and does
nothing with it, yay! :) That'll be a hand-job - it's easier than writing
code. After all, the hand method will only take an hour.
Also have to figure out just what kind of tree it's making :) Best
draw that out this afternoon. But first, I need my breakfast. (Been working
on this since nearly 10am).
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Apr 15 23:00:01 2001 GMT ]--
From: Colin,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99)
Subject: Oh dear... Mono's slow this weekend...
I have to wonder how many of the people who are doing "family" things
this weekend realise why they have the time off work - why they're eating
easter eggs and so on and such forth.
*ho hum*
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Apr 16 21:16:10 2001 GMT ]--
From: Colin,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99)
Subject: I'm feeling extraordinarily fat atm... *sighs*
Red Dwarf eps so far:
o Camele
o The one with the gene changer and the vindaloo monster (DNA)
o Justice World
Niiiiiiiiiiiiice!
And another hour and a half to go, I believe! YAY!
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Apr 16 22:37:21 2001 GMT ]--
From: Colin,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99)
Subject: Add on:
o White Hole
o Dimension Jump
and
o Meltdown
To that list. *bounces happily*
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Apr 16 22:46:43 2001 GMT ]--
From: Colin,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99)
Subject: I also found out today why not to store flour in the outhouse /
extension bit of the kitchen. went to make macaroni cheese only to find that
the bottom half-inch or so of the flour was mouldy. NOT nice. Yuck.
Yay beer.
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Apr 17 10:53:56 2001 GMT ]--
From: Colin,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99)
Subject: Flaming Moe's (sing to the theme tune from Cheers, think it fits)
When the weight of the world has got you down
And you want to end your life,
Bills to pay, a dead-end job,
And problems with the wife.
But don't throw in the tow'l,
'Cuz there's a place right down the block...
Where you can drink your misery away...
At Flaming Moe's.... (Let's all go to Flaming Moe's...)
When liquor in a mug (Let's all go to Flaming Moe's...)
Can warm you like a hug. (Flaming Moe's...)
And happiness is just a Flaming Moe away...
Happiness is just a Flaming Moe away...
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Apr 17 16:07:14 2001 GMT ]--
From: Colin,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99)
Subject: I must be listening to too many Simpsons songs :) Sorry!
Slow and boring day today. Went into town, bumped into Dawn on the
bus on the way in... well, more like she bumped into me, I guess, wandered with
her for a little while, went to HMV, bought new Orbital single (which I still
haven't listened to... *gasp*), got coffee and came home. Boring, as I say.
Still trying to think of a way to traverse my tree. I think I may
have made a mess of storing the leaf nodes properly. Hmmm. I think doing it
by hand IS the way to go, unfortunately :( Ahhh well, might go round to M's
and do some studying with her...
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Apr 18 01:22:07 2001 GMT ]--
From: Colin,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99)
Subject: Cool, downloading Hannibal from Napster... the audio book!
I actually have it on tape, but I am hoping this will be the full,
20hour version instead of the 4hr or so version I have. The full version was
stupidly expensive and I considered buying it for my dad last Christmas. He
got the short one :)
At 5kbps, so far it's 3.5Meg in size and 73minutes long :) Why can't
all Mp3s compress down like this? Would make downloading so much faster!
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Apr 18 10:19:59 2001 GMT ]--
From: Colin,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99)
Subject: *grumps*
Woken up this morning by an SMS at 9am. Wasn't with it, wasn't with
it at all when I called Colin - he prolly thinks I'm a blethering idiot now :)
I really must learn to turn the phone off at night!
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Apr 18 23:03:50 2001 GMT ]--
From: Colin,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99)
Subject: I just had a bizzare conversation on ICQ...
Someone I talked to in ChatGames sent me an ICQ so we got chatting.
Turns out she knows Kate well, and dated her ex for a long time. Turns out we
used to talk in the same rooms on MSN Chat (Not Comic Chat - MSN before it got
let loose on the internet at large) and apparently talked together a few times.
Apparently she was at the Daresbury meet I was at too. This is so odd.
*sighs* Small world indeed....
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Apr 20 17:54:32 2001 GMT ]--
From: Colin,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99)
Subject: I'm so bored... I'm so listless... I really feel like I should be in
London getting pissed up instead of sat here pretending that I'm working when
in reality I've got no chance of doing anything constructive...
Ho Hum.
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Apr 21 15:16:50 2001 GMT ]--
From: Colin,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99)
Subject: Red Dwarf Space Corps Directives:
Directive 1742: No member of the Corps should ever report for active duty
wearing a ginger tupee.
Directive 74690: Women not wearing a supportive bra should not lean over in
zero gravity.
Directive 529: In an emergency situation involving two or more officers of
equal rank, seniority will be granted to the officer who can
program a VCR.
Directive 5796: No officer above the rank of Mess Sergeant is permitted to go
into combat with pierced nipples.
Directive 723: Terraformers are expressly forbidden from recreating Swindon.
Directive 7214: To preserve morale during long-haul missions, all male
officers above the rank of 1st Technician must, during panto
season, be ready to put on a dress and a pair of false
breasts.
Directive 997: Work done by an officer's doppleganger in a parallel universe
can NOT be claimed as overtime.
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Apr 21 15:27:41 2001 GMT ]--
From: Colin,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99)
Subject: I don't believe this, he's been home for less than 24hrs, and he's
already spent more time on the phone than is humanly POSSIBLE!
Including at frigging 2am last night?? ARGH!
I hate HATE HATE sharing a phone line...
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Apr 21 16:35:42 2001 GMT ]--
From: Colin,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99)
Subject: Now I am mostly being annoyed by VBA (again... odd that, huh?).
Where is that damn procedure, it has to be round there somewhere.
Come out little sub, I'll be real nice to you, I won't hack you to pieces,
honestly!
*grrr*
Anyhow, my project is mostly coded. As soon as I can find this little
routine I think it should work. Unfortunately I can't test it because of the
Office 2000 and Office 97 differences (MDI/SDI - that's it, you go and break my
nice macros you bastards!) so if it doesn't work right, I'm screwed. As Kryten
said:
Galloping up diarrhoea drive without a saddle!
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Apr 22 10:28:30 2001 GMT ]--
From: Colin,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99)
Subject: "I am Bridget Jones" - So you're a neurotic, middle aged woman then?
I was going to say more but then remembered I haven't actually seen it
yet, so best not say too much.
Oooo, Chris Tarrant on radio 4, Desert Island Discs. If I could be
arsed to listen this could be interesting. Yeah, anyhow... went to the Boat
last night (where I used to work?) with Ian. Got some hassle for "disapearing"
without going back sooner, but apart from that, nothing changed at all. Oh,
they sell Vodka Source now :)
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Apr 22 19:22:31 2001 GMT ]--
From: Colin,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99)
Subject: *sighs*
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Apr 22 19:23:15 2001 GMT ]--
From: Colin,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99)
Subject: It's been a bad, nay, long long long day.
And I feel fat.
And I know I ain't helping myself...
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Apr 22 23:06:01 2001 GMT ]--
From: Colin,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99)
Subject: Excuse the edit. Had to make a couple of quick edits above to improve
formatting :)
As I am to be up at 7am tommorrow, why am I spodding at midnight? I'm
screwed, I tell you.
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Apr 23 00:14:43 2001 GMT ]--
From: Colin,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99)
Subject: Oh, and if anyone wants access to my diary archives, ask me...
Why you would, I have no idea :)
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Apr 23 07:54:02 2001 GMT ]--
From: Colin,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99)
Subject: I made it. Just.
Woke up at 7 to alarm clock. Got up, hit it, went back to bed.
woke up at 8, panicked, made it in less than half-hour - including bus
journey. OK, I did miss out _everything_ that you normally do in the morning
but still - I made it...
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Apr 23 09:49:39 2001 GMT ]--
From: Colin,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99)
Subject: *cries*
Why can't I just get on with it? Really? Why can't I just sit down
and work, sit with a document open and type, type random shite if it comes to
it. Nope, can't do it. This is all just far too BORING to be able to do that.
I wanna go home...
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Apr 23 15:54:55 2001 GMT ]--
From: Colin,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99)
Subject: Hiya tugs (can I borrow your drinks monkey someday?)
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Apr 23 20:35:18 2001 GMT ]--
From: Colin,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99)
Subject: MeepMeepMeepMeepMeepMeep
** warning ** These pics are vaguely adult in content ** warning **
http://www.angelfire.com/ca4/mistress/newpics.html
Not really adult, just adult themed...
*moans softly* I want one of my own :)
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Apr 24 17:27:23 2001 GMT ]--
From: Colin,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99)
Subject: Tum-te-tum
I'm now bored... officially.
Work Work Work. Must work. MUST work. Must stop procrastinating
which I am very good at, whereas I'm not so good at this whole working
lark.
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Apr 24 17:34:10 2001 GMT ]--
From: Colin,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99)
Subject: m-w Word of the Day:
rectitudinous \rek-tih-TOO-din-uss or rek-tih-TOOD-nuss ("OO" as in
"food")\
(adjective)
*1 : characterized by straightness or moral integrity
2 : piously self-righteous
Example sentence:
"Their leader-to-be was . . . a sternly rectitudinous former federal
judge who may be the straightest straight arrow in Washington." (Tom
Morganthau et al., _Newsweek_, March 16, 1987)
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Apr 24 22:06:03 2001 GMT ]--
From: Colin,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99)
Subject: Tugs, just for you (My 3rd Yr Project is on Braille)
o . o . o . o . o . . o o . o o . o
o o . o o . o . . o o o . . o o o .
. . . . o . o . o . o . o o . . o .
http://www.tusc.net/~lizgray/ascii.html :-)
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Apr 24 22:43:19 2001 GMT ]--
From: Colin,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99)
Subject: 3,800 words, 14 pages.
An improvement!
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Apr 25 01:13:28 2001 GMT ]--
From: Colin,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99~)
Subject: 4,255 words, still 15 pages. Hmmmm?
That does include a fair few sets of bullet points that are going to
be expanded on quite seriously :)
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Apr 25 09:27:37 2001 GMT ]--
From: Colin,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99~)
Subject: I must have been very bored last night to do that...
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Apr 25 09:45:52 2001 GMT ]--
From: Colin,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99~)
Subject: Yay! Singing along to all the random records I have in my "singles"
folder - Toast, Goodnight Moon, Morrisey! YAY!
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Apr 25 13:08:35 2001 GMT ]--
From: Colin,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99~)
Subject: Not-so-boring lecture and I come to labs to work on project
Only to find the two of the computers with zip drives ain't working.
That leaves one working one, which is in use. *growls* This sucks Beavis.
Anyhow... I'm NOT going back to using floppies, I've lost more info from
floppies than you could possibly imagine. Zip disks are at least sturdy.
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Apr 25 19:41:42 2001 GMT ]--
From: Colin,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99~)
Subject: Here I am, having explained MANY times to the two I live with, that I
have work to do URGENTLY, and they're currently cranking up the radio, singing
along and generally acting pissed.
How long do I give it before I yell at them? And believe me, I will
do it HARD.
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Apr 25 20:55:00 2001 GMT ]--
From: Colin,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99~)
Subject: Yummy, Chinese :)
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Apr 25 21:08:20 2001 GMT ]--
From: Colin,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99~)
Subject: *sated*
Now, onto Simpsons and work. Am watching episode one, tape 2 now :)
4,500 words still, lots of re-writing done.
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Apr 25 21:09:00 2001 GMT ]--
From: Colin,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99~)
Subject: Excuse the edits :)
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Apr 25 23:50:27 2001 GMT ]--
From: Colin,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99~)
Subject: Nothing done this evening... some done today.
Tommorrow is the time. Tommorrow it will be...
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Apr 26 11:52:10 2001 GMT ]--
From: Colin,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99~)
Subject: Well, I stayed at 15 pages but increased it to about 4,800 words.
Odd :)
Anyhow... time to get it bound and handed in by 3pm? EASY! :)
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Apr 26 23:22:49 2001 GMT ]--
From: Colin,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99~)
Subject: http://www.theatlantic.com/issues/2001/05/frazier.htm
ROFL! Very cute little film plot centering on the role computers play
in most hollywood movies :)
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Apr 27 07:59:35 2001 GMT ]--
From: Colin,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99~)
Subject: I am going to hurt that dog. It's been barking all nigth, I assume.
It was doing it at 1:30am when I went to sleep, and it's doing it now, at 9am.
*grrrr*
Planning on going to uni for 10:30 today to do Envisioner crap. Uhm,
that's my plan for today. OH yes, forgot about this: going out with Nige. How
could I forget?! :) Rockworld, here we come!
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Apr 27 08:08:23 2001 GMT ]--
From: Colin,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99~)
Subject: Word for the Day:
ignoramus \ig-nuh-RAY-muss or ig-nuh-RAM-uss\ (noun)
: an utterly ignorant person : dunce
Example sentence:
"The ... mate expressed his detestation of his Captain as a conceited
ignoramus, who had brought them all into so unsavory and unprofitable a
pickle." (Herman Melville, _Moby Dick_)
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Apr 27 10:26:47 2001 GMT ]--
From: Colin,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99~)
Subject: Hmmm, came in, tried to figure it out... failed miserably.
Aided by the peeps who I was trying to figure it out with.
Who also failed miserably :)
Tum-te-tum.
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Apr 29 20:48:38 2001 GMT ]--
From: Colin,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99~)
Subject: http://www.geocities.com/boobooslunch/namegame.htm
PHIL
-------------------------------------------------------------------------------
From the Arabic root meaning "Tainter of Air"
-------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Characteristics
Phil knows nothing about anything.
Personality
Phil has a thing for Peter Pan.
Natural
Phil should gain a few pounds.
Emotional
Phil cries over spilled milk.
Character
Phil whines to get attention.
Physical
Phil brushes their teeth with chedder cheese.
Mental
Phil is an unreliable drunkard.
Motivation
Phil will do anything for sex
Currently listening to: Matchbox 20, The Real World
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Apr 29 23:03:12 2001 GMT ]--
From: Colin,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99~)
Subject: Good weekend, must apologise for being all sniffly on Sunday morning,
I never knew before what an effect cats had on me. Spent the weekend
with two lovely ladies :) Eager to please too *g*
Must also apologise to David. Before I even realised what time it was
on Saturday night it'd gone 9. I'd also drunk one too many beers at
that poink...
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Apr 29 23:04:45 2001 GMT ]--
From: Colin,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99~)
Subject: I'm also INCREDIBLY inpatient for my order from JT's :)
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Apr 30 13:51:10 2001 GMT ]--
From: Colin,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99~)
Subject: I went to Liverpool (again) to go to a Munch that was supposed to be
happening. I'd talked about it to Case(y? e?) and we arranged to go along
together. We turned up to the pilgrim, only to find nobody else there. Not a
happy bunny, was I.
We stopped for a couple of drinks, then went on for food and shunned
both Edward's and the Rat and Parrot because the music was being played at a
volume ridiculous for 9pm, in our collective opinion at least. Went to Pizza
Hut in the end :)
Then back to their place where I was sniffed distrustingly and slept.
It'd been a long day! Sunday - woken by the church bells, went for a walk on
the beach (They have PROPER beach, none of this pebble beach crap I'm used to),
then for a drink or two and pool. Very nice and relaxing, good weekend in
general, nice to spend some time with peeps in Liverpool and get away from
Manchester again.
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Apr 30 18:04:45 2001 GMT ]--
From: Colin,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99~)
Subject: Last night I decided I was going to make a casserole, I was going to
do it Saturday but eded up staying over in Liverpool. There I was, merrilly
chopping up veggies and sticking them in the casserole dish, until I suddenly
realised that there wasn't going to be any room to put the meat in, d'oh. What
to do? Take out some of the veg? Find a bigger casserole dish (I'm sure I
have one somewhere)?
Nahhhh, just make a veggie casserole. Lovely it was too. Stick in an
oxo cube and some gravy mix to give a little more flavour :) Only problem was,
I was starving then, so about 20 minutes later I got ABSOLUTELY starving, the
smell didn't help... so ended up cooking some cheese-burger type things I had
in the freezer as well. Was stuffed after those and ended up saving the
casserole for today. Hmmm yummy.
Anyhow, this has been your regularly scheduled "food-o-vision"
broadcast :) Back to your regular whining in 3---2---1--- :)
---------------------------------------------[ Tue May 1 13:39:35 2001 GMT ]--
From: Colin,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99~)
Subject: I am having such a sucky day... SUCH a sucky day...
Came to uni to try and get some work done with Envisioner (don't ask)
only to find the labs almost all full, half the computers screwed in some
fashion, Envisioner crashing out every time I try to START it. MS Word is
chewing up my documents like a dog does chew-toys, and to top it all off - it's
all going right for the bastards behind me. WHY ME?
---------------------------------------------[ Wed May 2 13:24:05 2001 GMT ]--
From: Colin,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99~)
Subject: I bought a table....
OOooooOO! Yep, I got fed up of not being able to seperate the computer from my
work I decided it would be best to spent the final month with a table so that I
could sit down somewhere seperate and revise. It seems to be working as well.
Spent a good 2hrs this morning working there without a single LJ or Mono check
:)
#15 for an old office table isn't bad at all, and if it helps me out, good :)
---------------------------------------------[ Wed May 2 13:27:55 2001 GMT ]--
From: Colin,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99~)
Subject: I'm also finding that working to Mark 'n' Lard is increasingly hard.
I think I might need to go out to Gregg's soon - I'm outta bread, ugh.
But I don't want to take much time off, and I know if I go out the house I will
be out for an age. I potter quite well when I have other things I should be
doing :)
---------------------------------------------[ Wed May 2 23:12:41 2001 GMT ]--
From: Colin,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99)
Subject: I must be bored...
About to Watch Aliens on ITV, great film, IIRC?
Plus Sigourney Weaver is very cute :)
---------------------------------------------[ Thu May 3 09:32:45 2001 GMT ]--
From: Colin,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99)
Subject: *blergle* Been up a half-hour, brain's still asleep.
Revising: Object Oriented Analysis, Design and Implementation
Getting more interesting as I revise it more, yet the lecturer
still insists on using 20 words to describe a 3 word concept.
Listening to: Radio 1, Dido - Thank You
Mood: So-so. A little annoyed that in my last semester, I haven't
managed to do two seperate pieces of coursework at all. I
can't understand the Data Mining shite, mainly because it's been
so shoddily organised and taught - and the Machine Learning just
happenned to come at a bad time :(
---------------------------------------------[ Thu May 3 14:31:58 2001 GMT ]--
From: Colin,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99)
Subject: Nicked from Paws' nameline:
$_="lo Tugs!";s/\b(\w)/He$1$1/;print;
(to run: (electron ~)51% perl -e '$_="lo Tugs!";s/\b(\w)/He$1$1/;print;')
:-)
---------------------------------------------[ Thu May 3 14:41:51 2001 GMT ]--
From: Colin,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99)
Subject: Forgot I had a project meeting, durr. Made it in for 11:10 or so, not
bad considering I normally leave 45 minutes to get in and that was made in
about 30... woulda been quicker if it weren't for "50 Yard Disease (Bus
Variant)" - the disease that ensures when you are 50yds away from the stop, a
bus will pull up - just too far away to run for, close enough if you really
try. *grr*
---------------------------------------------[ Thu May 3 14:45:30 2001 GMT ]--
From: Colin,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99)
Subject: Yeah, so finished off Chris Harrison's work, not brilliantly done, but
I've fairly well given up caring about that coursework crap anymore. A little
premature, I hear you say? Maybe - but that's it now. No more!
Project Demonstration is on 9th May, 2pm in MSS/F10a is anyone wants
to come and heckle me :) I hope I can get it to work by then! Found a couple
of small problems already - in that Office2k VBA has introduced some handy new
commands that the O97 VBA doesn't have - erk. Like "split()", splitting a
string up like the perl "split()" does.
Solved my text editing and blank lines being inserted in random places
problem - I am such a divvy - I was looking in the wrong place all the time,
D'OH! Glad it's solved, though.
---------------------------------------------[ Thu May 3 20:20:11 2001 GMT ]--
From: Colin,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99)
Subject: I'm supposed to be revising. But honestly - how do you revise for a
proffesional issues course? Let me put in a couple of sample
questions to whet your appetites:
1: a) The Data Protection Act defines the legal rights and obligations of
Data Subjects, Data Processors and Data Controllers in terms of
Personal Data. Briefly explain each of the forthcoming underlined
terms.
b) In what ways might business to consumer electronic commerce be
vunerable to the suggestion that their business processes contravene UK DP
legislation? Give an example that has been subject to discussion by
information privacy lobbies.
Nice question! Part a:) is worth 10 marks, as is b:) - when clearly
part a:) is simple and part b:) actually involves having some knowledge about
case studies. Darnit! Anyhow, think "Amazon.co.uk" and you can answer part
b:) fairly well. Another couple of examples wouldn't go amiss though...
6: a) In what ways, from an ethical perspective, could you argue that
privacy is an important human right? What rights of other individuals or
communities could conflict with the right to privacy? Discuss with
reference to an issue of information privacy.
b) Current UK DP Legislation follows an OECD report and a European
directive in basing its provisions around eight principles of Data
Protection. What are those eight principles?
Another fairly nice one. Part b is simple, pure bookwork - but a is
actually interesting - allows you to talk about just about anything, though
right now I can't recall a particular case, erp :(
[Excuse the edit]
---------------------------------------------[ Thu May 3 23:21:42 2001 GMT ]--
From: Colin,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99)
Subject: ARGH, MORE stories of people being taken advantage of online...
http://news.bbc.co.uk/hi/english/uk/wales/newsid_1310000/1310248.stm
http://news.bbc.co.uk/hi/english/uk/wales/newsid_1143000/1143498.stm
Why can nobody highlight the GOOD side of the web? :-(
---------------------------------------------[ Fri May 4 13:26:23 2001 GMT ]--
From: Colin,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99)
Subject: Damnit Damnit Damnit all I want is an ORDINARY development environment
for VBA, I want one where everything works - not where I have to work around
problems with installations, different versions, different methods,
non-existant objects that SHOULD be standard.
What is going on with this sodding thing? I don't think I know
anymore. I just pray to the great computer angel I have sat on top of my
monitor at home that it works :)
(Don't ask, explain later)
---------------------------------------------[ Sun May 6 11:54:05 2001 GMT ]--
From: Colin,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99)
Subject: As much as it hurts me to say this:
Jabez Bop sucks!
Well, the big cheesey room does, the other one's not too bad :)
---------------------------------------------[ Sun May 6 12:00:35 2001 GMT ]--
From: Colin,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99)
Subject: I need to go to UMST today to work. I was going to do it here but I
forgot to copy it from the Uni servers. Prolly a good thing, TBH - kinda
forces me to do something if I have to go in.
---------------------------------------------[ Sun May 6 13:56:27 2001 GMT ]--
From: Colin,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99)
Subject: IT'S A FOOKING GAME!
It's meant to be fun, not a target for poking holes in you PEDANTS.
---------------------------------------------[ Sun May 6 16:09:32 2001 GMT ]--
From: Colin,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99)
Subject: Grahh
Paper jam in the damn printer, I can't clear it - and have mangled my
finger in the process :( Ouch! *sigh* See, I come to uni to DO stuff and
what happens? It all gets fucked up!
---------------------------------------------[ Mon May 7 13:33:25 2001 GMT ]--
From: Colin,UnpackRachel&ThePunctureRepairKit (phil-99)
Subject: Well, it kinda works....
More than it did do! It seems fine translating a 30 page document but
a 1 line document is screwey? Weird.
---------------------------------------------[ Mon May 7 23:15:43 2001 GMT ]--
From: I'mHereToKeepThePeace,WillYouAllDisperse (phil-99)
Subject: Went into uni again today and spent a coupla hours working on my
project stuff. It at least does something PROPERLY now. Which is a good
thing, as I'm demonstrating it again at 3pm tommorrow. Gareth's great - we
were organising a meeting and he put himself out so I could take an afternoon
slot of his :)
Apart from that, I've done little. I've done my laundry, take a few
photos around the house, uhhhm, spent an age wandering around Manchester just
enjoying the sunshine and trying to hurt as many people as possible who got in
my way :) Didn't succeed in hitting too many people though - my elbows must
have been too busy trying to keep my bag on my shoulders.
I could do with a beer - I might hit some whisky if I feel like my
stomach can take it... hell, never mind my stomach, what about my mouth?
That's vicious stuff :)
---------------------------------------------[ Mon May 7 23:53:11 2001 GMT ]--
From: I'mHereToKeepThePeace,WillYouAllDisperse (phil-99)
Subject: I'm scared, Anastasia on Ally!
Watching this for the first time in months, nothing's changed. It's
still fun to watch and great fun even when Ally's not playing a major part in
it. John Cage and Richard Fish are two of the most hilarious characters on TV
for some reason. They're just so idiotic :)
---------------------------------------------[ Tue May 8 08:33:40 2001 GMT ]--
From: I'mHereToKeepThePeace,WillYouAllDisperse (phil-99)
Subject: Meeting at 3pm, is that enough time to totally re-write sections of my
code? Could be, could be. It really needs it, *sighs*
*fat*
---------------------------------------------[ Tue May 8 15:40:18 2001 GMT ]--
From: I'mHereToKeepThePeace,WillYouAllDisperse (phil-99)
Subject: Meeting never happenned - he Didn't Turn Up, GRRR
So I spent the afternoon making it work :)
It now works as it should do *bounces*
*bounces*
I want beer.
---------------------------------------------[ Tue May 8 21:59:57 2001 GMT ]--
From: I'mHereToKeepThePeace,WillYouAllDisperse (phil-99)
Subject: Has the whole damn world gone crazy? Does Spring/Summer bring out the
most peculiar aspect of people? Do people lose it when the sun comes
out? Seems that way - a number of people seem to have lost their
minds lately.
Project Demo tommorrow. Have to prepare for it. Still not sure what
I'm suppsed to actually say in the presentation aspect of it because
Gareth didn't turn up today. *sighs*
---------------------------------------------[ Thu May 10 17:31:27 2001 GMT ]--
From: I'mHereToKeepThePeace,WillYouAllDisperse (phil-99)
Subject: Demonstration could have gone 100% better, but sod it, it's done with
now and all I have to worry about is exams :)
16 days and counting :(
---------------------------------------------[ Thu May 10 22:39:15 2001 GMT ]--
From: I'mHereToKeepThePeace,WillYouAllDisperse (phil-99)
Subject: Listening to John Peel, some of the stuff he's playing tonight is
truly excellent, I wish I knew where to begin to find some of it.
---------------------------------------------[ Thu May 10 22:44:17 2001 GMT ]--
From: I'mHereToKeepThePeace,WillYouAllDisperse (phil-99)
Subject: Oh, and I'm going to start hosting in Chatgames again...
---------------------------------------------[ Thu May 10 23:34:12 2001 GMT ]--
From: I'mHereToKeepThePeace,WillYouAllDisperse (phil-99)
Subject: And my Stockroom order STILL hasn't arrived :(
Apparently it was shipped on the 28th of April. A week is normally
plenty of time for a package to get from the US to here... *sighs* I really
can't wait for it :)
---------------------------------------------[ Fri May 11 19:17:59 2001 GMT ]--
From: I'mHereToKeepThePeace,WillYouAllDisperse (phil-99)
Subject: I got a headache :(
Must drink more water, apparently. Only had one beer...
What the hell is this crap on Channel 5?!
---------------------------------------------[ Fri May 11 20:34:22 2001 GMT ]--
From: I'mHereToKeepThePeace,WillYouAllDisperse (phil-99)
Subject: I've done so little recently along the lines of work, it's
dissapointing to say the least, but I'm doing lots and lots of reading which
kind of makes up for it in some ways.
Hmmmm
---------------------------------------------[ Sat May 12 09:14:56 2001 GMT ]--
From: I'mHereToKeepThePeace,WillYouAllDisperse (phil-99)
Subject: LJ is becoming a silly waste of more and more of my time!
Am currently sat at 20 "friends" (like Faves), and am constantly
having to check my email to check for replies to comments *g* This is
daft!
---------------------------------------------[ Sat May 12 13:31:11 2001 GMT ]--
From: I'mHereToKeepThePeace,WillYouAllDisperse (phil-99)
Subject: It's so HOT! So NICE!
Had to come back inside for a while though. Just been to town so I
could visit boots, ended up visiting Oddbins in Chorlton on the way back
though, and bought a bottle of Isle of Jura whisky, and 8 bottles of Castle
Lager, yummy. I'm set for the afternoon :)
---------------------------------------------[ Sat May 12 13:37:59 2001 GMT ]--
From: I'mHereToKeepThePeace,WillYouAllDisperse (phil-99)
Subject: I hope this weather lasts - warm weather is ideal for losing weight :)
I'm sure it's not just me who thinks that either. When the weather is like
this I tend to eat so much less - just as long as I make sure I drink plenty.
Oh, should also mention I got my 3rd threatening letter from LA
Fitness today, never mind that I called them up and asked them what to do, and
they said "write a letter and ask for a cancellation, we'll give you some time
to do it." Well, I did write a letter, heard nothing back and then this, bang
- a letter demanding #250 or so. Uhhh?! For a maximum of 5 months payments of
#28 a month?! GRRRRRRRR!
Written another letter, hopefully they'll take notice of this one.
---------------------------------------------[ Sun May 13 10:36:27 2001 GMT ]--
From: I'mHereToKeepThePeace,WillYouAllDisperse (phil-99)
Subject: Prompted by Jazz's latest edit...
I seem to be suffering a lot this summer, from everything that I never
have in the past. First sign of anything was Bec and Case(is it a y or an
e?)'s cats giving me a horrendous case of the sniffles, now I've got permanent
sinus pain during the day. Bloody summer :)
I bought myself some Anti-histamines but I don't want to take them
unless it gets really bad, seeing as they cost nearly 4 quid for 7 tablets.
Not only that, but I'm a firm believer in not taking drugs unless it's
necessary to continue with your normal life (i.e. - you're in severe pain,
anti-biotics for certain illnesses and anti-depressants are a few good
examples).
I also want to make sure it really IS a problem that can be solved by
anti-histamines, so I want to see how bad it gets without them, and take them
sometime soon and see if they do make a difference. I hope they do.
---------------------------------------------[ Sun May 13 10:39:46 2001 GMT ]--
From: I'mHereToKeepThePeace,WillYouAllDisperse (phil-99)
Subject: I was going to go round to Caroline and Andrew's last night until I
remembered I'd promised to do otherwise this morning. Getting back from there
is really too tricky to justify it, but I HAVE to go sometime. I really must.
I'm only in Manchester for another month, you realise?
I went round to M.'s instead, watched Eurovision (yuck) and went to
see Captain Corelli's Mandolin (which is well worth watching, see review
somewhere else). Got some very nice pictures of Longford Park when we took
Poppy out for a walk. Will post them sometime soon :)
---------------------------------------------[ Sun May 13 10:50:48 2001 GMT ]--
From: I'mHereToKeepThePeace,WillYouAllDisperse (phil-99)
Subject: A month.
A month and I leave. I leave this place. I leave this house I've
been in for a year, I leave the friends I've made over the last 2 years, I
leave the city I've come to actually like after a year of hating the place, and
I leave behind what has been a wonderful 2(some would say 3) years for pastures
new.
I don't wanna go now.
---------------------------------------------[ Sun May 13 12:46:23 2001 GMT ]--
From: I'mHereToKeepThePeace,WillYouAllDisperse (phil-99)
Subject: Sorry to do another Pronolise link:
http://pornolize.com/cgi-bin/pornolize/pornolize.cgi?lang=en&url=www.cus.org.uk
%2F%7Ephil-99%2Findex2.html
Oh dear :)
---------------------------------------------[ Sun May 13 16:44:05 2001 GMT ]--
From: I'mHereToKeepThePeace,WillYouAllDisperse (phil-99)
Subject: Tired. Sore head. Fat. Poor.
Bad day.
---------------------------------------------[ Sun May 13 21:43:22 2001 GMT ]--
From: I'mHereToKeepThePeace,WillYouAllDisperse (phil-99)
Subject: Oh yeah, this Whisky is REALLY hitting the spot.
It's wonderful. Yummy. Much much nicer than that Ardbeg stuff which
I can't drink. Isle of Jura, yummy. That and Castle lager shouldn't
go together but they do, quite well.
---------------------------------------------[ Mon May 14 16:02:13 2001 GMT ]--
From: I'mHereToKeepThePeace,WillYouAllDisperse (phil-99)
Subject: Babis Theodulidis is a moron
I'm trying to read through his notes - and basically they don't give
any idea of what you should know when you come to the end of a lecture. There
are some statements of facts, there are some diagrams, but there is nothing
that says "at the end of this lecture, you should know: x, y and z".
The guy is a prat.
---------------------------------------------[ Mon May 14 16:50:49 2001 GMT ]--
From: I'mHereToKeepThePeace,WillYouAllDisperse (phil-99)
Subject: 6th August
This is the date that I start work for good. I can't wait :)
So, I have June and July to do with as I please. June I plan on going
home sometime around the 20th, ask my parents to come down and help me with my
stuff, give the keys to the house back and so forth. Then I plan on buying
tickets to the USA and travelling lots after before or after Graduation,
which is on the 3rd July, I think. Best check.
Yep.
---------------------------------------------[ Mon May 14 16:54:09 2001 GMT ]--
From: I'mHereToKeepThePeace,WillYouAllDisperse (phil-99)
Subject: Hmmmm, according to Lark's diary, I think I fit into this category:
"My Life Is Really Interesting If You Know Me"
---------------------------------------------[ Tue May 15 11:33:30 2001 GMT ]--
From: I'mHereToKeepThePeace,WillYouAllDisperse (phil-99)
Subject: Or maybe:
"I'm An Undergrad And I'm O.K., I Sleep All Night And I Sleep All Day"
Not for much longer, yippeeeeee!
---------------------------------------------[ Tue May 15 18:30:52 2001 GMT ]--
From: I'mHereToKeepThePeace,WillYouAllDisperse (phil-99)
Subject: Sorry, but I just HAD to copy and paste this from armchair's diary:
..::''''::..
.:::. .;'' ``;.
.... ::::: :: :: :: ::
,;' .;: () ..: `:::' :: :: :: ::
::. ..:,:;.,:;. . :: .::::. `:' :: .:' :: :: `:. ::
'''::, :: :: :: `:: :: ;: .:: : :: : : ::
,:'; ::; :: :: :: :: :: ::,::''. . :: `:. .:' ::
`:,,,,;;' ,;; ,;;, ;;, ,;;, ,;;, `:,,,,:' :;: `;..``::::''..;'
``::,,,,::''
CUTE! :)
---------------------------------------------[ Tue May 15 22:21:22 2001 GMT ]--
From: I'mHereToKeepThePeace,WillYouAllDisperse (phil-99)
Subject: 2 exams tommorrow, ughughUGHUGH
Night.
---------------------------------------------[ Wed May 16 17:11:01 2001 GMT ]--
From: I'mHereToKeepThePeace,WillYouAllDisperse (phil-99)
Subject: HoHum
Yeah, exams weren't as bad as I expected at all, so I'm relatively
happy :) Next one Friday - should be slightly harder. Can revise plenty for
that though, I enjoy the subject lots :)
Meet now!! :)
---------------------------------------------[ Wed May 16 21:22:37 2001 GMT ]--
From: I'mHereToKeepThePeace,WillYouAllDisperse (phil-99)
Subject: Renaissance Man is on TV - BBC Choice
This really is a truly wonderful film. Danny DeVito manages to pull
off his role with excellence. The supporting cast give him a good grounding
for the rest of the film :)
The story: Danny is a advertising executive who loses his job, and
ends up with a teaching post in an Army camp, teaching the "Double D's", the
people who failed some test. He starts off by trying to get them to read, but
they ask him questions on the copy of Hamlet he's reading. He ends up teaching
them Shakespeare, and of course - forming a bond with them.
He feels that one of the kids he's teaching shouldn't be where he is,
and requests that the big-boss man looks closer at him. Of course, this lad
turns out to be a drug dealer, and gets carted off with the MPs. Not good.
I'll tell you more as the film progresses - I forgot the rest :)
---------------------------------------------[ Wed May 16 21:25:49 2001 GMT ]--
From: I'mHereToKeepThePeace,WillYouAllDisperse (phil-99)
Subject: I went out and bought the soundtrack to this film because of this
piece of music that's playing now. As Benito's being arrested there's a
wonderful piece of rap in the background - I think it's 2Pac, but it's not on
the soundtrack :( *sighs* Oh well.
The rest of the album is good for certain situations anyhow - military
style music - lots of marches, lots of brass, lots of drums and horns. Great
for rousing yourself :)
---------------------------------------------[ Wed May 16 21:31:24 2001 GMT ]--
From: I'mHereToKeepThePeace,WillYouAllDisperse (phil-99)
Subject: Oh Yeah, now I remember. Danny DeVito has an epihpany type thing, and
starts treating his daughter properly :) He admits to the class that
he was the one that caused Benito to get busted and they learn to
accept that you do what you do and he didn't do it maliciously.
Now they're all in a van, driving somewhere?
---------------------------------------------[ Wed May 16 21:32:22 2001 GMT ]--
From: I'mHereToKeepThePeace,WillYouAllDisperse (phil-99)
Subject: Ahhh yes - they're going to Canada to watch a production of Hamlet.
---------------------------------------------[ Thu May 17 19:56:39 2001 GMT ]--
From: I'mHereToKeepThePeace,WillYouAllDisperse (phil-99)
Subject: I have a video player, yay!
Darren's video player broke over christmas and refused to get it fixed
for some reason. He also said he was just going to throw it out. So today I
took it to the repair shop and got it fixed for #35, and he said I could keep
it. Nice :)
---------------------------------------------[ Fri May 18 14:35:01 2001 GMT ]--
From: I'mHereToKeepThePeace,WillYouAllDisperse (phil-99)
Subject: My head hurts :(
I cramped up very nastily in the exam today. Bent over the desk and
my stomach just went, really sorely. I just had to sit and try and stretch it
out as best I could, ended up wasting about 5-10 minutes because I was so
damned sore.
Also developed what I hesitate to call a migraine but something that
was worse than a headache around 75 minutes into it. I worked through it as
much as I could but ended up leaving at 90 minutes - I was finished but I
didn't look through the paper like I normally do. It hasn't gone away :(
Yeah, so the paper wasn't bad. Coulda been much worse, coulda been
much better though. After, I went for Chinese at the all youc an eat place
with Alex, not bad at all. Not brilliant, but not bad. My card was declined.
Oh dear. This is "a bad thing". I think I need to go to the bank and beg them
for a loan, no matter how much I'd rather not.
---------------------------------------------[ Sat May 19 22:48:04 2001 GMT ]--
From: PioneerSpeakersSmokingAsISmokeOnThePound (phil-99)
Subject: *tired*
Thanks go C, A and Bob for a nice night. Albeit a late night, but a
nice one. And on that note, I am going to bed.
---------------------------------------------[ Sun May 20 15:06:55 2001 GMT ]--
From: PioneerSpeakersSmokingAsISmokeOnThePound (phil-99)
Subject: http://test.thespark.com/sextest/sex.cgi
Congrats! In your life, you'll have sex with:
o 13 people!
Including the 2 you've already had sex with, that makes 11 new lovers!
The info on your 11 future sex partner(s):
o 7 of them will be female
o 4 of them will be male
o And you will actually love 3 of them!
o As you get older, your tastes will change drastically.
Current Music: Dougls Adams - 4- Mostly Harmless
---------------------------------------------[ Sun May 20 19:58:47 2001 GMT ]--
From: PioneerSpeakersSmokingAsISmokeOnThePound (phil-99)
Subject: First person to figure out where my nameline comes from
Gets either a hug, a pint, or a snog depending on what they want.
---------------------------------------------[ Mon May 21 00:32:51 2001 GMT ]--
From: PioneerSpeakersSmokingAsISmokeOnThePound (phil-99)
Subject: I forgot how much fun ChatGames can be when it gets busy. The place
just descends into chaos occasionally ;-)
---------------------------------------------[ Mon May 21 11:32:03 2001 GMT ]--
From: PioneerSpeakersPumpingAsISmokeOnThePound (phil-99)
Subject: *stretch and yawn*
Nemone rocks.
I'ev got to think of stuff I can DO this week... I was talking to my
mum yesterday and I'll be going home on or around the 15th June. Never to
return to Manchester. Well, apart from my graduation :)
I'm also utterly skint. Can't decide whether to call up Barclaycard
and beg for more cash or whether that would be a monumentally stupid thing to
do. Or whether it would be better to go to the bank.
*ponders*
---------------------------------------------[ Tue May 22 00:20:12 2001 GMT ]--
From: PioneerSpeakersPumpingAsISmokeOnThePound (phil-99)
Subject: I'm going to hurt them, I really am...
Alex and his girlf are currently arguing. Outside the front of the
house. I can occasionally hear them inside, through 2 doors. I've also gone
outside to rescue her when I heard her scream and a car skidding. NOT happy.
---------------------------------------------[ Tue May 22 11:43:20 2001 GMT ]--
From: PioneerSpeakersPumpingAsISmokeOnThePound (phil-99)
Subject: Trying to figure out how the "codes" on a web page work for OnDig :)
Just tried May's, but to no avail. Try June's and see if that makes
any difference :)
---------------------------------------------[ Tue May 22 12:02:40 2001 GMT ]--
From: PioneerSpeakersPumpingAsISmokeOnThePound (phil-99)
Subject: Revise, revise revise. That's what this afternoon and evening will be
about. Oh, and laundry - and hoovering. And tidying up the mess that
Alex and Katriona will have made, no doubt.
So guess what? Revision of course comes last in that list :)
---------------------------------------------[ Tue May 22 20:28:52 2001 GMT ]--
From: PioneerSpeakersPumpingAsISmokeOnThePound (phil-99)
Subject: Well none of that got done. Surprisng? Nope :)
Mad Max is on tonight, might revise with that on in the background.
---------------------------------------------[ Wed May 23 10:05:14 2001 GMT ]--
From: PioneerSpeakersPumpingAsISmokeOnThePound (phil-99)
Subject: :-) - Stockroom order here!!!
:-( - They left it with 12 pounds P&P Owing! *growls*
---------------------------------------------[ Wed May 23 11:47:53 2001 GMT ]--
From: PioneerSpeakersPumpingAsISmokeOnThePound (phil-99)
Subject: It's HERE! It's HERE!
*bounces*
It was Customs and Excise, not P&P :( Bastards!
---------------------------------------------[ Wed May 23 12:10:40 2001 GMT ]--
From: PioneerSpeakersPumpingAsISmokeOnThePound (phil-99)
Subject: *bounces excitedly* I like I like!
Damn I'm like a kid with a new toy, LOL
---------------------------------------------[ Wed May 23 22:14:20 2001 GMT ]--
From: PioneerSpeakersPumpingAsISmokeOnThePound (phil-99)
Subject: Eyes Wide Shut
I can't decide if I think this is an excellent or absolutely awful
film. There's so much weirdness in it - but lots of nakedness :) I don't
know. Maybe I should watch it again and again...
---------------------------------------------[ Thu May 24 11:01:53 2001 GMT ]--
From: PioneerSpeakersPumpingAsISmokeOnThePound (phil-99)
Subject: *stretches*
*yawns*
*grumbles*
ACC are pissing me off now. Demanding money that I was sure I'd paid
them. Best check. Who else annoyed me today? Oh no, it was just ACC Telecom.
Surprisingly enough.
Got a graduate loan letter from Barclays today. Damn it's tempting!
Would temporarily solve all my money problems I have to admit! And up to two
year's worth of deferring payments... *thinks*
I might go down the bank and talk to someone, see if it's sensible.
---------------------------------------------[ Thu May 24 12:34:55 2001 GMT ]--
From: PioneerSpeakersPumpingAsISmokeOnThePound (phil-99)
Subject: Well it appears sensible. Unfortunately I need a letter from UMIST
guaranteeing that I've finished and passed my course (or my graduation
certificate). I wonder if I could push Colin Walter into giving me one? :)
It sounds great - they give you a loan which pays off your overdraught
(yes, swapping debt for debt), which you can then defer for up to 2 years, and
you still have the option of using the graduate account's o/d facility. Nice.
As does the other type of grad loan - up to #10,000 for things like cars, low
interest and 3 month payment holiday. But I won't even look at that for a
while yet :)
So, my options now. Option number one that I want to avoid is going
to the local "Shopacheck" type place and having them hold a cheque for 30 days.
It would work - I could do that and ensure I have enough cash - but I'd rather
not :)
Option number 2: Borrow beg and steal :) Hopefully I can avoid this!
Option number 3: Live like a hermit ;-)
---------------------------------------------[ Thu May 24 13:27:34 2001 GMT ]--
From: PioneerSpeakersPumpingAsISmokeOnThePound (phil-99)
Subject: And nobody's come forward to claim ownership of my nameline yet :)
*proud*
Mind you, why anyone would know Warren G lyrics like me is beyond me!!
---------------------------------------------[ Thu May 24 14:03:48 2001 GMT ]--
From: PioneerSpeakersPumpingAsISmokeOnThePound (phil-99)
Subject: Checked the tourist rates at Thomas Cook today for the #:$ rate...
1.36 USD to 1 GBP??? When I went last Christmas it was at 1.6!
What's going on with the pound? :( Bastards, just because I want to feel rich
in at least one country :)
---------------------------------------------[ Fri May 25 23:41:16 2001 GMT ]--
From: PioneerSpeakersPumpingAsISmokeOnThePound (phil-99)
Subject: I had a really nice surprise yesterday
I got a phone call at about 6:30-ish from Rachel, asking me if I
fancied going out for a drink or two as she was in Manchester with best friend
Keith. I agreed, and met them in Harry's :)
Moved onto the ScuBar later on, and were about to head off to my place
and curry at the PoH when I got an SMS from Nige, saying "beer" :-) Called him
up, turns out that him and Dunc were in the Hogshead! So we had to go and say
hello :) Then we moved onto Rockworld. This was my 1st mistake :-)
Danced around in Rockworld for a while, left at 2am, back home, spod
and talk. When it got to 4am we decided that sleep was a silly idea as I had
an exam at 9:30, and had to be up at 6:30-7 anyhow. This was my 2nd mistake.
Chatted and listened to the radio/Simpsons albums, then went and watched a
couple fo Simpsons eps, half asleep.
I left for my exam at around 8:15, did it half asleep and left in an
hour - it went badly - REALLY badly. It might have been better if I was more
awake but not much. Even if I had spent the night revising it would have made
no difference - I was apparently revising the wrong stuff. I woulda thought
that the example questions wopuld give an idea of what to work on - *sigh*
I got home at about 11:00, finding the alarm on which confused the
hell outta me! Found Rachel curled up in bed trying not to set off the sensor
in my room :-) She left at about 11:30-12 and I slept from midday-6pm. Nice!
Lovely night. Need more of them.
---------------------------------------------[ Mon May 28 15:56:58 2001 GMT ]--
From: PioneerSpeakersPumpingAsISmokeOnThePound (phil-99)
Subject: Weekend revolved around flirting, innuendo and lewd comments. This is
a good thing. :) Much fun was had by all, I think!
Shame that some people had to leave, but in another am glad - getting
new peeps along and losing others prolly kept it from getting too
crowded.
Hugs go out to all!
Oh, and apparantly I revealed my true colours over the weekend. Not
sure if I scared anyone away or not :)
---------------------------------------------[ Mon May 28 23:11:47 2001 GMT ]--
From: PioneerSpeakersPumpingAsISmokeOnThePound (phil-99)
Subject: An extract from my diary logs:
101/05/28 23:03 madbob Faves : Phil-99
101/05/28 23:03 madbob Faves : Phil-99
...
...
...
101/05/28 23:04 madbob Faves : Phil-99
101/05/28 23:04 madbob Faves : Phil-99
101/05/28 23:04 madbob Faves : Phil-99
101/05/28 23:04 madbob Faves : Phil-99
101/05/28 23:04 madbob Faves : Phil-99
101/05/28 23:04 madbob Faves : Phil-99
101/05/28 23:04 madbob Faves : Phil-99
101/05/28 23:04 madbob Faves : Phil-99
101/05/28 23:04 madbob Faves : Phil-99
101/05/28 23:04 madbob Faves : Phil-99
101/05/28 23:04 madbob Faves : Phil-99
101/05/28 23:04 madbob Faves : Phil-99
101/05/28 23:04 madbob Faves : Phil-99
---------------------------------------------[ Tue May 29 17:58:32 2001 GMT ]--
From: PioneerSpeakersPumpingAsISmokeOnThePound (phil-99)
Subject: Boring day. Got dressed around an hour ago.
Need to go pick up Graduation tickets tommorrow. 10am? Yuck.
Drinking Diet Coke. This is a good thing :) I haven't drank any
fizzy drinks in a while, and I've gone through 4litres in 2 days. Might
explain why my stomach's feeling a little odd.
Hmm.
Burnt a CD last night, lost the case already. Before it was finished.
Tedium?
---------------------------------------------[ Tue May 29 22:17:57 2001 GMT ]--
From: PioneerSpeakersPumpingAsISmokeOnThePound (phil-99)
Subject: UKP#200 phone bill
OK we haven't actually received it yet, but looking on BT.com shows me
that there's over UKP#40 worth of porn line calls, without even adding on VAT.
I wish it _was_ me in some ways :) Would make it easier to show to the others
:)
A very very quick look at the consolidated bill (thanks be for my
little Perl script to work out how much the total calls to each number costs)
and I can see about 2 numbers that might be mine. Mainly because I use ACC as
an indirect access provider to save me money.
Might have a few more there. Mobile numbers and utilities are two
that I _know_ exist for me. Speaking of which, best call up North-West Water
tommorrow and get them to stop taking my money :)
---------------------------------------------[ Tue May 29 23:43:44 2001 GMT ]--
From: PioneerSpeakersPumpingAsISmokeOnThePound (phil-99)
Subject: Ahhhhh
So Perl DOES have it's uses :)
Even if it is tortuous to get there, you can get there eventually.
---------------------------------------------[ Wed May 30 01:04:18 2001 GMT ]--
From: PioneerSpeakersPumpingAsISmokeOnThePound (phil-99)
Subject: I just found out why I hate the people I live with (again)
I just stepped on a slug. In my living room. In my socks. Can we
say "UGH!"? And do we know WHY there was a slug in our living room? Because
of the dirty plates that they can not be arsed to pick up that have now been
there 2 days.
COME ON GUYS! I can't and WON'T clear up after you forever.
I wonder if either of them have moved the towel in the bathroom yet,
or whether it's grown legs and started to make it's way downstairs? (Our bath
leaks slightly, so there was a towel put by the side of it to prevent
ultra-spillage. Not by me, I hasten to add, I thought it was a dumb idea
because it was likely to get forgotten about. Hence it got forgotten about
and has now started to develop into a sentient being.)
Hum.
---------------------------------------------[ Wed May 30 01:11:57 2001 GMT ]--
From: PioneerSpeakersPumpingAsISmokeOnThePound (phil-99)
Subject: I did it again...
I fired up IE - in fact, all I did was maximised it from the taskbar.
I had something very specific that I was going to do, and I can't remember what
it was that I was going to do now that it's eventually started again.
This is getting really frustrating!
---------------------------------------------[ Wed May 30 16:41:46 2001 GMT ]--
From: PioneerSpeakersPumpingAsISmokeOnThePound (phil-99)
Subject: My screen's gone wonky. It's bendy. I feel like it's on a slant.
This is so ODD!
---------------------------------------------[ Wed May 30 19:28:11 2001 GMT ]--
From: PioneerSpeakersPumpingAsISmokeOnThePound (phil-99)
Subject: Laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaag
As I typed the G on that sentence I couldn't yet see the L.
Wonder if Mono's dropped back to ISDN?
---------------------------------------------[ Wed May 30 21:55:02 2001 GMT ]--
From: PioneerSpeakersPumpingAsISmokeOnThePound (phil-99)
Subject: There is currently a peculiar proggie on C4
About a bunch of lads and lassies who went to some foreign place and
are in a villa with someone watching there every move. Kinda like BB but not
really - this lot are a bunch of druggies and alcoholics, it appears.
I'm not entirely sure what this is meant to be.
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Jun 2 21:55:44 2001 GMT ]--
From: PioneerSpeakersPumpingAsISmokeOnThePound (phil-99)
Subject: Weekend, weekend. More later.
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Jun 3 20:37:51 2001 GMT ]--
From: PioneerSpeakersPumpingAsISmokeOnThePound (phil-99)
Subject: I have two things I wish to mention tonight.
One of them, is relationships.
One of them is something else, which I currently forget. But there is
something else. Honestly! I'm sure it had something to do with last night,
but I can't remember - how annoying is that?
Unfortunately, these might end up as "certain-friends only" posts on
LiveJournal, as did last night's. Sorry. You can assume what you like from
that, but let's just suffice to say that I don't think EVERYBODY should be able
to read what I write all of the time.
Must write more... I will do. Time.
And maybe less alcohol. Been drinking since I got home at 2000. This
bottle of whisky really won't last long. You know things are bad when you're
foregoing glasses........
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Jun 4 10:30:18 2001 GMT ]--
From: PioneerSpeakersPumpingAsISmokeOnThePound (phil-99)
Subject: I need to do some things today.
I need to start packing stuff. I leave on Thursday. I haven't even
thought about anything going anyplace yet. I also need to go to the bank and
deposit this nice cheque. UKP#810.52, nice. Plus around UKP#100 in cash.
Even nicer!
Was expecting Pete to call but nothing as of yet.
So will get offline, go shower and stuff, then start packing up some
crap. I guess this means I'm well and truly going, hey? *sighs*
Many thanks to Lou for listening to me last night.
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Jun 4 18:27:23 2001 GMT ]--
From: PioneerSpeakersPumpingAsISmokeOnThePound (phil-99)
Subject: I can't decide if I want to put this in here or not. *sighs*
No, I think I'll be happy with it where it is.
Obsession and voting. My 2 topics. (As soon as I can be bothered,
anyhow. Don't feel like much right now. Except maybe beer. Yes, I
like that idea. Beer.)
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Jun 4 21:30:39 2001 GMT ]--
From: PioneerSpeakersPumpingAsISmokeOnThePound (phil-99)
Subject: Thank you for a very nice weekend people.
Colin and Rachel - having you as guests was mostly superb :)
Bob - thanks for organising stuff (especially bowling and food)
Caroline - thanks for the big and long hugs when I went to leave
Jo - I apologise if I was rude to you on Saturday, I don't think I
was, but I really wanted to go home and spend some time alone.
Pete - whenever I see you I feel that I never see enough of ya, must
actually spend some time with you next time, when I'm awake.
Thanks again.
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Jun 5 10:26:43 2001 GMT ]--
From: PioneerSpeakersPumpingAsISmokeOnThePound (phil-99)
Subject: Yes, anyhow. Obsessions.
The Buffy obsession is one that no matter how much I try, I can't
understand. I've been surrounded by Buffy a lot of this weekend, with Rachel
and Colin both being fans, then getting them in the same room as Caroline,
Ruthy and John who are also fans. Need I say more? :)
I don't understand how people can be so obsessive about it. The
closest parallel I can draw to myself, is to my love of the Simpsons, but other
than that, there is nothing that I feel the need to learn everything about,
watch repeatedly and fall in love with.
In fact - my Simpsons love isn't anything like the thing that all the
Buffy people I know have. The B thing is so much more intense - it is almost
like everything hangs off and revolves around the next episode, when the next
box set is released, when the next signing will be. And it all just seems a
little over the top, silly - if you will.
Yes, the characters are good looking. Yes, the scripts are well
written (I may have seen more episodes than I let on). Yes Yes Yes to most
questions relating to "Is Buffy fun?", but I don't see it as anything but
another (occasionally fun) American sci-fi cult TV show, and don't see how it
can be so important to anyone.
Last but not least - if you feel this applies to you - please don't
try to convince me that I should get into it. If you want to try to explain
why you feel the need to do what you do, fine - but I'm not going to be
an easy convert :)
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Jun 5 10:54:43 2001 GMT ]--
From: PioneerSpeakersPumpingAsISmokeOnThePound (phil-99)
Subject: I had the most peculiar dream last night.
I was in an exam, and I remember looking at the paper, thinking "am I
really meant to be here?" There was nothing written on the front page and when
I turned it over, it looked distinctly like a physics paper, but not physic-sy
enough, for some reason. So I got up, wandered to the front and asked the
invigilator what I was doing there. He didn't know what the paper was or what
course it was for, so I went back to my desk, read through the paper and left.
That was odd...
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Jun 5 18:58:50 2001 GMT ]--
From: PioneerSpeakersPumpingAsISmokeOnThePound (phil-99)
Subject: Thursday is when I leave. Then I'm back for graduation on the 3rd
July. I'm trying to pack but failing fairly miserably. I can't seem to get
everything together and into bags/boxes. I've got 3 boxes of books and loose
CDs, I haven't even started on the videos yet.
*whimpers* No fair. I wanted to say so much more when I was saying
goodbye but couldn't. Bloody "feelings". What's the point? :)
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Jun 6 21:25:10 2001 GMT ]--
From: PioneerSpeakersPumpingAsISmokeOnThePound (phil-99)
Subject: Goodbye to Michelle, Ian and David tonight.
I think that's everyone now. If I missed you - sorry dudes.
*hugs* to everyone in the north - have fun, and if that involves being
good or bad, make sure you enjoy it :) I know I'm going to.
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Jun 7 01:33:27 2001 GMT ]--
From: PioneerSpeakersPumpingAsISmokeOnThePound (phil-99)
Subject: Well that was interesting. No thanks to AOL's SMTP servers being
extraordinarily flakey (and you can't complain seeing as they don't
Support SMTP at ALL), I now have copies all over the place.
Long live FTP! :)
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Jun 8 00:52:19 2001 GMT ]--
From: PioneerSpeakersPumpingAsISmokeOnThePound (phil-99)
Subject: Today I have mostly been...
Moving house.
Yeah. I'm in Glasgow. Well, Helensburgh. Spodding from my dad's
computer, whilst I find all my bits :) *sighs* I really really struggled to
leave.
Oh well... onto bigger abd potentially better things, eh?
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Jun 9 00:09:06 2001 GMT ]--
From: PioneerSpeakersPumpingAsISmokeOnThePound (phil-99)
Subject: Nothing to say today.
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Jun 10 12:06:14 2001 GMT ]--
From: PioneerSpeakersPumpingAsISmokeOnThePound (phil-99)
Subject: Not much more to say today, neither.
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Jun 10 23:03:43 2001 GMT ]--
From: PioneerSpeakersPumpingAsISmokeOnThePound (phil-99)
Subject: Well, nothing has happenned.
Bought some new shoes and trousers. Whoopti-do.
Thrown out a load of crap.
Eaten ice cream (just a few mins ago - HD Baileys isn't that nice)
Going to eat crisps
Going to book flight tommorrow, if I can.
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Jun 12 14:16:47 2001 GMT ]--
From: PioneerSpeakersPumpingAsISmokeOnThePound (phil-99)
Subject: Daily Telegraph - World News, Page 15
Priest takes murdered king's soul into exile.
By Rahul Bedi in New Delhi
A Nepali priest rode off on an elephant for a lifetime of exile yesterday in a
ceremony designed to exorcise the ghosts of the royal massacre.
Wearing the late King Birendrea's shoes, socks and spectacles, Durga Prasad
Sapkota was deemed by Nepalese Hindu ritual to be taking the king's spirit with
him to a remote mountainous region where he will spend the rest of his life as
an "unholy outcast".
Devout Nepalis believe his departure will ease the troubles in the country
since the massacre on June 1, when Crown Prince Dipendra murdered nine members
of the royal family before fatally shooting himself.
Before leaving Kathmandu, the frail 75yr old Brahmin, who volunteered for the
role, sat in a tent on the banks of the Bagmati river and ate 84 different
items, including rice and vegetables, from silver bowls. In ancient times, he
would have eaten part of the king's brain, but yesterday the leg of a
sacrificed goat served the purpose.
After the meal, he put on a red and gold brocade dress and the king's footwear
and spectacles. Arranged around the tent were the king's sofa, study table,
leather briefcase, peacock feather fan and radio.
A silver crown with a long white plume, similar to the king's, was placed on
Sapkota's head and he sat under a bamboo canopy, signifying the throne.
Prime Minister Girija Prasad Koirala then offered the priest money before
asking him if he was happy. "I am happy, I have everything now. I just don't
have a house. I need a house," replied Sapkota. According to tradition, the
banished priest is granted all his demands.
He was, however, given 8,000 raised from an appeal before mounting the
brightly-painted elephant that will remain with him in exile.
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Jun 12 14:34:54 2001 GMT ]--
From: PioneerSpeakersPumpingAsISmokeOnThePound (phil-99)
Subject: Oh yes. Next rant.
What is the fuss about A/S levels about?!?! I did A/S levels when I
was in yr 12, and they didn't fuck me up! (Well). That's the way it should be
done, IMO! Let people do A/S' in yr 12 and then the full A in yr 13, not like
you have to learn any more material. The whole point of the A/S isn't that
they're easier, just that there's less material to cover in the time
provided. Hence they are ideal for one year courses, or taking in the 1st year
of 6th form.
I don't understand why people are making a fuss about it?
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Jun 12 14:48:03 2001 GMT ]--
From: PioneerSpeakersPumpingAsISmokeOnThePound (phil-99)
Subject: So, what do you think?
An analysis of your name, from: http://www.kabalarians.com/gkh/your.htm
Phil
----------------------------------------------------------------------------
The name of Phil makes you very idealistic, sensitive, and inspirational. If
these qualities are not understood and properly directed through music, art,
or other creative expression, you could become jealous and possessive of
those close to you. Your feelings are so strong that you are inclined to
build your life around certain individuals and become wrapped up in
personal love rather than seeking into the deeper truths of life; thus you
could suffer losses in your affections and shattered ideals. You are
generous and people are drawn to you because of your friendly and
sympathetic nature. You lack system and order in your life and will often
leave your own duties if someone calls upon you for assistance. When you
are inspired and feel happy, life seems so wonderful; but you can be just
as depressed and unhappy as well, feeling as if everyone is against you
The weakness of this name could create nervous breakdowns, or disorders
related to the nervous system.
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Jun 12 15:03:44 2001 GMT ]--
From: PioneerSpeakersPumpingAsISmokeOnThePound (phil-99)
Subject: NEXT Rant.
My mother. SHe cannot handle silence. It's so frustrating. I'm
tired, I want to sit ni the car and vegetate. I don't like talking when I'm
travelling anyhow. She spends the entire journey trying to talk, and even when
I don't respond to whatever she says, she still continues. ARGH!
It's so frustrating, I just want to say "Mum, SHUT UP", but can't.
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Jun 12 21:28:03 2001 GMT ]--
From: PioneerSpeakersPumpingAsISmokeOnThePound (phil-99)
Subject: Someone come to Helensburh and rescue me from this tedium, please?
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Jun 13 00:21:42 2001 GMT ]--
From: PioneerSpeakersPumpingAsISmokeOnThePound (phil-99)
Subject: Oooooooooo!
Split screen using "screen", I didn't know it could do this!
Albeit a little fiddly, but CUTE!
*mental note. ^A followed by S, using ^I to focus!*
CUTE!
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Jun 13 12:21:40 2001 GMT ]--
From: PioneerSpeakersPumpingAsISmokeOnThePound (phil-99)
Subject: Off to town, something exciting, perhaps? Best take camera - it's
nice out! See if I can get nice pics. Will post URLs of some of the
others I took the other day at Sunset.
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Jun 13 23:05:39 2001 GMT ]--
From: PioneerSpeakersPumpingAsISmokeOnThePound (phil-99)
Subject: Kate's just popped online.
Why do I find it hardest to deal with people at times like this, when
I'm so far away from anything I can do about it? *sighs*
*sighs*
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Jun 16 00:05:28 2001 GMT ]--
From: PioneerSpeakersPumpingAsISmokeOnThePound (phil-99)
Subject: 5.6 and 4.19. Not bad at all, IMHO :)
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Jun 17 09:36:04 2001 GMT ]--
From: PioneerSpeakersPumpingAsISmokeOnThePound (phil-99)
Subject: Tum-te-tum
Saturday afternoon/early evening spent in pub with Damian (tufty).
Nice! Thanks for rescuing me from certain death by tediosity!
Come home and drink lots.
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Jun 18 11:05:17 2001 GMT ]--
From: PioneerSpeakersPumpingAsISmokeOnThePound (phil-99)
Subject: I have a hangover.
This is a bad thing.
You don't go out and try to match a 45yr old sailor pint for pint and
come out alive :) *holds head to stop it from unscrewing*
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Jun 21 12:22:26 2001 GMT ]--
From: PioneerSpeakersPumpingAsISmokeOnThePound (phil-99)
Subject: Blimey... 3 days.
So, I went out on Sunday with Ian, one of dad's friends. His daughter
has been in the US, doing school things out there for the past year, and came
back last week. Can I just say I am supremely jealous? VERY jealous.
*grumbles* :)
Uhhhhm, been to Glasgow a coupla times, out to the new (to me)
Braehead shopping centre - which is absolutely tiny when compared to the
Trafford Centre. Their food court is smaller than the seating area at the TC,
I swear to you! :)
Booked flight to the US, told you that, but also got flight from
Manchester->Heathrow and Heathrow->Glasgow on BA for under 80 quid, which I
thought was truly exellent. Ticket is 50, plus 25 tax, grrrrr. How can they
justify that kind of money? :(
My holiday isn't being planned well. This is a bad thing. I need to
talk to parents about borrowing enough cash to rent a car until I get a loan
from Barclays (or start work). If it comes to it, I'll take public transport,
but I'd much rather drive. I don't even have night 1 sorted out yet. Best do
it soon.
Ho hum.
And accomodation in Winchester. ARGH!
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Jun 22 14:45:00 2001 GMT ]--
From: PioneerSpeakersPumpingAsISmokeOnThePound (phil-99)
Subject: OK, first night in NY comfirmed: staying with Roger (thanks geezer!)
from Chatgames - well - administrator, programmer and all round CG
admin :) Thanks dude! West 105th. Nice enough area IIRC :)
Moving on to PA on day two, staying there for a week or so. Then
hopefully returning to NY to spend some decent amount of time
exploring. Having just bought myself a Rough Guide to the city, I
should be able to amuse myself :)
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Jun 23 21:30:26 2001 GMT ]--
From: PioneerSpeakersPumpingAsISmokeOnThePound (phil-99)
Subject: I was helping my mum prepare dinner earlier, and was cutting carrots
into long wedge-things. So cutting carrots in half lengthways is NOT hard.
What have I done? I've taken a wedge out my thumb. Ouch. Not a small one
either.
*sighs*
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Jun 23 23:38:01 2001 GMT ]--
From: PioneerSpeakersPumpingAsISmokeOnThePound (phil-99)
Subject: Every time I see something written by one particular sad sap of an
individual, who can't accept his own life - let alone change the direction it's
taking - I just want to slap him and tell him to stop being so sad...
But I can't, thanks be.
Hmmmm - Hot&Spicy Pringles
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Jun 25 13:42:30 2001 GMT ]--
From: TheDyingWailsOfTheSirens,WailsOfTheDying (phil-99)
Subject: Hmmmm, thumb wedges.
Healing fine, I think. Ouch. I am a prat :)
So. Glasgow today, Glasgow tommorrow. Going to meet a random spod
who I don't know anything about *g* How many times have I done this now? I'm
suprised nobody's turned out to be an axe-murderer or something. It's an
excuse to get out the house and into town to meet someone though, so I am not
going to turn down an offer like that!
Parents go away on Saturday, down to Wales for my Grandads 70th b/day
party. I am still in the process of organising my holiday (eeep), so will not
be going with them. Will be spending Sat/Sun/Mon organising stuff, and
spodding! Graduate on Tuesday (Where ARE my results?) and fly on Wednesday.
Staying overnight in Manchester with Cherub and Chorlton (Thanks!), flying to
London from Manchester.
Current Music: No Doubt - Paulina
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Jun 25 13:42:47 2001 GMT ]--
From: TheDyingWailsOfTheSirens,WailsOfTheDying (phil-99)
Subject: Lyrics to above mentioned song...
Paulina - she's on the cover of a magazine
Paulina - a woman in my nightly dreams
Paulina - who makes me grin in any pose
Paulina - I wish she'd take off all her clothes
Paulina - well I stare at her pictures all day long
Paulina - and as I do I sing this song
Paulina - my father says to act my age
Paulina - as I single handedly turn the page
Paulina - well I paste her pictures on the wall
Paulina - sit by the phone and hope she'll call
Paulina - although I know she never will
Paulina - to indulge myself is such a thrill
Paulina - she's the big red apple of my eye
Paulina - I wish she'd lay down by my side
Paulina - but if she ever knew my pursuit
Paulina - she would probably file a huge lawsuit
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Jun 25 13:46:16 2001 GMT ]--
From: TheDyingWailsOfTheSirens,WailsOfTheDying (phil-99)
Subject: And, to take the mickey ;-)
A LITTLE SOMETHING REFRESHING (E. Stefani)
-------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Yeah
I'm hungry
I'm starving
I want some food for my tummy
I want some
pizza coke and ice cream
popcorn cotton candy
marshmallows milkshake and peanuts
would be so great
pies chips candy apples
twinkies frosted flakes
donuts french fries
and some chocolate cake with mustard
cookies avocados pancakes
pineapple juice
whipped cream on some raw meat
that's not all i could eat
I'm hungry
I'm starving
I want some food for my tum...
I want some
honey roasted walnuts
pepperoni slices
pasta and burritos
different kinds of rices
cherries dipped in chocolate
cottage cheese and jelly
colonel sander's chicken
still won't fill my belly
broccoli sticky syrup
churros dipped in sauce
drippy sloppy joes
Then i'm full at last
ahhh ahhh
I'm full at last
Burp.
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Jun 26 23:35:34 2001 GMT ]--
From: TheDyingWailsOfTheSirens,WailsOfTheDying (phil-99)
Subject: Taken from my LJ:
Subject: THUNDER!!!!!!!!!!!!! [26 Jun 2001|11:32am]
[ music | Red Dwarf - Part Four of Four]
KaaaaaBLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOM!
*flash*
BOOOOOOOM
*pause*
*flash*
BOOOOOOOM
And it's doing it again. YAY! I LOVE THUNDER!!!!!
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Jun 26 23:37:36 2001 GMT ]--
From: TheDyingWailsOfTheSirens,WailsOfTheDying (phil-99)
Subject: I need to go to bed. Electric fooking around, lights dimming.
COmputer not like me, I bet.
STOP COMPLAINING THAT IT'S TOO HOT!
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Jun 27 14:34:33 2001 GMT ]--
From: TheDyingWailsOfTheSirens,WailsOfTheDying (phil-99)
Subject: And now it's sunny.
Thunder/lightening last night was AMAZING! Went on for a good 2-3hrs
before I went to sleep. Lots of ultra big and loud sparks, some taking out the
TV broadcasts for a few minutes at a time. We lost it all morning yesterday
because of it.
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Jun 27 22:45:06 2001 GMT ]--
From: TheDyingWailsOfTheSirens,WailsOfTheDying (phil-99)
Subject: Beer.
Safeways are doing a good offer: 12MGD for 5.99. So I picked some up.
Problem is - I drink that stuff like pop. It's so scrummy, I can down bottles
of the stuff and not blink. Only when I wake up to the fact that I am pissed
as a fart do I realise it is in fact alcoholic. So I'm limiting myself to 3
bottles a night, when I do drink it.
This isn't enough, DAMNIT! ;-)
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Jun 27 22:46:16 2001 GMT ]--
From: TheDyingWailsOfTheSirens,WailsOfTheDying (phil-99)
Subject: I went out to Glasgow on Tuesday night, yesterday, to meet mizsmurf
from Mono - whose real name I still can't remember, erk - which was really
nice. I like meeting random people and getting on OK with them. It certainly
made my day lots more bearable than it would otherwise have been.
Thanks :)
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Jun 28 13:36:13 2001 GMT ]--
From: TheDyingWailsOfTheSirens,WailsOfTheDying (phil-99)
Subject: So, I have a 3rd. Thanks to Ian for the news.
This isn't what I wanted. I wanted a 2:ii but hey, at least it's a
pass - which is more than I was expecting judging by my last set of exams, they
felt disgusting. And as I had a 53% average from 2nd yr+1st sem of 3rd yr, the
requirement to get 50% this semester shouldn't have been too hard. I have to
wait and see the component breakdown to see where I fucked up.
So, this now means I have to convince Teleca I am worth taking on.
Advice?
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Jun 28 23:39:25 2001 GMT ]--
From: TheDyingWailsOfTheSirens,WailsOfTheDying (phil-99)
Subject: I feel better now that I remember that I am in fact, joining the club!
OK, can we list members of the club? And where is my membership card
gonna come from??
o Urchin
o Imp
o Tripwire(? need verification)
o Madbob
o Nige
Anyone else?
Can anyone see a theme running through here. All spods. All UMST
students. OK, most of this lot did Physics, I believe - but still
spods :)
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Jun 29 22:48:24 2001 GMT ]--
From: TheDyingWailsOfTheSirens,WailsOfTheDying (phil-99)
Subject: Money:
Bank
-2,845.19 + 110 = -2,735 = GBP#265 credit
Credit Card
1,000CL - 935 = GBP#65 credit
US Dollars
$57 :)
This leaves me with enough to get by, on a relative shoestring, not
leaving anything for emergencies or problems. Need to spend around USD$100 on
travel and $30 or so on tickets to ball game. That leaves plenty. Especially
if I get a loan on Monday, like I plan.
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Jun 30 13:18:26 2001 GMT ]--
From: TheDyingWailsOfTheSirens,WailsOfTheDying (phil-99)
Subject: Oh, Oh, Oh!
I have The Simpson series 2 Part 1 ;-) YAY!
Yes I know it's waste of money, but I want them. I really do.
Went to bank today just on the offchance they'd be open. Of course
not. I should have known. So that leaves Monday. I'll get up early
and go pester them for money.
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Jul 1 11:54:46 2001 GMT ]--
From: TheDyingWailsOfTheSirens,WailsOfTheDying (phil-99)
Subject: Starting to stress over this money thing now.
I know I'll be seeing my folks on Tuesday so if _all_ else fails I can
ask them, but that's dire emergency only material.
*sighs*
Packing and organising stuff.
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Jul 1 13:43:58 2001 GMT ]--
From: TheDyingWailsOfTheSirens,WailsOfTheDying (phil-99)
Subject: OK, I have:
o clothes, including:
o shoes
o underwear
o LOTS of t-shirts
o shorts (Though I really should buy some new ones)
o tickets
o train to Manchester
o plane to London
o plane to JFK
o passport (plenty of time left on it)
What else do I need? Has to be something else... ahhh, money.
o Money
o This and shorts will be sorted out on Monday, hopefully.
I wonder what hassle I'm going to get at Immigration/Customs this
time? It's normally me being searched (single male traveller, looking
extraordinarily dishevelled and shifty), but telling the folk at
Immigration that you're going to stay with people you know through the
internet is never a good thing...
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Jul 2 19:16:49 2001 GMT ]--
From: TheDyingWailsOfTheSirens,WailsOfTheDying (phil-99)
Subject: Helensburgh is this really odd place. I was thinking today on my walk
into town. There is nowhere else like it.
It's this bizzare mix between being an "olde worlde towne" (WITH an
E), and a buzzing subarban young person's trendy place. OK, let me try to
explain why I think this. Firstly, we have 8 (I think it's 8) seperate
churches in this town. It's not that big, or at least COULDN'T have been that
big when most were built. Most of these are fairly old-ish.
On my route into town, I routinely walk past a chemist shop. Now, if
you think back to the checmist shops of the 50's, you're there. You are SO
there, they sell everything - gifts, prescriptions, medicines, sweets, toys.
It's all a gorgeous shop inside and just transports you back 50 yrs when you go
in.
A lot of shops close on Wednesday afternoons. This is an old practice
not used anywhere but the smallest towns and villages these days.
We get COACHLOADS of tourists who come to walk along the "Sea-front".
In quotes, because it's the River Clyde, but where we are it may as well be the
sea. I think this is the main thing that keeps the "old" side of town alive.
Yet, there is a mexican restaraunt, tons of chinese restaraunts,
"Humbles" - a cafe bar which is very very nice indeed might I say - everything
that you need from your average town. The place has it's own nightclub (Not
that I'd go there again - last time I was 15 with Steven Bailey, erk! We
shared a pint after drinking cans of Skol in his house). I can't figure it
out.
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Jul 11 04:01:40 2001 GMT ]--
From: TheDyingWailsOfTheSirens,WailsOfTheDying (phil-99)
Subject: Holiday = good
Tan = half-way
:)
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Jul 15 14:04:42 2001 GMT ]--
From: TheDyingWailsOfTheSirens,WailsOfTheDying (phil-99)
Subject: So, you think I'm pissed off? You don't know the half of it.
Great day yesterday, on way home, stop at ATM and get $40 out. Put in
wallet. Get on train, come home, go to shop, buy bottle of water and
sleep. (After coming home of course.)
Wake up. Sit outside and read for a while (it's a beautiful day).
Spod with a dollar bill in the hostel's spodroom. Go back to room to
get ready to do stuff - check wallet.
Yep.
...
It's fecking GONE!
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Jul 15 14:07:13 2001 GMT ]--
From: TheDyingWailsOfTheSirens,WailsOfTheDying (phil-99)
Subject: Now, this means that I have two options: they did it when I was asleep
(Cheecky FUCKERS) or when I was outside for 20 minutes (if that). If
it was when I was outside I know it was the two guys who only stayed
for the one night last night - there's nobody else it could have been
because I locked the door.
I'm pissed,mainly because if they'd taken my camera, my walkman -
ANYTHING else but the cash, I coulda done something about it and got
it back on the insurance. But because it's cash, and because it's a
small amount, what can I do? Fuck all.
Cunts.
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Jul 15 14:10:52 2001 GMT ]--
From: TheDyingWailsOfTheSirens,WailsOfTheDying (phil-99)
Subject: I guess I should also add, that I didn't lose it. I couldn't have
lost it. Trust me, I'm extraordinarily paranoid about my wallet and
money in any city - never mind New York :)
More to the point, I found when I went to get ready some more, that my
bag was all wrong. I have a small bag I use when I go out for the
day, and I keep everything really important (plane tickets / insurance
documents / passport) in the front pocket of that, where you can't get
it out without really trying (trust me, it's a pain when you need it
but it's safe).
Yeah, when I went to check it this morning, it wasn't where I left it
(on the window sill) and the pack with my ticket/passport etc wasn't
in the front pocket. Considering the last time I had that open I
distinctly remember putting it back where I took it from (In the
Natural History Museum) - that REALLY pisses me off.
Why couldn't they have taken something else? Grrr!
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Jul 17 14:59:43 2001 GMT ]--
From: TheDyingWailsOfTheSirens,WailsOfTheDying (phil-99)
Subject: I'm exhausted. I'd go back to bed but it's not good sleeping country.
Bronx Zoo today, then.
Mets Game Yesterday.
Stuff.
Tirrrrrreeeed.
Apologies to Alexis for being extraordinarily crap at the station.
Needed bed.
More to come.
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Jul 20 04:28:07 2001 GMT ]--
From: TheDyingWailsOfTheSirens,WailsOfTheDying (phil-99)
Subject: *pukes*
Yup. All the way home. Crap flight, more later.
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Jul 20 22:18:33 2001 GMT ]--
From: TheDyingWailsOfTheSirens,WailsOfTheDying (phil-99)
Subject: Well I'm not going to write much about my holiday, mainly because very
little of any interest to anyone but me happenned. This is the bare basics.
I arrived in New York's JFK airport to be hit by a wall of humid hot
air, gawd I forget every time justy how bad it is. Hung around for a half-hour
or so waiting for a bus I booked to turn up and take me to the place I was
staying. Got to Roger's and ate pizza, tried to watch the Macy's(?) Fireworks
but it was too cloudy to get a decent view. Slept well :)
Then off to Lancaster, PA - stayed with friends and did stuff, nothing
exciting, just stuff. Went to an Auction with Stella and bought some stuff,
some cool and some not so cool for dirt cheap prices. Baltimore, MD is a nice
place :)
Then back to NY where I wanted to stay with Rog again, but couldn't
get hold of him, so I stayed at the Chelsea International Hostel
(http://www.chelseahostel.com/). I was only going to stay a night or two, but
ended up staying the week, as it was easier all round - if a little more
expensive than staying with friends. But staying in the middle of Manhattan is
not to be sniffed at!
Went out with Alexis, bought stuff and curry. Went to Mets vs Blue
Jays game. Was a tourist. Came home. More on that in next entry.
All in all, I had a great time.
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Jul 20 22:22:44 2001 GMT ]--
From: TheDyingWailsOfTheSirens,WailsOfTheDying (phil-99)
Subject: I had a couple of drinks at the "Brooklyn Beer Garden" in the airport,
because the flight was delayed from 11:00 to 12:30 or so. Fun. Yeah, so I got
on the plane, the plane took off, and the next thing I remember is being sick
horribly. Not just once, several times. *sighs* I was so embarassed. In fact
I don't think that comes close.
So I spent the rest of the flight in a Virgin "Sleep Suit" (hey, I was
in no state to take notice of my clothes) and fast asleep. Apparantly I looked
like death - and I felt worse - but made it without any major disasters to
London. At which point I find I've missed my connection, and have to arrange
another flight to Glasgow...
Anyhow, the story is that I felt like shite and slept from 5pm->3am
and from 7am->10am, and yet some more this afternoon - about 1pm-3pm. And I'm
still exhausted.
So tired....
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Jul 23 17:16:16 2001 GMT ]--
From: TheDyingWailsOfTheSirens,WailsOfTheDying (phil-99)
Subject: *bouncey*
London Meet-Hooooooo!
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Jul 25 11:51:59 2001 GMT ]--
From: TheDyingWailsOfTheSirens,WailsOfTheDying (phil-99)
Subject: C'mon Anton, get yer butt in gear and reply to me damnit!
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Jul 25 12:19:47 2001 GMT ]--
From: TheDyingWailsOfTheSirens,WailsOfTheDying (phil-99)
Subject: So. It's over.
Anton just called and (it sounded like it was quite hard for him, very
apologetic and stuff) said that they were retracting the offer. Time to go
a-hunting, and I may as well go and see if I can sign on today.
*shrugs*
I fucked up.
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Jul 25 21:28:53 2001 GMT ]--
From: TheDyingWailsOfTheSirens,WailsOfTheDying (phil-99)
Subject: Blooooody Hell
The booklet you have to fill in to sign on? Have you SEEN it? It's
frigging HUGE! They want to know everything, down to your inside leg
measurements, I SWEAR to you.
And then those annoying questions - about your children. Uhhhm, nope,
I really don't think so. Or about your house... nope. Not me.
CV's back up on Jobsite, and one is being built up on Monster. Might
talk to Splicer and see what the position he's hiring for is asking for, and
see about the pace positions Terry's talked about. Yeah.
Anyone else? :)
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Jul 26 19:10:32 2001 GMT ]--
From: TheDyingWailsOfTheSirens,WailsOfTheDying (phil-99)
Subject: I also now have a suit.
Yes I do.
I look smart in it :)
Marks and Spencer's are having a sale on end of line stuff, and I
managed to find a trouser/jacket combo that whilst not technically the same
line, look very, very similar. So now I can look smart, properly :)
Went out at 11:00am, came back home at 5:30pm - that's a long time to
spend with my mother... Need time to spod and prepare for London meet.
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Jul 26 22:25:27 2001 GMT ]--
From: TheDyingWailsOfTheSirens,WailsOfTheDying (phil-99)
Subject: I need a new nameline: suggestions?
I was thinking of song lyrics, but I don't have anything REALLY
bizzarre to hand - everything really odd is on my CDs which are buried in a box
somewhere. So, I'm thinking film or book quotes, but nothing springs to mind.
I need to find soemthing new and fabulous...
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Jul 26 23:34:06 2001 GMT ]--
From: TheDyingWailsOfTheSirens,WailsOfTheDying (phil-99)
Subject: Thanks to Liz for the sugestion of looking at the Job Centre's
website. My lcoal centre is pants, full of jobs for people with no brains.
Oh, and plenty of jobs for *physical* engineers, or barwork. Unfortunately,
I want something that's a little more challenging than barwork again, and
something that I can use my degree in :)
The site is excellent. You can search for jobs nationally and it uses
a very sensible search format: it restricts how you search, to a set of options
which saves you having to use keywords (which are horribly unreliable), and
generally returns sensible results. For Software stuff it came up with over
100 results, shame lots of them I can't go for (experience) (and many I
wouldn't touch with a bargepole) though, but I've got 4 that sound hopeful.
As has been said before, and will be said again - we shall see.
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Jul 30 13:29:49 2001 GMT ]--
From: TheDyingWailsOfTheSirens,WailsOfTheDying (phil-99)
Subject: That's number 4....
Things you don't need to see when you come home from a good weekend,
part 1: yet another letter from debt collection agencies, oh what fun. So,
let's see who wants my money now:
o LA Fitness, who never bothered replying to me, just sending the Debt
Collection agency round. This I am seriously pissed about.
o BT - who I will pay the second Alex gets of his lazy ARSE and sends me the
150 he owes me FOR THE PHONE BILL.
o WorldxChange/NetNet - I've owed them money for months, but it's all their own
fault for fucking up the billing systems - unfortunately they don't
understand this.
I'm sure there's someone else. Whassat then, around 600 pounds worth of debt?
Yummy.
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Jul 30 13:30:05 2001 GMT ]--
From: TheDyingWailsOfTheSirens,WailsOfTheDying (phil-99)
Subject: But, this weekend has been great fun. More to come, when I have had
lunch.
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Jul 31 01:41:07 2001 GMT ]--
From: TheDyingWailsOfTheSirens,WailsOfTheDying (phil-99)
Subject: <MMAO>
Far too much hard work. I completely forgot who I spoke to on Friday,
though I think I can blame the Black Metz, which I was downing at a ridiculous
rate :-) Friday night was superb - lots of yummy people, lots of yummy
conversations, lots of new faces and even new names.
Saturday - spods seemed to me like they were going to suffer from
massive bouts of Spod Inertia, so I decided to head out for Saturday afternoon
and do something tourist-y. As the Scotia is only 5mins walk from HMS Belfast,
I did that, and spent a good two hours wandering round. It's really good!!
The whole ship is open, essentially - you get to see in fairly graphic detail
what life on board an old Cruiser would have been like. (Though I'm still
waiting for the first submarine that's open quite like that.)
Headed back, only to find most spods had left, leaving Eldar, Simmons,
Quaestor, Hazard and (someone else). We walked from there to the Cheesey pub
(lots of small rooms), and onto the Pendrel Oak. I swear, it's not that far
but it was too hot to walk it comfortably. Then the night in the Oak got going
and was MUCH fun, not to mention Rowan's. The music was shite but the place
was fun with what, 30 spods in there? :)
Sunday: Hogshead and recovery in Regent's Park - with an Aerobie
session! YAY! I haven't used one of them for YEARS! Such fun :) Tom had a
tough time of it though :) Chinese, sleep at Gav's, fly home Monday. Nice.
Thanks to all accomodators, and all cool people.
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Aug 1 22:01:59 2001 GMT ]--
From: TheDyingWailsOfTheSirens,WailsOfTheDying (phil-99)
Subject: Morpheus does indeed rock. Yet another file-sharing utility network
thing, and currently there are uhhhhh, roughly 600,000 users on sharing
horrible amounts :)
Yup.
Sent about a hundred emails yesterday (it felt like that many, at
least) to various agencies for loads of jobs found on PlanetRecruit.com - which
is a really good site. Ho-Hum.
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Aug 3 23:56:28 2001 GMT ]--
From: IfIWereKing, IfIHadEverything, IfIHadYou (phil-99)
Subject: Listening to good moosic.
Looking at going to Liverpool next week, ticket available for under a
tenner as long as I book more than 3 days in advance. Supposed to be seriously
restricted time-wise, meaning I don't get back to Glasgow until uhh, 10:30pm,
and my last train from there is 10:59. Not leaving anywhere near enough time
for screwups, which Virgin West Coast are very good at providing :)
Might ask my folks if they'll buy the ticket and I'll pay 'em back.
Yeah. That makes sense. I get my money from the DSS (sorry, not DSS anymore)
next week :) Also going to get the bank to give me more, to pay debt-stuff. Oh
yes.
But then I get to see scrummy people again!!! YAY!
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Aug 4 21:34:57 2001 GMT ]--
From: IfIWereKing, IfIHadEverything, IfIHadYou (phil-99)
Subject: Oh dear. Lou's in trouble now...
She pointed out a rather cute website. With wonderful, oh wonderful
pieces on it :) I just wish I had the money to spend on these things - and of
course the necessary other person.
Yummy. And they're based in the UK too!!! WHOOO!
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Aug 4 22:56:48 2001 GMT ]--
From: IfIWereKing, IfIHadEverything, IfIHadYou (phil-99)
Subject: I must have things! I must do!
OK, anyone know which bank is best to rob? Please?
OK, anyone wanna lend me about 250 quid? :)
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Aug 4 22:58:55 2001 GMT ]--
From: IfIWereKing, IfIHadEverything, IfIHadYou (phil-99)
Subject: *moans* PleasePleasePleasePleasePleasePleasePlease?
PLEASE!
Yummy...
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Aug 6 11:28:33 2001 GMT ]--
From: IfIWereKing, IfIHadEverything, IfIHadYou (phil-99)
Subject: I said I would be in Glasgow around uhhhhhm, 3hrs ago.
Well I only woke up properly around uhhhhm, 90 minutes ago.
I hate this routine, but fixing it? Ahhh who cares until I HAVE to
get up at 7am? It's not like sleeping through the day means I miss anything
just yet...
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Aug 7 01:06:58 2001 GMT ]--
From: IfIWereKing, IfIHadEverything, IfIHadYou (phil-99)
Subject: The bank were mean to me.
They turned down my requestfor more money.
This is a pain, as it means I have to go back tommorrow and discuss my
reasons for needing the cash, and taking the nice lady;s advice of appealing
the decision.
It's quite odd, IMO. While I'm not the most responsible person in the
world with money, I've always paid back everything I owed somehow. This has
normally been by working my ass off during holidays, and putting all my
birthday and Christmas monies into these accounts that were desperately
overdrawn. I guess the fact that I went on a spending spree in the US didn't
help. None of the US cash machines seemed to have the ability to say "no,
that's enough - your bank has declined this withdrawal", which caused me to go
nastily overdrawn. I know I should've been keeping an eye on it, but ya know
how it is... especially when you're on your own and paying for accomodation and
food.
I love having to do this. Though my mum did say she would lend/give
me the cash to go to Liverpool if I needed it. This is a good thing. Also, I
tried to get hold of Alex (who I lived with last yr) to see if he'd come any
closer to sending me the #150 he owes me. Or getting in touch with the agency
so I can get my #200 deposit back! It's so frustrating when your finances are
in someone else's hands.
phil-99's Diary
---------------
This is likely to be rather short. I automatically move all my old edits
into an archive (Old = >1month) once a week, and keep that in a menu of
my own. If you're interested in seeing them, send me a message and I'll
tell you where they are :)
Phil
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---------------------------------------------[ Tue Aug 7 21:39:19 2001 GMT ]--
From: IfIWereKing, IfIHadEverything, IfIHadYou (phil-99)
Subject: And they turned down the appeal. Blergle.
OK. Brief comment on "that" URL.
Please stop being petty. It doesn't involve you. Leave it to the
people it involves and if you ever find the whole story out, then feel free to
comment. Unfortunately I don't think this ever happens.
Uhhhhm.
Yeah.
So.
Boring Life.
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Aug 8 15:55:48 2001 GMT ]--
From: IfIWereKing, IfIHadEverything, IfIHadYou (phil-99)
Subject: I have the bestes mummy in whole wide world :)
She bought my train tickets for me!!! YAYAYAY!
So I'm going to Liverpool this weekend, whoppppeeee!
*jumps*
I get to see scrummy and yummy people!!!!
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Aug 8 20:40:28 2001 GMT ]--
From: IfIWereKing, IfIHadEverything, IfIHadYou (phil-99)
Subject: Heard on Radio 2 today:
"... but when they drink they get drunk."
Yeah. Nice one :)
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Aug 8 23:01:57 2001 GMT ]--
From: IfIWereKing, IfIHadEverything, IfIHadYou (phil-99)
I don't know if I have anything to write about, so I'm just going to go and
play Mig-29 Fulcrum in multiplayer mode again :)
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Aug 9 22:40:09 2001 GMT ]--
From: IfIWereKing, IfIHadEverything, IfIHadYou (phil-99)
Subject: You know something?
I am a moron...
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Aug 12 22:46:15 2001 GMT ]--
From: IfIWereKing, IfIHadEverything, IfIHadYou (phil-99)
Subject: I have but one thing to say about this weekend.
OUCH
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Aug 12 22:49:39 2001 GMT ]--
From: IfIWereKing, IfIHadEverything, IfIHadYou (phil-99)
Subject: Oh, I should also say that I met some very lovely people.
More to come.
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Aug 13 01:48:38 2001 GMT ]--
From: IfIWereKing, IfIHadEverything, IfIHadYou (phil-99)
Subject: I've just come up against a problem...
Mail order + parents = bad news! :-\
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Aug 13 18:08:57 2001 GMT ]--
From: Flod-a-thon, 08.2001 (phil-99)
Subject: I have sore arms. People who know why should feel very sorry for me :)
I got soaked walking back to Liverpool Lime St. on Sunday - taxi wait
was too long to be reasonable, so I walked 20 minutes there in the pouring
rain. Wasn't bad at the time, until I discovered that the horrendous smell
wasn't my feet, it was my suit smelling like it was going off.
Nice.
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Aug 13 21:37:00 2001 GMT ]--
From: Flod-a-thon, 08.2001 (phil-99)
Subject: Another murder from people who met through the net...
She went to see him and didn't tell anyone where. Went to a hotel
with him, had him lock her in a room. All _alone_. Why do people never
learn? Why do people scare monger? After all, I have now met probably over
100 people from online and am still alive (ish).
*sighs*
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Aug 14 10:56:30 2001 GMT ]--
From: Flod-a-thon, 08.2001 (phil-99)
Subject: "My virgin ears belong to you"
ROFL :-)
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Aug 14 13:15:39 2001 GMT ]--
From: Flod-a-thon, 08.2001 (phil-99)
Subject: Debauchery indeed, as Azrael put it.
If people were slightly put off by anything that they may have
witnessed, many apologies to you - but the way I, and I suspect many of "us"
will have seen it, is that it's very rarely you feel relaxed and comfortable
enough to be able to do that.
The atmosphere was (mostly) more than lovely - thank you all :)
I spent nearly an hour and a half on the phone with tribble last
night. Not tribble from mono (whom I still don't know anything about, apart
from the fact they showed up in my diary logs regularly for a short while), but
from LJ. We've talked on an off for a little while. Scarily enough, she
sounds almost exactly like Alexis :-) When I found out that she was a Jewish
Noo Yawka - the penny dropped, heh.
Oh, sorry - "Agnostic Pagan Jew", I forgot the right description.
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Aug 14 13:27:09 2001 GMT ]--
From: Flod-a-thon, 08.2001 (phil-99)
Subject: I also spent nearly 45 minutes on the phone last night trying to get
through to BT to pay my outstanding phone bill. Could I find the right options
in the NIGHTMARE of an automated system? Could I hell.
I then swore loudly at the phone and tried to do it via their website,
but would it let me, since I no longer have a phone number associated with my
customer number? Would it hell. GRRRRRRRRRR!
So today, I am going to pay it directly from my bank account / net
banking and hope it works.
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Aug 14 13:57:56 2001 GMT ]--
From: Flod-a-thon, 08.2001 (phil-99)
Subject: It must be a slow day in spod-offices throughout the country:
|\/| (100) Users on Monochrome at 14:56 |\/|
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Aug 15 20:26:50 2001 GMT ]--
From: Flod-a-thon, 08.2001 (phil-99)
Subject: We also discovered on Saturday afternoon, why people wearing loose
clothing should not be allowed to play on the swings in a kiddie's playground.
Wel, maybe when there's no kids around - but when there's kids wandering
around, it's not quite the same :)
Throwing a boomerang is tough, I discovered that.
Throwing a frisbee is easy enough unless you are throwing into the
ridiculously strong wind, as I think Glen found out quite well :) Though I
think he definitely needs to work on his wrist action! Apparantly Jen has very
good wrist action, but I won't believe her until I see it for myself.
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Aug 15 21:01:13 2001 GMT ]--
From: Flod-a-thon, 08.2001 (phil-99)
Subject: I'm finding myself falling again...
This is bad.
OK, maybe falling is the wrong word. I can forsee myself getting into
trouble, and also hurting someone. You know I mentioned tribble the other day?
Aye, well - things have been getting a little closer than I intended for them
to. This lass has problems - as do all the people I seem to get involved with,
by the by - beyond the imagination of psychiatrists (spot the gratuitous quote)
and could turn out to be a clinger.
I don't mind being a support for people. I don't mind people
complaining at me, or listening to others' problems. But I've been in this
situation before, where it seems that someone is pinning all their hopes on
you, where it ends up that your "company" becomes everything. And it hurts, it
hurts because doing something about it hurts the other person.
I don't want to have to do it again. Doing it with Deanna was
painful. For both of us, I believe. At least Irene is a bit more likely as a
reality - being my age, and not 40-something.
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Aug 17 13:09:47 2001 GMT ]--
From: Flod-a-thon, 08.2001 (phil-99)
Subject: I have a job, whoo?
OK it's another bar job, but it's temporary. Until I find something
else. Got an interesting call from an agency today asking whether I'd be
interested in Serco as an employer, near Peterborough, I believe.
So I might have something soon...
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Aug 18 02:33:03 2001 GMT ]--
From: Flod-a-thon, 08.2001 (phil-99)
Subject: Work, went OK. Dead. Not many people in.
I think that they expect us to be much more independant than I've been
in previous jobs, and I'm not entirely sure how happy I am with it. I'll sleep
on it tonight and see what comes tommorrow morning...
*sighs*
2:45 before I got home...
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Aug 18 15:23:10 2001 GMT ]--
From: Flod-a-thon, 08.2001 (phil-99)
Subject: I've decided that I'm not going back, though I haven't yet told them
that. I don't like the fact that I didn't see the managers all night
long. Especially seeing as it was my first night, and all.
The work, the people and the place are all fine, but I just don't like
that one simple fact, I don't think it bodes well for the future if I
were to stay.
So I've been to another place in town today where mum said they might
be looking for staff, and asked them. Awaiting a phone call.
Oh, my mobile phone is also still fucked. Must hassle Orange.
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Aug 18 21:34:24 2001 GMT ]--
From: Flod-a-thon, 08.2001 (phil-99)
Subject: Saturday night, and I'm at home again
Parents have friends over, who are very nice people - but I really
want to be spending the evening spodding... I'm not in the mood to deal with
reality, tonight...
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Aug 18 21:52:58 2001 GMT ]--
From: Flod-a-thon, 08.2001 (phil-99)
Subject: Argh, can't they just leave?
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Aug 20 01:38:14 2001 GMT ]--
From: Flod-a-thon, 08.2001 (phil-99)
Subject: How come I always seem to net the nutters?
*sighs* Remind me to write more, will someone?
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Aug 20 10:09:39 2001 GMT ]--
From: Flod-a-thon, 08.2001 (phil-99)
Subject: Last night, I decided I'd give our trib a call, and say 'ello and
stuff, she was sounding a bit down and thought it might cheer her up. After a
half-hour or so of just random crap, it all started to get very heavy, with her
talking about the death of her dad and various other bits, which is OK -
because it's not like she's seeming upset by talking about it. But then it got
onto other stuff, and it started getting uncomfortable.
OK, I like this lass - really. But I spent nearly 3hrs on the phone
with her last night, a lot of that listening to her about her current
situation. I tried suggesting bits and pieces, which though not entirely
welcome, I had to do, ya know - you can't listen to someone rant at you about
things without at least trying.
Anyhow - so then she asked me over AIM something: "guess it really
doesn't give me much insight to how you see things [between us]", which I
managed to answer in possibly the worst way possible. I mentioned the S word
(support) because that's how I felt then - I'd just spent 3hrs on the phone
with this woman and I couldn't help feeling that I was doing something
supportive, however minor. She took it completely the wrong way, *growls* as
women do...
My next attempt at answering wasn't much better. It would come over
fine if'd have SAID it, but over text: "well, I don't see you as anything
in particular." really was the wrong way to put it. But the sentiment was
there :) Why should I have to neatly pigeon-hole it when it really can't be?
I _hate_ this text-based-medium.
So... after this long edit, my point is - uhhhm....
I don't know. I just needed to write it somewhere.
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Aug 20 15:14:39 2001 GMT ]--
From: Flod-a-thon, 08.2001 (phil-99)
Subject: Yuck, I'm severely pissed off. I feel like crap and my head is stuffy
and I feel horrid for making Irene feel bad last night even though it was
completely unintentional and then I realise that I shouldn't in fact be feeling
guilty.
And I can't clear my head :( Damn sinuses :(
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Aug 20 15:17:29 2001 GMT ]--
From: AnOptometrist,TheManWithTheGoldenEyeball (phil-99)
Subject: Muhahaha, random namelines 'r' us.
*challenges you to find where it came from without searching the web*
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Aug 20 23:47:48 2001 GMT ]--
From: AnOptometrist,TheManWithTheGoldenEyeball (phil-99)
Subject: Well, I can never claim my life isn't interesting - even if most of it
does happen online...
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Aug 21 11:53:42 2001 GMT ]--
From: AnOptometrist,TheManWithTheGoldenEyeball (phil-99)
Subject: I need to go to the bank, but my stuffy head is saying no...
...Let's stay indoors and spod, and eat. And I'm trying to tell it
no, let's go outside and do things and go places and have a really wild time of
it, being hoopy and froody and mega-cool!
But, it's just not happening...
But I _need_ to go to the bank. My signature strip on my Delta card
has worn through yet again, and I'm very nearly at the "voids" underneath it.
Though it is a very useful tool to see which cashiers take any notice of the
signature, it's more hassle than it's worth somedays.
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Aug 21 23:50:56 2001 GMT ]--
From: AnOptometrist,TheManWithTheGoldenEyeball (phil-99)
Subject: I need to change my ISP and soon...
AOL's becoming a pain, am having trouble getting on at peak times, am
getting dropped at fairly regular intervals, and I'm fed up with the software
auto-updating itself without asking me first.
I saw soemthing the other day.. I think it's one.tel - they do an
unmetred package. Must try them out.
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Aug 21 23:54:12 2001 GMT ]--
From: AnOptometrist,TheManWithTheGoldenEyeball (phil-99)
Subject: *growls* OK, maybe they do - but it's not available here :(
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Aug 23 21:28:26 2001 GMT ]--
From: AnOptometrist,TheManWithTheGoldenEyeball (phil-99)
Subject: *yawns and stretches* It's night and darkness reigns, now comes my
time to start plotting the downfall of the world.
MUHAHAHAHAHAAAAA!
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Aug 23 21:35:09 2001 GMT ]--
From: AnOptometrist,TheManWithTheGoldenEyeball (phil-99)
Subject: Argh
Talking online is such a pain :( I don't like it, I can hold a
conversation with someone else I don't know quite happily if I am with them, if
I can see them, even if I can hear them - but I find it harder and harder to
hold a decent conversation with people online.
It really bugs me these days... I feel I come across a bit dim because
of it sometimes. *sighs*
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Aug 24 11:11:49 2001 GMT ]--
From: AnOptometrist,TheManWithTheGoldenEyeball (phil-99)
Subject: Got a letter from Pace Microsystems today. Thanks to Terry for giving
my CV to the relevant people, but they turned me down.
Oh well, time to send out yet more applications and CVs, yay?
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Aug 24 11:29:46 2001 GMT ]--
From: AnOptometrist,TheManWithTheGoldenEyeball (phil-99)
Subject: My net connection is shot to pieces. *growls at AOL*
This is so frustrating, I can't do anything :(
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Aug 25 01:10:46 2001 GMT ]--
From: AnOptometrist,TheManWithTheGoldenEyeball (phil-99)
Subject: So, my thoughts on just upping sticks and moving might just happen
I'm fed up with being so far away from everything and everyone,
more importantly to me. I'm considering just upping sticks and moving,
hopefully to one of these places: Manchester, Southampton or London. Now if I
can get on housing support until I find work, I'll be fine. And it wouldn't be
long until I found something - I'm now willing to take just about anything.
*ponders deeply*
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Aug 25 18:08:00 2001 GMT ]--
From: AnOptometrist,TheManWithTheGoldenEyeball (phil-99)
Subject: Well I've had lots of advice already from people, which is nice.
What do the choices look like from my point of view? Well - I'm
looking at both Southampton and Nottingham, now. Why Nottingham? Because
a couple of folks have said it's a good place :)
I have effectively ruled out Manchester, I think. This is
unfortunate, but I feel for the best. Manchester's not exactly a hotbed for
new computing graduates - at least in Southampton there's plenty of scope for
travelling around the whole of the southern region. Nottingham, well that
needs some research, but I have a gut feeling I might have to go with
Southampton, if I do this.
I'm still hypothesising, totally. I can't do this without some
support from my parents, and I would much rather have a job when I move there
than have to search from scratch. So if I do this, it needs much planning.
*hopes*
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Aug 25 18:12:05 2001 GMT ]--
From: AnOptometrist,TheManWithTheGoldenEyeball (phil-99)
Subject: I went out book shopping today, yay.
And I bought three naughty books :)
Masochism - Deleuze Sacher-Masoch
Fetish Fantasies - Edited by Cecilia Tan
Fetish - a book of fetish photography
Yummy scrummy in my tummy... ah... ok :) You know what I mean!
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Aug 25 22:37:05 2001 GMT ]--
From: AnOptometrist,TheManWithTheGoldenEyeball (phil-99)
Subject: *sighs*
E4's coverage of Reading is a bit pants already, and it's been on less
than an hour. Took an ad break in the middle of one MSP song, and cut one out
altogether to have an interview with the front man. *grr*
Wonder what they'll do next?
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Aug 26 14:35:57 2001 GMT ]--
From: AnOptometrist,TheManWithTheGoldenEyeball (phil-99)
Subject: I'm currently reading, or attempting to read - Jostein Gaarder's
'Maya'. it's typical Gaarder, quite abstract and heavy reading - but
after I lost 2 copies of Sophie's World, after getting half way
through them, I am determined to finish this before I lose it.
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Aug 26 19:57:02 2001 GMT ]--
From: AnOptometrist,TheManWithTheGoldenEyeball (phil-99)
Subject: LJ is dead or dying. *sighs*
Is this unreasonable? I mean - it was very harsh, yes. It was the
truth, it was what I needed to say and what I think anybody who is in the
frustrating position I'm in would say eventually:
<her> [20:34]: i want to be dead
PMSumner [20:35]: Well, I won't help you fulfill that aim... I think
far too much of you to do that.
<her> [20:35]: o forget it then
<her> [20:35]: i'm worthless
PMSumner [20:37]: <harshness>
ok, so you think you're worthless. If you think that
and are going to keep on telling me that, don't bother
talking to me because there's nothing I have to say
about it. What IS there I can say to it?
<her> [20:37]: fuck you
She's in the USA. I've been trying for the last few weeks to make her
feel better, no matter how temporary it is. I've spent hours of the phone,
I've spent a fortune on what was a rather gorgeous and thoughtful gift.
No matter what, she still refuses to accept what I have to say. I'm
annoyed at her for continuously asking me to kill her, her continual
mutterances of "My life sucks" and "I want to die". Fine, I should be
sympathetic in an ideal world - but I can't even come online and hide anymore.
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Aug 26 20:16:27 2001 GMT ]--
From: AnOptometrist,TheManWithTheGoldenEyeball (phil-99)
Subject: I have a job again.
This time I know it's one I want. Yes it's another bar job. But this
time it's only a 5 minute walk, and it's in a Bass pub (well, it's a hotel bar,
and a decent hotel too, in the decent end of town). Minimum wage, but anywhere
between 30-50hrs a week. This is a good thing.
I'm going to stick it for at least a month. That way I can build up
some funds and pay off lots of debts. YAY! I can be debt free for a while! :)
This means my plans to move are on hold for a while, yet.
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Aug 26 22:42:07 2001 GMT ]--
From: AnOptometrist,TheManWithTheGoldenEyeball (phil-99)
Subject: Yes I am sat here, desperately waiting for Livejournal.com to come
back up. I feel the same way now as I do when Mono's down - "so what now?".
Its sad, eh? It's really sad.
The good thing is, that Brad (General admin of LJ) has suspended
creation of new accounts (YAY!). Hopefully this will allow things to settle
down until they manage to do some code re-writing and get even more new
hardware. It's such a superb service that LJ provides I wouldn't ever want to
see it die - though there is a possibility that it will do when Brad finishes
with his University course.
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Aug 28 10:52:34 2001 GMT ]--
From: AnOptometrist,TheManWithTheGoldenEyeball (phil-99)
Subject: WorkWorkWorkWork YAY!
I never though I could be happy to be working... lol
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Aug 29 00:44:39 2001 GMT ]--
From: AnOptometrist,TheManWithTheGoldenEyeball (phil-99)
Subject: Argh my feet kill me :(
Worked: 12-4, 6-12 (well, in reality closer to 1am)
Over 10hrs of being on my feet (yes, no sitting down ever).
*sighs*
*thinks of the money*
*thinks of signing off*
YAY!
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Aug 29 23:54:56 2001 GMT ]--
From: AnOptometrist,TheManWithTheGoldenEyeball (phil-99)
Subject: Boring day, 'nuff said.
Spent 20mins-half an hour on the phone wiv Rowan. Nice.
Uhhhm.
I'm struggling here.
Oh, I signed off, too.
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Aug 30 09:44:38 2001 GMT ]--
From: AnOptometrist,TheManWithTheGoldenEyeball (phil-99)
Subject: Oh yeah, so I signed off, AND went to the post office. Ooooooo!
Today I am mostly planning on going to Glasgow, 'cuz I need more
shirts (work demands black trousers, shirt + tie). I guess I'd best get off my
arse and get showered then, eh? I've only been awake an hour now...
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Aug 31 00:55:38 2001 GMT ]--
From: AnOptometrist,TheManWithTheGoldenEyeball (phil-99)
Subject: Whoa.
Drunk.
Whoa.
This is incredibly sad - I've typed much more coherently than this
after many more drinks than this in the past. All because Dave suggested I go
sit in reception and gossip.. ;-)
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Aug 31 11:42:41 2001 GMT ]--
From: AnOptometrist,TheManWithTheGoldenEyeball (phil-99)
Subject: Got a call yesterday asking if I could go in ASAP.
Ofc I ain't gonna turn down cash in favour of sitting in front of the
TV, am I? :) So I worked in the restaraunt side, which is dead easy work.
Basically doing the drinks for the waiters, keeping it clean.
Then went and sat in the main bar for a while, and had a drink or two,
and ended up round at reception, and then back at the bar where I proceeded to
get quite pissed with naomi (Ass Manager) and Melody Fletcher (Whose brothers I
was at school with).
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Aug 31 16:03:29 2001 GMT ]--
From: AnOptometrist,TheManWithTheGoldenEyeball (phil-99)
Subject: OK, tribble has scared me now. Seriously scared me.
"I feel bad,
I want to bleed...
so I bleed...and I get yelled at for ruining the carpet"
[...]
"one for every year of my life...
but one isn't quite that visible...
wasn't planned that way..."
Meep.
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Sep 2 03:30:58 2001 GMT ]--
From: AnOptometrist,TheManWithTheGoldenEyeball (phil-99)
Subject: Back at work un under 7 1/2 hrs. I should go to bed, eh?
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Sep 2 22:33:53 2001 GMT ]--
From: AnOptometrist,TheManWithTheGoldenEyeball (phil-99)
Subject: And I did.
And I was awoken at 11:15, with a fuck-off hangover and horrible
tastes in my mouth. Uch. One reason why you shouldn't work in a pub - the
tempation to stay behind and have a "few" is always much too strong.
And I dragged my hungover head into work for midday, and got off at
8:15pm (shoulda been 9, but it was so quiet...), having eaten a bowl of onion
rings all afternoon, whilst having been serving food all day long - how
annoying is that?
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Sep 4 10:56:39 2001 GMT ]--
From: AnOptometrist,TheManWithTheGoldenEyeball (phil-99)
Subject: Day off, whoooohooo!
:)
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Sep 4 19:59:56 2001 GMT ]--
From: AnOptometrist,TheManWithTheGoldenEyeball (phil-99)
Subject: Ya, so I went to Glasgow.
Ya, so I lost my fecking mobile phone.
Ya, I've had it for less than 48hrs?
*growls* Then I came home and the first thing my dad said when I told
him was "here we go again.", I mean really - so when I bitched at him he said
something like "don't bitch at me". *grr*
I hate parents somedays.
I also hate ScotRail for not having decent opening hours in their
Glasgow Queen Street lost property office phone thingie. Assuming that's where
I left it, on the train. I guess I'm just lucky that it was a sprinter to QS I
caught, and not a train that goes on to Airdrie!!!
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Sep 5 15:21:30 2001 GMT ]--
From: AnOptometrist,TheManWithTheGoldenEyeball (phil-99)
Subject: So. I have had 3 agencies call me today, and I'm being put forward
for three jobs. I've been talking to Pete, who's put my name around for jobs
within Belgacom. Whoo! Something has to come sometime. Although I'm enjoying
life (kinda) here, I really really really need something better!
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Sep 5 15:22:19 2001 GMT ]--
From: AnOptometrist,TheManWithTheGoldenEyeball (phil-99)
Subject: Got a phone call at 11:45 today asking if I could go into work at 12,
and work until 3. Am also on at 5->midnight. Reluctantly agreed, only because
the money will come in handy.
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Sep 6 12:17:00 2001 GMT ]--
From: AnOptometrist,TheManWithTheGoldenEyeball (phil-99)
Subject: Once again, some of Mono's population have missed the point entirely.
<EHFD> "Who Would You Do?"
Good idea, could have a future for a short while. As long as it's
taken semi-seriously by everyone. I mean obviosuly it's not going to be taken
100% seriously, c'mon - that would be asking for a fecking miracle :)
But if you don't like it - don't use it, don't read it. Simple.
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Sep 7 14:55:04 2001 GMT ]--
From: AnOptometrist,TheManWithTheGoldenEyeball (phil-99)
Subject: So there ;-P
Woke up at 11:30 today, 12:10, get a phone call telling me I was
supposed to be in work at 12. Nobody told me. Apparently it was on the rota,
I just hadn't seen it. Duhh.
Made it in by 12:30. Was barely worth being there, was dead as a dodo
and prolly served 10 meals all lunchtime. *growls*
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Sep 7 15:56:19 2001 GMT ]--
From: AnOptometrist,TheManWithTheGoldenEyeball (phil-99)
Subject: I'm tired and pissed off
Just feck off...
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Sep 9 02:05:18 2001 GMT ]--
From: AnOptometrist,TheManWithTheGoldenEyeball (phil-99)
Subject: I have lots of phonecalls to make today (tommorrow and/or monday)
One to Orange, to shout at them for having a crap call centre.
Several to agencies.
Several to friends.
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Sep 9 10:02:36 2001 GMT ]--
From: AnOptometrist,TheManWithTheGoldenEyeball (phil-99)
Subject: What is it about one person, who can wind you up by doing nothing
offensive, but by popping up everywhere, and acting like a moron?
*grumbles*
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Sep 10 18:52:28 2001 GMT ]--
From: AnOptometrist,TheManWithTheGoldenEyeball (phil-99)
Subject: *yawns and stretches*
Wondering whether I should go down to the Commode (Commodore, where I
work) to see people, or whether I should just sit here and watch TV... I know
which I would rather, but I don't want to spend all my time in work - ya know?
*ponders*
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Sep 12 14:08:16 2001 GMT ]--
From: AnOptometrist,TheManWithTheGoldenEyeball (phil-99)
Subject: I can't say anything that hasn't already been said. So I'll leave
this with the same edit I made in my LiveJournal:
===============================================================================
I don't want to appear cold here, so soon after "the event", but please - can
you refrain from certain things:
1. Don't use the word "War" to describe this. This is not a war, and unless
someone in the White House has their head firmly up their arse - it won't
develop into one. You're just helping to spread FUD (Fear, Uncertainty and
Doubt) if you use that word.
2. Don't blame anyone unless you know what you're talking about. Again, by
going ahead and saying "x did it", someone, be it a little kid, will see your
words and take them as gospel. This will spread, and only serve to fuel the
already rampant racism present in the world.
Please? Two simple requests that could help keep people's sanity :)
===============================================================================
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Sep 12 14:36:36 2001 GMT ]--
From: AnOptometrist,TheManWithTheGoldenEyeball (phil-99)
Subject: Oh NO...
I just saw Colin Powell (US Secretary of State) on TV stating
"This is a war, there is no other way to see it"
*sighs* That doesn't help anybody.
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Sep 15 02:55:50 2001 GMT ]--
From: AnOptometrist,TheManWithTheGoldenEyeball (phil-99)
Subject: Weding tommorrow
No, not mine, nor anyone I know - but around 200 people at the
commode. *sighs* Long night? I think so.
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Sep 16 03:07:46 2001 GMT ]--
From: AnOptometrist,TheManWithTheGoldenEyeball (phil-99)
Subject: Long? LONG?
I've been home frmo work 20 minutes. Finished clearing up at 2:30am,
after we stopped serving at 1am. Shows you what a mess they made, eh?
Possible work in Belgium, keep 'all posted.
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Sep 16 22:36:14 2001 GMT ]--
From: AnOptometrist,TheManWithTheGoldenEyeball (phil-99)
Subject: *growls at all the ignorant people out there*
Who? Take your pic, there are too many of them to count.
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Sep 19 03:22:04 2001 GMT ]--
From: AnOptometrist,TheManWithTheGoldenEyeball (phil-99)
Subject: This is where you see working in pubs as a disadvantage...
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Sep 19 03:39:04 2001 GMT ]--
From: AnOptometrist,TheManWithTheGoldenEyeball (phil-99)
Subject: Hmmmm, http://www.selectsmart.com/FREE/select.php3?client=shirafox
# 1 Apu
# 2 Chief Wiggum
# 3 Ned Flanders
# 4 Principal Skinner
# 5 Reverend Lovejoy
I am Apu? Scary!!
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Sep 19 12:14:42 2001 GMT ]--
From: AnOptometrist,TheManWithTheGoldenEyeball (phil-99)
Subject: I am SOOOOO tired :(
Was woken up at 9:30 by some bastarf of an agency person calling and
asking questions that I found incredibly hard to answer as I'd been awake less
than 30 seconds. So prolly came across as an idiot (nothing new there, then?).
Work at 5, nothing else happening today. Nothing else happening in my
life full stop. Still waiting for a reply from this guy within Belgacom, might
write later and at least verify that he did get my email... I wish people would
send acknowledgements to stuff like this, I really do.
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Sep 19 13:51:24 2001 GMT ]--
From: AnOptometrist,TheManWithTheGoldenEyeball (phil-99)
Subject: Ooops, just noticed that the NI Number on my payslips is wrong.
*sighs* Something to sort out today, then?
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Sep 20 00:58:16 2001 GMT ]--
From: AnOptometrist,TheManWithTheGoldenEyeball (phil-99)
Subject: Hmmmm, average time for diary edits is getting later and later...
(or earlier and earlier?)
Anywhere between 3-4am is going to be commonplace, I fear. I am so
short of sleep, I was actually happy at work today :) Yes I know that sounds
odd, but it was something that kept me occupied with things to do and not let
the tiredness take over - oh, and we can use the coffee machine as much as we
like :)
I need to get a picture of Naomi, she's far too cute...
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Sep 20 11:45:54 2001 GMT ]--
From: AnOptometrist,TheManWithTheGoldenEyeball (phil-99)
Subject: Naomi is the Assistant Manager(ess), 20yrs old, single and
extraordinarily good looking. Comes from Leeds. Was a "bad girl" at
school, uhhhm. What else do I know about her? Not much. Ach well.
But saying that - Melody, Rebecca, Elisabeth, Joanne and Sara are all
very gorgeous too. Shame most of them are taken already.
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Sep 21 02:41:23 2001 GMT ]--
From: AnOptometrist,TheManWithTheGoldenEyeball (phil-99)
Subject: *bounces along to very cool songs*
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Sep 24 01:42:23 2001 GMT ]--
From: AnOptometrist,TheManWithTheGoldenEyeball (phil-99)
Subject: Arrived at work at 12, stopped work for tea (Rare rump steak, oh how
lovely, the first real meat I have eaten in weeks) at 9pm, started
work again at 10, finished work at 12.
11hrs, I am such a sucker.
In related news, I have next weekend off! YAY! So Southampton, watch
out :) On the bad front, I have to be back for Sunday night :(
Gayle and Andy are lovely, very cool people.
I've only seen my grandparents for an hour this weekend, so far. This
is a good thing :)
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Sep 24 15:34:59 2001 GMT ]--
From: AnOptometrist,TheManWithTheGoldenEyeball (phil-99)
Subject: Oh, btw - the Embrace and Muse albums I bought a while back are
excellent. :)
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Sep 27 12:18:22 2001 GMT ]--
From: AnOptometrist,TheManWithTheGoldenEyeball (phil-99)
Subject: ARRRRRRRGH
Have you seen what Waterstones.co.uk have done to their beautiful
site? :((((( It was lovely, and now they've... they've....
Amazon-ified it...
*wibbles*
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Oct 1 21:35:38 2001 GMT ]--
From: AnOptometrist,TheManWithTheGoldenEyeball (phil-99)
Subject: Thanks to all for a good weekend - apologies if I was slightly out of
it for bits of the weekend, but I've been developing a cold since last week and
it caught up with me in spectacular fashion on Saturday afternoon, at which
point, all I wanted to do was sleep.
Oh, and Glow-bowling? That really hurt my eyes...
*note to self* If we ever agree to go somewhere in southampton, make
sure it still exists before we attempt to find it in
the rain :) (Though seeing some damp spods isn't
always a bad thing)
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Oct 1 22:12:40 2001 GMT ]--
From: AnOptometrist,TheManWithTheGoldenEyeball (phil-99)
Subject: Don't ever expect this to be updated often :)
http://www.imood.com/query.cgi?email=phil-99@bigfoot.com
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Oct 2 13:07:51 2001 GMT ]--
From: AnOptometrist,TheManWithTheGoldenEyeball (phil-99)
Subject: Anyone went to Southampton who gets a cold...
I apologise - I feel like shite. Now you get to feel like shite too!
Muhahaha :-P
Especially those whom I snogged - damn, that was only two people!
Must spread my germs further....
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Oct 2 20:49:16 2001 GMT ]--
From: AnOptometrist,TheManWithTheGoldenEyeball (phil-99)
Subject: *Yawn*
I had pizza for tea - Mexican. Yummy. Chilli-con-carne pizza,
essentially. Messy, too! I miss people :( Seems like ages since the weekend
and even longer since I saw other ultra-cool people.
Saturday I will be working 12-Finish. Along with Rebecca and Andy.
This sucks big blue donkey balls. Apparantly we're so short staffed that they
can't even arrange it in split shifts? I'm not sure how that works.
Currently Listening to: Pink Floyd - The Division Bell (Take it Back)
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Oct 2 20:49:42 2001 GMT ]--
From: AnOptometrist,TheManWithTheGoldenEyeball (phil-99)
Subject: How can one diary edit swing from a mediocre start and devolve into a
completely pants pile of crap like it did? :)
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Oct 2 23:20:09 2001 GMT ]--
From: AnOptometrist,TheManWithTheGoldenEyeball (phil-99)
Subject: Dude - I forgot how hard tripwire's Moochrome script makes it to read
mono, especially when you have ALL the options turned on. I only wanted it for
the churds list *g*
Wow, this edit looks like it was typed with the typo-matic thingie on,
when in reality, it wasn;t!! HAHA!
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Oct 4 00:51:15 2001 GMT ]--
From: AnOptometrist,TheManWithTheGoldenEyeball (phil-99)
Subject: *snuggles up with everyone cool in the world*
Wanna come and snuggle under the duvet?
(and yes, if you think it applies to you, it prolly does)
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Oct 4 10:45:24 2001 GMT ]--
From: AnOptometrist,TheManWithTheGoldenEyeball (phil-99)
Subject: Oh, and before people start to worry - I meant snuggle in the
NON-Simpsons context :)
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Oct 4 16:11:56 2001 GMT ]--
From: AnOptometrist,TheManWithTheGoldenEyeball (phil-99)
Subject: Working in the Restaraunt tonight.
This essentially means taking all the orders that the restaraunt staff
get, doing them, sticking them on trays, and waiting for someone to take these
to the tables. I get very little customer contact, as the waiters take the
orders and I get them through on my printer.
Ofc there are always the difficult gits who want their drinks seperate
from their food bill, who have to come and pay me directly. This is a pain, as
on nights like this, I like not having to deal with them :)
On quiet nights, it's plain boring. On busy nights - hectic.
The one advantage of working there over in the bar: you're finished
(closed up, washed up and completely done) by 11pm, at the latest (last seating
in the restaraunt is 9pm!). Nice.
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Oct 5 09:21:10 2001 GMT ]--
From: AnOptometrist,TheManWithTheGoldenEyeball (phil-99)
Subject: *yawnyawnyawn*
I wanted to be up at 9am so I could go out and buy new trousers. All
my curent pairs seem to have developed holes in various embarasing places.
Fortunately, one pair's hole isn't too big, so it can be got away with today.
I was awake at 9, but then fell asleep again as I contemplated whether
I really needed to be up at 9, or whether it could wait :) Damn!
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Oct 5 09:42:25 2001 GMT ]--
From: AnOptometrist,TheManWithTheGoldenEyeball (phil-99)
Subject: I miss spods :(
I would have said "I miss my friends", but it appears that 100% of my
bestest friends are spods. How sad :) Not that I'm complaining! How could I
complain that spod-dom has introduced me to cool and groovy people?
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Oct 5 16:02:41 2001 GMT ]--
From: AnOptometrist,TheManWithTheGoldenEyeball (phil-99)
Subject: Trousers are bought, yay!
So now I have one pair of Black trousers with (effectively) no crotch,
thanks to my big arse :) And one pair of green trousers with a holy crotch (I
assume, once again thanks to my big arse). These new ones should solve all my
problems, though.
I also had a Chicken & Sweetcorn Softee, yummy :)
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Oct 6 00:49:21 2001 GMT ]--
From: AnOptometrist,TheManWithTheGoldenEyeball (phil-99)
Subject: Just
I mean it.
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Oct 6 17:53:17 2001 GMT ]--
From: AnOptometrist,TheManWithTheGoldenEyeball (phil-99)
Subject: I told you I meant it.
Had a crap crap crap crap crap crap night last night. Left on my own
from 11-12, closed up on my own - ended up fuming so badly I was having trouble
not throwing things against walls (and when you work in a pub with lots of
glass things around, this is a abd idea). This mostly due to customers, and
frustration of not being able to get away from it for even a minute or two.
Today has been nearly as bad - busy as hell from 1pm-4pm, running out
of everything, not being able to clear up, not having the energy to give a
flying fig. And To cap it all, I agreed to forgoe my 3hr break for a 1.5hr
one. An extra #6.15 for me, I guess :)
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Oct 9 14:34:15 2001 GMT ]--
From: AnOptometrist,TheManWithTheGoldenEyeball (phil-99)
Subject: I HAVE AN INTERVIEW ON FRIDAY!!!! WHOOHOOO!
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Oct 10 11:47:28 2001 GMT ]--
From: AnOptometrist,TheManWithTheGoldenEyeball (phil-99)
Subject: I went to see A.I. last night.
Visually stunning. Lots of slow sequences that reminded me of 2001 (A
Space Oddysey). You know the type - sequences that don't affect the storyline
but without which the film would be about 3hrs shorter? :) It's got about 3
points at which I thought it was about to finish, yet it didn't.
It's a good film. I wouldn't go see it at the cinema on my own again,
however - it's just too long.
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Oct 12 00:27:42 2001 GMT ]--
From: AnOptometrist,TheManWithTheGoldenEyeball (phil-99)
Subject: I need a new nameline......
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Oct 12 08:49:14 2001 GMT ]--
From: AnOptometrist,TheManWithTheGoldenEyeball (phil-99)
Subject: *yawns and stretches*
I hate being up before 9 :)
Was awake at 7am, went for a shower, sat down on bed and then woke up
at 9:30, eeep. Am now suited up - ready to be interviewed. MeepMeep.
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Oct 12 21:43:52 2001 GMT ]--
From: AnOptometrist,TheManWithTheGoldenEyeball (phil-99)
Subject: Considering whether driving right now would be a good idea...
I had my 1st can around 7pm, then another one opened at around 9.
Yeah, plenty of time there, eh? I mean - I try not to drive if I've had even
one, but it's been 3hrs since the 1st and over an hour since the 2nd was
finished.
And I'm only going to the chippy :)
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Oct 13 14:26:28 2001 GMT ]--
From: AnOptometrist,TheManWithTheGoldenEyeball (phil-99)
Subject: Oh, the interview was utter pants, btw - they asked lots of stuff I
shoulda been able to answer without thinking about it, but could I? No :( I
was going to do some reading the night beforehand, but ended up not getting
home until late...
*sighs* I don't expect to get any further with this.
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Oct 13 15:09:47 2001 GMT ]--
From: AnOptometrist,TheManWithTheGoldenEyeball (phil-99)
Subject: My sinsister Stats (U2U by time)
Rank Sent to Time | Sent by Time
-----------------------------------------------
1 nancyboy 03:37:40 | nancyboy 02:40:40
2 big-pete 00:55:00 | big-pete 01:02:40
3 mirath 00:52:40 | xanna 00:25:40
4 xanna 00:29:40 | clara 00:23:00
5 azrael 00:24:00 | tufty 00:18:20
OK, that is scary :)
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Oct 14 03:36:21 2001 GMT ]--
From: AnOptometrist,TheManWithTheGoldenEyeball (phil-99)
Subject: Oh dear, how sad...
phil-99 AnOptometrist,TheManWithTheGoldenEyeball Users on Monochrome at 04:35
alexis the other night I dreamt of knives In Main Menu
mimic Mimic Talker [ESC][T]
That's everybody...
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Oct 15 00:48:46 2001 GMT ]--
From: AnOptometrist,TheManWithTheGoldenEyeball (phil-99)
Subject: BUGGER
I thought of a brill nameline earlier, came to put it in (having
counted it out earlier, to coming to exactly the right number of chars) and can
I remember what it is? Can I remember what it referred to? NO! *growl*
Ahh, I know what it coulda been now - South Park... yeees.......
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Oct 15 13:31:37 2001 GMT ]--
From: AnOptometrist,TheManWithTheGoldenEyeball (phil-99)
Subject: Nope, can't remember it.
In other shock news - I found a bargain! I was browsing through
Dixons' electronics displays, as I do from time to time, to remind myself why I
don't shop there (heh), and I saw a CD player for 79 squids. I thought to
myself, it looks nice - but that's expensive for a Discman in this day and age.
So I looks closer, and I discovered it's an MP3-Based CD Discman. Me
being me, couldn't turn down the offer of having one of these things for under
80 quid, and said I'd take it. The guy then told me there was 10% off as well!
So I got myself a nice beastie-toy for #71(+warranty, 3yrs for 14
pound? Instant replacement? How could I say no?!). I am currently planning
how many songs I can fit on all my recordable CDs *g*
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Oct 16 01:34:25 2001 GMT ]--
From: AnOptometrist,TheManWithTheGoldenEyeball (phil-99)
Subject: "Du Hast, du hast Mich..."
*coughs* Yeah :)
In other dodgy-music-related-news (on CDs I burnt a year or more ago
of random Mp3s - Sucks to be You (by Prozzak) is such an EXCELLENT tune :)
(press "/phil-99" if you don't want to read rather pants lyrics, shame I can't
sing it to you!)
[Tamara] - Sucks To Be You
[Simon] - I know, I know
[Tamara] - Sucks To Be You
[Simon] - I know it's true
I'm a bastard if it's true
If the thing she did to me
Is what I did to you
I'm a bastard if it's true
And I guess it's true
[Tamara] - Sucks To Be You
[Simon] - I know, I know
[Tamara] - Sucks To Be You
[Simon] - I know it's true
You need to know I finally understand
And I gotta get in touch with you now
But I can't
I just want to tell you I'm sorry
I'm a bastard if it's true
If the thing she did to me
Was what I did to you
I'm a bastard if it's true
And I guess it's true
[Tamara] - Sucks To Be You
[Simon] - I know, I know
[Tamara] - Sucks To Be You
[Simon] - I know it's true
You need to know I finally understand
And I gotta get in touch with you now
But I can't
I wish I could have made you happy
But I'm a bastard
I'm not saying that I wanted you to stay
But tonight I feel like driving my car to LA
Just so you can see me crying
Cause I'm a bastard if it's true
Yeah and I guess it's true
[Tamara] - Sucks To Be You
[Tamara] - Sucks To Be You
[Simon] - I know it's true
[Tamara] - Sucks To Be You
[Simon] - I know, I know
[Tamara] - Sucks To Be You
[Simon] - I know it's true
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Oct 16 01:34:52 2001 GMT ]--
From: AnOptometrist,TheManWithTheGoldenEyeball (phil-99)
Subject: Meeeeeeep
(Vengaboys?), Up and Down
YUCK
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Oct 16 01:35:40 2001 GMT ]--
From: AnOptometrist,TheManWithTheGoldenEyeball (phil-99)
Subject: Massive Attack - Unfinished Sympathy - LIVE!!!!!!!!!!!!
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Oct 17 00:29:09 2001 GMT ]--
From: AnOptometrist,TheManWithTheGoldenEyeball (phil-99)
Subject: Yes indeedy, I am very pleased with my purchase...
Though there's a couple of quirks I want to investigate. It seems to
miss off the end of certian tracks, and I can't figure out why.
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Oct 17 00:30:04 2001 GMT ]--
From: AnOptometrist,TheManWithTheGoldenEyeball (phil-99)
Subject: MANCHESTER!
In case you're interested, I'll be in Manchester from Weds eve->Sat
morning. *hugs all* :)
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Oct 22 01:02:43 2001 GMT ]--
From: AnOptometrist,TheManWithTheGoldenEyeball (phil-99)
Subject: Oooo, why didn't I write in here?
Yes, I went to Manchester/Bolton/Liverpool!
Yes, I saw cool people.
Yes, I had a fabulous meal at the Strawbury Duck(hmmm, rare 10oz rump)
Yes, I almost missed Rachel in Liverpool.
Yes, I did get to show her my big hairy thing.
(I carted that from Glasgow for her and Caroline to see!)
Yes, I did drive back on Friday night, feeling very claustrophobic on
the M6, which had no right to be that busy at 10pm on a Friday.
Yes, I wish I could show off to someone!
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Oct 22 02:30:47 2001 GMT ]--
From: AnOptometrist,TheManWithTheGoldenEyeball (phil-99)
Subject: Why did I have to leave my camera in Bolton, eh?
That's the 3rd request for a picture I've had tonight, and I can't do
it... by the time I _can_ do it, it'll be too late *cries*
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Oct 24 15:40:22 2001 GMT ]--
From: AnOptometrist,TheManWithTheGoldenEyeball (phil-99)
Subject: I've nothing to write about...
Looking forward to this interview on Friday. Also looking forward to
drinking lots of Belgian beers on Friday night :) I hope I can get this
position, I really do. I don't care if it's a janitor, I can't cope with the
current job any longer, I'm bored and frustrated and pissed off and, and, and,
and, and....
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Oct 25 14:48:45 2001 GMT ]--
From: AnOptometrist,TheManWithTheGoldenEyeball (phil-99)
Subject: And can I just say thanks to Caroline for this:
http://raylehmann.tripod.com/buffy/buffy7.jpg
I think I'm in heaven... all that she needs now is a whip/crop and a
slave kneeling at her feet, and it would be perfect. Guess who's volunteering
for the role?
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Oct 27 16:10:34 2001 GMT ]--
From: AnOptometrist,TheManWithTheGoldenEyeball (phil-99)
Subject: Oh my...
Disasterous journey back from Brussels...
It all went fine until I went to check in and realised that I didn't
have a fecking clue where my passport was. Uhhhm, oops. I know I had it in
the morning, I made _sure_ I had it - but where????
So I called pete and he (thank you Pete) searched through his flat and
couldn't find it, all the time it getting closer and closer to final check in
time. I gave in and said I'd lost it, because I couldn't afford to move my
flight. (Next one was at 7pm.) Luckily, they allowed me on wth just my
Driving Licence Photocard as I.D., another reason why Compulsory ID isn't
necessarily a bad thing all the time, btw!
The woman at Passport Control in Glasgow was a bit tetchy about
accepting it, but she gave in eventually :-) Thank you nice lady!
What to do now, eh? Work in 50 minutes :(
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Oct 29 00:32:05 2001 GMT ]--
From: Whip Me, Ma! (phil-99)
Subject: Oh for Pete's sake, just SHUT UP ALREADY!
Thank you.
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Oct 30 00:03:01 2001 GMT ]--
From: Whip Me, Ma! (phil-99)
Subject: Must sleep soon.
Really.
*snores*
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Oct 30 10:00:36 2001 GMT ]--
From: Whip Me, Ma! (phil-99)
Subject: So, I learnt a valuable lesson last night...
Go to bed before midnight (well, OK - just after) and get up at 9am.
Whilst this isn't a bad thing, as such, it just means I now have more
of the day to waste. Ho Hum.
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Nov 1 11:04:07 2001 GMT ]--
From: Whip Me, Ma! (phil-99)
Subject: Though I am dissapointed nobody from Brussels has commented...
Or maybe I'm just being too predictable? :)
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Nov 1 11:12:26 2001 GMT ]--
From: Whip Me, Ma! (phil-99)
Subject: I might have it I might have it I might have it!!!!!!!!!!!!!
YESYESYESYESYES!
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Nov 2 11:55:38 2001 GMT ]--
From: Whip Me, Ma! (phil-99)
Subject: So...
I now need something to do, apart from listen to music and read.
Something I can do with virtually no money. Ach well, I'm stuffed then :)
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Nov 2 12:05:21 2001 GMT ]--
From: Whip Me, Ma! (phil-99)
Subject: Mono is incredibly quiet today... whass going on?
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Nov 3 00:45:48 2001 GMT ]--
From: Whip Me, Ma! (phil-99)
Subject: *sighs*
Tired and moody...
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Nov 4 02:42:37 2001 GMT ]--
From: Whip Me, Ma! (phil-99)
Subject: Now exhausted, after dealing with a drunken chef, who collapsed in the
ladies' (yes, she is female) and whom I had to carry to a taxi.
Will people ever learn? I know I learnt quick when I was 18/19.
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Nov 4 15:53:43 2001 GMT ]--
From: Whip Me, Ma! (phil-99)
Subject: *whimpers gently*
LiveJournal's dead :(
Temporarily, I hope!
Server problems....
*sighs*
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Nov 6 08:47:08 2001 GMT ]--
From: Whip Me, Ma! (phil-99)
Subject: Hmmmm, imjstagrrl
*drooools*
Cute lass.
In other non-lusty news, I went to the Commodore last night at about
half five, left at about 9:30-9:45 in a state that made it really quite tricky
to get home, ordered a take out and was in bed by 11pm, hence was awake at
4:00am, 5:00am, 6:00am and 6:30am, at which point I gave in and read most of
Dirk Gently's Holistic Detective Agency (which is a truly excellent book, btw).
I'm struggling through Monsieur Venus, finding it really quite tough
to get into it, but enjoying it when I do manage to push it. Unfortunately, I
forgot the author(ess?).
I need something to drink... Diet Coke or milk? Or a Diet Milk,
maybe? ;-) I think Diet Coke it will be, as it's closer than the fridge is.
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Nov 6 11:18:52 2001 GMT ]--
From: Whip Me, Ma! (phil-99)
Subject: Finished Dirk Gently...
It all went a bit cock-eyed towards the end, didn't enjoy it as much
as I think I should have done. Might have to re-read the final few chapters
when more awake.
Am not sure what time I'm due in at work today, so am planning on
drinking lots of water (I need it, trust me) and going in at 12, just in case.
It's only 5 minutes walk, and I ain't likely to be doing anything else!
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Nov 7 13:05:32 2001 GMT ]--
From: Whip Me, Ma! (phil-99)
Subject:
After our interview, and after having reviewed your application
with our IT managers, we regret to have to tell you that we won't
continue with your application.
We believe that at this moment you lack some practical IT experience
for the 2 posistions that have been proposed to you.
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Nov 7 17:15:30 2001 GMT ]--
From: Whip Me, Ma! (phil-99)
Subject: FuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuck
I'm running out of patience. Am I going to remain stuck in this job
forever? Am I going to have spent 3yrs at uni studying for nothing? Am I
going to end up doing an NVQ in Food and Drink Service, working my way up
through the ranks of the hotel staff, to where Bryan is now?
Please, no. .
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Nov 7 23:31:56 2001 GMT ]--
From: Whip Me, Ma! (phil-99)
Subject: For God's sake man, I can't believe people are taking this personally!
Someone covered a record you like.
You don't like the cover.
DON'T FRIGIGNG WELL BUY IT THEN.
Don't moan about it in every place you can find. It's really
irritating.
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Nov 8 18:45:09 2001 GMT ]--
From: Whip Me, Ma! (phil-99)
Subject: Why did the sofa get stuck in the stairs?
Don't tell me, I'll figure it eventually :)
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Nov 8 23:03:44 2001 GMT ]--
From: Whip Me, Ma! (phil-99)
Subject: Yeah, I figured it out not long after I read that. I now know the
answers to these three questions:
1:) Why whassisface climbled up the outside of the wall to get the
answering machine tape back
2:) Why the sofa is stuck
3:) How many verses there are to Colerige's thingimijiggy poem.
4:) (Optional - what the Monk had to do with everything)
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Nov 9 14:06:49 2001 GMT ]--
From: Whip Me, Ma! (phil-99)
Subject: (Everything, and anything - btw)
Work today. 6-F. Off tommorrow, thanks to Rebecca. Yay.
I've done so few hours this week. Prolly less than 30. I want the
hours so that I can get the cash so that I can travel... I want to see cool
people *stamps feet*
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Nov 9 16:12:38 2001 GMT ]--
From: Whip Me, Ma! (phil-99)
Subject: Ya know something?
It's gonna be DAMN cold tonight. WHOOHOOO! Ice! Snow! YAY!
(What's the betting everyone whinges again?)
"Don't like it, it's too hot" / "Don't like it, it's too cold"
"Don't like it, it's always raining" / "Don't like it, it's too dry"
All in the same sentence...
Ach well.
*sighs*
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Nov 10 03:38:22 2001 GMT ]--
From: Whip Me, Ma! (phil-99)
Subject: ORRRRRRRRRBITALLLLLLLLL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Currently playing at idiotic volumes through my headphones. Yes I
know it's 3am, yes I know I should be in bed, but I sat chatting with da_boss
and company after work for a while, during Martin's (not quite failure of a)
surprise 21st b/day party.
Nice :)
Oh, and the ice-cream you get in the Chocolate Fudge Sensation Ice
Creams, oh my. Oh my oh my oh my. Why did I never try this before? This
blows Haagen Daazs into obscurity (sorry Alexis!!!) :)
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Nov 11 00:32:18 2001 GMT ]--
From: Whip Me, Ma! (phil-99)
Subject: Hmmmm, Guiness is good.
As are ice-creams, but I now feel extraordinarily fat.
Am playing with XML. I think I need to read the book some more. I
tried to do something earlier and gave up in frustration :) Practice, and a
decent tutorial should help.
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Nov 11 13:00:47 2001 GMT ]--
From: Whip Me, Ma! (phil-99)
Subject: Yay - TLDTTOTS
Dad was in the attic and found his old hardback copy :)
First chapter read, very good already.
(Rachel - want to call out for Pizza next time I'm there? *G*)
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Nov 12 12:29:36 2001 GMT ]--
From: Whip Me, Ma! (phil-99)
Subject: Bizzare dream last night. I remember Danielle, and I remember her
talkign about buttering her shoes. One at a time, on alternate nights. I also
remember other stuff, but that's a:) not so clear and b:) for my mind only :)
Butter?
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Nov 12 16:43:43 2001 GMT ]--
From: Whip Me, Ma! (phil-99)
Subject: You might want to ignore my prattle :)
Subject: And so begins the idle speculation...
And so begins the panic.
Looking at location, and footage - it's unlikely to be anything but an
accident. But then again, who knows? :-| I just can't understand why anyone
would want to fly a plane into Queens? *shrugs*
Everybody thinks they are a target.
It might be true, but it's unlikely :)
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Nov 13 01:55:48 2001 GMT ]--
From: Whip Me, Ma! (phil-99)
Subject: Hmmmmm, chicken sandwiches, showered in freshly ground rock salt and
pepper, covered in mayonaise and sprinkled with lettuce. All on fresh
french loaf.
At 2am, perfect!
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Nov 13 03:19:52 2001 GMT ]--
From: ItsADaisyAgeAndYou'reAboutToWalkTopstage (phil-99)
Subject: Well, at last, a new lyrical nameline.
Any takers? C'mon, just one guess :)
Rejected lines include, but are not limited to:
IPutTheneedleIntoUrGroove,IGotAGoodThing (Obscure? Never!)
About those other Jennys I reckoned with (Just pants)
AndPosBrotherLuckyWillPreachLetTheWeddingBegin (Too long)
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Nov 13 03:22:09 2001 GMT ]--
From: ItsADaisyAgeAndYou'reAboutToWalkTopstage (phil-99)
Subject: Another rejected one, from a different song, however - is:
NothinToLiveForLooklikeNothinComingMyWay
Or
TakeJustHalfThenTakeTheRestOfItForALaugh
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Nov 14 01:12:14 2001 GMT ]--
From: ItsADaisyAgeAndYou'reAboutToWalkTopStage (phil-99)
Subject: Yah.
So.
Ping?
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Nov 14 12:15:44 2001 GMT ]--
From: ItsADaisyAgeAndYou'reAboutToWalkTopStage (phil-99)
Subject: Whass going on? Everyone seems to be in a foul mood.
I woke up in the middle of the night last night, and in the course of
thinking, decided that I needed to go to Glasgow. Can I remember why? Of
course not. *grumps* And it's not JUST to visit HMV, either! :-)
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Nov 14 12:19:02 2001 GMT ]--
From: ItsADaisyAgeAndYou'reAboutToWalkTopStage (phil-99)
Subject: Finished TLDTTOTS
Not as good as Dirk Gently's... still fun, but not quite as
intricately bound up in itself as DGHDA. I was up till 4:30am this morning
reading that, and watching Monday Night Football (yes I know it was Tuesday
night last night. Blame Channel 5).
Pondering whether going to Glasgow will be a good thing or not. If I
go, I'll end up spending money. But I NEED to do something. I'm going
fricking crazy here. I also need to tidy up my room, I lost my railcard in
there and haven't seen it in a couple of months, oops. At least, I think it's
in there!
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Nov 14 18:48:16 2001 GMT ]--
From: ItsADaisyAgeAndYou'reAboutToWalkTopStage (phil-99)
Subject: "Don't give up on mono..."
Hmmm, shame. Seems like plenty of others are, or at least cutting
back in a massive way.
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Nov 15 02:17:06 2001 GMT ]--
From: ItsADaisyAgeAndYou'reAboutToWalkTopStage (phil-99)
Subject: subbes said...
@ 2001-11-14 19:50:00
What birds stick together?
Vel Crows.
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Nov 16 01:56:34 2001 GMT ]--
From: ItsADaisyAgeAndYou'reAboutToWalkTopStage (phil-99)
Subject: Pleasantly drunk
Out in Glasgow with Liz and Rebecca. Good night, even if Glasgow is
ANAL about allowing people into clubs with student ID. If you have no student
(I assume student, seeing as that's what he asked for on the door) ID on a
Thursday night, you go nowhere. This SUCKS.
Taxi back. Cost over 30 pounds. Meep.
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Nov 16 15:15:32 2001 GMT ]--
From: ItsADaisyAgeAndYou'reAboutToWalkTopStage (phil-99)
Subject: Was up and about at 7:30-8am this morning, after being up at 3am. I
am supposed to be at work tonight. I think I am going to collapse, here and
now. I'm exhausted.
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Nov 17 01:53:32 2001 GMT ]--
From: ItsADaisyAgeAndYou'reAboutToWalkTopStage (phil-99)
Subject: And lo, he did sleep.
Well, sat and dozed on the sofa with my new Dave Matthews Band album
on, YAY! Soon I will own ALL their music. Must be rich first, as I spotted
one of their albums (import) today for 21.99 :(
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Nov 18 22:34:09 2001 GMT ]--
From: ItsADaisyAgeAndYou'reAboutToWalkTopStage (phil-99)
Subject: Divine Comedy - Commuter Love
Has nobody ever felt this way, then?
Freezing Monday morning
She is waiting for her train to come
I brush past her, smell her perfume
Watch her hair move as she turns to go
She doesn't know I exist
I'm gonna keep it like this
I'm not gonna take any risks this time
She's not like the others
With their papers and their headphones on
She reads novels by French authors with loose morals
She can do no wrong
I wouldn't say I'm obsessed
I don't wanna see her undressed
We can be prince and princess in my dream
And we're dancing
Through the evening
'Til the morning
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Nov 19 11:24:25 2001 GMT ]--
From: ItsADaisyAgeAndYou'reAboutToWalkTopStage (phil-99)
Subject: Hmmm, Flippy's Brain <EHF> is surprisingly accurate?
Or maybe this is just in my dreams? :)
- mormegil has submitted to phil-99, while wearing rubber gloves
*laughs*
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Nov 19 11:25:28 2001 GMT ]--
From: ItsADaisyAgeAndYou'reAboutToWalkTopStage (phil-99)
Subject: Oh, and I have to say....
I love you all :-)
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Nov 19 11:25:36 2001 GMT ]--
From: ItsADaisyAgeAndYou'reAboutToWalkTopStage (phil-99)
Subject: (Why? Don't ask *g*)
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Nov 19 23:22:39 2001 GMT ]--
From: ItsADaisyAgeAndYou'reAboutToWalkTopStage (phil-99)
Subject: Argh, LiveJournal's dead :(
*whimpers*
What am I gonna do now?
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Nov 20 03:05:35 2001 GMT ]--
From: ItsADaisyAgeAndYou'reAboutToWalkTopStage (phil-99)
Subject: Oh dear...
Online gambling. It's so EASY. The minimum deposity was US$50, ok I
only lost $3.50 in the end, and am transferring the rest out again now, but
dude - it would be so easy to lose huge amounts of cash if you got drunk! :)
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Nov 21 01:07:38 2001 GMT ]--
From: ItsADaisyAgeAndYou'reAboutToWalkTopStage (phil-99)
Subject: OK, sorry to put in more lyrics, but I feel this one has a certain
signifiance - if not right now, from time to time, it seems to be quite apt.
"Say Goodbye"
So here we are tonight, you and me together
The storm outside, the fire is bright
And in your eyes I see, What's on my mind,
You've got me wild, Turned around inside
And then desire, see, is creeping
Up heavy inside here
And know you feel the same way, I do now
Now let's make this an evening
We'll share some wine, maybe we'll get high,
Lay here with me, Just for tonight,
Just for an evening
When we make, Our passionate pictures
You and me twist up, Secret creatures
And we'll lay here...
And Tomorrow go back to being friends
It goes on, but lacking an <LJ-CUT> tag (*grins*) (hmmm, <MONO-SPLIT> tag
anyone?) I'm, not going to put it all here.
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Nov 21 01:30:01 2001 GMT ]--
From: ItsADaisyAgeAndYou'reAboutToWalkTopStage (phil-99)
Subject: *roflmao*
Read this. READ IT! Especially if you've ever been a student in a
shared house/halls. READ! Go on. I swear you'll laugh your ass off!
http://www.fridgemagnet.org.uk/kitchen.html
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Nov 21 02:17:21 2001 GMT ]--
From: ItsADaisyAgeAndYou'reAboutToWalkTopStage (phil-99)
Subject: I forgot how good IE was at lying when it estimates download times.
Nearly an hour later, after a 37minute estimate, IE6 (proper version,
not the beta I've been running for months) is still going, with 15 minutes to
go. So... another half-hour, anybody?
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Nov 22 15:57:35 2001 GMT ]--
From: ItsADaisyAgeAndYou'reAboutToWalkTopStage (phil-99)
Subject: Hmmm, maybe going to bed at 4:30am and trying to be at work for 10am
ARE incompatible then? I rolled in at 11:30...
Oops.
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Nov 22 16:11:07 2001 GMT ]--
From: ItsADaisyAgeAndYou'reAboutToWalkTopStage (phil-99)
Subject: I'm just about to sit down in front of the radio with today's papers,
the Times, and the Independent. Both harfinched from work, hell - if people
are gonna leave them there, I'll read 'em.
That gives me 90 minutes to read them both, will I succeed? No
chance, as I like to read cover to cover - even the fashion sections :)
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Nov 23 16:32:27 2001 GMT ]--
From: ItsADaisyAgeAndYou'reAboutToWalkTopStage (phil-99)
Subject: Monday and Tuesday off, and a tax rebate to boot. Who wants me? :)
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Nov 24 04:01:17 2001 GMT ]--
From: ItsADaisyAgeAndYou'reAboutToWalkTopStage (phil-99)
Subject: I forgot the boss is actually a nice bloke :)
Sat after work in the back of reception chatting and joking with him,
Jardine, Hannah (*drools* bar staff)), Bryan (Assistant Manager), Andy (Bar
staff too) and Sara (another bar person). The boss won a holiday to Jamaica
thanks to us, the bar staff - we won a promotion whereby we got #10 for every
26shots of Morgan's Spiced we sold, the Assistant Managers got a meal with
Gordon Ramsey, and he got the holiday. For a week. In Jamaica. Bastard.
BASTARD.
It seems awful, dunnit? We do the donkey-work, and he gets the most
benefits. Though that's the way the world works, I guess......
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Nov 25 00:18:24 2001 GMT ]--
From: ItsADaisyAgeAndYou'reAboutToWalkTopStage (phil-99)
Subject: I'm broken. My body aches.
Back in at 11 tmrw...
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Nov 25 00:34:17 2001 GMT ]--
From: ItsADaisyAgeAndYou'reAboutToWalkTopStage (phil-99)
Subject: I need out of Helensburgh!
Anyone wanna share a house? :)
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Nov 25 16:25:19 2001 GMT ]--
From: ItsADaisyAgeAndYou'reAboutToWalkTopStage (phil-99)
Subject: Manchester, Southampton or Nottingham? :)
That's the 3 offers so far...
2 from Nottingham, one from Manchester and one from Southampton, and I
bet you all know who they were from - apart from the Nottingham ones. You'll
get one but the other might be harder...
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Nov 26 14:30:01 2001 GMT ]--
From: ItsADaisyAgeAndYou'reAboutToWalkTopStage (phil-99)
Subject: It's like a cycle, this - isn't it?
I recognise it, and whilst I apologise for the cyclic nature of my
diary (work, eat, drink, escape from Helensburgh), it's the nature of my life
right now. So, I'm just reporting the truth...
How sad? :)
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Nov 28 11:50:18 2001 GMT ]--
From: IDon'tGiveAFlyingFartIfI'mAFreak,DoYou?? (phil-99)
Subject: Hmmmm, niiiice.
Sat chatting with Hanna(h) and Alan until 5am. FIVE am! About?
Everything. She's a bitch, but a nice bitch :) Has already found one of the
subjects that I get riled up about - am sure she'll find more.
Also wondering what happenned to Dave and Naomi (Bar manager and ass.
manager), who disappeared to the back office at about 2am, then just vanished
into thin air. Mysteries mysteries, but gossip about it I shan't - because I
cannie stand the fact that gossip spreads so quickly.
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Nov 29 14:32:05 2001 GMT ]--
From: IDon'tGiveAFlyingFartIfI'mAFreak,DoYou?? (phil-99)
Subject: Hmmm, I'm glad I never had any plans to go to this London meet.
Given that Directions have appeared in the plan file today, and I
would be quite likely to be travelling today (were I going), I don't think I
would be a happy bunny-wabbit.
It's all very well giving pub names and locations, but what about us
un-londonites who can barely find a tube map? :) *grins*
I'm hungry.
I've just started using my Handspring Visor again, after a long
absence where it really wasn't any use to me. It still isn't, but at least I
can read the news on the train *g*
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Dec 3 04:00:30 2001 GMT ]--
From: IDon'tGiveAFlyingFartIfI'mAFreak,DoYou?? (phil-99)
Subject: Ugh, BJ's was better tonight, and at #1 a drink?
WHOOHOOOO!
Fun night overall, better because we stood at the bar ALL night long,
from 11:30 when we arrived, until 2:15 when we got kicked out :)) Heh. We
occupied our little area completely.
And there were only 3 of us, Andy, Lisa (Smurf) and myself.
(Smurf? Why? That's what she's in my phone as!)
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Dec 3 13:18:04 2001 GMT ]--
From: IDon'tGiveAFlyingFartIfI'mAFreak,DoYou?? (phil-99)
Subject: Hmmmm, that really didn't make much sense, did it? :)
Worked last night until 10:45, and waited around with a couple of
folk - Lisa (No idea who she is, how I know her or anything about her, except
that she's a lifeguard at our local pool), Martin Griffin (Whom I know from
Lime House, and works at the Commodore too) and girlfriend Melissa (With the
huge chest and the empty(?) head) and waited for Andy (on the bar).
We were going to go along to the Millig and just have a drink or two
there, but by the time we got there it was 11:30 (Millig and BJ's are in the
same building, essentially the same place, but one's a pub and the other's a
"club") and it closes at 12. So we went into BJ's, and including us 3, there
were 6 people in, whoohooo! :)
By 12:15 the place was fairly packed. But we did have a good night, I
believe.
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Dec 4 02:50:41 2001 GMT ]--
From: IDon'tGiveAFlyingFartIfI'mAFreak,DoYou?? (phil-99)
Subject: Long talk with Rachel tonight did absolutely nothing to dissuade me
from wanting to see her, along with everyone else I know.
Damnit, I want to live in the (relative) south again.
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Dec 4 15:09:04 2001 GMT ]--
From: IDon'tGiveAFlyingFartIfI'mAFreak,DoYou?? (phil-99)
Subject: Had some extraordinary dreams last night. Unusually, for me, I can
remember almost everything about them. Though no doubt they'll be
forgotten tonight, which is a real shame as they were most nice.
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Dec 5 12:29:27 2001 GMT ]--
From: IDon'tGiveAFlyingFartIfI'mAFreak,DoYou?? (phil-99)
Subject: I spent nearly 4hrs uploading all my pictures in a reasonable format
last night. Now all I have to do is make thumbnails and HTML pages - thanks be
that ACDSee can do that for me...
http://www.cus.org.uk/~phil-99/commodore.01.12.2001/hannah3.jpg
http://www.cus.org.uk/~phil-99/commodore.01.12.2001/danielle5.jpg
http://www.cus.org.uk/~phil-99/commodore.01.12.2001/saraAndy.jpg
People I work with. Loonies, all of them.
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Dec 5 14:37:01 2001 GMT ]--
From: IDon'tGiveAFlyingFartIfI'mAFreak,DoYou?? (phil-99)
Subject: OK, thumbnails going up now, along with page_1/page_2.htm and so on.
Now all I need to do is set up .htaccess files so it defaults to
page1.htm. Can I remember how to do this? Can I buggery.
Any help appreciated!
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Dec 7 03:04:48 2001 GMT ]--
From: IDon'tGiveAFlyingFartIfI'mAFreak,DoYou?? (phil-99)
Subject: Hmmmmm, this is cruel.
I don't yet have next Friday off, but I'll have it off, no matter
what. I don't care. Really. Why is it that I only ever NEED weekends off
after I've been given time off that I don't care about?
I did offer to sell my soul...
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Dec 7 15:35:18 2001 GMT ]--
From: IDon'tGiveAFlyingFartIfI'mAFreak,DoYou?? (phil-99)
Subject: I'm happy! I got my Dave Matthews Band songbook today - DMB songs
arranged for vocals, piano and guitar. Gives me an excuse to get the MIDI
keyboard out, eh? :)
Wheeeeee!
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Dec 7 15:37:35 2001 GMT ]--
From: IDon'tGiveAFlyingFartIfI'mAFreak,DoYou?? (phil-99)
Subject: So, I've told Dave (Jardine, boss-type-person number one) that I need
it and I want it and he'll hear it from em directly soon - if I don't get it, I
just won't turn up. This is really the first major favour I've asked - apart
from the day off for my interview in Brussels.
I'm fairly confident he'll understand :)
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Dec 7 23:41:15 2001 GMT ]--
From: IDon'tGiveAFlyingFartIfI'mAFreak,DoYou?? (phil-99)
Subject: Went to see The Others tonight.
First of all - can I please please PLEASE have Nicole Kidman for
Christmas? Never mind in my stocking - I'll have her in the ones she was
wearing throughout the film...
Secondly - this is an excellent film. Not predictable, as such - but
there were some things that were dead giveaways, IMO. Worth watching, really
worth it - very similar to another film...
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Dec 9 02:40:11 2001 GMT ]--
From: IDon'tGiveAFlyingFartIfI'mAFreak,DoYou?? (phil-99)
Subject: So........
2 surprises in two days. Or is that in one day? I'm not sure. Let
it be said that I am surprised, though in a way not surprised. Both surprises
have been rumbling for a while...
*hugs* to all involved with them, and I hope you know I love you all
to bits.
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Dec 9 03:12:03 2001 GMT ]--
From: IDon'tGiveAFlyingFartIfI'mAFreak,DoYou?? (phil-99)
Subject: Oh, random comment to anyone reading this journal on the web.
My diary here will soon be no longer. Giving up TW also means losing
my shell account, hence also losing a web page here. I've thought about taking
it back to CUS, but I think I'm simply going to stick to LiveJournal. I
already have about 4 different diaries from various places online...
My first one, which was simply me writing an HTML page with diary
content. This one, my CUS one, and now LJ. All of them are available if you
know where to look :) I think. Speaking of which, I'd best archive this
before it's too late! :)
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Dec 9 03:34:34 2001 GMT ]--
From: IDon'tGiveAFlyingFartIfI'mAFreak,DoYou?? (phil-99)
Subject: Line 523
Go on.
You get to see me sounding all horribly luvved up...
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Dec 9 03:36:54 2001 GMT ]--
From: IDon'tGiveAFlyingFartIfI'mAFreak,DoYou?? (phil-99)
Subject: This is essentially my entire mono life.
This diary was created 2 months or so after my account, and I don't
think there are any major gaps in it since then (Nov/Dec 1999). That's 2 years
worth of me. TWO YEARS!
In that time I've met some amazing people, some of them scary, some of
them worrying - but overall great people, many of whom I care for greatly.
*hugs* to you all.
And to think I could let it all go... the same way as the CQ...
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Dec 9 04:09:39 2001 GMT ]--
From: IDon'tGiveAFlyingFartIfI'mAFreak,DoYou?? (phil-99)
Subject: Line 2918
This is me angry... I'm glad nobody's seen it lately. That includes
me. What was it that caused this outbreak? I'm not 100% sure... I think this
is the result of Kate telling me something I really didn't want to know, but
which thing?
Hmmm...
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Dec 11 16:48:37 2001 GMT ]--
From: IDon'tGiveAFlyingFartIfI'mAFreak,DoYou?? (phil-99)
Subject: *grumbles*
I try, I really do...
There's potential for a nice couple of days off down south, but I'm
not entirely certain just yet. I'm kinda waiting on confirmation / decisions /
whatever it is to come through. I'm willing to spend the money, and I'm
willing to behave my ass, but not alone :-)
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Dec 15 13:50:40 2001 GMT ]--
From: IDon'tGiveAFlyingFartIfI'mAFreak,DoYou?? (phil-99)
Subject: Nice two days away.
Spoke to many lovely ladies, though didn't see them all.
Have work in an hour :(
*blergle*
I'm tired...
Wish I didn't have to keep on dashing away from people.......
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Dec 16 16:47:15 2001 GMT ]--
From: IDon'tGiveAFlyingFartIfI'mAFreak,DoYou?? (phil-99)
Subject: If you have a complaint to make, won't you please make it the same to
whomever you speak to - whether it's me or whether it's a manager. Do you
realise how embarassed I was, and still am, by your actions?
Your complaint - which in itself is unreasonable - of "I have the same
problem every bloody week I come" wasn't uttered to the guy who I got to
come and see you after you demanded to speak to them. All you had him do was
change your peas to salad!.
We do a menu - 2 meals for 5.98. As such, these are set menus which
we don't change itemd (for example - Gammon, chips and peas or fish, chips and
salad - you can't change it). This is why it's so cheap! Yet she insisted
that she could, and when I wouldn't do it for her, she got arsey...
I hope you're reading this. So you can see how truly embarrased (how
do you spell that?) I was........
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Dec 17 02:47:45 2001 GMT ]--
From: IDon'tGiveAFlyingFartIfI'mAFreak,DoYou?? (phil-99)
Subject: Looking back now, I know why I got so angry about her...
I wanted her to cause a scene, I wanted her to be the one that got
embarrassed - I wanted to watch her squirm as I did what she wanted, got a
senior person to me, who would tell her what I told her.
Damned relief management...
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Dec 17 19:38:38 2001 GMT ]--
From: IDon'tGiveAFlyingFartIfI'mAFreak,DoYou?? (phil-99)
Subject: Called into work at 6pm - only to go home at 7pm.
Not complaining, as it's my only night off this week.
Shop->work->drink->sleep->work->drink->sleep->work->sleep->work->drink->sleep.
That's my life right now.
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Dec 19 16:15:43 2001 GMT ]--
From: IDon'tGiveAFlyingFartIfI'mAFreak,DoYou?? (phil-99)
Subject: I have a santa outfit :)
This will be worn on Christmas Eve, just for a bit of fun.
That is all.
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Dec 20 01:46:36 2001 GMT ]--
From: IDon'tGiveAFlyingFartIfI'mAFreak,DoYou?? (phil-99)
Subject: And no, as far as I am concerned - there will be no pictures! :)
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Dec 20 02:47:46 2001 GMT ]--
From: IDon'tGiveAFlyingFartIfI'mAFreak,DoYou?? (phil-99)
Subject: I'm worried.
My Visor's stopped responding to taps on the screen. I had it working
earlier, with a total reset and a unscrewing and fiddling with the case, but I
don't know which one fixed it. So now I'm going to bed, to try to fix it
tommorrow....
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Dec 20 13:21:17 2001 GMT ]--
From: IDon'tGiveAFlyingFartIfI'mAFreak,DoYou?? (phil-99)
Subject: *smiles happily*
That was fun...
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Dec 21 23:53:15 2001 GMT ]--
From: IDon'tGiveAFlyingFartIfI'mAFreak,DoYou?? (phil-99)
Subject: Whereas, on the other hand - that wasn't.
2 days of 10hr straight through shifts :(
A split before...
A split after...
At the end of this week I will have done over 50hrs.
I'm exhausted...
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Dec 23 03:01:12 2001 GMT ]--
From: IDon'tGiveAFlyingFartIfI'mAFreak,DoYou?? (phil-99)
Subject: 51 3/4 hrs. Think of the money think of the money.....
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Dec 24 12:24:05 2001 GMT ]--
From: IDon'tGiveAFlyingFartIfI'mAFreak,DoYou?? (phil-99)
Subject: Double pay :)
I am now Santa. Fear Me, for I am Evil Santa.
I will give out sour candies to children on the street. I'll take
your Christmas Presents and drink ALL your brandy and eat ALL your mince pies
:-)
One advantage of working in a hotel/restaraunt - if you want a turkey
cooked, there's plenty of oven space :-)
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Dec 30 19:05:36 2001 GMT ]--
From: IDon'tGiveAFlyingFartIfI'mAFreak,DoYou?? (phil-99)
Subject: I'm ill...
I'm in a foul mood.
I've a:) slept and b:) watched TV all day.
That is it.
Woke up at 11am, back in bed by 1pm. Back up at 5pm.
Called sick into work...
First time for everything.
Uhhhm.
Spent a nice night with Splicer, Clarabel, Agog, Culf, Princess and
Clara the other night. It was silly - were playing Fluxx, Chez Geek and
something else whose name I can't remember until 5am. At which point I walked
back to Queen St. Station to get the 1st train back from Glasgow.
Then worked from 3pm->1:30am, and we got _shafted_.
*sighs*
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Dec 31 10:10:26 2001 GMT ]--
From: IDon'tGiveAFlyingFartIfI'mAFreak,DoYou?? (phil-99)
Subject: Christmas Eve, I'm sure I never wrote about.
OK, let's think. Working (or: The cast)
Phil - Mr S Clause
Simon - Mrs S Clause
Andy R - Elf
Sara - Fallen Angel
Hannah - Tinkerbell
Danielle - Rudolph
Sat around from 3pm->~9:30pm. At which point the whole world
descended onto the Commodore, and things just went crazy. I don't know if
you've ever seen such a disgruntled santa pushing his way through crowds with a
stack of glasses, muttering under his breath that they should all just go
home! :)
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Jan 1 19:12:01 2002 GMT ]--
From: IDon'tGiveAFlyingFartIfI'mAFreak,DoYou?? (phil-99)
Subject: Yay, no cold anymore.
Well... much less of a cold :)
I feel like I can do stuff again!
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Jan 3 01:25:26 2002 GMT ]--
From: IDon'tGiveAFlyingFartIfI'mAFreak,DoYou?? (phil-99)
Subject: Left on my own from 5pm->10pm, thanks Simon!
Currently drinking beer, needing a sandwich.
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Jan 3 01:47:02 2002 GMT ]--
From: IDon'tGiveAFlyingFartIfI'mAFreak,DoYou?? (phil-99)
Subject: I'm devestated...
I missed Day of the Triffids on Carlton Cinema this afternoon :(
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Jan 3 02:53:59 2002 GMT ]--
From: IDon'tGiveAFlyingFartIfI'mAFreak,DoYou?? (phil-99)
Subject: I should sleep...
Split again tommorrow (12-3/6-F)
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Jan 5 01:01:38 2002 GMT ]--
From: IDon'tGiveAFlyingFartIfI'mAFreak,DoYou?? (phil-99)
Subject: Glasgow Rhapsody (Which I was sure I'd posted before)
Is this the real life, is it the methodone?
Stuck in Govan, "two bob fur the telephone?"
Open yer wine an' talk wi' a whine like me.
Um just a weeji, gie us yer Sunny D.
Cos I'll chib yer pal, rip yer Da; slash yer dug, ride yer ma!
Any way the Clyde flows Disnae really mater tae me......tae me.
Haw Maw, just chibbed some cunt,
Buckie bottle tae the heid,
An noo the fuckin' bastard's deid!
Haw Maw, Um just oan parole,
An noo I'm headin straight back tae Bar-L.
Haw Maw, ooh oohooh ooh,
Never meant tae steal yer purse,
But if I'm no fu' o' smack this time the morra'.
Carry oot, carry oot!
An we'll go oot oan the batter!
Too late, the bailiff's here,
Sends shivers doon ma spine,
Gubbed 10 jellies just in time.
Goodbye all ma muckers, I've got tae go,
Got tae go and rip some wank fae up the scheme.
Haw Maw, ooh oohooh ooh
I'm a jakey bam, I sometimes think I've never been washed at all.
I see a little silhouetto of a bam,
Adidas! Adidas! "Can ye get us a kergo?" .
Thunderbird, White Lightning, very very frightning to me!
Twenty Mayfair, Twenty Mayfair, Twenty Mayfair and some skins,
Magnifico oh oh oh oh!
I'm just a fat boy, nae cunt loves me,
He's just a fat boy fae a fat family!
"Spare us a pound fur a wee cup o tea'?"
Get tae fuck, skanky slob, will ye get a job?
Forfucksake, No! I will no' get a job! - Get a job!
Forfucksake, I will no' get a job! - Get a job!
Forfucksake, Will you get a job? - Get a job!
Will no' get a job, get a job!
Will no' get a job, get a job!
No, no, no, no, no, no, no.....
Oh gonorrhoea! gonorrhoea! gonorrhoea and the clap!
Then doon the pub, has the barman put aside for me?
For me, for meeeee!?
So you 'hink you can slash me and pish in my eye?
So ye 'hink ye can chib me an' leave me to die?
Haw bawbag, can't dae this tae me bawbag!
Just wait till I'm oot, just wait till I'm right oot ma nut!
Fuck all really matters,
Any cunt can see,
Fuck all really matters, fuck all really matters to me!
Any way the Clyde flows.....
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Jan 5 02:37:40 2002 GMT ]--
From: IDon'tGiveAFlyingFartIfI'mAFreak,DoYou?? (phil-99)
Subject: With Apologies to SBJ for posting so soon after his Bolton Rhapsody
I was certani I'd posted that Glasgow one before......
Maybe that was on LiveJournal.
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Jan 6 17:14:36 2002 GMT ]--
From: IDon'tGiveAFlyingFartIfI'mAFreak,DoYou?? (phil-99)
Subject: Good night. Must do it again!
Though not drinking quite as much next time - it's expensive :)
Although my job title of official "Claire Sponsor" seemed to work out
fairly well *lol* As I've said before, and as Bob has said to me on many
occasions - it's a circle. When people are in need, I'll help the best I can.
And I also know (or at least hope) that those same people will provide the same
service to someone else when they're better off.
Hmmmm, Cathouse rocks.
However - trains on a Sunday, where they are just about to start
running an "Emergency Timetable" aren't good. I walked to Queen Street, was
told "there are no trains running from here, you need to go to Central". ARGH!
This was 10:30, an hour's journey if I time it right, and work at 12.
Bastards - got home at midday, called work and apologised, but there
was nuffink I could do. Needed to change and shower and stuff. Made it to
work for 12:25.
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Jan 7 16:22:40 2002 GMT ]--
From: IDon'tGiveAFlyingFartIfI'mAFreak,DoYou?? (phil-99)
Subject: Well...
I'm now utterly fed up with this *points around him*. I have no
space, no privacy, nothing that I can feel is really mine whilst I'm holed up
with my parents.
To this end - this is it. The decision to move is a definite "I need
to get out, now." Brief chats with glasgow spods have nearly decided me
for certain that I'll be out soon. Soon...
Am aiming for a flat in Glasgow. I mean, it makes sense right now.
May only stay there a short while, but at this time it seems like the obvious
answer - there's plenty of work of varying descriptions in Glasgow...
Anything to get out of Helensburgh!
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Jan 7 16:54:28 2002 GMT ]--
From: IDon'tGiveAFlyingFartIfI'mAFreak,DoYou?? (phil-99)
Subject: But finding any USEFUL information on Glasgow City Council's website
is an absolute nightmare - I don't think there actually is anything useful.
Just a random collection of phone numbers and addresses thrown together into a
searchable database with a web based front end.
So I'll have to go to town on my days off, then...
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Jan 8 03:53:43 2002 GMT ]--
From: IDon'tGiveAFlyingFartIfI'mAFreak,DoYou?? (phil-99)
Subject: WTF am I doing up?
I was going to bed at 2am....
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Jan 8 04:45:04 2002 GMT ]--
From: IDon'tGiveAFlyingFartIfI'mAFreak,DoYou?? (phil-99)
Subject: Disappointing, really!
I thought it would be much lower! :)
You answered "yes" to 556 of 1500 questions, making you 62.9% sexually
pure (37.1% sexually corrupt); that is, you are 62.9% pure in the sex domain.
Your Weirdness Factor (AKA Uniqueness Factor) is 32%, based on a comparison of
your test results with 22855 other submissions for this test.
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Jan 8 15:09:44 2002 GMT ]--
From: IDon'tGiveAFlyingFartIfI'mAFreak,DoYou?? (phil-99)
Subject: I should really have gone to bed. I didn't get up until 2:30pm today,
erk :( *sighs* And I really wanted to get up to Glasgow.
No time to do anything serious now, before work at 6.
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Jan 9 16:09:17 2002 GMT ]--
From: IDon'tGiveAFlyingFartIfI'mAFreak,DoYou?? (phil-99)
Subject: So, I have the form!
I can now apply to Glasgow City Council.
All I need to do now, is figure out _where_ I want to stay.
Problems with this: I know nothing about areas of Glasgow.
I have no idea how the costs will vary!
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Jan 11 16:42:29 2002 GMT ]--
From: IDon'tGiveAFlyingFartIfI'mAFreak,DoYou?? (phil-99)
Subject: No matter what Clarabel tells you, don't believe her.
I didn't break her computer - I just pretended to so that I could gain
her eternal gratitude when I "fixed" it again. And if you could have seen the
look on my face when I "fixed" it again, you would know just how much baloney
that is, *lol*.
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Jan 12 17:11:10 2002 GMT ]--
From: IDon'tGiveAFlyingFartIfI'mAFreak,DoYou?? (phil-99)
Subject: I'm shagged. Not literally, unfortunately - but I feel like sleeping
for a month. Nothing wrong with me, as far as I can tell - unless I've got
this cold back again, which wouldn't surprise me.
I've got scratch marks on my hands where Gandalf decided that the
measuring tape wasn't as much fun unless he was hanging from them.
Pancakes at 2am, going out shopping for Maple Syrup (No whipped cream,
though) with Clare (is it with an I or not?) at 1:30am must have made some
people think we were ever so slightly nuts - maple syrup, a frying pan, sugar
and lightbulbs. Weird?
Work this evening, oh joy...
I wanna quit, but I can't afford to quit until I sort out something
else. Ho hum, the trials and tribulations of a Phil.
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Jan 17 05:23:52 2002 GMT ]--
From: IDon'tGiveAFlyingFartIfI'mAFreak,DoYou?? (phil-99)
Subject: Whoohooo, long-time-no-all-nighter.
And no reason for it, either...
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Jan 17 23:28:51 2002 GMT ]--
From: IDon'tGiveAFlyingFartIfI'mAFreak,DoYou?? (phil-99)
Subject: Wasn't quite all night, fell asleep at 7am, hence missing all 3 of my
alarm clocks. Woken up by mobile ringing at 10:30, shoulda been in at
10.
I'm going to write a resignation letter tonight.
I'm going to pop into a few agencies in Glasgow on my next day off.
I _shall_ have a real job.
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Jan 18 13:34:28 2002 GMT ]--
From: IDon'tGiveAFlyingFartIfI'mAFreak,DoYou?? (phil-99)
Subject: The breadmaker beeps
The element turns off
Take white bread out.
Not a haiku - but I can't be arsed :)
Breadmakers are cool, and annoying at the same time.
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Jan 18 15:11:39 2002 GMT ]--
From: IDon'tGiveAFlyingFartIfI'mAFreak,DoYou?? (phil-99)
Subject: So... am sat here spodding still.
I'm in my dressing gown, I'm bored, but getting up and doing anything
is just not an option - it's too much hard work. I've got an application form
for IMES (Industrial and Marine Engineering Services) that I've had for about a
month now, but it's only a prospective application anyhow - so it's not time
dependant.
I need to go to boots, I need some more gumph.
Well, I would like some more, but it's not urgent :)
Current Music: Beats Internation - Dub Be Good to Me
Current Music: Bim Sherman - Down in Jamaica
Work - 6-Finish. Friday night, not likely to be before midnight.
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Jan 18 15:19:50 2002 GMT ]--
From: IDon'tGiveAFlyingFartIfI'mAFreak,DoYou?? (phil-99)
Subject: YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Black Eyed Peas Featuring Macy Gray
Request Line
Chooooooooooooooooooooooooon!
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Jan 19 03:27:59 2002 GMT ]--
From: IDon'tGiveAFlyingFartIfI'mAFreak,DoYou?? (phil-99)
Subject: The deed is done.
I am now in my notice period. 2 weeks and I shall be unemployed.
All I need now is time to find another job, or at least visit some
agencies and hope they have soemthing vaguely suitable!
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Jan 19 04:43:43 2002 GMT ]--
From: IDon'tGiveAFlyingFartIfI'mAFreak,DoYou?? (phil-99)
Subject: Two downloads recently. In fact three, once my latest one is taken
into considerations. Talking musical downloads here.
Rammstein - Du Hast.mp3
Daft Punk - Aerodynamic.mp3
Aimals - House of the Rising Sun.mp3
For the third one, I have clarabel to blame. She asked me who sang the
original chart version, and the tune just implanted itself in my head.
I also downloaded "Follow Me", by Unkle kracker, which is just such a laid
back, chilled out tune, nobody should be able to resist it's charms :)
Following this, I'm in the process of getting "Better Days" by the same artist,
I hope it's as good, and Kazaa's preview says "YES" :-)
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Jan 19 04:59:56 2002 GMT ]--
From: IDon'tGiveAFlyingFartIfI'mAFreak,DoYou?? (phil-99)
Subject: I have discovered why one doesn't buy cheap recordable CDs...
Low speed burning :(
4x? Jeez... 10 minutes for one 40 minute MP3....
I want to listen to it as I go to sleep, Damnit!
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Jan 20 03:37:55 2002 GMT ]--
From: IDon'tGiveAFlyingFartIfI'mAFreak,DoYou?? (phil-99)
Subject: Argh, why is nobody interesting online? :(
I want people to talk wiv....
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Jan 21 02:27:54 2002 GMT ]--
From: IDon'tGiveAFlyingFartIfI'mAFreak,DoYou?? (phil-99)
Subject: *hugs everyone*
Yes, even you.
I need a drink...
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Jan 21 15:57:33 2002 GMT ]--
From: IDon'tGiveAFlyingFartIfI'mAFreak,DoYou?? (phil-99)
Subject: *sighs* This is ridiculous. A few words can make me feel like this?
I would be fine with it if I was told it in person though. I know.
This is what's so damn frustrating. It's not even as if it's something I have
any right to think or feel.
I think it's just that I'm missing everybody. My last contact with
anybody outside of work was... uhhm. Last week? Not that long in real terms
but it feels like forever. Especially as I ain't got any serious amount of
time off until next week now.
Note to all MancSpods and all LivSpods that I know - miss y'all. Come
to Glasgow? :)
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Jan 21 16:20:36 2002 GMT ]--
From: IDon'tGiveAFlyingFartIfI'mAFreak,DoYou?? (phil-99)
Subject: Feck :(
Work... 5pm.
Please, someone do it for me?
It's been getting incredibly hard to make the effort.
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Jan 22 00:53:07 2002 GMT ]--
From: IDon'tGiveAFlyingFartIfI'mAFreak,DoYou?? (phil-99)
Subject: So...
I know _why_ I'm down, why can't I persuade myself that it's nothing
to worry about, and it'll sort itself out? Because that's what being down is
all about - of course! I guess I just need to find someone or a group of folk
I can wibble at more often.
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Jan 22 02:02:02 2002 GMT ]--
From: IDon'tGiveAFlyingFartIfI'mAFreak,DoYou?? (phil-99)
Subject: EXPERIENCE
Fuck experience. Let it die in the alley, spit on it as you pass by
and tread on it, giving narrie a thought to it as it lies there
struggling.
After all, it does the same to you, if you don't have a piece of it.
Guess who's been looking at the job-seekers websites again?
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Jan 22 02:05:09 2002 GMT ]--
From: IDon'tGiveAFlyingFartIfI'mAFreak,DoYou?? (phil-99)
Subject: Random lyrics snippet.
<MONO-CUT TEXT="Random Lyrics, Just Ignore">
What is my soul
Where is my tired heart
That is the question
Where is the answer
[...]
And I sit by the window
And I wish I was rain
I want to fall from the sky
I want to get wet all over again
</MONO-CUT>
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Jan 22 15:56:09 2002 GMT ]--
From: IDon'tGiveAFlyingFartIfI'mAFreak,DoYou?? (phil-99)
Subject: *** System Message ***
Rant Over
*** System Message ***
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Jan 23 03:48:32 2002 GMT ]--
From: IDon'tGiveAFlyingFartIfI'mAFreak,DoYou?? (phil-99)
Subject: I spent today in Glasgow, and at work.
Went to a couple of agencies in Glasgow and realised I forgot my CV,
d'oh! My printer's packed up, to - so might have to resort to clever tricks
involving network cabling to use my dad's printer.
Nothing came from the visits, neither had specialised IT departments,
but one of them gave me contact details of places which do, so that is my plan
for tommorrow morning.
Also got details of a couple of houses, but I'm not entirely sure that
I'll be able to buy for a fair few months (more?) yet :) So I'll keep on
looking.
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Jan 23 03:58:14 2002 GMT ]--
From: IDon'tGiveAFlyingFartIfI'mAFreak,DoYou?? (phil-99)
Subject: Sat with Hannah after work and talked...
About her relationship with Don. She's done what everybody always
says is the worst thing you can do - she's met a sailor 6 years older than her,
and fallen madly and ragingly in love with him, in less than 2 weeks.
Well, she doesn't admit it in those words, but I'm fairly sure it's an
accurate assessment :)
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Jan 24 20:09:18 2002 GMT ]--
From: IDon'tGiveAFlyingFartIfI'mAFreak,DoYou?? (phil-99)
Subject: Superb two days.
Lots of interesting experiences.
One new toy.
Lots of weird stuff happening in my head.
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Jan 24 20:12:58 2002 GMT ]--
From: IDon'tGiveAFlyingFartIfI'mAFreak,DoYou?? (phil-99)
Subject: Also a nasty letter from Solicitors on Behalf of BT...
Oh dear...
Just as I got my overdraught reduced down to a semi-sensible level...
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Jan 27 17:13:26 2002 GMT ]--
From: IDon'tGiveAFlyingFartIfI'mAFreak,DoYou?? (phil-99)
Subject: *hugs to everyone*
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Jan 30 10:50:02 2002 GMT ]--
From: IDon'tGiveAFlyingFartIfI'mAFreak,DoYou?? (phil-99)
Subject: hmmmmm, Steak!
When is the best time to eat steak? Nice huge portions of meat with
freshly cut and cooked chips? And pepper sauce? Some of you would no doubt
say tea-time, or dinner-time. An evening meal. Not, some might imagine,
breakfast...
Well, technically it wasn't breakfast, because we hadn't been to
sleep, but steak at 6am is very good :) Needed to be a touch rarer for my
taste, but it was still damn good. Mind you, at 6am who is perfect anyhow?
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Jan 30 15:37:00 2002 GMT ]--
From: IDon'tGiveAFlyingFartIfI'mAFreak,DoYou?? (phil-99)
Subject: I should really add, ofc - that I was the steak chef :)
Funeral (Wake) today at work - 100 folk, but it wasn't bad. Lunchtime
was a little dead, so got out early. Back in at 5 though, which absolutely
sucks.
So far today - I have:
o Paid off BT, so they are no longer going to send me threats :)
o Registered my new (well, newest) Barclaycard with net banking
(again)
o Gotten addresses of employment agencies in Glasgow.
o Tidied my room, and am about to put on some washing.
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Jan 31 02:34:05 2002 GMT ]--
From: IDon'tGiveAFlyingFartIfI'mAFreak,DoYou?? (phil-99)
Subject: One problem with Late Night E4...
It's signed, i.e. - someone in the bottom right hand corner is
translating to sign language for me. Unfortunately, I ain't deaf - and you can
not turn it off :(
Just disturbing for a while.
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Jan 31 20:41:31 2002 GMT ]--
From: IDon'tGiveAFlyingFartIfI'mAFreak,DoYou?? (phil-99)
Subject: argh, at prestwick int airp, clare's flight delayed by 2hrs+, what to
do, what to do?
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Feb 5 20:48:45 2002 GMT ]--
From: IDon'tGiveAFlyingFartIfI'mAFreak,DoYou?? (phil-99)
Subject: Wow, I haven't spodded for this long?
You'd almost believe I've grown myself a life again. Yeah right.
So. My week. Thursday I went up to see Luce, and went to Prestwick
to meet Clare from her flight up from London. Ryanair being the cheap bastards
they are, delayed the flight by 2 and a half hrs. So the 8:30 flight I got to
the airport for, didn't arrive until 11:00. PM. *growls* So I spent lots of
time playing "Crazy Taxi" and spending time sat in the bar, reading "The Truth"
by Terry Pratchett (which is real good).
Last train out of Prestwick is 11:07, Clare arrived at about 11:05,
luggage at about 11:07, and we waited at the station for about 20 minutes,
praying it was late. For those of you who have ever been to Prestwick, you'll
realise just how far out of Glasgow it is when you see the 45min train journey
out of town. You also realise just how much it costs for a taxi back to
Glasgow. #30. As opposed to a fiver on the trani.
Smeg :(
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Feb 5 20:51:59 2002 GMT ]--
From: IDon'tGiveAFlyingFartIfI'mAFreak,DoYou?? (phil-99)
Subject: Stayed over Thursday night due to the lateness of the hour. Was
planning on getting back to Helensburgh on Friday for my last day of work, but
was extraordinarily skint that day, and the cash machines wouldn't give me any
cash. Whether work believed me or not I don't know.
So we spodded and didn't get up to much, IIRC... though my brain may
be failing me here.
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Feb 5 20:57:38 2002 GMT ]--
From: IDon'tGiveAFlyingFartIfI'mAFreak,DoYou?? (phil-99)
Subject: Ahhh, of course, I know what we did...
Neil (The man of a thousand volts) came over and bought lots of buffy
episodes on his hard drive, whence we sat and watched lots of Season 6,
including the musical episode! Which is fantastically fantastic. Fantabulous,
even.
Luce and I ended up playing Bishy Bashy until about 7:30am, eep.
Slept idiotically late and met spods in the Crystal Palace, then moved on into
the Cathouse, which was good fun. Bob, I think you and chicken would get on
well - he wears ludicrously small t-shirts too :)
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Feb 5 21:02:50 2002 GMT ]--
From: IDon'tGiveAFlyingFartIfI'mAFreak,DoYou?? (phil-99)
Subject: Sunday - met up with spods again for lunch. Needed some time on my
own, went home for a few hours, came back up to Clare's again - because it was
possibly the mot important sporting event of my annual calendar - The
Superbowl, yay!
Unfortunately I can't write too much about the game here, as Clare has
it videotaped (She's feeling uck and fell asleep) and hasn't watched it yet.
Damn.
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Feb 5 21:17:25 2002 GMT ]--
From: IDon'tGiveAFlyingFartIfI'mAFreak,DoYou?? (phil-99)
Subject: As much as I love you guys - I ain't reading through a week's worth of
all your diaries - I just really can't be bothered. I have a stuffy head
again, and my nose hasn't stopped going "schnuffle" since, well... ages back.
But the head thing is the definite sign - I've got this cold back.
It'd best not be the same one I had before, or I'll be most unhappy.
*holds head in hands*
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Feb 5 21:40:34 2002 GMT ]--
From: IDon'tGiveAFlyingFartIfI'mAFreak,DoYou?? (phil-99)
Subject: At least 150 entries to go through on Livejournal, and that is with a
cut down version of my "Friends" list. *sighs* Too much hassle.
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Feb 6 16:35:20 2002 GMT ]--
From: Who do you Serve, and who do you Trust? (phil-99)
Subject: Slept 2am->3pm, with a small break for breakfast about 9am. Feeling
much better - head still stuffy, but better - not sore any more.
Watching Tucker. Tucker rocks.
Almost as much as Malcolm in the Middle.
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Feb 6 17:01:17 2002 GMT ]--
From: Who do you Serve, and who do you Trust? (phil-99)
Subject: Liverpool this weekend, then. Assuming that there are no objections.
Manchester soon after? Would be nice. Do people fancy meeting up?
Would be wonderful to see some of the bestest people ever :) I know that some
are busy over the weekend, but how about on Monday or Tuesday?
Must remember to take Buffy.....
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Feb 6 23:21:46 2002 GMT ]--
From: Who do you Serve, and who do you Trust? (phil-99)
Subject: Mystery payments gone from my bank accounts have been cleared up.
Nearly 100pounds gone out, 65 worth of loan repayments I didn't expect
for 18 months yet, and a 35pound "bill" to "Affinity Wireless" which has
recently been returned to me as "unpaid", thanks be.
Subject: Spod Diary Emulation: Stage 11
(Return to edit 1 and loop indefinitely)
Taken from Sbj's diary - can't remember the line numbers.
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Feb 7 02:25:39 2002 GMT ]--
From: Who do you Serve, and who do you Trust? (phil-99)
Subject: [MLNSBJ!][G][13054][RET]
:-)
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Feb 7 12:50:22 2002 GMT ]--
From: Who do you Serve, and who do you Trust? (phil-99)
Subject: Well, bully to me!
I called up Around Town Flats. I said "I was renting a house from you
last academic year, and I'm just wondering why, over 6 months on, I haven't got
my deposit back?" whence the nasty woman on the other end of the phone put me
on hold and told me when she came back, that there was a cheque waiting for me.
Whaaa? It's not like they didn't have my address!!!
Morons, fuckwits, sputumsuckers. NEVER rent a house from Around Town
Flats in Manchester, they're a bunch of incompetent apes who I'm sure put in
that PlanetRecruit ad for the Apes. After all, they'd be more intelligent than
the current staff.
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Feb 7 12:53:08 2002 GMT ]--
From: Who do you Serve, and who do you Trust? (phil-99)
Subject: On the bright side, I do now have a cheque for UKP#200 in the post.
Allegedly. I'll believe it when I see it.
That'll be a very nice wee bonus, however.
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Feb 7 15:52:49 2002 GMT ]--
From: Who do you Serve, and who do you Trust? (phil-99)
Subject: OK, so the bank can't move my payments back. Shit.
This means I have a _real_ incentive to get another job. I called
into Addeco today but I'm not sure how I came across as I had a sudden attack
of "head-go-fuzzy, throat-go-sore and be-unable-to-think-properly" syndrome.
I've been croaking at people all day - even Rachel commented last
night that I sounded different. Argh.
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Feb 12 23:38:01 2002 GMT ]--
From: Who do you Serve, and who do you Trust? (phil-99)
Subject: Good few days away. Had fun.
Have one nice bruise. Another not quite so impressive but still nice
one. Was just nice all round. Nice to see people and talk to people and
stuff.
I need beer.
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Feb 13 00:28:18 2002 GMT ]--
From: Who do you Serve, and who do you Trust? (phil-99)
Subject: Jeez, you pay for it, you expect it to be good.
I should know by now, I know.
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Feb 13 01:04:40 2002 GMT ]--
From: Who do you Serve, and who do you Trust? (phil-99)
Subject: Spent alot of the night talking with the most adorable lass ever, and
have arranged another meeting, yay! Spending time with her just makes my heart
flutter :)
The best thing is, she's local! YAY!
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Feb 14 07:43:21 2002 GMT ]--
From: Who do you Serve, and who do you Trust? (phil-99)
Subject: Tired.
A&E, interesting. See <MLNCLARABEL!> for full info.
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Feb 15 12:13:55 2002 GMT ]--
From: Who do you Serve, and who do you Trust? (phil-99)
Subject: Had a bad night last night. Sinuses played merry havoc with my head.
Went along to tesco's at 11:30pm to buy sudafed which helped. Hmmm, I found
Belgian Beer!!!! Kwak (omg!!!) and Orval (not drunk it yet). Heaven! All I
need is a Kwak glass :)
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Feb 15 16:34:49 2002 GMT ]--
From: Who do you Serve, and who do you Trust? (phil-99)
Subject: Oh, and just a reminder to Clare and Luce...
When I turn up next, I expect to find at least 2 bottles of beer and
half a packet of smokes - which is being generous as I know the packet only
had two or three taken from it! :)
Nerr!
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Feb 16 17:26:29 2002 GMT ]--
From: Who do you Serve, and who do you Trust? (phil-99)
Subject: Hmmmmm, Cathouse.
Was fun.
Roger(?) was cute. Jo(?) was very cute too.
Drank far too much.
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Feb 16 18:44:51 2002 GMT ]--
From: Who do you Serve, and who do you Trust? (phil-99)
Subject: OK my nose is really annoying me now.
It's not even like I'm stuffy. I just feel like my head's about to
explode, with gooey, very messy consequences. Having felt how my head feels, I
can imagine just what is in there, making me feel this sore.
I am watching Buffy, Musical episode. Unfortunately, (sorry Rach) the
damn tape ran out. My video lied and told me I had at least an hour left, when
it only had about 25minutes. Worth watching a second time, I guess - though it
was much better the 1st time round.
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Feb 17 00:05:31 2002 GMT ]--
From: Who do you Serve, and who do you Trust? (phil-99)
Subject: Argued with my mother tonight.
Looks like I'll be out even sooner than expected. Will be talking to
them tomorrow and asking them to sub me a month or two's rent so that I can get
out of this shithole of a town, and up to the bright lights of Glasgow.
That way I feel life will at least be slightly better :)
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Feb 17 00:55:38 2002 GMT ]--
From: Who do you Serve, and who do you Trust? (phil-99)
Subject: *sighs tiredly*
Should really sleep...
Really...
But there's beer in the fridge :)
And I'm starving.
I have Futurama...
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Feb 17 14:11:31 2002 GMT ]--
From: Who do you Serve, and who do you Trust? (phil-99)
Subject: Tidied my CDs last night.
I have yet to come up with a suitable filing system. I have an Ikea
CD rack, which consists of a 7' tall, 8-10" wide set of 10 shelves. I want to
keep all my CDs by one artist together, but also try to keep all "Various" CDs
that I have varying sets of together. I also want to do it by purchase date.
It's not gonna work :)
So I put them in the best that I could, gave up and tidied the rest of
my room - put clothes away in drawers and the like. Put a duvet cover on my
bed :) It's only been 2 months, or something like that.
This all at 3:00 am.
Still haven't managed to approach the subject of getting out of here
with my folks yet. See if I can do it when my mum gets back from work tonight.
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Feb 17 14:29:06 2002 GMT ]--
From: Who do you Serve, and who do you Trust? (phil-99)
Subject: I also have the problem that I own a disproportionate amount of CD
singles to the amount of CDs I own overall. I solved this problem a little way
by having a "Discgear CD Solutions" product - basically it's a big CD case
which holds 80 CDs and has a cool weee thingie that lets you choose which CD
you want to pull out. Comes with software to print off a label listing all
the CDs in it..
But that still leaves me with *rough guess* 100 singles stacked around
the place that just get in the way. One day I shall record them all to Mp3s,
in fact, maybe that should be my project? :) Well - waste of time, anyhow.
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Feb 17 14:33:41 2002 GMT ]--
From: Who do you Serve, and who do you Trust? (phil-99)
Subject: Speaking of CDs, I found my Beautiful Freak CD last night, yay!
I put the box in my bag the other day to listen to it on the train,
only to find when I went to listen, that the CD wasn't there! *grumps* For
some reason, it'd worked it's way into one of my _other_ CD cases full of
random shite with no boxes. I bet it was my parents, they have a habit of
doing things like that. Like losing a month's worth of payslips, which they'd
moved somewhere "out the way".
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Feb 19 14:15:59 2002 GMT ]--
From: Who do you Serve, and who do you Trust? (phil-99)
Subject: Well, the idea has been planted...
Mentioned to mum "You know I've been looking for a place in Glasgow,
but without a job..." (the elipsis was there in my sentence too *g*). No
response, but possibly...
On another happy note.
AGENCIES!
This one, I like!
tmp.melville craig (http://www.eresourcing.tmp.com/)
I have an interview. Tuesday, 10am (ugh) for Snowdrop Systems. I'm
still not entirely sure what the job is all about, but right now... do you see
me caring? The product is fairly boring: Human Resources software - so payroll
and Personell management. But apparently there is some hardware stuff too, so
what this is I ain't too sure. Perhaps they do total solutions, and supply and
suuport computers and networks for them?
Anyhow, I'll find out for sure on Friday - when I call into
tmp.melville craig (how it's written on their cards) and have a wee chat about
the job. I cannie wait!
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Feb 19 14:22:28 2002 GMT ]--
From: Who do you Serve, and who do you Trust? (phil-99)
Subject: I went to see Ocean's Eleven with Luce Sunday night.
Sunday afternoon I was sat around being bored, with only my ironing to
do, and I just decided to go to the cinema. It's not, all in all, a bad film.
It is, however, a fairly typical (casino) heist movie. If there's two things
that made the film good for me, they'd be:
o The all star cast. George Clooney and Brad Pitt lead off with supporting
cast doing a superb job. Julia Roberts is looking old these days. Matt
Damon, who is one of my favourite actors, plays an excellent character.
o Humour. Unlike many heist movies, this one has a real sense of humour about
itself. Lots of things go wrong (with humourous effect), lots of snide
jokes and comments made within the gang of eleven (surprising?).
Unfortunately, that ending really must drag my rating of the entire
film down at least 2 stars. You've got your money, now whaddaya do with it?
Does Benedict not try to come after you? And why does he always get the girl??
(*******---) (7/10)
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Feb 20 00:22:17 2002 GMT ]--
From: Who do you Serve, and who do you Trust? (phil-99)
Subject: Should I try to beat my LTO? Hmmmmm. Wouldn't be a late night, but
can I be arsed to stay on that long?
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Feb 20 01:16:53 2002 GMT ]--
From: Who do you Serve, and who do you Trust? (phil-99)
Subject: My LTO quest is over :(
Electron died and booted me off...
*sighs* Let's see if it comes back up, however. All is not lost!
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Feb 20 01:20:36 2002 GMT ]--
From: Who do you Serve, and who do you Trust? (phil-99)
Subject: All is saved! YAY!
Electron started taking connections again *beams*
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Feb 20 14:09:17 2002 GMT ]--
From: Who do you Serve, and who do you Trust? (phil-99)
Subject: Watched Pulp Fiction for the first time in a long time last night :)
Forgot how lonig it was, so it was 3:30 before I go to bed. Cue a 1pm
wake up - erk! So, time to get ready for the world - my mission, should I
choose to accept it, is to stop spending money and make sure I have enough to
pay for this month's bills. Lessee, mobile phone, onDig (Which I might get rid
of soon anyhow) internet, grad loan payments, and Barclaycard, ofc.
Those 5 payments... mob: 20(ish), grad loan (65), OnDig (20ish), net
(15) and Barclaycard (15 mininum)... #135. Eeek, this is gonna be close this
month :( Even after having them up my limit like the nice people they were.
Shit?
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Feb 20 15:49:07 2002 GMT ]--
From: Who do you Serve, and who do you Trust? (phil-99)
Subject: Well, I found out today just how nice certain companies can be when
you've been with them for the minimum term :)
I called up ITVDig to cancel that - after all, my parents have it, I
just kept it because it's a nice thing to be able to watch what you want
instead of having to watch UK Horizons/Style and be Lawerence Llwelyn Bowen'ed
to death :)
So I explain to the guy at the "Customer Liason" department, that I
won't be able to afford it after this month. After enquiring as to whether
this was a permanent thing or just temporary, to which I replied "Don't know",
he offered to waive my fees for this upcoming month (14th March-14th April).
So I'm getting ITV Digital free for this month. Nice.
Still gonna be skint :) My actual finances are worse than I expected,
eep. I really have to pray that I get this job!
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Feb 20 18:13:04 2002 GMT ]--
From: Who do you Serve, and who do you Trust? (phil-99)
Subject: Fave Diaries
I have 32 Fave readers, but at least ten of these don't log onto Mono often
these days, if at all. It still amazes me that this many people are interested
enough to read me :)
Though looking through the list, I think all of these people are folk that I
know in real life. Which is fairly true for my fave list - I Think almost all
of you are folk that I have at least met.
Almost :)
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Feb 20 19:41:57 2002 GMT ]--
From: Who do you Serve, and who do you Trust? (phil-99)
Subject: *Frantically copies stuff from disk to CD*
Blimey O'Reilly, how much crap do I have??
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Feb 20 22:28:20 2002 GMT ]--
From: Who do you Serve, and who do you Trust? (phil-99)
Subject: Oooooo, spodding from XP
Not entirely sure how much I like this. It's almost like being
wrapped up in cotton wool and then thrown into an NT installation :) I mean,
everything looks like it was designed to be as easy as possible to use, and
some of it has ended up slightly gaudy. Though it seems to work, which is the
main point, I guess!
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Feb 20 23:23:52 2002 GMT ]--
From: Who do you Serve, and who do you Trust? (phil-99)
Subject: *misses people*
Everybody come to Glasgow. Preferably to Helensburgh so that I don't
have to spend any money to see you :) *grins*
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Feb 21 12:05:01 2002 GMT ]--
From: Who do you Serve, and who do you Trust? (phil-99)
Subject: *growls*
Chalkface is being funny... I am online, but I can't check my emails.
Having just installed XP, I need to set up al lmy accounts today, obviously.
So I can check my chalkface mail on the web, but not through Outlook using the
identical user/pass combo? Wtf?
Not funny...
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Feb 21 14:16:00 2002 GMT ]--
From: Who do you Serve, and who do you Trust? (phil-99)
Subject: Yes it's 14:15 and I'm sat in my dressing gown, spodding again...
I forgot quite how boring being unemployed and skint was :-| It's
just so tempting to go out and spend spend spend. Rilly. So at least if I'm
spodding I'm not spending, I guess...
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Feb 21 14:54:20 2002 GMT ]--
From: Who do you Serve, and who do you Trust? (phil-99)
Subject: You can always tell when I'm bored, because I end up writing drivel in
here all day long. Oh wait, that's a normal day, innit? ;-)
Can't wait for mini-meet tmrw. As far as I know, Gav, Clare, Myself,
and Princess will be there. Will be nice to be not feeling shit so that I can
actually talk to Princess for a change :)
Oh, I forgot Ponder, how could anybody ever do that? :)
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Feb 21 15:09:06 2002 GMT ]--
From: Who do you Serve, and who do you Trust? (phil-99)
Subject: Clara says that Enigma rocks. Loud enigma, anyhow.
I would just like to redefine the meaning of "Rocks" to "sucks" :)
OTOH - Incubus, loud, rocks my world, in the conventional meaning. If
you never heard them, I ain't sure quite how to describe 'em. Sorta funk-rock?
Not sure.... anyhow. Go out, and buy their stuff!
Along with Fastball, ofc/.
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Feb 23 17:40:31 2002 GMT ]--
From: Who do you Serve, and who do you Trust? (phil-99)
Subject: Nice night last night. Was feeling a little iffy towards the end but
was really nice :) Have some odd photos of Laura at:
http://www.philsumner.co.uk/glasgow.22.02.2002/
Found a use for hairclips that I'd previously not known about!
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Feb 26 00:30:13 2002 GMT ]--
From: Who do you Serve, and who do you Trust? (phil-99)
Subject: Was dragged to a Ceilidh on Saturday night
I wasn't going to go, what with money being so tight, but with a pound
per ticket I was persuaded. Seeing as nobody ever asked Clare or myself for
money anyhow, that was a pound saved :)
It was only when we got to the meeting point that Clare said it was a
Roleplayer's event - at which point I was more than slightly apprehensive, I
mean I have never been involved with RPers ever, and had no idea what to
expect. (I mean never when they've been doing anything RP-ish, 'cuz I know
lots of people who have don/do it.)
Turns out that they were (mainly) really nice folk, the dancing was
fun and the drink was cheap Cheap Cheap :) Went back to someone's house and
had lots more drinks (thanks James!) and a game of "Never Ever", bad idea :)
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Feb 26 01:12:37 2002 GMT ]--
From: Who do you Serve, and who do you Trust? (phil-99)
Subject: I have an interview at uhhhm, 10am tomorrow.
I need to be in Glasgow by 9:30 to make sure I know where I am going.
Because the dappy woman who told me she'd sent me an email with
details in - never did. And then I spent the weekend away so never got the
chance to check through my inbox, and make sure of this. GRR!
Why can it never go easily, eh?
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Feb 26 02:53:59 2002 GMT ]--
From: Who do you Serve, and who do you Trust? (phil-99)
Subject: Goodnight, cruel world..
Goodnight Moon...
I want the sun
If it's not here soon
I might be done
No it won't be too soon
'til I say goodnight moon
Why do I keep on coming back to this?
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Feb 27 13:58:12 2002 GMT ]--
From: Who do you Serve, and who do you Trust? (phil-99)
Subject: So, Interview.
I turned up on the door of Snowdrop at 9:50, eager - yet not too
early. I announce myself and get some odd looks from the people working there.
They ask me to sit in a "private area" while they sort out something. I hear
muted whispers, and then Mark comes round and tells me that there's been a
mistake and this should be a phone interview. ARGH!
Luckily for me, he still asks me some questions, spends 25 minutes
talking to me and asking questions. I am glad that this mistake was made,
because frankly, this beats a telephone interview anyday, and makes me more
memorable than most of the other cadidates :)
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Feb 28 01:10:23 2002 GMT ]--
From: Who do you Serve, and who do you Trust? (phil-99)
Subject: I spent an awful lot of last night in a half-comatose state.
Most of it, in fact...
Glad I never had to go further than the local shops for food!
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Feb 28 01:12:10 2002 GMT ]--
From: Who do you Serve, and who do you Trust? (phil-99)
Subject: Indian with Laura, Steve, Clare, Luce and paul
Gorgeous food, one of the much better indians I have had in my time,
even the Korma had flavour! :) Only bad thing about the whole evening was that
Laura had said it would be a fiver...
Nuhhh, that was the Lunchtime price. Eveningtime? Around 11-12
pounds. Ah. When do we find this out? After we've already eaten everything.
*sighs*
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Feb 28 16:50:20 2002 GMT ]--
From: Who do you Serve, and who do you Trust? (phil-99)
Subject: Not that I wouldn't have spent that money in the pub, anyhow :)
It was just a bit of a shock *g*
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Feb 28 23:02:01 2002 GMT ]--
From: Who do you Serve, and who do you Trust? (phil-99)
Subject: *ponders*
Tomorrow is the day of reckoning, eh? Quite possibly, anyhow. I'm
not looking forward to it. I am in away, because I am fairly sure I'll have
a 2nd interview, but it's just one of these stupidly scary things...
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Mar 1 01:42:03 2002 GMT ]--
From: Who do you Serve, and who do you Trust? (phil-99)
Subject: Reading the Scotrail website:
In effect, ScotRail - in common with other TOCs - runs trains it doesn't
own, over track it doesn't own, into stations it doesn't own.
----------------------------
On Monday 18 February, ScotRail tabled a .last ditch. 16.5% offer that would
raise drivers. basic salary from 23,000 to 26,800. ScotRail was also
prepared to consider a 3% annual rise that would lift the salary to 28,400
within two years.
They demanded a 22% payrise, refused a 16% payrise, and then they're striking.
Bastards.
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Mar 4 00:27:40 2002 GMT ]--
From: Who do you Serve, and who do you Trust? (phil-99)
Subject: Sunday...
Right...
Well Friday I went over to see Luce and spent half the night playing
Final Fantasy. Slept until 1pm, got up, played Final Fantasy until 10pm, went
upstairs and watched some Futurama. Clare got back from Convention, with
friends and played games. They went to sleep at about 5am. Luce, John and I
played various games at her place until 10am - at which point Clare and friends
left for the con, and Luce and I died until 7pm.
Interesting weekend :)
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Mar 4 03:14:55 2002 GMT ]--
From: Who do you Serve, and who do you Trust? (phil-99)
Subject: Apparently - I'm real gamer material :)
After spending all night playing Catan (Settlers of, and Starship) I
have found that they can be fun :) Even if I'm still not entirely sure about
everything!
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Mar 4 20:56:48 2002 GMT ]--
From: Who do you Serve, and who do you Trust? (phil-99)
Subject: Wheee!
Settlers of Catan online!!!
Only problem being that XP didn't install Java VM by default, so had
to go out and find the damn thing. *grrr* 8mb d/l from Sun, from MS
it was only 5, so unfortunately, my principles went out the window :)
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Mar 5 00:58:36 2002 GMT ]--
From: Who do you Serve, and who do you Trust? (phil-99)
Subject: Fuck me I'm fed up...
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Mar 7 21:44:14 2002 GMT ]--
From: Who do you Serve, and who do you Trust? (phil-99)
Subject: BUFFY!
BUFFYBUFFYBUFFY!
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Mar 7 21:45:03 2002 GMT ]--
From: Who do you Serve, and who do you Trust? (phil-99)
Subject: BUFFFFFFFFYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!
Naked Buffy!
Naked Willow!!!
Nekkid Spike!!!!!!!!!!
*drools*
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Mar 9 13:24:19 2002 GMT ]--
From: Who do you Serve, and who do you Trust? (phil-99)
Subject: Will whoever is blowing up this baloon inside my head please FOAD.
It FUCKING HURTS!
Benadryl are my saviours... but only for a short time :(
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Mar 9 21:16:48 2002 GMT ]--
From: Who do you Serve, and who do you Trust? (phil-99)
Subject: I appear to have suddenly gained #250 from Six Continents Retail.
As some of you may recall, I worked for them. But I quit, uhhm. 6
weeks, 2 months ago? I got paid weekly. I wasn't paying tax. My holiday pay
came on my last pay statement.
I am very very confused...
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Mar 9 23:53:47 2002 GMT ]--
From: Who do you Serve, and who do you Trust? (phil-99)
Subject: But also very happy.
As I got a letter from the bank (Loan and non-loan depts) saying
"You're skint, you are now in arrears, as your loan payment bounced", which is
really weird, considering I deposited #190 into my account either on the same
day as, or the day before, the payment was due.
Anyhow, no matter, because they charged me #25 for the privelege.
TWENTY-FIVE FUCKING POUNDS!
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Mar 10 00:17:49 2002 GMT ]--
From: AssignOurselvesToTheHorrorsOfOurTeachers (phil-99)
Subject: Current Nameline
Stolen from a poem. I liked Nancyboy's nameline ("Afraid to wake", or
similar) and was going simply to have mine as "afraid to sleep". But - I like
to have 40 character namelines, and I wanted to make it a little more obscure
than that :-)
So, the first person to come up with the poem this line is from...
Well, you'll get something, not sure what...
(Though having just google searched for it, it's too easy...)
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Mar 10 02:10:42 2002 GMT ]--
From: AssignOurselvesToTheHorrorsOfOurTeachers (phil-99)
Subject: Damnit I'm starving...
I'll be going tomorrow to provide as much support as possible...
though Phil + offering support isn't the best combination in the world. I'm
far too inexperienced with it all to have a clue.
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Mar 13 00:08:46 2002 GMT ]--
From: AssignOurselvesToTheHorrorsOfOurTeachers (phil-99)
Subject: Fucked-up-sleeping-patterns'r'us
Up frmo midday Monday through 'till Midday Tuesday. OK I slept on the
train, and was woken up as we pulled into Helensburgh by some random old woman.
I don't remember the journey at all.
Then slept from 12-10:30pm, erk.
So, I am now drinking beer in an attempt to tell my body that sleep is
necessary! It's not working though.
Been invited out clubbing tomorrow. Might go, would love to, but am
feeling really quite pants recently, what with my nose being crap, and
developing some kind of horrid chest infection... *coughs chestily, just to
prove it*
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Mar 13 13:54:55 2002 GMT ]--
From: AssignOurselvesToTheHorrorsOfOurTeachers (phil-99)
Subject: Club Trop and Chesney Hawkes. Was an experience. I've only ever seen
the Academy (club T) that busy once before, and that was Fresher's Week in my
first year. Chesney wasn't bad, he came on stage at midnight, played for a
half-hour, lots of covers and a couple of original songs. His voice was good,
but nothing special...
Sat in the Hogshead with Bob, Nige, Dunc, Alan, Caroline, Andrew,
Plissken and David (I think that's everyone!) and drank silly amounts. Played
in Pub Quiz and didn't do half-bad, coming in about 3rd (OK, lots of teams got
equal first + second, unfortunately).
Saw Rachel the day after, was nice. She's so lovely and purty and
gorgeous :) Didn't do anything particularly exciting but was just nice to be
there.
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Mar 13 14:17:56 2002 GMT ]--
From: AssignOurselvesToTheHorrorsOfOurTeachers (phil-99)
Subject: May as well go out tonight, eh?
I'm all snotty, but at least the baloon seems to have burst. Never
went to the docs, will make sure I go if it gets bad again, however. Must call
up Barclays Credit today and persuade them that they can take money off me, and
that I am not in arrears. Grrr. Must go and try to persuade the Bank that
they don't want to charge me #25 for the privelege of telling me this.
It's all getting rather confusing, what with Barclays Personal Credit
and Barclays Bank both being referred to as Barclays :) But I know what i
mean, honest guv'nor.
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Mar 13 15:09:34 2002 GMT ]--
From: AssignOurselvesToTheHorrorsOfOurTeachers (phil-99)
Subject: BoreBoreBoredBoredBORED!
Mum should be back from work sometime soon. To bore me sillier than I
already am. Damnit. Not that I don't like the family... but ya know.
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Mar 13 23:23:03 2002 GMT ]--
From: AssignOurselvesToTheHorrorsOfOurTeachers (phil-99)
Subject: Taxi companies have now reached new heights of idiocy.
I was going to catch the last Helensburgh->Glasgow train, 2318 from
Helensburgh Upper. So I called the taxi company at 2300, and they told me 5
minutes. 2315 I hear the train pulling into the station. It's only a few
minutes drive away, but a good 20minute walk.
Call the taxi company, only to be told that they couldn't find my
house. IT ISN'T HARD! Number One. It has to be one of two ends... plus I was
waiting outside one of those ends. HOW HARD IS IT? The lass on the phone
was tewwibly tewwibly apologetic, but that doesn't mean I can get to Glasgow
now.
Fuckwits!
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Mar 14 01:03:57 2002 GMT ]--
From: AssignOurselvesToTheHorrorsOfOurTeachers (phil-99)
Subject: Settlers of Catan Online ( http://settlers.cs.northwestern.edu/ )
* phil-99 has won the game with 10 points.
* phil-99 has a Capitol (+1VP)
Muhahahhaaaaaaa!! I beat the bots!!! YAY!
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Mar 14 01:31:32 2002 GMT ]--
From: AssignOurselvesToTheHorrorsOfOurTeachers (phil-99)
Subject: I bought what could possibly be the most absurd thing in my life.
Ever.
I bought a book. I bought a book that cost me UKP#50. The only
reason I bought a book for UKP#50 is that when he told me the price I was too
embarassed to have any reaction than to hand over my card. Ouch.
I will take it back tomorrow, and get my money back, I think. Because
however gorgeous it is ("The Illustrated Story of O", the story told in photos
and excerpts from the text), and however sexy it is, it isn't worth #50,
surely?
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Mar 14 03:48:53 2002 GMT ]--
From: AssignOurselvesToTheHorrorsOfOurTeachers (phil-99)
Subject: Though it is worth #25+P&P from Amazon :)
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Mar 14 04:56:39 2002 GMT ]--
From: AssignOurselvesToTheHorrorsOfOurTeachers (phil-99)
Subject: Sleep, is always a nice option.
Not necessary, however...
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Mar 14 11:26:11 2002 GMT ]--
From: AssignOurselvesToTheHorrorsOfOurTeachers (phil-99)
Subject: I now possess two full unlocked Nokia 3210s. How much can I flog this
one for, then? :) Considering my mum just gave me #50, I'm not gonna
charge my folks if they want one, however!
w00t!
Anyone got a Nokia phone they want unlocked? :)
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Mar 14 11:55:35 2002 GMT ]--
From: AssignOurselvesToTheHorrorsOfOurTeachers (phil-99)
Subject: Sleep was a nice option...
Until I was awoken at 10am by my adorable and lovely (grrrrr) mother.
What is it that parents don't understand about this whole sleep thing?
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Mar 14 23:30:43 2002 GMT ]--
From: AssignOurselvesToTheHorrorsOfOurTeachers (phil-99)
Subject: I was a VERY bad boy today.
Having just come into some money - I decided the best course of action
was of course to spend some of it. So I did. I spent some of it on a Gameboy
Advance. And Doom. I am bad. But I did get a student discount :-)
I'm bad *hangs head*
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Mar 15 00:43:48 2002 GMT ]--
From: AssignOurselvesToTheHorrorsOfOurTeachers (phil-99)
Subject: Jealousy is a bad thing, but there are some things that are here to
stay, I suppose. The only question is - how to keep it under control?
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Mar 15 00:45:50 2002 GMT ]--
From: AssignOurselvesToTheHorrorsOfOurTeachers (phil-99)
Subject: Ice Cream
http://www.livejournal.com/talkpost.bml?journal=phil99&itemid=135609
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Mar 15 03:36:50 2002 GMT ]--
From: AssignOurselvesToTheHorrorsOfOurTeachers (phil-99)
Subject: I'm gonna beat my LTO one of these days.
Not sure when...
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Mar 15 12:54:44 2002 GMT ]--
From: AssignOurselvesToTheHorrorsOfOurTeachers (phil-99)
Subject: So after i logged off last night, I went and played Doom for another
hour in bed. Erk. I really am enjoying that already :)
Need to take a visit to some second-hand game shops!
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Mar 15 19:35:16 2002 GMT ]--
From: AssignOurselvesToTheHorrorsOfOurTeachers (phil-99)
Subject: I have 2 more new games and a carry case :-|
I am so bad. But, I want this, and I CAN afford it, damnit. So
Golden Sun and MarioKart are mine! Muhahahaaa! I spent the entire train
journey home playing Golden Sun, and like it a lot. Just like Final Fatasy.
Luce, you know that means trouble, right? :) 41 minutes already :)
I'm bad.
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Mar 15 22:29:20 2002 GMT ]--
From: AssignOurselvesToTheHorrorsOfOurTeachers (phil-99)
Subject: I want to whine, I want to whinge, I want to sit and stamp my feet and
stick out my tongue and make farty noises at no-one in particular, but
I can't, and I won't. Why?
Partly because I don't know what I want to whinge about. Partly
because there is nobody to whinge at, and thirdly because I would feel
bad for doing it.
My mind sucks sometimes!
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Mar 18 15:44:23 2002 GMT ]--
From: AssignOurselvesToTheHorrorsOfOurTeachers (phil-99)
Subject: blech? Got to go home :)
I been bad...
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Mar 18 23:14:18 2002 GMT ]--
From: AssignOurselvesToTheHorrorsOfOurTeachers (phil-99)
Subject: It doesn't work, dmanit.
After spending nearly an hour clearing stuff out of my disk to make
space for 650Mb worth of Game, that clearly can't work from the CD, it
bombs out on me just before you start a mission.
UBISOFT, I HATE YOU!
I want to play Silent Hunter II, damnit.
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Mar 18 23:20:05 2002 GMT ]--
From: AssignOurselvesToTheHorrorsOfOurTeachers (phil-99)
Subject: To steal a line from the KLF (Like anyone's ever done that...)
"Fuck the Millenium" (One L? One M? Two of one and one of the other)
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Mar 18 23:30:38 2002 GMT ]--
From: AssignOurselvesToTheHorrorsOfOurTeachers (phil-99)
Subject: (According to m-w.com)
Suggestions for millenium:
1. millennium
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Mar 19 02:33:14 2002 GMT ]--
From: AssignOurselvesToTheHorrorsOfOurTeachers (phil-99)
Subject: I've been reduced to eating Barbecue and Prawn Cocktail crisps (not
mixed, ewww) whilst watching Eurotrash. How desperate am I? I can't make this
game work *sobs* Though I have spent another hour or two playing Golden Sun, it
just manages to suck you in so damn well...
I want Ice Cream.
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Mar 19 04:03:10 2002 GMT ]--
From: AssignOurselvesToTheHorrorsOfOurTeachers (phil-99)
Subject: Quite a fitting song to end my spod-night with.
" can't you see life's easy
if you consider things
from another point of view "
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Mar 19 12:37:30 2002 GMT ]--
From: AssignOurselvesToTheHorrorsOfOurTeachers (phil-99)
Subject: My mum woke me up at Midday.
WHAT is this obsession that my parents have? I go to sleep at 5am, I
will sleep late - I don't fucking well care if I'm "wasting a day", because
that's all I bloody well do ANYHOW!
Still no word from TMP Melville Craig. Not happy.
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Mar 19 14:03:27 2002 GMT ]--
From: AssignOurselvesToTheHorrorsOfOurTeachers (phil-99)
Subject: Is it just me, or does "The Life of Cranes" sound fascinating?
I mean it! I have a thing for Heavy Plant, I think it's fascinating.
Cranes, bulldozers, huge earth movers, pile drivers (oooo) and so on and so on
and whatever. Really, it's all good. (Radio 4)
15:45 Life Of Cranes
Craning Your Neck
Tower Cranes
Its a match made in heaven, almost. The key relationship between the
driver of the huge tower crane, and his banksman down below, who
issues instructions and guidance. Dylan Winter finds out what its
really like for those reclusive types who spend their lives in a tiny
cab suspended hundreds of feet above the construction site.
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Mar 19 17:04:34 2002 GMT ]--
From: AssignOurselvesToTheHorrorsOfOurTeachers (phil-99)
Subject: For all the people who watched Mullholland Drive the other night.
Go to:
http://makeashorterlink.com/?N2953174
Very interesting analysis - unfortunately my head's still spinning.
The most twisted thing that I noted - when Diane is organising the hit on her
Girlfriend, in the cafe, she sees a waitress named Betty. In the dream, when
Betty is in the cafe with Rita (Camille), she sees a waitress named Diane.
This makes more sense in my head :)
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Mar 19 20:16:32 2002 GMT ]--
From: AssignOurselvesToTheHorrorsOfOurTeachers (phil-99)
Subject: The world has gone insane tonight... Everybody and everywhere.
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Mar 20 16:21:31 2002 GMT ]--
From: AssignOurselvesToTheHorrorsOfOurTeachers (phil-99)
Subject: I am, I swear, going to break my LTO one day.
The problem being, that when I get to about 3hrs, I just can't be
arsed any more!
---------------------------------------------[ Thu Mar 21 15:28:44 2002 GMT ]--
From: AssignOurselvesToTheHorrorsOfOurTeachers (phil-99)
Subject: So, it turns out that I am now skint beyond belief. Over #100 at
Tesco in the last two weeks, argh. This is what you get...
Job now!
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Mar 22 15:54:59 2002 GMT ]--
From: AssignOurselvesToTheHorrorsOfOurTeachers (phil-99)
Subject: Any of you going to admit to having a mob number that starts +447890
and ends in 618?
Didn't think so...
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Mar 22 18:13:08 2002 GMT ]--
From: AssignOurselvesToTheHorrorsOfOurTeachers (phil-99)
Subject: Argh...
Silent Hunter II will not work on my computer no matter what I do. I
need to get Win98/ME on here and change my GFX card, grr. *sighs* Maybe I can
hide it on my Dad's? :) Muhahahahaa!
---------------------------------------------[ Fri Mar 22 22:27:04 2002 GMT ]--
From: AssignOurselvesToTheHorrorsOfOurTeachers (phil-99)
Subject: Well, I got Win98 on here. Just. Took me long enough. Now I have to
force WinXP to start up again. *groans* Still doesn't work, however. I only
just noticed that my GFX card is a 4MB one, whereas I need a 16MB one to be
able to play. D'oh.
And didn't I always say that "you'll never need a fancy GFX Card...".
I'll have to see if I can nab one from someone. Someone's gotta have
an old 16MB GFX card lying about that they don't need, eh? Someone... please?
:) I need this game *G*
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Mar 23 00:44:37 2002 GMT ]--
From: AssignOurselvesToTheHorrorsOfOurTeachers (phil-99)
Subject: Damn that was a hassle
Because the only wqay I could convince 98 to install on the drive I
wanted was to set it as an active partition (so it becomes C:) - it then became
a pain in the ARSE to set the WinXP/Win2K partition active again. Something
then fucked up with NTLDR, I have no idea what happenned, but it refused to
boot. One "reinstall" later (it didn't actually reinstall, just went through
the motions) it works. Thanks be.
Hmm.
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Mar 23 02:14:21 2002 GMT ]--
From: AssignOurselvesToTheHorrorsOfOurTeachers (phil-99)
Subject: Using the LJ Directory Search to look for local people.
(http://www.livejournal.com/directorysearch.bml)
Is this sad? :)
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Mar 23 13:02:46 2002 GMT ]--
From: AssignOurselvesToTheHorrorsOfOurTeachers (phil-99)
Subject: </geek_mode>
I have Pasties - Ginster's pasties. Yummy. I dread t othink how long
they've been in the freezer, but I don't care. Hmmmmmm. They're in the oven
now, and I really don't want to wait any longer. Scrummy.
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Mar 23 13:50:51 2002 GMT ]--
From: AssignOurselvesToTheHorrorsOfOurTeachers (phil-99)
Subject: And lo, Pasties were eaten. And Pasties were good. Even if I do have
half a plate of flakey, crumbly pastry left behind now :) This is one problem
with freezing pastry, it always comes out incredibly crumbly. Dead annoying!
Tonight I am babysitting. Oh joy. My dad is curently away at the
rugby (YAY!) (Go Scotland (yeah right, in which universe?)), my mum at work.
I need to do some laundry. Come on brain - give the body some enthusiasm!
I need to see if I can drag my mum to the train station today to get
my zonecard, as you can only buy them on Saturdays? I want to buy a month's
worth of travel, yet I can only buy it on a Saturday to be valid from Sunday
- Saturday (weekly)? That doesn't make sense! Why can't I buy it any day of
the month?
*shakes head* Scotrail.....
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Mar 23 15:29:42 2002 GMT ]--
From: AssignOurselvesToTheHorrorsOfOurTeachers (phil-99)
Subject: Feh, what do all these companies think they're doing, having their
"I'm skint" helplines closed on Saturday? How on earth are you supposed to let
them know if you work long weekday hours? Eh? Just because this is one of the
very few moments that I have the house and phone to myself I thought I'd give
people a shot, tell them that I'll do anything when I get a job, but right now
can't pay them shit...
Hmmmm.
Let's see - I can rid myself of 2 bills easily - mobile phone and
OnDig, but net is supposed to be a 12mth minimum term contract, and I really
don't want to get rid of it - it's a lifeline, ya know? That just leaves me
with graduate loan and Barclaycard - both of which I have to call and beg
forgiveness.
And that is my expense list in one easy lesson.
*sighs*
Must get down DSS Monday and see if by some miracle they will give me
money. I doubt it, but hey...
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Mar 23 21:35:20 2002 GMT ]--
From: AssignOurselvesToTheHorrorsOfOurTeachers (phil-99)
Subject: Downloading:
"ftp://ftp.mirror.ac.uk/sites/ftp.suse.com/pub/suse/i386/live-eval-7.3/liveeval
-7.3.iso"
Elapsed: 00:01:12 -- Remaining: 110:40:50 -- Speed: 0.09
Hmmmm, I don't think something is right here.
---------------------------------------------[ Sat Mar 23 21:38:07 2002 GMT ]--
From: AssignOurselvesToTheHorrorsOfOurTeachers (phil-99)
Subject: Ahhhah, speed now stood at 4.13
This is better.
Oh for ADSL or Cable.
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Mar 24 03:45:59 2002 GMT ]--
From: AssignOurselvesToTheHorrorsOfOurTeachers (phil-99)
Subject: A little while ago, I performed this search on Google:
"I'm Bored, what can I do?"
http://theRandomGame.com/
The first result is The Random Game. Now the Random Game is weird. Simple,
extraordinarily so - one of those kinds of games you would have written for
your programmable calculators when you were at school. You hit a button, and a
random number comes up. This is the added or subtracted to your total -
depending on whether it's higher (or equal to) or lower than 0.5. How simple
can it be? Yet I'm addicted already :)
Tetrinet has nothing on this...
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Mar 24 03:53:05 2002 GMT ]--
From: AssignOurselvesToTheHorrorsOfOurTeachers (phil-99)
Subject: Number Test Result ( http://similarminds.com/ )
----|-----|--------------------------------------------------------------------
type|score|summary
----|--------------------------------------------------------------------------
| |Nines are open minded optimists. They are able to see everyones
| |point of view, and have a natural desire for making peace.
9 | 20 |Consequently, they are skilled mediators. They often live by the 'go
| |along to get along' creed. However their openess to other people
| |can cause them to lose site of themselves and their own happiness
----|--------------------------------------------------------------------------
| |Fives are basically at some level estranged from the rest of the
| |world which forces them to build there own unique world perspective
5 | 19 |They like to analyze things and make sense of them (that is their
| |anchor), this makes them great inventors and philosphoers. The
| |immense inner world of fives can cause them to lose touch or
| |interest in reality
----|--------------------------------------------------------------------------
---------------------------------------------[ Sun Mar 24 03:58:22 2002 GMT ]--
From: AssignOurselvesToTheHorrorsOfOurTeachers (phil-99)
Subject: [G][57%]
Yummy edit and question about darkness...
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Mar 25 00:18:01 2002 GMT ]--
From: AssignOurselvesToTheHorrorsOfOurTeachers (phil-99)
Subject: Jobs
I've pretty much given up on getting anything career-wise for now,
there's nothing happening anywhere. Agencies are coming up blank, applications
are being either ignored or thrown straight in the bin.
So, due to the serious financial shit I'm in, I will have to get
another shitty job. By shitty I mean retails/temp/random-office. I've been in
Glasgow today looking round, gonna start with the two that take my fancy most:
HMV and Waterstones :) Borders is next on the list. But HMV - this actually
sounds like a really good retail job. I know someone who's just recently
started with them and he's really enjoying it.
I don't want to have to do this, but what choice do I have?
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Mar 25 00:21:15 2002 GMT ]--
From: AssignOurselvesToTheHorrorsOfOurTeachers (phil-99)
Subject: What I really want, is for the Government to give me money :)
That's not gonna happen, however...
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Mar 25 00:25:21 2002 GMT ]--
From: AssignOurselvesToTheHorrorsOfOurTeachers (phil-99)
Subject: Well, looking at the JSA website:
http://www.dss.gov.uk/lifeevent/benefits/jobseeker's_allowance.htm
It appears they might do! I need to get to the Jobcentre tomorrow and
find out for sure. (JC and SS office are same thing in H'burgh.) Huzzah! If
only I'd thought of this before :)
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Mar 25 02:38:54 2002 GMT ]--
From: AssignOurselvesToTheHorrorsOfOurTeachers (phil-99)
Subject: A conversation with someone I had on AIM
She's recently been blown off by someone who she thought she had a future with,
and I was just talking to her about it.
[02:20] PMSumner: :-) Well - what do YOU want to do?
[02:20] ********: i want to be loved.
[02:21] PMSumner: I was meaning about him, but that's a good enough answer :)
[02:21] ********: i want the attention he gave me - how he made me feel
[02:21] ********: im slefish
[02:21] PMSumner: *smiles*
[02:22] ********: i want to be cherished
[02:22] PMSumner: It's almost addictive, isn't it?
[02:22] ********: and desired
[02:23] PMSumner: Hey... ... (thinking)
[02:23] ********: ?
[02:23] PMSumner: (honest)
[02:23] ********: ?
[02:24] PMSumner: Oh I'm sorry, I just have a thought that I can't quite
get out. Can't quite find the words
[02:24] PMSumner: It's stuck somewhere between my ears
[02:24] ********: oh
[02:24] PMSumner: Are you scared of dying alone?
[02:25] ********: i like being independant but I want a connection - i
want someone to love and I want someone to love me - I dont want to be 60
and lonely, no
[02:26] PMSumner: ok... that makes sense... I guess :) It's jjust that I
don't see it the same way, so find it hard sometimes
[02:26] ********: i wanna crawl in bed right now, cuddle up to a large
male body and just snuggle till I sleep
[02:27] PMSumner: But someone will turn up who means it, who genuinely makes
you feel that way....
[02:28] ********: *soft kiss* thanks for listening to me, sweety. I'm
tired... i'll be at the airport waiting for you when you fly in someday ;-)
[02:28] *** ******** signed off at Mon Mar 25 02:28:15 2002.
I really don't understand that - why do people feel this need to be attatched?
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Mar 25 02:40:20 2002 GMT ]--
From: AssignOurselvesToTheHorrorsOfOurTeachers (phil-99)
Subject: I have a craving for munchies...
:(
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Mar 25 20:28:21 2002 GMT ]--
From: AssignOurselvesToTheHorrorsOfOurTeachers (phil-99)
Subject: So...
I today have made an appointment and got the forms to claim JSA (Job
Seeker's Allowance). I can't see any reason why I shouldn't get it, so
hopefully in a week or two I should get lots of backdated money...
---------------------------------------------[ Mon Mar 25 20:37:55 2002 GMT ]--
From: AssignOurselvesToTheHorrorsOfOurTeachers (phil-99)
Subject: Oh, and I bought GTA (+London Expansion) today.
A fiver :) YAY!
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Mar 26 14:13:55 2002 GMT ]--
From: AssignOurselvesToTheHorrorsOfOurTeachers (phil-99)
Subject: Phil's Finances, Part x
Because I really can't be bothered typing it out again, if you're at all
interested in how Barclaycard and Barclays Personal Credit acted towards me,
then look at:
http://www.livejournal.com/talkpost.bml?journal=phil99&itemid=139806
---------------------------------------------[ Tue Mar 26 22:33:15 2002 GMT ]--
From: AssignOurselvesToTheHorrorsOfOurTeachers (phil-99)
Subject: I've been bad again
I bought myself a new Gfx card - an NVidia Vanta 16Mb card. This is
the fanciest card I have ever had :) This means that I can now run Silent
Hunter II, whooooo! I've done training mission 1, the rest come later.
Everything works a bit better now, my TV Card Application doesn't
actually freeze up when I'm scrolling through webpages, and full screen mode
doesn't look as weird as it used to. Wheee.
I am bad :(
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Mar 27 01:53:05 2002 GMT ]--
From: AssignOurselvesToTheHorrorsOfOurTeachers (phil-99)
Subject: Currently downloading: X-Press 2 - Lazy
What a fabulous yet utterly cheesy tune! And who says Radio One never
play anything different? :) I'm pissed off though, I thought of a song that I
wanted, yet by the time I'd downloaded Kazaa I'd forgotten what it was, so this
will have to do!
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Mar 27 01:58:17 2002 GMT ]--
From: AssignOurselvesToTheHorrorsOfOurTeachers (phil-99)
Subject: Oh what I would give for a nice ADSL connection like they have in
Sighthill :) A half hour for a song to download? Feh! And that's at about
top speed! I guess it is a long version, though.
I really oughta get Tiny Personal Firewall installed on this machine.
Or at least on this partition. Got it on my Win2K part, but never got round to
putting it on here...considering the amount fo time I am online as well.
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Mar 27 02:00:58 2002 GMT ]--
From: AssignOurselvesToTheHorrorsOfOurTeachers (phil-99)
Subject: Sorry, not ADSL - cable. Thought I'd best mention that before I got
lynched by Clare.
Hmmm, preview of this song includes about 2 minutes of gumph. Beat
and filler, as I affectionately call them. Has to kick in sometime around now,
surely? Ahh, here we go, at the 2 min mark exactly. Just where my download
hasn't got to yet!
---------------------------------------------[ Wed Mar 27 13:24:35 2002 GMT ]--
From: AssignOurselvesToTheHorrorsOfOurTeachers (phil-99)
Subject: This Found in Cynnerth's LJ
And It Came to Pass ...
God populated the earth with broccoli and cauliflower and spinach and green and
yellow vegetables of all kinds, so Man and Woman would live long and healthy
lives.
And Satan created McDonald's. And McDonald's brought forth the 99-cent double
cheeseburger. And Satan said to Man, "You want fries with that?"
And Man said, "Super-size them." And Man gained pounds.
And God created the healthful yogurt, that Woman might keep her figure that Man
found so fair.
And Satan froze the yogurt, and he brought forth chocolate, nuts and brightly
colored sprinkle candy to put on the yogurt. And Woman gained pounds.
And God said, "Try my crispy fresh salad."
And Satan brought forth creamy dressings, bacon bits and shredded cheese. And
there was ice cream for dessert. And Woman gained pounds.
And God said, "I have sent your heart-healthy vegetables and olive oil with
which to cook them."
And Satan brought forth chicken-fried steak so big it needed its own platter.
And Man gained pounds, and his bad cholesterol went through the roof.
And God brought forth running shoes, and Man resolved to lose those extra
pounds.
And Satan brought forth cable TV with remote control so Man would not have to
toil to change channels between ESPN and ESPN2. And Man gained pounds.
And God said, "You're running up the score, Devil."
And God brought forth the potato, a vegetable naturally low in fat and brimming
with nutrition.
And Satan peeled off the healthful skin and sliced the starchy center into
chips and deep-fat fried them. And he created sour cream dip also.
And Man clutched his remote control and ate the potato chips swaddled in
cholesterol. And Satan saw and said, "It is good."
And Man went into cardiac arrest.
And God sighed and created quadruple bypass surgery.
And Satan created HMOs.